Chapter 47 Hope It had been almost a week since I last saw Darius. I was told that he was doing something along the lines of yearly check-in around Moratia. I wondered how long it would take him to return. Not that I wanted him to return. The palace was rather peaceful in his absence. Annalise, Orion, and The commander went along with him. My top tormentors were no longer around to oppress me and freedom was mine to hold and cherish. In the absence of the commander, some of the soldiers had become nice to me. If nice meant acknowledging a person briefly. By my standards, the soldiers just glancing my way without any malicious intent hidden behind their eyes was progress. It meant that the reason why people where so hostile to me was because of them. My husband and his comrades. Currently, I was done with training and lying on the ground like I usually did. It had become a habit of mine these days to lie on the ground after training and wait for Kyle until he was done doing whateve
Chapter 48 Hope I was sitting directly across Thaddeus in the drawing room of the castle alone. His servants, as well as Kyle, were waiting outside the closed door. Thaddeus had requested to speak with me privately. I couldn't shake off the feeling that today was going to be my last day of breathing, so I inhaled and exhaled deeply. Thaddeus sipped on the tea that was served moments ago elegantly, and I watched uncomfortably. I wasn't sure if the fluid was going to pass through my throat if I attempted to swallow it. I wouldn't say a while had passed since the two of us have been in here but it has been enough time for him to get on with doing whatever he planned to do. With every passing second, I was getting more and more anxious. "Hope Vitalis..." Thaddeus started to say, like he had just heard my thoughts. "Or should I say Moratis?" he added. I frowned a little as I waited for him to say something else. He placed his tea cup on the coaster and leaned back on the cushion, a p
Chapter 49HopeI was given an indefinite break off training. It came from the commander herself through a letter. Darius also sent me one but I couldn't be bothered to check the content. The only thing I wanted him to tell me was that he was going make me his queen and I doubted that was in the letter he sent.Kyle and Gwendolyn have both been by my side constantly as though I was a ticking bomb that would explode in the absence of people. I could understand their actions but it was getting stuffy with them around and I wanted to visit Amara.That wouldn't have been a problem if Kyle was the only one watching over me but with Gwendolyn around, I couldn't carry out my plan. I didn't trust her at all and I wasn't going to reveal Amara to her. She could be Darius' spy and would relay my actions to him when she got such a juicy information.Right now I was seated in the garden, painting the landscape. I wasn't a very good painter but I had to keep busy somehow with myself being off train
Chapter 50Kyle'You're the best person ever.'I was someone's best person ever. Even if that someone was my king's wife and the person I was to protect. She was always touching me; something that people didn't do often... Women didn't do often. And she was not an ordinary woman. She was someone's wife. My king's wife.The more I thought of her, the more complex things seemed to be. I looked down on the hand that she grabbed without permission. The hand that she held and didn't let go of until I told her to. I caressed the palm with my other hand, then lifted it to my nose.Her fragrance still lingered on my hand. Vanilla. That was what she smelled like. With a flowery hint, due to the time she spent in the garden today. She seemed so happy, despite the horrid things that had happened to her here.Despite the number of times that I had failed to protect her. I was a good-for-nothing guard but it seemed like she preferred me that way. Hah... "What are you doing?" Someone said as the d
Chapter 51HopeKyle and I were sneaking out of the castle. I was dressed in commoner clothes which consisted of a dark cream long-sleeved top and a long brown apron. My hair was packed into an untidy bun and I wore a heavy cloak to cover myself.Kyle was dressed in a different fashion. I hadn't seen what he was wearing underneath his own cloak but I could tell that it would be drastically different from the uniform I always saw him in. Somehow, that thought excited me.We were going to use the fence at the back of the garden to leave. It was dark and only a half moon was out, so it would be quite hard to sneak out. Not only because of that but because of the knights patrolling around. They were never this much during the day, so how come they were hundreds of them at night?It was like they knew I was planning to sneak out today and posed as barriers in my way. But no matter, I trusted Kyle to get me out of this prison. He was going to take me to a festival in the village but only fo
Chapter 52 Hope Life here in Moratia has been peaceful in the absence of my husband and his comrades. Or should I say too peaceful? That was if such a thing existed. The goons still hadn't returned from their travels even though two weeks had passed. I have been living too freely that I was always scared that while doing something I wasn't supposed to do, Darius would pop up and catch me in the act. But that didn't make me act any less carefree. I visited Amara more frequently than I ought to by giving Gwendolyn impossible tasks to keep her away. I got on with my training and hung around Kyle's friends, who might've been wary of me when the commander was around but treated me fairly now in her absence. I also got to sneak out of the castle a lot after that day Kyle and I went to the festival. He had eased up on shielding me from the outside world after letting me have a sweet taste of it. I appreciated him so much. I have visited bars, plays, markets, eaten street food, so on. Dar
Chapter 53HopeI was freshened up and ready to let loose with the soldiers all while Kyle was voicing out his opposition to my decision. Of course his words were going through one ear and leaving through the other. According to him, it was unbecoming of the wife of the king to frolic with mere soldiers.I begged to defer. If I didn't frolic with mere soldiers, who was I to frolic with then? The nobles? Members of the council? Ha, I think not."Is there any way I can convince you not to come?" Kyle said as we spotted the bonfire at a fair distance and a large group of men and a few women (soldiers) lounging around."Too late," I told my guard, adjusting my hair properly into the messy top bun it was tied in.Kyle huffed out a sigh and I couldn't help but smile and prod his side playfully."Everything is going to be fine. He's not here. And even he was, he wouldn't care," I told Kyle, referring to Darius.It was an obvious lie. Darius would've kill me and the soldiers if he were here.
