SIENNAEach slide of his fingers left me trembling. My body couldn't help but arch upwards as he trailed his fingers up my thighs. Nothing but gibberish escaped my mouth and I knew for the life of me that I wasn't exactly making sense. I shivered as he pressed a kiss against my inner thigh. My eyes fluttered close. I could feel myself floating high, and nothing could have prepared me for the feel of his lips against my core.The swipe of his tongue was warm against my wet heat. I inhaled and then exhaled. Nothing could prepare me for the intense burst of pleasure that traveled through me. My fingers became lost in his hair as I clutched it tightly, pulling slightly on some strands as I did so. For some reason, I was unable to let go. Somehow, the feel of his warm tongue against my heat was the only thing that was keeping me sane. I couldn't exactly think of anything else. I was breathless, and I was positive that I was going to explode very soon. “Ben.” His name left my mind in a so
SIENNA“You won't hate me tomorrow morning when I wake up?” he asked softly and I could finally recognize the vulnerability that was radiating through him. I wrapped my hands around him as if by doing that, I could protect him from myself. At least I would try to. “I won't,” I said softly.And I believed it. Or at least, I tried to. I didn’t want to always think about the consequences. I had thought about the consequences and yet I was still stupid enough to give Sylvester a second chance. I let myself believe that he loved me, which was quite stupid of me, considering the fact that he had hurt me before. So now, I didn’t think that the consequences were going to do me any good. I felt his soft breathing against my skin, and I watched him until l felt my eyes drooping as I drifted into a restless sleep. Tonight had been full of many surprises. ***When I woke up the next morning, I was tired and my body screamed at me out of exhaustion. I could barely move my body. My legs ached de
SIENNAMy heart raced frantically within my chest. When I looked down at my body, I heaved a sigh of relief because I could see that I was no longer bare. I had a shirt and a pair of shorts on. I closed my eyes and sighed. “How did you even get into my room?” I asked, raising an eyebrow at him. I was beyond exhausted, and I wasn't sure that I had the strength to argue. At least the thudding in my head had reduced to a minimal level and right now, I no longer felt the need to throw up. Hopefully, when I finally decided to have a meal, then I would eat and I really hoped that the food would stay down. “I can smell him all over you!” Sylvester growled and raised an eyebrow back at me. I noticed how his fists were clenched at the sides, and I could feel the intensity of the anger that radiated through him. A part of me wanted to be petty and say that he deserved whatever he was feeling. I was convinced that it was nothing compared to the way that I was feeling, though. I could feel th
SIENNAI stared at my reflection in the mirror, but I was not so sure that I would like what I saw. I closed my eyes and sighed as exhaustion threatened to weigh me down. That was all I had been feeling lately. That was all that had been taking over my life these days. My attention drifted away from me criticizing myself in the mirror and I turned away almost immediately. I heard a knock on the door and sighed with relief. These days I was looking for anything, anything at all, that could act as some sort of reprieve from my thoughts. They were suffocating me to the extent that I was convinced that it would be impossible to breathe. I thought about Benjamin and Sylvester too. I spent the whole day thinking about them and how best I could salvage the situation, or even the tension, and yet I came up with nothing. I had promised Benjamin that I wasn't going to regret it but like the coward that I was, and had always been, I was running away. It was the only thing that I could think
SIENNASo many emotions coursed through me that I didn't know which exact one to pinpoint, and they overwhelmed me so much that I couldn't even come up with the right word to say that would have made sense at this moment. I was breathless and speechless at the same time. My palms were clammy with sweat and I could feel a fluttering sensation in my stomach. It wasn't as intense as when I was with Sylvester but I couldn't just ignore the fact that it was there. It was there and I couldn't do anything about it.“So how long were you planning on putting yourself through the torture of being locked inside your room?” he asked, smiling slightly as he raised a brow at me. He was right. I couldn't stay in my room for long. The thought of not occupying my mind with something had made me almost go crazy and yet I did it just so that I could avoid him. I did it just so that I could avoid Sylvester too.“Don't do that,” I said, narrowing my eyes at him.“Don't do what?” he questioned, shooting
SIENNAI don't know if it was because of the rage or all the malice that I kept bottled up within my chest – I was still holding the card in my hand and it felt so weighty – but I was almost tempted to do something irrational, maybe drag her by the hair as she was about to walk in but I just decided against it as I was painfully reminded of Benjamin's presence. So I closed my eyes, just for a short moment to at least calm down my racing nerves. The anger I was currently feeling could be termed as unhealthy and the last thing I wanted to feel was that anger. I didn't want to feel angry at all. If it could even be possible, I didn't want to feel anything at all.“Bitch,” I muttered under my breath. “I don't mean to be disrespectful towards women but on this, I agree a hundred percent,” Benjamin drawled and his reply made a very small smile come to my face. “I don't think we should go to the garden anymore. I think we should do something else instead,” he suggested but he seemed almost
