It was really hard, the feeling of loving someone and also being scared that something could happen out of the blue once they see your true self. The feeling of not being able to be yourself completely around them because you are scared as to what would happen. You do not want to think about how terrible it will be, you do not want to think about the negative side. I knew how that felt, I knew this by heart because I had felt this way before, I felt like my true self; being human was something to be ashamed of. A default. Something that could be compared to a bad egg. Something that felt like a default. Even on those days where Jimmy would come through to speak to me, and I wound he so suspicious, I would want to act like the werewolves who could just carry something heavy as they walked past, and throw it at themselves and it becomes something really funny between them. Situations like that. So I knew what it was. I understood Adam’s fear. I knew what it was to feel like there was
Cody’s Diary I was lost in the darkness when I closed the doors that disabled our connection. Like a volcano rushing to destroy its victim, my heart quenched with hurt deep in my veins. A devastating simile to the sun, lights from various sources surrounded me. A window, no a mansion of light was drizzled upon my shuddered soul and that served as my only form of life maintenance. Dear you, I’m scared. They say if you are surrounded by light, surely you must blend with the light. They say if the light seeks you, it consumes you. Dear you, I’m afraid. Too anxious and broken to speak out loud. Maybe I don’t want a form of clarity. Maybe my darkness has exceeded its limits the light can no longer consume me. My soul is surrounded by light but it’s refusing to blend in. My snap off is like a walking time bomb, ready to be ticked by its final oppressor. I am shredded by the sharp razor of hurt I can no longer bleed anymore.Dear you, as you are reading this, I fear I might be kissing th
There was just something that kept banging in me, and making me want to crawl to him. I wanted him to turn to his Lycan part, over and over again, because I wanted to meet him. I wanted to speak to it. It was so surreal, to feel this way between the him and his Lycan. I did nit know there was something like this; that would make me feel this way, because I thought after I had seen his Lycan, I was going to run away. But here I was, wanting to see his Lycan. “What are you thinking about, love?” Adam asked me from nowhere. And I stared up at him. How could he not know that it was him I was thinking of, that it was only him, that could make me feel the way I was feeling, without remorse. I closed my eyes, and I opened it back. and he was still there. It felt surreal, like there was someone ready to love me with all their might. There was someone waiting for me to love them with all their might. Adam really made me happy. I could not start naming the days when he does. “Well; I think
Silent nights, holy nights. My thoughts are scattered around the floor like a doormat, waiting for an owner to step on it, waiting for an owner to claim it. The echoes of my head rings at the back of my head, it’s voice void, yet resounding in my ears. I closed my eyes. I wanted it to stop, and at the same time, it seemed like it was not working at all. I was locked on Dads chest, the only place my body was not protesting too, the only place o was finding solace in, and I wanted to remain there. Locked there in. Like that, forever. I took a deep breath. I breathed in a shallow way, waiting for this void to unfill me. I had no idea how I was feeling this way, I had no idea why it had to be now, of all times to be feeling this way. All I just wanted to do was hug dad. It had been me and him all through. During the times where I will suddenly fall sick from sleep, my body really hot from tears and my face flushed with sickness. Sometimes, when it was just me and him, not wanting to t
“Okay dad. If you insist. By the way, we have guests that are waiting for us outside. So if you don’t mind, we should get going to see you. I will see you alone for the last time. And we are leaving from here by evening, so we still have a bit of time.” I said to dad and he nodded his head. He was actually really excited, because I fork see it in his face that he was eager to actually meet the rest of the Lycans. They were like super heroes to him. I shook my head. “Wait, just let me freshen up a bit. That would be the best option right now, because there would be no way I would see the rest of the Lycans like this.” Dad signaled to himself and I laughed. I had never see him drool over people before but then, who would not? And then again, dad was a bit obsessed with anyone that was from the palace. “But dad, they had just seen you like this when you passed by that time earlier, remember?” I tried to remind him that there was no need to change anything. These people that he was even
We heard Jimmy before we saw him. His voice was really loud and he was being dramatic as usual because his voice sounded like ease definitely fake crying. What was wrong with him for goddess sake, I was almost as pissed as Adam because Jimmy had clearly ruined what it was that we were having going on. Adam’s hands were still on my waist, but his face was long longer in mine, instead it was on my neck and he we groaning into it. At this point, I did not even blame him. I knew Jimmy was moving closer as his voice sounded near. Adam and I were still tangled in our hugs, I could not even bring myself to separate from him. Soon enough, like I had predicted, the door opened and Jimmy entered the room. He shouted my name once more, and was clearly about to scream it again before his eyes landed on me and Adam still in our intimate hug. His hands moved down as it flooowed Adam’s waist as he saw it on my hips. Jimmy opened his mouth and covered them in a ceremonial dramatic way. I rolled my e
Adam pressed his dick into my vagina, and the way my clothes and the weight of his dick rubbed against me, made me groan. It was such a pleasurable feeling. I groaned against Adam’s chest. And Adam covered my mouth to keep me from moaning, a moan I was sure was going to alert the whole Lycan and my dad of what exactly we were doing in here, if they did not exactly know what it was already.Adam’s hands shot out to grab my butt really hard. I wanted to go mad in pleasure. It was all so beautiful against my body. The feeling was something I had never felt before. I wanted to grab him, and at the same time, I wanted to push him away from me. It was too much for me. My heart groaned against my chest.“You make me so fucking hot, can’t you see what you are doing to me?” Adam asked, shooting his way to look at himself and I followed his eyes, indeed. He was really harder than I thought. I wanted to touch him at that moment. I did not know when my hands came out to touch it. Adam groaned, h
I had been staring at Jimmy for quite a while now. His face was flushed with sadness. We had only been able to speak few times ever since the incident and he was finding it really hard to digest the fact that we were no longer going to see for a while. I seriously wished there was a way he could go with us but he had someone he lover here. I could not imagine not being witu my best friend for days, not to talk to months. My heart clenched, the same way it had done the time I had been with dad. It was going to be a refreshing start for me. But it was also the say of goodbye to everyone that had something beautiful to do in my life in the past. I could no longer deal. Jimmy was still staring at me. Although, he was not feeling as sad as I was, I knew there was something there. The same thing that was making him stare at me, remove his eyes. We were a little bit away from the rest of the people. But still, there was no privacy. Especially not with Adam staring at us every now and then.