"Cody!" Jimmy called from down the hall, waving both his hands and I looked up at him smiling faintly. He ran over to me. His hand waddled beside me as he moved forward. I could see the excitement on his face. I just could not"Are you okay? I've been calling you for a while now, I called your phone several times as well but you weren't picking up, are you sure you are alright?" He asked and I immediately became infuriated as well as frustrated and irritated. I banged my locker door shut. I was trying so hard to put on a facade. Him asking me questions was starting to really make me question if I was really okay, or not."Can please quit the questions?! Can't you see that I'm trying to make sense of everything you are saying? Yet you keep asking me these questions" I couldn't even control the tears that began to fall afterwards. I was so tired. I was mentally exhausted and emotionally unstable. I didn’t mean to blow up on my best friend but I just found nothing control it. "Can every
Everything about this house was really exquisite, the paintings, pictures, I even saw a picture of Adam..wait? Did he live here too? The cool colours on the wall, chandelier, the view from a very big glass window overlooking a lake at the back of the house. It was beautiful.She opened the door, revealingly a large well ventilated room, painted dark purple and white. And on a very large bed layed Remy, she got up and smiled at me faintly and I smiled back."Thank you Ella" I turned to her, smiling."You are welcome my dear, I'll leave you two now. Let me know if you need anything""Sure Ella" Remy answered."How are you feeling now?" She looked pale kind of and her body felt hot, I could feel heat emanating from where I sat."I'm in heat Cody" she answered."Heat? You mean the lycan mate thing?" I asked. No wonder she sounded like that."Yeah, it's been long I mated with Martin, he's my mate. We haven't been able to do anything like that so. It started this morning, that's why I wasn'
Flowers were known to gleam, glow, overshadow the bits and empty pieces of spaces, pieces of blank, void, nothing. Flowers were meant to be pretty, look pretty, and not hurt when you pucker out your lips to bask with it with a pretty kiss. But then the flower blooms out and you pick out it’s thorn to tear I or you, and you are left wondering, fanning, and babying your your lips. I was a flower, in the midst of all the thorns. The more I wanted to kiss, the more I was hurting. I only noticed a slight difference was starting to bloom in me when I stared at the mirrors and my hips was standing out wider than the usual, with the bit of space I have Alaye wanted in between. It was surreal, the feeling of being compelled by what I had always envied. I shatter to get suspicious when my cheek bone had affirmed to come out and the little fat chin I had was nowhere to be found. I panicked, a bit. I wondered yet again, like this kitten flower that I was, what was happening to me? The thing is,
I was still standing in front of the mirror. If only it was human, it would have sent me on my hills. I was preparing to go to school but I could not even deal anymore. So many things was going on with me that I was trying to process. I needed to take a deep breath. I, Cody the human had been on something I had regarded to be heat. Only it had not been heat, because I had seen myself the next day and changes that was so vivid. At least to me. The cup of my bra was now hitting to my back, making it tighter. So many things was happening.And at the same time, I just realized someone that I had spent all my life thinking and fussing over, was no longer in my heart like he always is. I closed my eyes. A act I was always doing. My heart was beating fast like it could not perceive it next breath. I was no longer in live with Jimmy. Fact known, knowledge taken. I was cool to go. Good to deal with. But why then was a certain part in my heart feeling like the reason why this happened was beca
The phone dangled in my hands as I dropped, picked it. Circular, diagonal, in a repetitive movement. The edge of the phone hit my hand, hurt it but I did not care. It didn’t hurt as my heart was hurting already. The way it skipped a beat, stopped, and skipped anther made me realize that I was indeed nervous for what I was about to do. I had used these same hands to text Adam to meet me in my room. If he was going to come, I had no idea. I just knew I had to set a straight line ahead of him, to stop him from following ne to the human world. It had only been ten minutes, and I was already second guessing my whole action before I had even started. I had no idea wanting to say something that was going to hurt someone I claimed I had no affection whatsoever was going to hurt this bad. I closed my eyes, my heart increased it tempo. After everything I was going to say to Adam, there was not going to be Lycan friends again. There was not going to be running into Remys hands to ask for favors
Fifty shades of grey was an example. Christian Grey’s love for Anna and the way it has developed to be something really strong. I wanted that. I wanted someone to look at me and not to be attracted to me because of a mate bond, but to be attracted to me because out of many other pearls in the bead, they wanted mine. I wanted someone to meet me in a library, and stare at me throughout the day, I wanted someone who was going to make me blush, ask me on a date, want to care about my favourite colours and my favorite books just because they cared that much about me. I did not just want to meet someone on a random day. The person I had no idea even existed before then coming into my life to tell me I was theirs to claim. Without even catering for my concept. I did not want that. Which was why I had been prepared all along. All through the way. I had made my plans. It was going to be only me, just me. Moving out the pack. Within any glimpse of werewolf in sight. Moving into somewhere I w