SIENNAMy heart was pounding frantically within the confines of my chest. I closed my eyes and breathed deeply. Inhale. Exhale. Those were the words I kept chanting to myself.Benjamin told me he loved me again. He didn't mind that I didn't say it back. He went about checking the condition of his motorbike to see if it was in good shape. I just stood in a spot reeling from shock. “It's all set and ready for use. Just don't kill us before evening.” He chuckled as he cleaned his hands with the rag that he held. His eyes glistened with amusement. I was beyond tired and really exhausted as he looked at me, and then his brows furrowed almost immediately. “What's going on?” You look a bit pale” he commented. It was easy to spot the worry in his eyes as I looked at him. “Was it something that I said?” he questioned as he came closer to me. “No, I'm okay,” I replied and yet my voice was oddly higher than it should be. He narrowed his eyes suspiciously on me. “Are you sure?” he asked, rai
SIENNAFor a moment, he said nothing. It was as if he was thinking deeply about what I just said. “I've always been grateful to you but I don't think that's why I love you, Sienna. But the truth is that I don't think you would like to listen to me drone on and on about why I love you. I also don't think I'm looking forward to you telling me no after I do,” he said and yet there was no contempt in his voice. “You can't be sure that I was going to say no,” I said and he shot me a look. “What?” I questioned.“I already know that, Sienna. There's no need to drag this out” he replied.“What are you even talking about?” I asked as I raised an eyebrow at him. He remained silent for a while and then he turned back around to face me. I was taken by the hurt that I saw in his eyes. “I already know that both of you are mates,” he said. “It's the only thing that made sense, and the only thing that I could think of. It's the only explanation that made perfect sense for why you love him so muc
SIENNAI was beyond overwhelmed and yet I clutched my weapon closed to the side tightly. The muscles in my body were knotted into tension and no matter how tired I was, I couldn't bring myself to stop. One way or another, I needed to find Benjamin. “I can hear your heartbeat from here,'' Sylvester whispered. I could feel his lips against the lobe of my ear. I could see that some of the soldiers were searching in their human forms while some were in their wolf forms. This wasn't the time to be thinking about how he smelled or what his lips against my body was doing to me.My father had decided to stay back home. Apparently, we might have to conduct another search party for Clara. My father had said that she ran to her room when the attack started. The rogues didn't come anywhere near the house so how was it even possible that she would disappear without a trace? I couldn't even make sense of it. “You think they took her?” I blurted out the question that had been on my mind for some
SIENNASylvester and I left the den, ready to confront the return of the rogue attacks on our pack. The air outside crackled with tension, and the scent of anxiety lingered as we approached the site of the disturbance.Drawing near the borders, I observed my father who was encircled by a few pack soldiers. His stern expression betrayed a mix of anger and concern that was apparent in him. The gravity of the situation hung heavily in the air, and I steeled myself for the challenges awaiting us. I saw the force of their destruction up ahead and I crumbled as a wave of despair washed over me. This wasn't supposed to occur if we had been vigilant enough. If I had behaved like a true Alpha was supposed to, these rogues would never have breached our territory. “Sienna, you've got to stay strong. Calm down," Sylvester urged."Easy for you to say; you're not the one whose territory is being destroyed," I snapped, but I regretted my words almost immediately. Swiftly, I apologized, "I'm sorry, I
SIENNAI sighed, realizing that this was the difficult situation I had put myself in "Dad, let me explain. Sylvester—""Explain? Explain why you're associating with a Lycan. Do you know what they're capable of?" His voice grew louder with each word."Dad, Sylvester is not like the others. We've formed a bond. There is a connection between us. He's different," I insisted, the desperation I felt evident in my voice.His eyes flickered between Sylvester and me, and the disapproval he was feeling was quite obvious on his face. "Different? What in the name of the Moon Goddess is he different from all the others? So far he’s the Alpha.” He ran his hands through his hair in frustration. “Sienna, you're risking everything by involving yourself with him."“If you would calm down and let me explain to you, you’ll see how different he is,” I implored him.“Did he hurt you?”As my father continued his stern warnings, Sylvester remained silent, his demeanor composed. He looked so calm. Wasn’t he w
