Chapter 17: YouKim:“P’Kim…” The boy pushed him back with all his strength and jumped back as if he had been burned. “Don’t joke with me, na!”“I’m not joking.” Kim told the boy seriously. “Ever since I met you in that soup house two weeks ago…it’s all I’ve ever wanted.”Kit felt faint…like the ground was slipping from under his feet.“You.”The instant P’Kim had uttered those words; Kit had known that he was a goner. Hadn't he been fighting his own heart for the longest time? But now…hearing P’Kim say these words…it felt like a fantasy come to life.But at the same time…it felt so, so wrong.“This…isn’t wrong…right? This won’t hurt my sister…right?” He asked hesitantly, biting his lower lip as P’Kim came to stand in front of him once again.“Mai.” And then Kim wrapped his arm around Kit’s waist once again, hauling him to his chest and crashed his lips onto Kit’s, preventing him from speaking further. He didn’t want any more interruptions, any more obstacles. He wanted Kit and he wan
Chapter 18: SuspiciousKla:“P’Kla?” Kaya smiled at the older man as she approaches the pool in the backyard to find him standing towards the edge and enjoying the view of the sun shining off of the clear blue water. “Sawadee Kha.”Kla was wearing a bright blue shirt with tiny white palm trees embroidered onto it and he had paired it with white dress pants. His sunglasses covered most of his face and the light afternoon wind blew his hair onto his forehead, making him look a lot younger than his age. In fact, Kla was only four years older than Kim and Kaya, making him thirty three years old.“Sawadee Khap, Khun Kanya.” Kla bowed slightly in greeting as Kaya raised her hands in greeting. “Did you come for a swim?”Kla intended to head back inside in case Kanya did intend to use the pool.“Mi mi kha!” (Not at all) Kaya shook her head instantly. “I just wanted to get out of my room for a little bit. Since Nong Som hasn’t come back yet, I was feeling a little lonely.”“I see.” Kla nodded,
Chapter 19: Advise from the WiseKit:Kit waited after classes were over so he could catch up to the one person who he knew would be able to help him: Prem.Not only was Prem’s love interest a boy, but he had been with Nong Wayo for quite some time now, even though they weren’t official, nor did they hav anything physical about their relationship. It was just pure love and adoration between the two of them.“Prem.” Kit called out as he saw the younger man head towards the exit of the campus. “Can I talk to you for a bit?”Kit still had one class left in the afternoon, but he had decided to skip it and asked his friends to help him with the roll call, because this matter had seemed much more urgent to him.“Kit?” Prem turned to his friend, halfway to the campus gates. “Yes, sure. Don’t you have classes though?”“I do…I just…need to talk to you real quick.” Kit hesitated a bit as he caught up to his friend.“It’s okay. We have time.” Prem gave him a smile. “Let’s grab something to eat s
Chapter 20: KidnappedKit:“So…let us get this straight…you slept with a guy? And not just any guy…your sister’s rich best friend who offered you the condo you’re currently living in?”Kit looked at Earth and Ben with a frown. Why did they make it seem like he just found himself a sugar daddy? Or was that just what he had been feeling, and hearing his friends say it out loud was partially playing on his guilty-conscience?“And now he wants you to continue the arrangement…the sleeping around with no-strings thing, but you don’t want that…you want to do more?”“That’s pretty much it.” Kit sighed, leaning back in his chair as he watched his friend’s flabbergasted expressions, trying to decide if he had done the right thing by telling them the whole truth in the first place. “What happened that night was a one-time thing. I’ve never had a one-night stand with anyone, nor am I an expert at having no-strings relationships. I’ve never had a relationship in my life, period!”Well…he hadn't ac
Chapter 21: TradeKim:“What?”Kit had been kidnapped? Kim couldn’t believe his own ears. How could that be possible? Even after the way his men had been watching him?“Does anyone else know?” He asked Aawut suddenly, fearing that Kaya might have heard or seen something suspicious while he was making his way up to Kim’s room.“No, Sire.” Aawut bowed his head slightly, much to Kim’s relief. “I made sure not to let anyone find out as I was coming up here.”“How did this happen, Aawut?” Sudden anger made Kim lose his composure as he grabbed Aawut’s collar, speaking through gritted teeth as he held his temper under tight control. “How could you let this happen to him?”“We couldn’t engage with them, Sire,” Aawut said hurriedly, taken aback by his boss’s sudden aggressive behavior. “There was the mark of the tiger on the car that stopped in front of the University. Stopping them at that point would have resulted in a shootout and it was in front of the University…our men didn’t want to cau
Chapter 22: VolunteerKit:Kit felt his heart thrash against his ribcage at the mention of P’Kim. He knew that P’First wasn’t going to go easy on him, just as he knew that P’Kim would probably do everything that P’First told him to do just to save Kit and his friends because of his obligation to his sister…and he didn’t want any of that.But it was already too late to do anything about it. Because it was at that moment that he saw P’Kim being escorted inside by P’First’s men, followed by P’Aawut and some of his other men that Kit hadn't seen before.P’Kim was wearing a steel grey jacket and dress pants, paired with a red shirt. He seemed to be the only pop of color in this sea of black and white and even in such a dire situation, Kit felt his heart flutter at the sight of him.He came! Kit thought to himself, his mind stuck between joy and panic as she saw the guns being pointed in P’Kim’s direction. He came for me!Despite their disagreement the last time they had met…P’Kim had decid
