I didn’t understand the feeling, it was draining yet exciting. It was really toxic I felt that I won’t breathe if I didn’t kiss him, like my heart was going to burst. Adam was staring at me with so much intensity. His eyes moved to my lips and I swallowed, unable to resist the urge to touch him, hold him, kiss him. And I kissed him. Straining to reach his lips because he was pretty tall, I held his shoulders for support and gosh they were so strong and broad. I pressed my lips on his and that's when he clearly lost it. He held me and kissed me hard and slow at the same time, demanding entrance which I gave him, moaning softly. His tongue filling my mouth, tasting and drinking me in and me doing the same. His hands wrapped around my waist, he was holding me right, his fingers moved briskly to my butt and grabbed tight. I moaned into his mouth and Adam pushed me forward so my front could rub on his pronounced erection. I let out another strong moan. We broke off, breathless but he ju
Subsequently I had thoughts of my mom, I never met her but I couldn't help but ask myself how things would be if she were here. How dad would feel. I wanted to think only happy thoughts but I knew it wouldn't last. I pushed that aside too.After the cooking and eating, I said my goodnight to dad and headed to my room. With a long sigh I jump on my bed, counting my glow in the dark stars once again. I haven't called Jimmy nor Remy and they both called but I didn't pick up. I wouldn't know what to tell them that's why I haven't called them. Another long sigh.I turn to stare out my window, the moon is shining brightly, shaming me. Sleep finally overtakes me, consuming and pulling me down with it.The water. The beach with no sand. The man that saved me. I saw it again but something weird happened. I dreamt that same dream. The same way, the same events, the same outfits, the same feelings. Everything was the same.I woke up sweaty, questions that I wanted to ask but didn't know whom to
I fall asleep as soon as my head touches the pillow for the third time today. I deep dream less sleep that I'm grateful for. I would always want to dream but this time I don't wanna dream. I just want to sleep.The next morning I'm woken up by my dad and his signature breakfast in bed and I smile a bit at his kind gesture."Good morning dad, thank you for breakfast" I greet him." It's okay my dear. You seem okay, your fever is gone and you're up early as usual" he stated."I'm okay dad. I'll be leaving for school today, I feel a bit better" I affirmed."If you say so then. I'm leaving for work now, I love you" he kissed my forehead getting up from my bed."Love you dad" I answered.'Byeee" we both said at the same time." Don't forget to call if you need me" he called out before shutting my door"Sure thing dad" I answered.I got out of bed and prepared for school, I was feeling quite alright today so I wore a tight blue jean and a yellow wrap top I got from target. It was actually v
The day goes by normally, we have two more classes and then I try to find Jimmy. Although if I find Adam too I guess that wouldn't be so bad.I sight Jimmy talking to a guy I've never seen in my life and I don't get a chance to meet him as well because he walked away even before I got to Jimmy."Hey Jim. Who's that?" I eyed him."Uh, it's no one important. Just you know school stuff" he stutters slightly. Now I know he's lying but I'll let him be for now."Okay then, if you say so" I answered."Yeah. So are you okay? Everything alright? Wait, before you answer can we please get to Macdonald's, I'm so hungry right now" he pleaded, giving me his infamous puppy dog eyes."Ughhh, okay okay fine we'll go. And yeah I'm fine, I'm okay. Everything is good" I replied"You wanna tell me something don't you? Something happened between you and Adam right? The lycan got you in between-" I cut him off with a smack on his head."Shut up Jimmy" how can he know? I was literally blushing right now and
It took him a while to speak, he probably wanted to calm down before telling me anything. He must be going through something, maybe home related or some lycan business thing he had going on.I just kept holding his hands and squeezing gently. He was hurt by something but I didn't know what it was and it ticked me off."I'm sorry Cody. I didn't mean to bombard you with anything. Nevermind what I just said, I hope you know I'll never force you or make you go against your plans. I just want you to choose me willingly Cody, I want you to want me without me interfering in it." Is he serious this time? He was pretty weird after our talk the last time, we even kissed and didn't talk about it anymore."It's okay Adam. I want to Adam but I'm so torn between that and my own life, what I want for myself. It's something that I've been longing for and it's not your fault. I'm here whenever you want to talk. I'm here to listen, I know the whole mate thing isn't the main reason why you're like this
Pulling me into his warm embrace, he stroked my hair, rocking me sideways."I'm here Cody and I'm not going anywhere. We're together in this and we'll be better, I promise." He spoke softly.We were like that for a while, rocking eachother back and forth until I felt sleep."How's Mr Prince doing? Seems like your news is still spreading, that he's your mate" he kept stroking my hair."Dad" I groaned and looked at him and laid my head back on his strong shoulder."Adam is just there, I'm here contemplating if I should accept the mate bond or not" more like a question for myself."Oh Adam, you go by first name basis now? You're getting somewhere. About the mate bond, I know it's not easy especially because of your human nature but it can also be hard for lycans if they aren't accepted. I advise you to make a wise decision Cody, I want wahts best for you and it's only reasonable that you look after yourself as well" I looked at him and sighed."Every decision you make concerning this sit
I was home alone today, my dad is out working and Jimmy is out with some guys from school. Remy is probably with Adam at their 'party'. I'm in my room trying to read a book that I was supposed to be done with one week ago.I'm usually not slow with reading but now I am and it's frustrating. I decided not to go for the party because I didn't want to attract unwanted attention from the other lycans that will possibly attend the gathering. If I had known it was that kind of party I wouldn't have agreed to go in the first place.I kept getting distracted everytime I opened a page of my book. Adam, mate bond. The mate bond was getting stronger, pulling me closer to Adam every single day. Making me feel a way I shouldn't feel, it was stronger than I thought.I was beginning to lose my resolve around Adam, I knew something like that was going to happen after we kissed liked that. I found myself thinking about him often. I didn't like that he was overriding my thoughts. He's getting into my s
We were just playing around, toying with our emotions all this time, stirring our hearts then leaving it to bleed. It had to stop. And that's what I just did, stopped it from going any further, I went to my room to clean myself up, take a shower and so.I already planned finish my book today, it was just a few pages left. I ate my breakfast first, not before warming it up. I got to reading my book in my room with a few snacks beside me because why not.I finished the book in 30 minutes and decided to sleep for a while. It was truly a boring day, I wondered what Adam was up to, Remy too. I hadn't even spoken to her since yesterday, she must still be upset that I didn't attend the party.Sigh. I'll call her later. I wondered if I would see my dad at all today. I missed him already and I also wanted to ask about the stunt Adam pulled today or maybe the both of them.My thoughts were just thoughts, I wasn't certain. I finally fell asleep without even realizing it. I woke up earlier than I