SIENNA“Don't do this. Don't leave with him,” Sylvester said. I could hear the plea in his voice as his gaze traveled between Benjamin and I. His eyes darkened as they landed on Benjamin. I was convinced that any minute from now, he was going to murder Benjamin. I closed my eyes as the pounding in my head seemed to have gotten even more pronounced. My head was spinning and all I wanted to do was get out of this place.Maybe Clara could find her way home if she was so insistent on staying at this stupid party, anyway. As for me, there was no use in remaining here. This place had nothing to offer me. I had seen enough. More than enough, even, and maybe with time, I would learn to come to terms with the fact that we couldn't be together just like I hoped we would be. “You have to get it together,” I muttered to myself under my breath. “Sienna,” Sylvester called out my name again but this time, I was able to muster the courage not to look at him. I let Benjamin clutch my hand and guid
SIENNAI attempted to snap the door shut but couldn't because of how he immediately stuck his leg in the middle of the door. “Don't say that. You know that's not true,” he said calmly. “But it is,” I argued. “My mother left, Hailey left, he left and now you're doing the same. I don't know why I'm refusing to come to terms with the fact that I'm meant to be alone.” Immediately I said that, I ran my hands over my face and quickly turned away from him. If anything, I even felt angry with myself for letting myself feel this way. For letting my emotions get the better of me. For feeling myself crumbling to pieces. “I'm not going to leave you alone.” I felt him behind me. He was close enough that I could smell him. Somehow, the idea of him being so close was oddly reassuring. I gradually turned to face him. I was scared. Very scared. “I meant it. You're wrong. Yes, I was angry and to be honest, I still am, but that doesn't mean that I'm going to leave you alone,” he said. Somehow, I be
SIENNAEach slide of his fingers left me trembling. My body couldn't help but arch upwards as he trailed his fingers up my thighs. Nothing but gibberish escaped my mouth and I knew for the life of me that I wasn't exactly making sense. I shivered as he pressed a kiss against my inner thigh. My eyes fluttered close. I could feel myself floating high, and nothing could have prepared me for the feel of his lips against my core.The swipe of his tongue was warm against my wet heat. I inhaled and then exhaled. Nothing could prepare me for the intense burst of pleasure that traveled through me. My fingers became lost in his hair as I clutched it tightly, pulling slightly on some strands as I did so. For some reason, I was unable to let go. Somehow, the feel of his warm tongue against my heat was the only thing that was keeping me sane. I couldn't exactly think of anything else. I was breathless, and I was positive that I was going to explode very soon. “Ben.” His name left my mind in a so
SIENNA“You won't hate me tomorrow morning when I wake up?” he asked softly and I could finally recognize the vulnerability that was radiating through him. I wrapped my hands around him as if by doing that, I could protect him from myself. At least I would try to. “I won't,” I said softly.And I believed it. Or at least, I tried to. I didn’t want to always think about the consequences. I had thought about the consequences and yet I was still stupid enough to give Sylvester a second chance. I let myself believe that he loved me, which was quite stupid of me, considering the fact that he had hurt me before. So now, I didn’t think that the consequences were going to do me any good. I felt his soft breathing against my skin, and I watched him until l felt my eyes drooping as I drifted into a restless sleep. Tonight had been full of many surprises. ***When I woke up the next morning, I was tired and my body screamed at me out of exhaustion. I could barely move my body. My legs ached de
SIENNAMy heart raced frantically within my chest. When I looked down at my body, I heaved a sigh of relief because I could see that I was no longer bare. I had a shirt and a pair of shorts on. I closed my eyes and sighed. “How did you even get into my room?” I asked, raising an eyebrow at him. I was beyond exhausted, and I wasn't sure that I had the strength to argue. At least the thudding in my head had reduced to a minimal level and right now, I no longer felt the need to throw up. Hopefully, when I finally decided to have a meal, then I would eat and I really hoped that the food would stay down. “I can smell him all over you!” Sylvester growled and raised an eyebrow back at me. I noticed how his fists were clenched at the sides, and I could feel the intensity of the anger that radiated through him. A part of me wanted to be petty and say that he deserved whatever he was feeling. I was convinced that it was nothing compared to the way that I was feeling, though. I could feel th
SIENNAI stared at my reflection in the mirror, but I was not so sure that I would like what I saw. I closed my eyes and sighed as exhaustion threatened to weigh me down. That was all I had been feeling lately. That was all that had been taking over my life these days. My attention drifted away from me criticizing myself in the mirror and I turned away almost immediately. I heard a knock on the door and sighed with relief. These days I was looking for anything, anything at all, that could act as some sort of reprieve from my thoughts. They were suffocating me to the extent that I was convinced that it would be impossible to breathe. I thought about Benjamin and Sylvester too. I spent the whole day thinking about them and how best I could salvage the situation, or even the tension, and yet I came up with nothing. I had promised Benjamin that I wasn't going to regret it but like the coward that I was, and had always been, I was running away. It was the only thing that I could think
SIENNASo many emotions coursed through me that I didn't know which exact one to pinpoint, and they overwhelmed me so much that I couldn't even come up with the right word to say that would have made sense at this moment. I was breathless and speechless at the same time. My palms were clammy with sweat and I could feel a fluttering sensation in my stomach. It wasn't as intense as when I was with Sylvester but I couldn't just ignore the fact that it was there. It was there and I couldn't do anything about it.“So how long were you planning on putting yourself through the torture of being locked inside your room?” he asked, smiling slightly as he raised a brow at me. He was right. I couldn't stay in my room for long. The thought of not occupying my mind with something had made me almost go crazy and yet I did it just so that I could avoid him. I did it just so that I could avoid Sylvester too.“Don't do that,” I said, narrowing my eyes at him.“Don't do what?” he questioned, shooting
SIENNAI don't know if it was because of the rage or all the malice that I kept bottled up within my chest – I was still holding the card in my hand and it felt so weighty – but I was almost tempted to do something irrational, maybe drag her by the hair as she was about to walk in but I just decided against it as I was painfully reminded of Benjamin's presence. So I closed my eyes, just for a short moment to at least calm down my racing nerves. The anger I was currently feeling could be termed as unhealthy and the last thing I wanted to feel was that anger. I didn't want to feel angry at all. If it could even be possible, I didn't want to feel anything at all.“Bitch,” I muttered under my breath. “I don't mean to be disrespectful towards women but on this, I agree a hundred percent,” Benjamin drawled and his reply made a very small smile come to my face. “I don't think we should go to the garden anymore. I think we should do something else instead,” he suggested but he seemed almost