Chapter 54Hope"And he said, 'Will you take your sister's place?' I was so surprised! I-I wanted to say no but how could I have said no to such a scary person? I foolishly nodded my head. That, my friends, is why I stand before you today!" I explained to the soldiers. "I remember that day. You even cried when it was time to seal the bond with blood," a soldier, who I couldn't remember the name of, spoke up and I nodded in agreement."Whaddya mean?! Of course I cried. Did you see how sharp that knife was. I never want to do such a thing again! Never!" I emphasized, then jumped on one of the empty logs of wood and started to walk on it while tilting uncontrollably since the world was spinning a bit.Ever since I drank that sweet ale, the world has been spinning and a lot of soldiers became twins and triplets. How wonderful that so many of them were here and listening to my stories. Whereas, Kyle was sitting at the far back behind the soldiers, exactly where I had told him to sit a fe
HopeDarius and I stopped the carriage at a place referred to as the 'Land of many Legends.' He had said that it was the most magical place in the Moratian Kingdom as it captured the essence and statues of past heroes, both humans and Lycans.It was also an attraction sight that had many different things displayed all around it. A perfect place for sightseeing Darius said.But he had no idea that I had already been here and seen all that there was to see. Twice, even. There was no way to tell Darius about my night outings with Kyle while he was away in a manner that he would be able to digest them without getting angry. Or worse, getting disappointed.A disappointed Darius was harder to deal with than an angry Darius. I knew this very well. So my night outings were forever going to go as an untouched secret.Darius led me out of the carriage and the other visitors of the Land of the Legends had to stop and pay the utmost respect to their beloved king and queen.Ever since I became que
HopeI was in a very good mood today. I woke up early feeling refreshed. Maybe it was because there was no longer a creature inside my stomach draining my energy. I freshened up and sent a maid to tell Darius to meet me for breakfast at the dining table. By the time I reached the dining table myself, I was surprised to see that Darius was already there.And an even more surprising thing to me was that I saw the head of the dining table now had two throne-like chairs placed side-by-side to each other.Darius was standing behind the chairs with a stroke of uneasiness on his expression. I walked over to him and said, "Good morning." "Good morning, Hope." Darius said back to me, then his eyes bounced and landed on Kyle who was close behind me. I could sense the hostility in Darius' gaze as he looked at Kyle. It made me want to frown. Was this foolish husband of mine jealous of the same bodyguard that he had hired to protect me?I almost facepalmed myself at the thought. But since I was
Kyle "S-Shut your mouth." I said with a stutter."Why should I? Everyone knows about your unrequited love for her. It's honestly pathetic, but to think that you would go against the kingdom for her. You've become so soft and stupid-"I tightened my grip on Thomas's hands and forced him to shut up."I've said what I wanted to say. Stop making a fool of yourself and keep quiet. This has absolutely nothing to do with you." I spoke with a deep and threatening voice.Thomas didn't say anything again, but it looked like he had something to say."And if you think about telling anyone about tonight, remember that you were also in that shop." I added.It meant that Thomas also wanted to purchase something that was not appropriate. His eyes widened as he understood what I was talking about. Then they narrowed into slits."Fine. Whatever." He finally relented with a reluctant tone.I slowly let go of him and backed away. "What were you there for?" I asked him.Thomas glared at me shamelessly a
Kyle My hands were trembling. Ever since I left the castle, my entire body has been shaking. Would I really be able to do this? Betray my kingdom... Betray everything I serve, everything I believe in. All for the very person that I serve, the person I believe in, the person I love. Could I really do that? What was I thinking? I was already doing it. I was already close to a hidden tonic shop. There was no time to regret my actions or turn back. I had already promised my lady that I would do everything for her. Including this. And I very well knew why she wouldn't want to give birth to the next heir. She was human, damn it! And she wanted to remain human. She didn't want to turn into us... me... It was still clear that she held resentment for the Lycan kind. Abortion tonics were not exactly illegal. From time to time, people would come to order them. Not everyone had to bear the heir to the throne who was important and ending their life in a womb was a sin. And also, this par
