Chapter 12: Close CallKim:Kim got out of the car and immediately brushed off his bodyguards who had come running to help carry Kit to the infirmary. However, they all stood stunned as Kim picked the boy up in his arms instead before rushing into the main house.Aawut had already called the family doctor to remain on standby at Kim’s command and the commotion had already drawn quiet a lot of spectators as the maids and other servants looked on in bewilderment as Kim brought the boy to his room instead of the infirmary and asked the doctor to shift location so Kit could be more comfortable.Kim’s sexuality had never been a reason of gossip around the main house, especially since Kim himself was so open about it that it was considered normal. However, despite the many lovers that had visited Kim’s house, Kit was the only one that Kim ever taken into his room. He was the only boy that Kim had been this concerned about.Especially when the doctor took longer to shift location and arrived
Chapter 13: Staying or Running Away…Kit:Kit opened his eyes to the bright morning light streaming in through the large glass windows at the end of the room.He tried to raise his hand to his eyes, feeling exhausted like he had never felt before. His entire body was aching and there was a dull throb in his head that threatened to turn into a migraine at any moment.A low groan left his throat. He wanted that light gone…it was too much. But he didn’t have the strength to go over and pull the curtains.As if someone had heard his thoughts, the curtains in that direction were pulled shut, cutting off the light and providing him with instant relief as the room was shrouded in darkness. Actually, it wasn’t really that dark, but the sudden change made the room seem darker than usual.“How are you feeling?” A familiar deep voice washed over his senses as a cool hand landed on his forehead. He recognized the voice…but he was having trouble matching it to a face.The hand slowly began to retr
Chapter 14: Moving OutKim:“Is that truly the reason why you want to move out, Nong Kit? Or are you just finding an excuse to run away from your problems?”Kim’s own question plagued his mind from time to time as he sat in his chair in his office, looking out at the Bangkok high rises through the clear glass window that stretched the entire length of the wall.The truth was…Nong Kit wasn’t just running away from his problems…he was running away from Kim.Of course Kim knew about it. How could he not when the boy’s crystal clear hazel eyes spoke volumes about what was really going on in his heart? If eyes were the windows to one’s soul, the Kit’s were wide open and with full clarity.He was still far too innocent…far too naïve for this world that Kim lived in.The best solution would have been to let him go; to let him live his life however he wanted and to never see him again. But it was already a little too late for that. It had been since the day he had decided to take him to his c
Chapter 15: ShadowKit:“Kit! Kit, over here!”Earth, Ben and Nong Prem, three of his best friends from high school, waved Kit over when they saw him entering the campus the following week, his backpack slung over his shoulder as he kept glancing back at the sleek black car driving away from the main street.“Hey guys!” Kit waved back before making his way over to his friends, but not before looking back at the gates one last time to make sure that the men who had dropped him off were truly gone for good.The past week, even though both his sister and P’Kim had agreed that he could move into a dorm near his campus, they had hardly let him do anything by himself…except for maybe, going to the toilet alone.Either P’Kanya or P’Kim had been like his shadow, going everywhere he went, until he had gotten fed up and reminded them, not-so-calmly, that he was okay and all he had was flesh wound. The x-ray that the doctor had requested had come back clean and there were no lasting side-effects
Chapter 16: Home TourKit:Kit had initially thought that one of P’Kim's men would drop him the keys after he had finished his studies and then give him some kind of map, so he could easily find out where the condo was located.However, as he bid goodbye to his friends and watched them leave one by one, Earth and Ben on their motorbikes and then Prem was picked up by Nong Wayo in his luxury car…Kit found himself almost all alone in front of the college building, waiting for some kind of sign that someone had bothered to remember that he was supposed to move into his new condo today…Or was this P’Kim’s way of telling me that my request for moving out has been denied? Kit thought to himself, just as a shiny black car, which had been parked not too far away in the shades of the trees on the opposite side of the road, began to drive his way and came to a stop in front of him.Kit looked on either side of the almost empty road to see if the car was waiting for someone else, however, when
Chapter 17: YouKim:“P’Kim…” The boy pushed him back with all his strength and jumped back as if he had been burned. “Don’t joke with me, na!”“I’m not joking.” Kim told the boy seriously. “Ever since I met you in that soup house two weeks ago…it’s all I’ve ever wanted.”Kit felt faint…like the ground was slipping from under his feet.“You.”The instant P’Kim had uttered those words; Kit had known that he was a goner. Hadn't he been fighting his own heart for the longest time? But now…hearing P’Kim say these words…it felt like a fantasy come to life.But at the same time…it felt so, so wrong.“This…isn’t wrong…right? This won’t hurt my sister…right?” He asked hesitantly, biting his lower lip as P’Kim came to stand in front of him once again.“Mai.” And then Kim wrapped his arm around Kit’s waist once again, hauling him to his chest and crashed his lips onto Kit’s, preventing him from speaking further. He didn’t want any more interruptions, any more obstacles. He wanted Kit and he wan
