CodyLet me tell you a tale. The one of a broken lady who stopped by every door to seek forth the love, hidden under her worn out cloak, geminated by her deepest desires. A tale of me. Once upon a time, leading to once upon a consistent present, I crashed through the thorns of the wrath of the wicked heart of human, in my search for love. My spine was laces alongside menace as I weep through the empty bars of my strengthOnce upon a time, I craved loved from the ones who ridiculed me in the day, hurt me in the sins of the night. The ones who couldn’t make me sleep at nights Ruled by a dark belief , I embraced any delusional clarification and declaration of love my sick mind provided My being is locked with toxicity I met a man, I met several man and I arrived at an equation; A variable that could never be compatible In the bleak mid winter, I was a sad thing of laughter to my soul, I was written and cast aside by the deprivation of love. I stopped by each door, wrenching with p
There was something about the darkness that called to me. The dizzy drawl of the atmosphere as it rhymes periodically with the cool air outside, I found it comforting. There was something about the dark to me that assured me, "rest baby girl. You are safe" There was just something. Something about the dark. I could sense, than heat the rustle of leaves as they scattered around from the tree and shattered right through the ground. They were like wailing sharks, voice crying out but could not be heard. Dad looked at me, how look was intent on my face and I gulped I’m nervousness. I was not looking forward to his response and at the same time, I was really eager. Dad cleared his throat, and I looked at him back, it was really clear that I was eager to hear what he had to say. My mind was racing already. “Cody, you are my daughter. And I care about everything that you do. I care about you a whole lot. I know that it is not easy being here. But you don’t just drop something like that a
I gazed at nature, in all it's perfectness, in all its glory, the sea, the wind and the air. The smell of the breeze as it swept over me and dusts the skirts of my gown . I gazed again, at the haze of the sky as it overlooked our shadow. As the tears of our pillows, danced underneath the beautiful stars. We were underneath the beautiful moon. Underneath the perfection of nature. The feeling itself was celestial. I felt like a celestial being. Then Adam had gone ahead to play my favorite song. Love, by Lana Del Ray blasted through the speakers. We were underneath the limelight of nature. And it was blessing them in every way possible. I was confused as to how Adam knew my favorite song, as to how Adam knew that I loved, Love by Lana Del Rey. Together, they moved in every way possible to the music, we jumped in delight as the pitter patters of the salty water teased our toes. Birds of different breeds stared at us as they sometimes passed over our heads. And we stared at each other
I stared at Jimmy for a very long time, I did not know what to say. My mind wandered from where and what had been happening, and it became heavy, and sore, and out of focus. I could no longer comprehend what was happening and it was all happening right in front of my eyes. “Ever since you have been gone, strange things have been happening to me. I don’t know how to explain it but things have not just been the way they used to be. It started with my physical appearance from the beginning, you said something about me adding hips and butt. That happened right after I thought I was on heat.” I said and Jimmy opened his mouth, and closed it back because of how surprised he was.“What do you mean heat? What do you mean changed? I don’t even understand. I noticed there had been a difference but it is only to someone who I thought was growing. I am very confused right now. You have to break it down to me, princess.” Jimmy looked really confused as he looked at me. I could tell he was confus
I could feel myself weigh down with my back pack. I did nit understand any single thing that was happening with me, but I knew I was going to figure it out. I went from finding out that I might actually do care a little bit about Adam, a little bit than I thought and the very mere thought was so disturbing. I knew that the world was playing tricks on me, but what was actually happening with me. I did not understand if this was the mate bond, or if I had actually fallen in love with Adam. After the class had been over, the Lycans all trolled out before I could even get a chance to look up from my desk. I was so surprised but at the same time, I knew there was no one to blame but me. I had told Adam to stay away from me and now that it was, it was hurting every part of my heart. I felt like I could not deal with what I was dashing out, which was the the truth. I was glad he was moving on, and happy with his life and that of his new partner. I wished him a good life. I was going to go
After lunch we had a class and Adam didn't attend. I kept stretching and checking to see if he walked in but I didn't see him. I don’t know if was actually avoiding me on purpose or he wanted to do something that was just going to make me keep looking for him, but I knew that I actually really cared. I realized I was not able to talk to Remy about what had happened. About what was happening to me. I knew that I had to speak to someone about it and she was my best option. After the class I went to the library to borrow some books then I saw Adam at a corner. He was so deep in reading that I did not want to disturb him but as I was about to go out, a student waved at me and I waved back. I decided to dodge him but while trying to do so I stumbled on a heap of books. It caused a lot of noise and Adam looked up at me and stared coldly. My heart was beating fast. I knew that I hated confrontations so much but I did not know the extent at which it was going to hit. I could feel my hands
Adam had already left school. What was it with lycans and disappearing? They moved so fast and sometimes it frustrated me. Had he used his Lycan way to move, to avoid me. But I knew that I could not find him anywhere. Not even the shirt that he was wearing. My heart dipped and I became really sad."Ughhhh" I groaned loudly. What was happening. "What's with that?" Jimmy asked as he snuck behind me. He has appeared from nowhere it had managed to frighten me."Arghh" I jumped in fright. I wasn't expecting him to do that. I had not even seen him at all. He laughed. Like the weirdo and wicked person that he was. "It's payback for all the times you scared the shit out of me" he snorted. He looked happy, if I was not so sad and not in the mood or need to ask what was happening, because I was really sad.I sighed. That was all that I had been doing for a while now. "Well I'm glad you're having fun" I scoffed. A part of me was a bit pained that he was not even joining in to mourn my dead
I stood up from the couch and walked over to the kitchen. I finished the last of the grapes in the bowl and washed it after which I arranged it on the rack and wiped my hands.I went up to my room to get dressed for an evening walk. Maybe it would help clear my head.I opened my wardrobe and took out a grey sweater and blue jeans. The wind was quite strong at night and I wasn't going to take any risks by wearing light clothes.I put on my clothes, tucked my phone in my pocket and popped in my earphones. I put on black boots and went back downstairs.I went out the door and shut it behind me, I made sure to lock it with the key as well.I took off, walking slowly. The wind blew lightly, swinging my hair in different directions.Thankfully my sweater had pockets by the sides and I put my hands in them.I listened to songs by Ruel as I walked down the road. His songs made me calm and I always felt cool everytime I listened to them.I walked around my neighborhood for about an hour and th