Chapter 45HopeThe harvest ball had started. Though the ballroom was far away from where my room was located, I could still hear the music playing. Moratian music was drastically different from human music. They were played in a sensual and inappropriate manner.Then again, everything about this place was inappropriate.Gwendolyn pinned the last accessory to my hair and stepped back with a sigh. I finally looked at myself with the help of the mirror in front of me. I hated it. I hated how I looked like one of them.This was the main reason why Darius wanted me to dress in this outfit. I hated that man so much. Was he trying to change me entirely? Did he want me to become a Lycan fully?I had no answers to those questions and I was too pissed off to try to think of answers. I stood up from the stool and turned to Gwendolyn."Thank you," I told her, referring to the makeup and hairdo she did for me.Her cheeks tinted pink in appreciation and she looked like a little girl who was just
Chapter 46Hope"Stop holding onto me so tight," I whispered harshly at Darius. I didn't know if a person could categorize what was going on between me and Darius as dancing. It was mostly him just spinning and dragging me along to match his unnatural pace. I didn't even seem to remember why I was doing this in the first place. "You might fall if I let you go," he said.I frowned. If I fell it would be his fault for making me dizzy with all the unnecessary twirling. I wanted to stomp on his feet to slow his actions, but as if he read my thoughts, he pushed me back, causing the upper half of my body to hang midair."I am so done with you," I said, staring into his eyes that held mischief in them.It was only for a second, but the side of his lips twitched into a smirk before he thinned them, and pulled me swiftly."Would you rather dance with that lover of yours?" Irritation seeped into his tone.My frown deepened as I glanced over to where Kyle was standing by the drinks table, unaw
Chapter 47 Hope It had been almost a week since I last saw Darius. I was told that he was doing something along the lines of yearly check-in around Moratia. I wondered how long it would take him to return. Not that I wanted him to return. The palace was rather peaceful in his absence. Annalise, Orion, and The commander went along with him. My top tormentors were no longer around to oppress me and freedom was mine to hold and cherish. In the absence of the commander, some of the soldiers had become nice to me. If nice meant acknowledging a person briefly. By my standards, the soldiers just glancing my way without any malicious intent hidden behind their eyes was progress. It meant that the reason why people where so hostile to me was because of them. My husband and his comrades. Currently, I was done with training and lying on the ground like I usually did. It had become a habit of mine these days to lie on the ground after training and wait for Kyle until he was done doing whateve
Chapter 48 Hope I was sitting directly across Thaddeus in the drawing room of the castle alone. His servants, as well as Kyle, were waiting outside the closed door. Thaddeus had requested to speak with me privately. I couldn't shake off the feeling that today was going to be my last day of breathing, so I inhaled and exhaled deeply. Thaddeus sipped on the tea that was served moments ago elegantly, and I watched uncomfortably. I wasn't sure if the fluid was going to pass through my throat if I attempted to swallow it. I wouldn't say a while had passed since the two of us have been in here but it has been enough time for him to get on with doing whatever he planned to do. With every passing second, I was getting more and more anxious. "Hope Vitalis..." Thaddeus started to say, like he had just heard my thoughts. "Or should I say Moratis?" he added. I frowned a little as I waited for him to say something else. He placed his tea cup on the coaster and leaned back on the cushion, a p
Chapter 49HopeI was given an indefinite break off training. It came from the commander herself through a letter. Darius also sent me one but I couldn't be bothered to check the content. The only thing I wanted him to tell me was that he was going make me his queen and I doubted that was in the letter he sent.Kyle and Gwendolyn have both been by my side constantly as though I was a ticking bomb that would explode in the absence of people. I could understand their actions but it was getting stuffy with them around and I wanted to visit Amara.That wouldn't have been a problem if Kyle was the only one watching over me but with Gwendolyn around, I couldn't carry out my plan. I didn't trust her at all and I wasn't going to reveal Amara to her. She could be Darius' spy and would relay my actions to him when she got such a juicy information.Right now I was seated in the garden, painting the landscape. I wasn't a very good painter but I had to keep busy somehow with myself being off train
Chapter 50Kyle'You're the best person ever.'I was someone's best person ever. Even if that someone was my king's wife and the person I was to protect. She was always touching me; something that people didn't do often... Women didn't do often. And she was not an ordinary woman. She was someone's wife. My king's wife.The more I thought of her, the more complex things seemed to be. I looked down on the hand that she grabbed without permission. The hand that she held and didn't let go of until I told her to. I caressed the palm with my other hand, then lifted it to my nose.Her fragrance still lingered on my hand. Vanilla. That was what she smelled like. With a flowery hint, due to the time she spent in the garden today. She seemed so happy, despite the horrid things that had happened to her here.Despite the number of times that I had failed to protect her. I was a good-for-nothing guard but it seemed like she preferred me that way. Hah... "What are you doing?" Someone said as the d