Chapter 18: SuspiciousKla:“P’Kla?” Kaya smiled at the older man as she approaches the pool in the backyard to find him standing towards the edge and enjoying the view of the sun shining off of the clear blue water. “Sawadee Kha.”Kla was wearing a bright blue shirt with tiny white palm trees embroidered onto it and he had paired it with white dress pants. His sunglasses covered most of his face and the light afternoon wind blew his hair onto his forehead, making him look a lot younger than his age. In fact, Kla was only four years older than Kim and Kaya, making him thirty three years old.“Sawadee Khap, Khun Kanya.” Kla bowed slightly in greeting as Kaya raised her hands in greeting. “Did you come for a swim?”Kla intended to head back inside in case Kanya did intend to use the pool.“Mi mi kha!” (Not at all) Kaya shook her head instantly. “I just wanted to get out of my room for a little bit. Since Nong Som hasn’t come back yet, I was feeling a little lonely.”“I see.” Kla nodded,
Chapter 19: Advise from the WiseKit:Kit waited after classes were over so he could catch up to the one person who he knew would be able to help him: Prem.Not only was Prem’s love interest a boy, but he had been with Nong Wayo for quite some time now, even though they weren’t official, nor did they hav anything physical about their relationship. It was just pure love and adoration between the two of them.“Prem.” Kit called out as he saw the younger man head towards the exit of the campus. “Can I talk to you for a bit?”Kit still had one class left in the afternoon, but he had decided to skip it and asked his friends to help him with the roll call, because this matter had seemed much more urgent to him.“Kit?” Prem turned to his friend, halfway to the campus gates. “Yes, sure. Don’t you have classes though?”“I do…I just…need to talk to you real quick.” Kit hesitated a bit as he caught up to his friend.“It’s okay. We have time.” Prem gave him a smile. “Let’s grab something to eat s
Chapter 80: Above All ElseKit:It seemed that his pleas had the opposite of his intended effect, because instead of sympathizing with him, it was clear that P’Kla was getting frustrated, if the way his brows met in the middle was any indication.“Stop talking in riddles,” he snapped. “If you want me to help you, then give it to me straight. Tell me directly what’s wrong and what you’re hiding.”If only P’Kla knew just how much Kit wanted to tell the whole world about the problems he was currently facing.“You have to promise me first,” he bargained, insistent. “You cannot tell anyone what you have seen.” He gestured to his neck. “Neither can you broadcast what I tell you to anyone else—anyone at all.”P’Kla was still obviously annoyed by these cryptic responses, but Kit knew that he had to be careful above all else.When P’Kla realized that such a thing was non-negotiable to Kit, he sighed, calming down a bit. “You came to me for help,” he reminded the younger man. “And so, I am doin
Chapter 79: I Fear For Those I LoveKit:It took quite some time before P’Kla finally headed downstairs after his guards informed him that Kit was there, demanding an audience. He didn’t really interact with Kit that much, mostly because there was no need for him to do so. Kit was Kim’s lover, and the man was very possessive about Kit, so Kla didn’t want to bother much about socializing.In fact, he wasn’t a people person. Moreover, he still had some leftover grudge on Kit that didn’t really go away—he had been sort of bitter about Kit being the apple of Kim’s eye, instead of Kanya, who was carrying his child, and even though that matter had already been resolved, it seemed that there was still some reluctance on Kla’s part.But since Kit had told the guards that he had something urgent to discuss with the cold and firm lawyer, the man in question managed to force himself out of his room to see what this “urgent matter” was all about.When Kla came down, he saw Kit huddled by himself
Chapter 78: Left with No Other ChoiceKit:As soon as P’Kim departed, shutting his door with a firm hand behind him, Kit was quick to spring up from his bed and lock the door.When he fell back on the bed, he proceeded to bury himself under the covers, fear and guilt churning in his gut for what he had just done. He hadn't meant to expose Ben’s secret to P’Kim, in fact, he had wanted to take that secret to the grave if possible. But circumstances hadn't left him with much of a choice.The only relief he felt was at the fact that talking to P’Kim about Ben had somehow lessened the guilt that he felt towards his friend for not realizing his feelings sooner. But the most prominent guilt remained, and it gnawed at him until he pulled the covers over his head, cowering away from the rest of world in hopes that if he hid away, somehow, everything would be alright.Unintentionally but also quite expected, he soon dozed off and only startled awake when a knock sounded at his door.He was sayi
