In a flash, I had to say goodbye to everyone I cherished.
“We tried, but I guess this is the end.”
The tears flowed through my eyes, not because I will never be allowed to compete. But at the fact that they witness how easy it was for her family to discard my hard work, passion, and interests. She was more than just sad.
I am ashamed.
I did not dare look into my teacher’s eyes, nor stare long enough at my friends who supported me with all their might. With a heavy heart, I let go of their hands – completely destroying the bridge that I have made with them. Hoping that one day, I did not have to face them again and reminisce this shameful day of my defeat. Will I ever win against her family? I think the better question is, do i really need to constantly be in a fight with them in the first place?
It was a very bright and cheery morning, but the interiors of their family house seem to have a different weather pattern. It was d
“It is so beautiful on you, Madam!” he exclaimed carefully rested the bedazzling jewelry on my chest. I usually gasp at the coldness of metals necklaces when they hit my skin, but the forthcoming event is giving me more chills. Nothing is more stomach-churning than my second cousin’s fifth wedding and this time with some vivacious female celebrity. Even though it wasn’t his first time getting married, the elders insisted that it is a common courtesy, and that we should all bless them and attend. If it only wasn’t needed to maintain my relevance and strengthen my network among our relatives and peers, I would never bother attending such energy-consuming event. “I bet no one can make this look more elegant than you do!” I scoffed at his insufferable enthusiasm and boot-licking. Of course, it will look elegant. How else can you make a $5.8 million worth of diamanté
“And now, the champion for the 1987 Melaware District’s Annual Inter-Academy Science Fair is…” My heart was thumping with excitement and nervousness. I have spent weeks of sleepless nights in ensuring that my science project is nothing but flawless in operation. There has been a lot of times when I have been stuck working with nothing, but my desk light. It is not that I couldn’t bear losing, but rather I couldn’t afford all the things I’ve spent and risked for go down the drain. “Is…” The drumroll seemingly synced itself with my heartbeat. I couldn’t contain the anticipation. Tears had just rolled down my face and my vision was blurred by the welling up of my eyes. There has been a lot of people who has spent most of their time and other resources just so I could win. I couldn’t let them down, can I? How will I face my teachers, my family, my friends? They all I have high hopes for me. I know I did my best for this competition, but is my best enough?
The dinner soon ended, but the dread that the conversation might stir into something as chaotic as it were earlier still lingering. While the atmosphere was somehow lightened by the desert, the after-dinner family conversations will surely try to pry more on what had happened earlier… and a kid like me, won’t probably be able to sustain such heavy prosecution.The large sala gradually become smaller. The chandelier-filed ceiling suddenly felt closer. And the well-lit room suddenly grew darker as each of my relatives entered the large sala hall. Goosebumps started to appear on my skin and then proud columns supporting the house felt like they are going to crash on me every second. I stared long at the ceiling, thinking of a way on how could I escape such disaster. But, I couldn’t.“Manag, please give us some warm lemon tea.” My grandfather ordered.As soon as everyone is settled on the sala, I grabbed my mom’s hand and tell he
In a flash, I had to say goodbye to everyone I cherished.“We tried, but I guess this is the end.”The tears flowed through my eyes, not because I will never be allowed to compete. But at the fact that they witness how easy it was for her family to discard my hard work, passion, and interests. She was more than just sad.I am ashamed.I did not dare look into my teacher’s eyes, nor stare long enough at my friends who supported me with all their might. With a heavy heart, I let go of their hands – completely destroying the bridge that I have made with them. Hoping that one day, I did not have to face them again and reminisce this shameful day of my defeat. Will I ever win against her family? I think the better question is, do i really need to constantly be in a fight with them in the first place?It was a very bright and cheery morning, but the interiors of their family house seem to have a different weather pattern. It was d
The dinner soon ended, but the dread that the conversation might stir into something as chaotic as it were earlier still lingering. While the atmosphere was somehow lightened by the desert, the after-dinner family conversations will surely try to pry more on what had happened earlier… and a kid like me, won’t probably be able to sustain such heavy prosecution.The large sala gradually become smaller. The chandelier-filed ceiling suddenly felt closer. And the well-lit room suddenly grew darker as each of my relatives entered the large sala hall. Goosebumps started to appear on my skin and then proud columns supporting the house felt like they are going to crash on me every second. I stared long at the ceiling, thinking of a way on how could I escape such disaster. But, I couldn’t.“Manag, please give us some warm lemon tea.” My grandfather ordered.As soon as everyone is settled on the sala, I grabbed my mom’s hand and tell he
“And now, the champion for the 1987 Melaware District’s Annual Inter-Academy Science Fair is…” My heart was thumping with excitement and nervousness. I have spent weeks of sleepless nights in ensuring that my science project is nothing but flawless in operation. There has been a lot of times when I have been stuck working with nothing, but my desk light. It is not that I couldn’t bear losing, but rather I couldn’t afford all the things I’ve spent and risked for go down the drain. “Is…” The drumroll seemingly synced itself with my heartbeat. I couldn’t contain the anticipation. Tears had just rolled down my face and my vision was blurred by the welling up of my eyes. There has been a lot of people who has spent most of their time and other resources just so I could win. I couldn’t let them down, can I? How will I face my teachers, my family, my friends? They all I have high hopes for me. I know I did my best for this competition, but is my best enough?
“It is so beautiful on you, Madam!” he exclaimed carefully rested the bedazzling jewelry on my chest. I usually gasp at the coldness of metals necklaces when they hit my skin, but the forthcoming event is giving me more chills. Nothing is more stomach-churning than my second cousin’s fifth wedding and this time with some vivacious female celebrity. Even though it wasn’t his first time getting married, the elders insisted that it is a common courtesy, and that we should all bless them and attend. If it only wasn’t needed to maintain my relevance and strengthen my network among our relatives and peers, I would never bother attending such energy-consuming event. “I bet no one can make this look more elegant than you do!” I scoffed at his insufferable enthusiasm and boot-licking. Of course, it will look elegant. How else can you make a $5.8 million worth of diamanté