Hope Back in my room, I folded myself into a ball on my bed. It seemed like everyone else was happy about my pregnancy except for me. Why did that make me feel bad? That they were all placing their hope on me and that I was going to destroy it?Maybe that was why.I didn't know how long I was curled up for before I heard the subtle sounds of knocking on my door."Your Majesty, it's me. I've brought you food." I heard a voice similar to Kyle's own coming from the outside of the room.I sighed and forced myself to say, "Come in." Not even a second later, the door to my room opened up and Kyle walked in with a food tray. Thankfully, it was only Kyle, and not another person whom I did not want to see or talk to.Kyle walked over to my bed to set the food tray next to me, but I directed him to put the food away and shut the door. There was a complex look on Kyle's face after receiving those orders, however he still obeyed them."Come closer." I said to Kyle, who was still standing by the
Hope I had hoped things wouldn't turn out this way, but they still did. After Darius left, I sunk into deep thoughts. Darius wanted me to keep this child, but the heavens knew that I couldn't.I wouldn't be able to even if I could.I looked down at my stomach. My hand led itself to touch it. It wasn't the child's fault. I just didn't want to become a Lycan. I didn't want to lose my humanity.The Blood Moon would occur in less than a week. This was the absolute worst time to even be thinking about bringing a child into the world.I had no clue why Darius would want a child at this time. Suddenly, I remembered something. He had once told me that he wanted to get me pregnant so that I wouldn't leave him.How foolish of him.If I truly wanted to leave him now, being pregnant would be the least thing that I would be bothered about in our relationship.*****Later in the day, I got out of bed and decided to actually do queenly activities. But as soon as I stepped out of my chambers, Kyle w
Hope"This is the greatest news ever!" Darius exclaimed joyfully, standing up to his feet to rejoice."Congratulations, your majesties," the physician said to me and Darius with a proud smile. "The queen is about two to three months pregnant. We should quickly begin the transformation process in order to ensure a safe delivery and a stable health for her Majesty." "Transformation process...?" I said slowly, then looked at Darius.There was a bright smile on his face as he said, "Yes. The transformation process. You know you can't give birth to a royal Lycan child with a human bodily constitution. There is a ninety percent chance of dying. It is better to transform into a Lycan to give birth."It is not a very difficult process. Painful, yes. But I will be there for you and help you-" "Are you listening yourself, Darius Moratis?" I cut him off with a sharp tone. The tension in the room surged."Ah... Your majesties, I will take my leave now." The physician said with a hint of discomf
Hope It was annoying how I was always waking up to Darius sitting by my bed. However, today, he was not the only person by my bed. There was a physician standing over the bed. I easily recognized him as he had attended to me once before.I sat up on my bed defensively and said, "What is it? What's going on?" "Calm down. Everything is going to be alright." Darius said in a soothing voice, then reached to touch my face.I slapped his hand away from my face. "Don't. Why's he here? What's happening?" Seeing that I wasn't going to relent until I got answers, Darius exhaled through his mouth and decided to explain things to me."He is here to perform a full body check up on-""I don't need one," I quickly said, cutting Darius off.A full body check up? That was equivalent to executing me with a stake! I glanced at the physician and glared at him. If he touched me and sensed my pulse, he would immediately be able to tell that I was pregnant.And since he appeared to be deathly loyal to Da
HopeThe next day, Darius was in my room when I woke up. I was momentarily startled, causing me to sit up on my bed and say, "What are you doing here?" Darius smiled gently before saying, "I came to check up on you. It's almost noon and you're still in bed." I frowned, then turned to look at my window. The afternoon sun was much too bright and I got the urge to close my eyes once again and continue sleeping. "Well, I'm fine as you can see. I was just resting. You've checked up on me. You can leave now. You've done enough." I didn't hide the irritation and annoyance in my tone, causing Darius to flinch at the sudden hostility he was receiving from me.I wanted to take back my words but it was already too late and I was still much uncomfortable in Darius' presence. He made me pregnant for hell's sake! I didn't want to even look at his face right now."Oh, okay then. I'll leave you to rest." Darius' tone sounded awfully pitiful in that moment as he stood up from the bed and dismissed