Chapter 51HopeKyle and I were sneaking out of the castle. I was dressed in commoner clothes which consisted of a dark cream long-sleeved top and a long brown apron. My hair was packed into an untidy bun and I wore a heavy cloak to cover myself.Kyle was dressed in a different fashion. I hadn't seen what he was wearing underneath his own cloak but I could tell that it would be drastically different from the uniform I always saw him in. Somehow, that thought excited me.We were going to use the fence at the back of the garden to leave. It was dark and only a half moon was out, so it would be quite hard to sneak out. Not only because of that but because of the knights patrolling around. They were never this much during the day, so how come they were hundreds of them at night?It was like they knew I was planning to sneak out today and posed as barriers in my way. But no matter, I trusted Kyle to get me out of this prison. He was going to take me to a festival in the village but only fo
Chapter 52 Hope Life here in Moratia has been peaceful in the absence of my husband and his comrades. Or should I say too peaceful? That was if such a thing existed. The goons still hadn't returned from their travels even though two weeks had passed. I have been living too freely that I was always scared that while doing something I wasn't supposed to do, Darius would pop up and catch me in the act. But that didn't make me act any less carefree. I visited Amara more frequently than I ought to by giving Gwendolyn impossible tasks to keep her away. I got on with my training and hung around Kyle's friends, who might've been wary of me when the commander was around but treated me fairly now in her absence. I also got to sneak out of the castle a lot after that day Kyle and I went to the festival. He had eased up on shielding me from the outside world after letting me have a sweet taste of it. I appreciated him so much. I have visited bars, plays, markets, eaten street food, so on. Dar
Chapter 78Hope Kyle was quick. It didn't take up to two days and he had already set up a meeting with the witch for me. According to him, she wanted to keep her name and location a secret.So, instead of leaving the castle to meet her, she would be the one to come over. I had no problems with this, as all I wanted to do was get this phase of my life over and done with.She arrived at midnight. Earlier today, I had told Darius not to come to my room since I wanted to rest well and him being around would only disturb and irritate me.Though he had been against it because of his recent overprotective behavior, I still managed to wear him down at the end of the day.By the time the witch arrived, I was seated by the window in my room. She and Kyle entered so quietly that I didn't even notice them until they had gotten close to the window.The moon was incredible bright this night and my room was brightened with lamps and lit candles. The witch was dressed as a castle worker to avoid sus
Chapter 77 Hope When I regained consciousness, I saw that Darius was sitting on the side of my bed with a worried look on his face. I let out a soft sigh, and he jerked into action, noticing that I was finally awake. "How are you? How do you feel? Hope, are you alright?" he questioned. I rolled my eyes and stretched to take a sitting position on the bed. "I'm fine, just a little tired and thirsty." Darius quickly took the cue to stand up from the bed and pour in a glass of water from a jug and gave it to me. I emptied the glass and handed it back to him. "Hope, I was so worried. It's all my fault. I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have kept you up working all night. I should've—" "It's not your fault, quit acting so pitiful," I chided him. "It was just a sunstroke. And I'm not the first person in the world to get dizzy under the sun. Stop worrying unnecessarily." "You say that so easily, but I wouldn't be able to bear it if something bad happened to you. You've been so moody these da
Chapter 76HopeA cold chill slapped my face after Darius said that word. It was foolish of me to have expected that something like war would be taken care of with no hitches along the way.And because of this reason, I softened up a little and used a small voice to say, "I want to see. Show me what you're doing." Darius stared at me for a little while before shaking his head negatively. "It's nothing. You don't need to bother yourself with things like this. Please, go and rest. I'll take care of everything."Darius must have thought that saying such things would put my mind at ease but all that it did was anger me as I raised the volume of my voice and said:"You'll take care of everything and I should go rest? Have you forgotten that I'm the queen of this kingdom? I should rest while you deal with the brunt of things and I remain a silly little oblivious queen. Is that what you want me to be? You want me to be stupid and ignorant for you?"Darius immediately stood up from his chair