SIENNAThe moon was gradually surrendering its luminous glow to the impending dawn as Sylvester and I lay entwined in the quiet haven of the cottage. My fingers traced idle patterns on his chest, and I could feel the rhythmic beat of his heart beneath my touch. The silence between us held the weight of unspoken words, echoing the complexity of our intertwined destinies. If anything, I was glad and relieved that we had cleared everything between us and that the tensions were all ironed out. And I was calm now.I knew that Tamara held no place in Sylvester's heart. She was inconsequential to him, and she shouldn’t dare overstep. If she did, I was quite capable of meting out the treatment that such intruders deserved. And I was ready to go home. Back to my pack and back to my dad. I was ready to tell my dad about Sylvester. "Sylvester," I whispered, breaking the silence that lingered in the air. He looked down at me, his gaze tender yet guarded."What is it?" His fingers brushed a stra
SIENNA“But if he doesn’t?” he asked softly“I don’t care what he thinks anymore. It’s either you or no one. But you’re never getting married to Taylor or whatever her name is”“Tamara,” he corrected, a teasing grin spreading across his face.“I don’t care what her name is, and I don’t care who she is either. She’s an Alpha’s daughter, but I’m an Alpha. If she crosses my path one more time, she’s gonna know what this Alpha can do,” I said defiantly. His eyes held a mix of admiration and pride. "Damn, you can’t imagine how turned on I am by this.”“W-wh-what?” I blushed, my face getting beet red and hot at the same time.“You want to see?” He smirked. I slapped his arms in embarrassment. “Stop it, love. You can’t say things like that.”“Are you kidding me?” He chuckled. “Stop pretending like you haven’t seen what it looks like.” He raised an eyebrow at me, the mischief glinting in his eyes.“Oh my goodness!” This was so embarrassing “You can beg. I’ll show you if you beg.” He chuckl
SIENNASylvester stood by the counter of the kitchen with a soft smile on his face as he watched me emerge from down the stairs. I wanted to watch him smile this way at me forever but at the same time, I wanted to go away from him because what he did hurt me. I couldn't help but feel a mix of emotions, but at that moment, I chose to focus on the calmness I felt after the bath, which was really nice, by the way. "Feeling better?" he asked, his eyes filled with genuine concern.I nodded, still unable to find the right words to express my gratitude. The clothes he provided may have been a bit oversized, but they carried a comforting warmth that seemed to extend beyond just the fabric. It was his, and wearing whatever was his just gave me this sense of comfort. "I appreciate this," I finally said, my voice a gentle acknowledgment.He nodded in return, his gaze lingering on me. "It's the least I could do,” he said.“Of course.” The air held a fragile tension, a silent acknowledgment of t
SIENNAThese days I had come to the conclusion that maybe the only person that I put into consideration was myself. I felt selfish, I felt blind, and I felt stupid too. I couldn't make it go away. As if he was only just realizing the impact his words had on me, Sylvester crouched down and stared up at me with sad eyes. “Sienna,” he said softly but I wasn't so sure that I had in me to give him a response. “I'm sorry. I really am. I shouldn't have said what I said. I lost control for a moment,” he said as he looked up at me. I wondered how he could bear to look up at me with the affection in his eyes when all I ever did these days was hurt him, and make it more and more obvious how much I resented him. I knew he didn't mean what he said. Yes, but that didn't mean it wasn’t true. Every bit of it was. I closed my eyes for a moment, trying very hard to put my emotions under control, to gain some sort of composure. But for some reason, I couldn't seem to do that. “I'm having a headach
SIENNA“What do you mean you were running out of options?” I asked, raising an eyebrow at him. My hands were starting to become clammy with sweat. I was beginning to become more and more conscious of my panic as I looked at him. So I pressed my finger against my temple just to calm myself down.He dropped the cup of tea against the bedside table as he looked at me. I didn't know what to do. “I just wanted us to be alone. The two of us needed some alone time,” he replied.“What alone time are you talking about? How do you think it's possible that I could stand to be in the same room with you, knowing that you're going to be married in less than a week!” I snapped. I was trying to let the anger and rising panic not take over me. But this was Sylvester I was dealing with. No matter how I tried to escape from my emotions, from my feelings, he sure did have a way of invoking them and they always came rushing back, no matter how much I tried to escape them. “I'm not getting married," Syl
SIENNAI wanted to die rather than feel this pain that was making me suffer. It was happening gradually and that was what I hated about shifting. It was too slow and gradual. “Sienna,” Sylvester called out again as he made his way over to me and crouched down in front of me. His face was contorted in pain, and it was just as if he was going through something similar. I didn’t think it was possible for him to feel whatever I was feeling. It just wasn't possible. I closed my eyes and sighed. Then I started to breathe in and out. I kept breathing in and out again and again. Maybe that was going to help.But I knew that I was deceiving myself. Nothing ever helped when this was happening. All I could hope for, all I could wish for was for the pain to go away. But all I did was internally count as I looked forward to the time that it would be dawn again. “I'm here,” Sylvester said softly. His hands went through my hair in tender soothing motions and I found myself leaning into his touch