Zara HowardJust like Asher promised, Xena was here to meet me. But now that she was here, I didn't know what to say. In the most ideal situation, I would've loved to tell her everything. Vent to her about all the bone-chilling things I witnessed. How I saw the love of my life brutally torture a man and shoot him in the head without batting an eye.But right now, I am too scared to say anything because I am afraid I might accidentally slip up and say something I shouldn't have. Ugh. Keeping such a big thing from Xena is eating me up. "Zara, what is going on? You are freaking me out. You are being eerily silent and it is very unsettling." Xena asks, her voice laced with concern. I blink repeatedly, trying to snap out of my thoughts. I can feel my mind chanting Asher's words. Warning me to keep my mouth shut. Threatening me with the consequences of my actions. I gulp too scared to even think of the consequences. I groan internally when I recall how he made me promise that I will be
Zara HowardOnce Xena leaves, I head back to my room. I plonk onto the bed with my face flat on the mattress. Xena's words loom over my mind. 'I had no idea orgasms could hit so hard. The rough intensity. The grabbing and groping. The pleasurable pain.'I groan into the pillow as her words keep chanting in my brain. I feel the pressure building up in the pit of my stomach as I feel every ounce of self-control crumbles into bits.Sure, I have always admired Asher, his handsome face, his taunting smirk, his deep dimples, his husky voice, and his forest green eyes always gleaming with mischief.But it has taken every fibre of my being to not think of Asher too sexually. To not think of him while I touch myself. To not think of him when I read smutty romance books even if that meant I had to picture a faceless blob throughout the story. Because deep down, I know once I give in, I won't be able to stop. Asher can already see right through me. I can only imagine my plight if I let my filt
Zara HowardThere is nothing better than sneaking into the kitchen for some midnight ice cream. These are times I absolutely love the Lancaster household. They have everything and honestly, the best of everything at their disposal. I tiptoe out of my room towards the kitchen. I scoop out some ice cream for myself while I tried to remain as quiet as possible, considering it is almost 2 AM. Just when I turn around to head back to my room, I am startled by a very tired-looking Asher sitting at the counter, sipping on his signature whiskey. "Jeez, you scared me!" I whisper-scream as I place a hand on my heart. Asher just responded with a brief nod as he took another sip of his whiskey.I jump up a little and settle on the kitchen counter, with my legs lightly dangling. Everything in his house makes me feel like a dwarf. Considering how towering the Lancaster men are, most of the furniture is taller than usual. Asher continues to sit there in silence, twirling the ice in his glass, pro
Zara HowardAfter everything Asher told me last night, I'm left with a very hollow feeling in the pit of my stomach. As much as I appreciate him telling me the truth about the whole situation, I really don't know what to feel anymore. Knowing the real reason behind the whole arranged marriage arrangement and how it isn't some stupid boyish stubbornness makes my soft spot for him only grow further. I know how practical and realistic Asher is about a few things so I don't think anything is changing his mind about the marriage situation.But I can't help but let my mind linger back to all the times Asher has shown he cares, more than any man in my life ever did. There is never a question about whether or not he'll look out for me. He always does. Whether it was providing for my family after my stepfather was gone, whether it was taking care of our safety. He is letting me stay under his roof without expecting anything, for fuck's sake.I don't really know how that soft spot I have for
Zara Howard“Excuse me? I can do whatever the hell I want.” I clear my throat before looking straight into his eyes and challenging him. I guess I might be a little overconfident because Hector and Carter are in the next room and knowing Asher, he won’t try anything in their presence.“Sweetheart, I have got a lot of work to do, just go back to your room or go take a swim in the pool to entertain yourself but you cannot go to meet ‘this friend’.” He says the last words spitefully making me scrunch my eyebrows together.What is his problem?“I don’t understand. Everything was completely fine till the time I mentioned Caleb. You didn’t mind me going out if Hector accompanies me. But suddenly out of nowhere, you say no? And you expect me to listen. I don’t care what you think Mr Lancaster. This is a free country and I, Zara Howard, pledge-“ I start my moving speech but am rudely interrupted by Asher with his signature bored look.“I don’t owe you an explanation. My job is to keep you saf
Zara Howard"So, what's going on with you?" I ask, rolling my eyes as Scarlett giggles on the phone yet again. I had a feeling something romantic or sexual was happening between her and Xander. But with everything going on in my own life, I couldn't bring myself to be happy for her. Romance, in general, seemed annoying now.Sighing, I try to muster a genuine smile for Scarlett's happiness. "I'm genuinely glad things are going well for you, Scarlett," I say, my voice tinged with a mix of envy and frustration. "But honestly, romance and 'happily ever after' just seem like a big headache lately."As I glance at my cluttered desk, scattered with unfinished projects and unanswered emails, a wave of exhaustion washes over me. Life has been throwing curveballs at me left and right, and nothing seems to be going my way. The man I love is engaged to be married, and I'm forced to live in his house.Scarlett's laughter floats through the phone, a stark contrast to the heaviness in my heart. "I g