Hi guys,Thank you so much for liking and reading my very first BL book. Writing this is kind of nerve-wracking for me because I constantly keep thinking that I'm making some kind of mistake or that my voice in the story is getting too feminine...however, I have decided to just...quit my fears and go for it. And that you so, so much for your support on this story. This is getting more views than my exclusives.However, I'm not always able to update these BLs on time because I'm mainly focused on my exclusives and matching my word count. I try my best to update as frequently as possible...which, I admit, isn't as much as I want to. Sometime I lack motivation and sometimes it's health issues or a combination of both. But I'll try to finish both my BLs by June, Pride Month...I hope!And, now comes the important part! First and Ben!Yes, First and Ben's story is going to be separate and it's going to be toxic and filled with SA. I think we've established by now that First isn't exactly a n
Chapter 23: Alone With YouKim:Kim held onto Kit’s hand tightly as he got them out of the warehouse.Outside there were several cars waiting; men stood on alert in black suits, guns drawn, ready to attack at any given moment. They were all his men. If P’First had thought that he’d come without backup, then he had been gravely mistaken.But Kim hadn't wanted the situation to reach a bloodbath. So he had taken only a few with him inside the warehouse…a decision he was now regretting as he saw Kit turn back to look at his friend several times, until the doors to the warehouse were shut on his face.“P’Kim…” Kit’s hand tightened on his, his head still turned towards the house still. “Ben…”“Will our friend be alright?” Earth came forward to ask Kim, even though he was scared himself after watching all the bloodshed. “He’s not going to…P’First won’t…”Earth tried to say the words but he wasn’t able to continue. He just couldn’t get the words past his throat.“Let’s get out of here first.”
Chapter 80: Above All ElseKit:It seemed that his pleas had the opposite of his intended effect, because instead of sympathizing with him, it was clear that P’Kla was getting frustrated, if the way his brows met in the middle was any indication.“Stop talking in riddles,” he snapped. “If you want me to help you, then give it to me straight. Tell me directly what’s wrong and what you’re hiding.”If only P’Kla knew just how much Kit wanted to tell the whole world about the problems he was currently facing.“You have to promise me first,” he bargained, insistent. “You cannot tell anyone what you have seen.” He gestured to his neck. “Neither can you broadcast what I tell you to anyone else—anyone at all.”P’Kla was still obviously annoyed by these cryptic responses, but Kit knew that he had to be careful above all else.When P’Kla realized that such a thing was non-negotiable to Kit, he sighed, calming down a bit. “You came to me for help,” he reminded the younger man. “And so, I am doin
Chapter 79: I Fear For Those I LoveKit:It took quite some time before P’Kla finally headed downstairs after his guards informed him that Kit was there, demanding an audience. He didn’t really interact with Kit that much, mostly because there was no need for him to do so. Kit was Kim’s lover, and the man was very possessive about Kit, so Kla didn’t want to bother much about socializing.In fact, he wasn’t a people person. Moreover, he still had some leftover grudge on Kit that didn’t really go away—he had been sort of bitter about Kit being the apple of Kim’s eye, instead of Kanya, who was carrying his child, and even though that matter had already been resolved, it seemed that there was still some reluctance on Kla’s part.But since Kit had told the guards that he had something urgent to discuss with the cold and firm lawyer, the man in question managed to force himself out of his room to see what this “urgent matter” was all about.When Kla came down, he saw Kit huddled by himself
Chapter 78: Left with No Other ChoiceKit:As soon as P’Kim departed, shutting his door with a firm hand behind him, Kit was quick to spring up from his bed and lock the door.When he fell back on the bed, he proceeded to bury himself under the covers, fear and guilt churning in his gut for what he had just done. He hadn't meant to expose Ben’s secret to P’Kim, in fact, he had wanted to take that secret to the grave if possible. But circumstances hadn't left him with much of a choice.The only relief he felt was at the fact that talking to P’Kim about Ben had somehow lessened the guilt that he felt towards his friend for not realizing his feelings sooner. But the most prominent guilt remained, and it gnawed at him until he pulled the covers over his head, cowering away from the rest of world in hopes that if he hid away, somehow, everything would be alright.Unintentionally but also quite expected, he soon dozed off and only startled awake when a knock sounded at his door.He was sayi
