It took him a while to speak, he probably wanted to calm down before telling me anything. He must be going through something, maybe home related or some lycan business thing he had going on.I just kept holding his hands and squeezing gently. He was hurt by something but I didn't know what it was and it ticked me off."I'm sorry Cody. I didn't mean to bombard you with anything. Nevermind what I just said, I hope you know I'll never force you or make you go against your plans. I just want you to choose me willingly Cody, I want you to want me without me interfering in it." Is he serious this time? He was pretty weird after our talk the last time, we even kissed and didn't talk about it anymore."It's okay Adam. I want to Adam but I'm so torn between that and my own life, what I want for myself. It's something that I've been longing for and it's not your fault. I'm here whenever you want to talk. I'm here to listen, I know the whole mate thing isn't the main reason why you're like this
Pulling me into his warm embrace, he stroked my hair, rocking me sideways."I'm here Cody and I'm not going anywhere. We're together in this and we'll be better, I promise." He spoke softly.We were like that for a while, rocking eachother back and forth until I felt sleep."How's Mr Prince doing? Seems like your news is still spreading, that he's your mate" he kept stroking my hair."Dad" I groaned and looked at him and laid my head back on his strong shoulder."Adam is just there, I'm here contemplating if I should accept the mate bond or not" more like a question for myself."Oh Adam, you go by first name basis now? You're getting somewhere. About the mate bond, I know it's not easy especially because of your human nature but it can also be hard for lycans if they aren't accepted. I advise you to make a wise decision Cody, I want wahts best for you and it's only reasonable that you look after yourself as well" I looked at him and sighed."Every decision you make concerning this sit
I was home alone today, my dad is out working and Jimmy is out with some guys from school. Remy is probably with Adam at their 'party'. I'm in my room trying to read a book that I was supposed to be done with one week ago.I'm usually not slow with reading but now I am and it's frustrating. I decided not to go for the party because I didn't want to attract unwanted attention from the other lycans that will possibly attend the gathering. If I had known it was that kind of party I wouldn't have agreed to go in the first place.I kept getting distracted everytime I opened a page of my book. Adam, mate bond. The mate bond was getting stronger, pulling me closer to Adam every single day. Making me feel a way I shouldn't feel, it was stronger than I thought.I was beginning to lose my resolve around Adam, I knew something like that was going to happen after we kissed liked that. I found myself thinking about him often. I didn't like that he was overriding my thoughts. He's getting into my s
We were just playing around, toying with our emotions all this time, stirring our hearts then leaving it to bleed. It had to stop. And that's what I just did, stopped it from going any further, I went to my room to clean myself up, take a shower and so.I already planned finish my book today, it was just a few pages left. I ate my breakfast first, not before warming it up. I got to reading my book in my room with a few snacks beside me because why not.I finished the book in 30 minutes and decided to sleep for a while. It was truly a boring day, I wondered what Adam was up to, Remy too. I hadn't even spoken to her since yesterday, she must still be upset that I didn't attend the party.Sigh. I'll call her later. I wondered if I would see my dad at all today. I missed him already and I also wanted to ask about the stunt Adam pulled today or maybe the both of them.My thoughts were just thoughts, I wasn't certain. I finally fell asleep without even realizing it. I woke up earlier than I
"Cody!" Jimmy called from down the hall, waving both his hands and I looked up at him smiling faintly. He ran over to me. His hand waddled beside me as he moved forward. I could see the excitement on his face. I just could not"Are you okay? I've been calling you for a while now, I called your phone several times as well but you weren't picking up, are you sure you are alright?" He asked and I immediately became infuriated as well as frustrated and irritated. I banged my locker door shut. I was trying so hard to put on a facade. Him asking me questions was starting to really make me question if I was really okay, or not."Can please quit the questions?! Can't you see that I'm trying to make sense of everything you are saying? Yet you keep asking me these questions" I couldn't even control the tears that began to fall afterwards. I was so tired. I was mentally exhausted and emotionally unstable. I didn’t mean to blow up on my best friend but I just found nothing control it. "Can every
Everything about this house was really exquisite, the paintings, pictures, I even saw a picture of Adam..wait? Did he live here too? The cool colours on the wall, chandelier, the view from a very big glass window overlooking a lake at the back of the house. It was beautiful.She opened the door, revealingly a large well ventilated room, painted dark purple and white. And on a very large bed layed Remy, she got up and smiled at me faintly and I smiled back."Thank you Ella" I turned to her, smiling."You are welcome my dear, I'll leave you two now. Let me know if you need anything""Sure Ella" Remy answered."How are you feeling now?" She looked pale kind of and her body felt hot, I could feel heat emanating from where I sat."I'm in heat Cody" she answered."Heat? You mean the lycan mate thing?" I asked. No wonder she sounded like that."Yeah, it's been long I mated with Martin, he's my mate. We haven't been able to do anything like that so. It started this morning, that's why I wasn'
Flowers were known to gleam, glow, overshadow the bits and empty pieces of spaces, pieces of blank, void, nothing. Flowers were meant to be pretty, look pretty, and not hurt when you pucker out your lips to bask with it with a pretty kiss. But then the flower blooms out and you pick out it’s thorn to tear I or you, and you are left wondering, fanning, and babying your your lips. I was a flower, in the midst of all the thorns. The more I wanted to kiss, the more I was hurting. I only noticed a slight difference was starting to bloom in me when I stared at the mirrors and my hips was standing out wider than the usual, with the bit of space I have Alaye wanted in between. It was surreal, the feeling of being compelled by what I had always envied. I shatter to get suspicious when my cheek bone had affirmed to come out and the little fat chin I had was nowhere to be found. I panicked, a bit. I wondered yet again, like this kitten flower that I was, what was happening to me? The thing is,
I was still standing in front of the mirror. If only it was human, it would have sent me on my hills. I was preparing to go to school but I could not even deal anymore. So many things was going on with me that I was trying to process. I needed to take a deep breath. I, Cody the human had been on something I had regarded to be heat. Only it had not been heat, because I had seen myself the next day and changes that was so vivid. At least to me. The cup of my bra was now hitting to my back, making it tighter. So many things was happening.And at the same time, I just realized someone that I had spent all my life thinking and fussing over, was no longer in my heart like he always is. I closed my eyes. A act I was always doing. My heart was beating fast like it could not perceive it next breath. I was no longer in live with Jimmy. Fact known, knowledge taken. I was cool to go. Good to deal with. But why then was a certain part in my heart feeling like the reason why this happened was beca