Zara Howard"No, absolutely not, Mom. You can't talk to Zara alone. There is no need," Asher states sternly, his voice filled with a mix of protectiveness and frustration. However, his mother ignores him, determined to have a private conversation with me. She links her arm with mine and starts leading me to the kitchen, where Mrs. Costanza, our housekeeper, is waiting."You were right. He was in her room," Sienna tells Mrs. Costanza, her voice carrying a hint of disapproval. Mrs. Costanza, on the other hand, flashes Asher a knowing look, as if she had suspected something all along."Of course, where would they be? They think I am old, so they believe I don't know what's going on with them," Mrs. Costanza remarks, her tone implying a mixture of amusement and understanding.As we enter the kitchen, I feel a sense of unease, surrounded by these two strong-willed women who seem to have insight into the complicated dynamics between Asher and me. I brace myself for the conversation that is
Asher Lancaster I find myself captivated by Zara's presence, yet she refuses to meet my gaze, her eyes fixated on the ground as if it holds the secrets to the universe. I start to speak, intending to address the issue with my mother, but she dismisses me with a wave of her hand, accompanied by a light-hearted laughter that barely masks the underlying sadness."I've become quite familiar with overbearing mothers," she quips, her tone carrying a hint of self-awareness. "No need to worry, Asher. I may have a reputation for having my head in the clouds, but I'm not delusional enough to believe that we could ever end up together." Her words are tinged with a mixture of humor and sadness, a facade she puts up to shield her unhappiness. Despite her playful demeanor, I can see the longing in her eyes.Previously, I brushed off Zara's crush on me as a typical schoolgirl infatuation, something that shouldn't be taken too seriously. However, as we've spent more time together, I've come to reali
Hey beautiful people, Just a warning. This book is an erotica, which means 18+, so if you are uncomfortable with sex and adult shit, please don’t read my books. But if you are a nymphomaniac like me, go ahead ;) Also guys, for the better understanding of the stories, I’d also like to give you the order in which the books should be read: 1)Nathaniel Lachlan 2)Aaron Riverwood 3)Landon Chambers 4) Emily Warner 5) Danika Williams Danika Williams Everyone in the room stared at me as I smashed the third glass on the ground in anger. I hadn’t had proper food for 2 days. My mom, who was a former Miss Universe, controlled my life since I was a child. Nine years ago, when I was only 18 years old, she wanted me to be Miss Universe too but I was the runner up, which angered my mom, so much so that she didn’t let me eat for 5 days as a punishment. People may think, just stop seeing her or block her out of your life. Yeah, easier said than done, right? But now, I am a successful model, and I am
Zara Howard After spending some time admiring the beautiful sunrise with Asher, we headed back to the resort, our hands still intertwined. As we entered the living area, I couldn't contain my excitement and happiness, and my gaze instinctively fell on my left hand, where the sparkling engagement ring now adorned my finger. It was a constant reminder of the beautiful moment Asher and I shared, and I couldn't stop smiling.I couldn’t believe Asher went out of his way to find the ring I wanted and got the exact same one.As we approached the others, Xena and Scarlett were the first to notice the ring. Their eyes widened, and they squealed with delight. "Oh my goodness, Zara! Is that what I think it is?" Xena exclaimed, unable to hide her excitement.I nodded, my heart still fluttering. "Yes, Asher proposed, and I said yes!"The room erupted in cheers and congratulations, and I felt overwhelmed by the love and support from our friends. Scarlett hugged me tightly, her eyes sparkling with
Asher Lancaster I couldn't tear my gaze away from her, sitting next to me, radiating beauty and warmth. Zara was everything I had ever yearned for, and the thought of a life without her seemed unfathomable. She brought colors to my world that I didn't know existed, filling my days with joy, love, and excitement.As much as I cherished her, I understood Zara's concerns about her mother accepting our relationship, given my family background. I didn't want anything to hinder our love, so I took matters into my own hands. The moment I knew I wanted to marry her, I sought help from Xena and Scarlett to arrange a meeting with her mother.The conversation was challenging, but I was determined to prove the authenticity of my feelings for Zara and my commitment to her happiness. After a heartfelt discussion, her mother finally gave her blessing, and a weight lifted off my shoulders. With her approval, I knew deep in my heart that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with Zara, and I was read