Heartbreak usually comes in different ways. Sometimes, it’s you holding your heart out as it is gushing out with hot tears that is as thick as blood. Sometimes, it is you hurting inside without having enough words to speak outside. All just because everything hurts inside. It was not merry. It was nothing too far, too close. But I just wanted to get away. I was not heartbroken. At least not yet, but I could not say the same for the man I was staring at. The same man I had been staring at for two minutes, which had felt like the first two hours of my first life. The bell was ringing hard and loud. The twinkle of my last words flying around me and Adam. And I was waiting, waiting for him to say something. But I knew I had to continue. I did not understand why I was stalling since this was what I wanted at the end of the day. But why did I feel like my heart was being shattered over and over again over something I had no control over. Adam had been staring at me like I was a statue. In
Although I was very sure dad was fast asleep and he never wakes up except if it is in the mornings. I was bragging hard already and I took my hard eyes to clash with Adam’s. He looked hurt. He was no longer staring hard at me. I knew he was hurt because of the way his face broke out. His forehead was wrinkled and he kept staring at me like he could not believe what I had just said. I wanted to nod at me that even I could not, but I didn’t. I just stared at him as he looked at me like someone he had never seen. Adam stood up, what I hated because he was already towering over me and he wasn’t even next to me yet.“Did you really just say that I could wake up one day and hurt you?” Adam was still standing far away from me but he was no longer being intentional with the way he was speaking to me. I knew that I was going to a place of no return. Whatever I was going to say this night, whatever was going to come out of my mouth at this very moment, I will not be able to reverse and help it.
CodyI was sitting next to Adam, after he had forced me to drink and almost finish a whole bottled of water. Apparently, drinking water helped drunk or tipsy people. I was starting to get to my senses back a little, but I was still lost in that haze. The same haze that tempted me to want to jump around, and dance around the airplane. That same one. Adam was next time, and he had not said a word to me after, except force me to drink more water. At this point, it felt like we were both ignoring each other, when it was indeed far from it. I just wanted to take a break, and not think too much about what was going to happen next between the both of us. Remy had indeed said some things that were starting to just clear on my head. The things she had said had been true, but the way in which she had passed it was what I was not going to agree with. It had not been as much of a big deal as she made it seem, and I did jot know nothing to clear on that. It was very obvious Adam was still pisse
THE PRINCE’S DIARY, 9, November, 1999The end is walking slowlyCrawling blindly in the light Cradling my head with might My other self is staring at me through the ghost of a mirror. And I detest myself for seeing her. Yet, I cannot lose her. Her feet are barely touch the floor. Yet she stands so tall I have to crane my neck. My other self is walking towards me, about to crown my head with thorns of pain and beauty. Beauty through the pain, My other self is staring at me through a broken mirror. Mirror of my broken self, mirror of the broken soul She is screaming, Screaming silently at me for leaving her to decay. Leaving her lost, to burn To end. The end is walking fast. Moving like the wind Moving till I can’t see. Silently gazing at the way the wind rushes towards the water. The sunset, drinking in the beauty of the sky. Beautiful. Amazing. Wonderful. Your heart is dancing at the triumph against sadness. And it’s quietened down the wailings. The bones of your form are e
Remy then got up, like if she wanted to be eye to eye with Adam, like she wanted him to understand what it was that she was saying so clearly. Although, Adam still towered over her, she refused to back down. “You mean how the both of us take care of our business and we don’t make it to the part where everyone notices that something is this wrong with us? Adam, wake up. I can sense your immaturity over this plane. I get the fact that you have never been with a mate, neither have you ever been in a relationship. But watch everything that is going. Watch her, watch the way she kept staring at you in the car ride. Did you even hear the things you said to her? Did you notice how nervous she was to take the plane rides, and how she kept closing her eyes to take deep breath, to inhale in and exhale, she also spoke to herself at some point because there was no one there to comfort her, there was no one there to hold her hands. You just came over buckle her seat belt, walked away, and then
