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19 The Preparation
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2020-09-01 01:14:18Why am I so unlucky this week? Losing an opportunity to talk to him once is acceptable but having it twice is already too much. I had waited for his message and call the whole day yesterday. I had a chance to meet him 3 hours ago and I spoiled that chance.
I replied immediately. "Sorry, I just read your message. I was watching Netflix and I got hooked with the story. I really want to meet you but I know it's already too late."
End of message.
I'm sure he is already asleep. I feel so hopeless again. Why do I have to have this kind of feeling? I'm sure this night will be long. I would feel restless again tonight thinking and waiting for his reply.
I went to the bathroom to wash my face. I need to calm myself down. I need to remind myself that worrying and feeling guilty wouldn't change anything and there is still the next day for us to meet. He is a busy man so every opportunity to meet him is important but I'm sure if he really wants to see me, he will spa
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