Chapter 75HopeI turned around to look at who just spoke. To my surprise, it was Thomas—the grumpy son of the commander. There was a clear frown on his face as he came forward. But before he could step in front of me, Kyle stood between us."Her majesty was not speaking to you, back away." Kyle said with a firm tone.Thomas glared at him and said, "So what if she wasn't talking to me? Is it a bad thing for me to offer myself to my queen?"His last two words were coated with deep sarcasm that I couldn't even ignore. I patted Kyle on his shoulder, gesturing for him to step aside. He did so, but begrudgingly.I faced Thomas and asked, "You want to fight me?" He didn't even bother to hide the defiance in his tone as he said, "Yes, and so what?" I smiled, surprising the kid who was one or two years younger than me. "Okay then, let's spar." Kyle stepped forward, probably about to stop me but I held my hand up and gave him a look, causing him to step back. I spoke to him with my eyes, an
Chapter 74Hope Darius marched over to Kyle and I with a sudden possessive aura clouding his being."Her majesty was attacked by a spy posing as a human maid," Kyle explained solemnly.Upon hearing Kyle's explanation, Darius didn't ease up one bit as he told Kyle to get a physician and leave the two of us. Darius then replaced Kyle and led me to sit on the bed, his face painted with worry."I'm sorry," he said. "I should've gotten here faster. You wouldn't have gotten injured and I would've been able to catch the bastard who did this to you." Hearing him say such words, I couldn't help but chuckle a little bit. It was stupid because I believed him. He had done it once before, back then when there was nothing but hatred between the two of us.It got me thinking that maybe the assassin who snuck into my room that night could've been another of Light's underlings who was sent to kidnap me and bring me to her.I sighed mentally at the thought."I have something to tell you," I whispered
Chapter 73Hope I've put up with this long enough now. It was early morning, a week after 'forgiving' Darius. I was preparing to have breakfast with him when Gwendolyn began speaking."His Majesty has been treating you very preciously these days." It was only ten words but they stirred me up so bad that I stood up from my dressing chair and faced her. "Gwendolyn, you can stop putting on an act now." My voice was firm and my frown was even firmer.It took only a few seconds for her innocent expression to change. Her usual doe eyes narrowed to an almond shape and a wry smile made its way on her lips.She backed up a few steps and placed her hands on her waist. "How long have you known now?" she asked.I glared at her. "You know, I wasn't sure of anything until you just asked that question."Shock flashed her features, but it was too fast for me to decipher her level of surprise.I had always found Gwendolyn annoying and suspicious. But after the entire thing she told me about the st
Chapter 72 Hope "What are you trying to say? Are you trying to mock me or make me feel pity for you?" I questioned. "No, that's not what I'm trying to do. I can assure you," Darius said. I didn't believe. In fact, I didn't even want to believe him. I didn't want to sit here and listen to him wail about his childhood, trying to concoct an excuse for why he acted like a big bully. I liked myself and hated him too much to give him a chance to thaw my heart with his story. "Anyway, I had a very normal childhood fitting for someone that was to be king in the future," Darius heaved a sigh as he spoke. I unconsciously raised a questioning brow. If you had such a normal childhood, why did you then kill your family and make yourself such an unapproachable tyrant? As though he heard my thoughts, Darius said, "But growing up in such a way only made me weak, thought my parents. I wouldn't blame them, I was far too kind in the past." I almost snorted. "There was a time when I
Chapter 71Hope"Someone's looking pretty," Darius said with a smile the second he saw me.It was midnight and I had already dressed up, anticipating his arrival. I wasn't wearing anything especially pretty. Just a dark blue tunic with a pair of black trousers. My hair was parted at the middle and I donning a few jewelries around my neck, wrists, and fingers."Hm," I said in response to Darius."Don't you have anything to say about me?" he teased.He was also dressed as casually as I was. What was there to compliment him about? I turned away from him and said, "Stop fishing for compliments."He made a psh sound before putting out a hand for me. Begrudgingly, I placed my hand in his and unexpectedly, Darius leaned down and placed a kiss on my hand.I flinched and almost retracted my hand, but his hold was firm. He quickly roped an arm around me and began leading me out from my room.To be honest, I was curious about this 'date' of ours. What was Darius hoping to achieve? Why was he so
Chapter 70HopeAnd to think for a second I believed that Darius had summoned me for something important. The moment I stepped into his office, he had engulfed me and in a tight embrace and quickly assaulted my lips with his own.It took me a second to push him away and catch my breath. With a frown, I said, "Stop doing that. I hate it." "What do you hate exactly? Kissing? Or kissing me?" Darius questioned languidly."Both!" I bit out.He chuckled at this, then wrapped his arms around me once again. "What can I do to make you like them both?" "Nothing. And stop holding me!" I tried pushing him away but he held onto me tightly, refusing to let go."To think by now you'd know that physical contact is my love language," Darius said carelessly.The side of my lips tugged up in irritation. He could take his love language and shove it up his ass. I didn't want it. But Darius had other thoughts as his hands begin creeping to my erogenous zones.I bit my bottom lip to mask the shameless sou