Chapter 77: Mine AloneKim:Kim called David to his office as soon as he settled into his chair. He could not shake the feeling that something had happened at the restaurant to make Kit severely upset. But seeing as his first move was to go to his sister for comfort, it must have been something really serious, perhaps even something he was afraid of telling Kim.What was it? As Kim waited in the room, he racked his brain of all the possibilities. Did he get attacked while he was out? No, it didn’t seem like he was physically hurt, and if he did, David would have informed him immediately.Did he have a fight with his friends? Maybe. But that would mean that the Chiang Mai trip was off, right? And he doubted Kit would do something to ruin the plans that they had carefully crafted to catch the shooter.Did he just have a flashback of their mom for some reason? Maybe that was making him miss her? Perhaps. But if that had happened, that means something must have triggered his memories of h
Chapter 76: The Plight of Two SiblingsKit:David raced along the hallway, his heart in his throat as he took out his gun, trying his best to keep it from plain sight as he raced towards the washroom.He had been waiting for some time now, for N’Kit to come out of the restaurant, but when he didn’t do so, even after sending him the message that he was done, he couldn’t help but worry that something had happened to the Master’s lover.Reaching the washroom, he didn’t waste any time in kicking the door open, not waiting to check if the door was locked or not. But instead of finding N’Kit in any peril, he found him by the sink, throwing water onto his face.“Is everything alright?” He asked worriedly, out of breath. “What took you so long?”Kit mustered a smile and a nod. “Yes, everything’s fine, P’David.” He tried to look reassuring. “I just came to the toilet..for urgent business..”“Ah, I see.” P’David’s face colored, but he still looked around the room for anything suspicious, but fo
Chapter 75: Long Time No SeeKitKit froze in place, not knowing what to do or how to react. His heart was beating so fast in his chest that for an instant, all he could hear was the sound of his heartbeat as his entire body went numb. His mind couldn’t even come up with anything, it too seemed to have gone numb.He looked up into the mirror in front of him, because turning back wasn’t an option. And almost in slow motion, as if time itself had slowed down to a crawl, he saw the reflection of a man standing behind him, in dark hoodie with the hood covering his face…one of the telltale signs of suspicion that P’First and P’Kim had drilled into him and Ben, but both had failed to notice.And then the man, who was almost the same height as Kit, reached out with his free hand to remove the hood from his head, to reveal the face of his own father—the very same man whom everyone had thought had died a long time ago.Well…everyone had thought he was dead, most of all P’Kanya…but thanks to P’
Chapter 74: A Terrible FriendKit:Earth had guessed it right—Kit was having a hard time with this revelation. He couldn't believe that what he was hearing was real!Surely, it was impossible. Earth didn't know what he was talking about. He was mistaken!“Are you sure about this?” Kit asked again. “Are you sure you’re not making this shit up for keeping secrets from you about the Chiang Mai trip? Because it isn't funny.”Earth’s frown deepened as he looked at Kit. “Does this look like a prank to you, Kit? Do you think I would stoop so low as to make fun of such a thing at Ben’s expense? Everyone, even Prem could tell that Ben liked you.”Kit couldn’t believe what he was hearing. All his life, he thought that Ben was his closest friend, but now it was starting to hit him that Ben had had feelings for him this whole time.And that was quite challenging to accept—Ben was one of his best friends, after all. It was like the ground was being pulled from beneath his feet, making him trip and
Chapter 73: All This TimeKit:It was a while more before Kit and Earth were left alone to enjoy dessert. Ben had left when a car came to collect him for his doctor’s check-up, Kit’s eyes following as his friend disappeared behind the tinted windows of P’First’s familiar car and drove off.One of P’First’s men had actually entered the restaurant to look around as well, while they had come to collect Ben, and after a quick sweep, that man had told Kit that everything seemed to be alright so he could stay a bit longer if he wanted to.Earth followed Kit’s eyes with a sigh. “Ben has really changed a lot in the past few months, hasn't he?”“Hmm?” Kit belatedly returned his gaze to Earth. “Arai na? What exactly do you mean?’“Well, for starters, he’s gotten himself involved with a mafia don,” Earth pointed out with a scoff. “ And that said don just send his car to fetch his boy. They probably have the same relationship that you have with P’Kim. Don't you think so, too?”Kit considered it,
Chapter 72: Extended InvitationKit:Coming Thursday, Kit, Ben and Earth decided to meet up at a fancy café instead of their usual roadside Pa’s restaurant. Not that anything was wrong with the restaurant, but Kit and Ben had discussed that a less crowded place would be a better choice for them at the time. P’David drove Ben and Kit there together, while Earth told them he’d meet with them at the location.They were certain that whoever was spying on them would be there as well, not wanting to pass up the opportunity to observe them “unaware”.P’Kim and P’First had already oriented them on what to do, with P’Kim fretting more than the latter. “Do not engage,” he had said. “Again, you are simply there to observe and take note of anyone who could possibly be spying on you. If anything happens, P’David will be on standby, so just run. Got it?”“Yes, P’Kim, you said that more than five times already,” Kit had said, his patience wearing thin. He knew P’Kim just wanted to ensure their safet