Zara Howard I woke up in Asher's bed, feeling a mix of euphoria and contentment. The memories of last night's passion flooded my mind, making me blush even in the solitude of the room. The enticing aroma of pancakes reached my nose, pulling me out of my reverie and reminding me of the delightful breakfast Asher must have ordered through room service.Unable to resist my hunger, I sat up with a smile and noticed the tray of pancakes waiting for me on the nearby table. It was as if Asher knew exactly what I needed after a night like that. I reached for a plate and eagerly dug into the fluffy goodness, savoring each delectable bite. I love maple syrup.Just as I was enjoying my breakfast, Asher emerged from the bathroom, clad in only a towel around his waist. The sight of him made my heart skip a beat, and I couldn't help but stare in awe at his captivating presence."Good morning, doll," he greeted me with a tender smile, his eyes filled with warmth."Morning," I replied, trying not to
Zara HowardI wanted to go back to Xena and pour my heart out, but I knew that wouldn't resolve the situation. Instead, I had to confront Asher and address the confusion between us. Why would he kiss me and spend so much time with me if he was engaged to Annika?With a deep breath to steady my nerves, I made my way back to our room, hoping to have a conversation with Asher and find some clarity. However, upon entering the room, I discovered it empty, and Annika was nowhere to be found. This only added to my frustration, as I wanted a chance to speak to Asher privately.Deciding to wait for his return, I felt a mix of anger and hurt building inside me. When Asher finally walked through the door, I couldn't contain my emotions any longer. "Asher, we need to talk!" I exclaimed, my voice filled with a mix of anger and sadness.He seemed surprised by my outburst, but he didn't shy away from the conversation. "Okay, Zara, what's going on?" he asked, trying to remain composed."Why did you k
Zara Howard As I walked back to the room that I was fairly certain Asher and I were sharing, I tried to process everything that had happened. Taking a deep breath, I reminded myself to take things slow with Asher, even though my impulsive nature urged me to dive in headfirst. I knew rushing into a serious commitment could jeopardize my dream of having kids before turning 30, and I wanted to avoid any potential regrets.Deep down, a nagging fear persisted. What if Asher eventually realized he didn't want a future with me? I didn't want to be blindsided after making lifelong commitments or having children together. It would be better to address any doubts or uncertainties now, even if it meant confronting my fears.Arriving at room 202, my heart pounded in my chest. I needed to talk to Asher, to share my thoughts about taking things slow. I knew I couldn't ignore these feelings any longer. What if he didn't share the same desire to take it slow? Would he understand my apprehensions?As
Zara HowardFiji was an absolute paradise, a destination that felt like it was straight out of a dream. As we landed, the sheer beauty of the island mesmerized me. Pristine white-sand beaches met turquoise waters that sparkled under the sunlight. The lush tropical vegetation that surrounded us emitted a sweet, fragrant scent, adding to the enchantment of Fiji. Here, time seemed to slow down, and all my worries faded away in this magical setting.Throughout our stay, Asher and I were practically inseparable. From the moment we left the flight and headed to the resort, walking hand in hand as others followed, to sharing laughter over inside jokes, we were constantly drawn to each other. The connection between us felt so effortless that I couldn't help but hold his hand or hug him without even realizing it. It seemed like an unspoken understanding that we were meant to be together, and I couldn't deny the undeniable chemistry between us.I knew that the trip organizers intentionally pair
Zara Howard As Asher and I settled into the cozy living room, I realized the need for a private conversation with Scarlett. I regretted not being more open with both Scarlett and Xena about everything that had happened—the proposal, my decision to decline, and even the incident with Caleb and Asher.In hindsight, I should have kept them informed about everything going on. I felt frustrated with myself for not communicating properly with them. While I was captivated watching the joyous couple in front of me, Asher tapped me on the shoulder, pulling me back to the present moment. Seeing Scarlett so happy with Xander made my heart swell with happiness for her. It's incredible how they found each other unexpectedly.As they playfully intertwined their hands, I contemplated how my life might have been different if I had said yes to Asher and let go of my insecurities. The thought lingered in my mind as Asher settled beside me on the couch, and I cherished the warmth of his presence."So,
Zara Howard "I can't believe you threatened my friend for no reason. You can't go around doing that, Asher," I scold him angrily as we make our way towards his mansion after a long day at the office."I didn't threaten him, I was just being honest with my feelings, and he got scared on his own," Asher defends himself innocently, but I see right through his act and continue to glare at him."Don't play innocent. You know exactly what you were doing. Let me make one thing clear, Asher Lancaster, if you ever threaten another friend of mine, you'll regret it," I warn him sternly, not willing to tolerate any more of his games. Surprisingly, he raises his hands in defeat, barely arguing with me."Alright, I'll keep that in mind. But for now, I have a surprise waiting for you inside," he says, trying to divert my attention, but I can't help but remain curious about what awaits me as he opens the main door.I take a moment to compose myself before facing whatever awaits inside. The evening s