Chapter 77: Mine AloneKim:Kim called David to his office as soon as he settled into his chair. He could not shake the feeling that something had happened at the restaurant to make Kit severely upset. But seeing as his first move was to go to his sister for comfort, it must have been something really serious, perhaps even something he was afraid of telling Kim.What was it? As Kim waited in the room, he racked his brain of all the possibilities. Did he get attacked while he was out? No, it didn’t seem like he was physically hurt, and if he did, David would have informed him immediately.Did he have a fight with his friends? Maybe. But that would mean that the Chiang Mai trip was off, right? And he doubted Kit would do something to ruin the plans that they had carefully crafted to catch the shooter.Did he just have a flashback of their mom for some reason? Maybe that was making him miss her? Perhaps. But if that had happened, that means something must have triggered his memories of h
Chapter 76: The Plight of Two SiblingsKit:David raced along the hallway, his heart in his throat as he took out his gun, trying his best to keep it from plain sight as he raced towards the washroom.He had been waiting for some time now, for N’Kit to come out of the restaurant, but when he didn’t do so, even after sending him the message that he was done, he couldn’t help but worry that something had happened to the Master’s lover.Reaching the washroom, he didn’t waste any time in kicking the door open, not waiting to check if the door was locked or not. But instead of finding N’Kit in any peril, he found him by the sink, throwing water onto his face.“Is everything alright?” He asked worriedly, out of breath. “What took you so long?”Kit mustered a smile and a nod. “Yes, everything’s fine, P’David.” He tried to look reassuring. “I just came to the toilet..for urgent business..”“Ah, I see.” P’David’s face colored, but he still looked around the room for anything suspicious, but fo
Chapter 75: Long Time No SeeKitKit froze in place, not knowing what to do or how to react. His heart was beating so fast in his chest that for an instant, all he could hear was the sound of his heartbeat as his entire body went numb. His mind couldn’t even come up with anything, it too seemed to have gone numb.He looked up into the mirror in front of him, because turning back wasn’t an option. And almost in slow motion, as if time itself had slowed down to a crawl, he saw the reflection of a man standing behind him, in dark hoodie with the hood covering his face…one of the telltale signs of suspicion that P’First and P’Kim had drilled into him and Ben, but both had failed to notice.And then the man, who was almost the same height as Kit, reached out with his free hand to remove the hood from his head, to reveal the face of his own father—the very same man whom everyone had thought had died a long time ago.Well…everyone had thought he was dead, most of all P’Kanya…but thanks to P’
Chapter 74: A Terrible FriendKit:Earth had guessed it right—Kit was having a hard time with this revelation. He couldn't believe that what he was hearing was real!Surely, it was impossible. Earth didn't know what he was talking about. He was mistaken!“Are you sure about this?” Kit asked again. “Are you sure you’re not making this shit up for keeping secrets from you about the Chiang Mai trip? Because it isn't funny.”Earth’s frown deepened as he looked at Kit. “Does this look like a prank to you, Kit? Do you think I would stoop so low as to make fun of such a thing at Ben’s expense? Everyone, even Prem could tell that Ben liked you.”Kit couldn’t believe what he was hearing. All his life, he thought that Ben was his closest friend, but now it was starting to hit him that Ben had had feelings for him this whole time.And that was quite challenging to accept—Ben was one of his best friends, after all. It was like the ground was being pulled from beneath his feet, making him trip and
Chapter 73: All This TimeKit:It was a while more before Kit and Earth were left alone to enjoy dessert. Ben had left when a car came to collect him for his doctor’s check-up, Kit’s eyes following as his friend disappeared behind the tinted windows of P’First’s familiar car and drove off.One of P’First’s men had actually entered the restaurant to look around as well, while they had come to collect Ben, and after a quick sweep, that man had told Kit that everything seemed to be alright so he could stay a bit longer if he wanted to.Earth followed Kit’s eyes with a sigh. “Ben has really changed a lot in the past few months, hasn't he?”“Hmm?” Kit belatedly returned his gaze to Earth. “Arai na? What exactly do you mean?’“Well, for starters, he’s gotten himself involved with a mafia don,” Earth pointed out with a scoff. “ And that said don just send his car to fetch his boy. They probably have the same relationship that you have with P’Kim. Don't you think so, too?”Kit considered it,
Chapter 72: Extended InvitationKit:Coming Thursday, Kit, Ben and Earth decided to meet up at a fancy café instead of their usual roadside Pa’s restaurant. Not that anything was wrong with the restaurant, but Kit and Ben had discussed that a less crowded place would be a better choice for them at the time. P’David drove Ben and Kit there together, while Earth told them he’d meet with them at the location.They were certain that whoever was spying on them would be there as well, not wanting to pass up the opportunity to observe them “unaware”.P’Kim and P’First had already oriented them on what to do, with P’Kim fretting more than the latter. “Do not engage,” he had said. “Again, you are simply there to observe and take note of anyone who could possibly be spying on you. If anything happens, P’David will be on standby, so just run. Got it?”“Yes, P’Kim, you said that more than five times already,” Kit had said, his patience wearing thin. He knew P’Kim just wanted to ensure their safet