I was still in the plane, waiting for that moment was going to get to me. His pace was slow, it felt like he was walking to me, as if it were a movie, I wanted to count each and every of his step, if there was a way I could. My eyes shone with anticipation, and at the same time, I felt this excitement in me, I could not wait for him to get to me. I was sure my eyes shinning from afar. At that moment, I did not care if me and Adam were not on speaking terms, I did not care if he was going to get to me, and remind me of how annoyed I was, at him from the beginning. I just wanted him to get to me, he was like the prince that was running towards his princess, And there was nothing that could be done about it. It was not like I wanted anything to be done about it. I just wanted Adam in my face, I wanted him to come close to me. It was at this hazy and dizzy thought I realized that I might indeed me more drunk than I had thought. My mind was clouded, and I could only breathe heavily at th
It took several hours before the jet finally took off. I finally released my nerves, and Adam disappeared back to the other side of the room, where he had been right before the plane took off. I was starting to get convinced he had something to do with the other girls who were now on the other side of the room, but I did not bother myself. “Let’s get drinks. I asked the air hostess to bring us some booze, let’s go gets wasted, or what do you say?” Remy asked, and I nodded my head. I sure needed something off my head, before I was going to overthink every single thing, and think that Adam was indeed doing something with girls over there. “I want us to do a toast. I mean, we should do a toast to cody, joining us for the first time, and to the better lives we are all hopefully going to get.” It was so obvious that Ella was drunk already, and I was starting to wonder when it was that she had started drinking. She was doing a toast, while it was very obvious she was the only one holdi
We finally got closer to the plane. The fan was already moving really fast and high. I studied the body of the plane more. There was just no way anyone was going to move close to something like that without having to access every part of it. I looked closer and I saw the same endearment by the side, that had been on Adam’s neck when I had first moved closer to him and accessed him. “Is that the royal symbol?” I asked, and Ella nodded. She was absent minded now, of course. I looked back and noticed that men had moved closer to us. Alongside them was Ben, and the three other guys who were also in black. Right now, they all had sun glasses on, even if the weather was really cool. “She really does love him, doesn’t she?” I whispered to Remy, as we both watched Ella lose her sene or thinking as she stared at Edward, who was also smiling at her, he kept stealing glances at her, and I was very sure that at that moment, he was clearly not listening to whatever it was that Adam was tellin
I was still in Adam’s arms waiting for the time where I was finally going to get off him. I felt suffocated from everything. I just wanted out, and Adam was not even letting me go. I tried to pull away several times not to no avail. I was puffing and groaning in frustration when we the car finally stopped. That time, he let me pull away. I went out of the car after Remy, and stood close to her. I was not planning on staying with Adam anymore. His thought infuriated me. He was just a selfish person that did not care about other peoples feelings when he was being a possessive bastard. I grunted once again. That was when I took in our environment. We were in a tarmac obviously, it was so wide and the wind dusted the skirts of my top. There was bushes surrounding the whole wide space which was located in the middle, making it give this nature vibe. I was very sure this was far away from the pack because I was we have driven for over two hours, roughly. I had no idea somewhere like this e
I was about to move completely away from Adam, when I felt arms wrap me up from nowhere. It caught me off guard, and I knew that I would have panicked, and screamed my head off if I was not in the car, and the rest of the Lycans were not next to me. I glanced behind me, and that was when I realized that Adam had removed his arm and had adjusted them to come close to me. All this while, I had thought he had simply done that to avoid me. I wanted to smile, I would have, if there was still not this renaming prickling hurt that was still in my chest. He had a weird way of showing how he actually felt. In a bid, still in my own anger, I refused to put my hands around him back. He was not just going to come from anywhere, and act in anyway that befitted him, just because he felt like I was looking at another person. When of course, I had just been appreciating the beauty which meant nothing more. He was always the one stressing on how much I did nit care about his feelings sometimes, bef
We were in the car already. I had not realized that the only occupant was just Martin Remy, and me and Adam. Adam was stalked to the other side, pulsing with his arms folded. It felt like he had not even realized that I was sitting next to him already, my head was starting to radiate with heat. Sometimes, there was just some way that he acted that did not sit well with me. Adam could be such a baby. I had not even done anything with Ben, and at the of the day, he was being mad at me for nothing, Adam was such a possessive somebody, it came down to really annoying, Remy understood the struggle I was going through, so she just sealed her lips. I knew she was taking a struggle, not to say anything to Adam. Since he was going to behave like a kid, I was simply going to ignore him all through till he dropped all his tactics. I was not in any mood to speak to anyone that was was not going to speak to me too. My eyes went back to the bracelet that was sitting pretty on my hands. It was gli