i have written as far as chapter 74. i am posting daily, because if I write 25 days a month I'll get this mav and I'll get like a bonus. not to bore you with finances, but that’s why I'm only posting one chapter. thank you for all the comments, I've replied to most. I'm in Tenerife, an island of spain. when i get back home i will post some pictures on my insta
Sierra’s povI really appreciated that Kate thought to ask that question. That she wanted to know why my dad was killed, because that was something that always bothered me. Why him? Why not someone else?Did dad do something? Could it had been avoided?Well, I knew now. Maybe it could have been avoided if dad and mom didn’t go on their dates to the beach. But they were so special to them and it was just random that Mona’s stepdad was their that day.I had to come to terms with that his murder was bad luck. It wasn’t a hit, it was just a hunter that saw an opportunity. I didn’t know if it was better or worse, but at least I knew now.“I hope it brings your mom some peace too.” Grace said.“Yeah and Roman. And the rest of the pack.”I thought Kate was really brave going down to the dungeon and facing Mona, especially in her current situation. But I should have expected it, Kate had always been brave. Sometimes I forget how brave she is, because she’s can get anxious in social sit
Leia’s pov “Hey, where the fuck did Sierra go?” I asked Kate. I had promised I’d spend a few hours with her after training and expected Sierra to still be here. Kate sighed, “we had this moment and for a second I thought she was going to kiss me. But the whole thing just reminded me of the last time I thought she was going to kiss me. I can’t be this close to her. Have her in my bed and holding my face in her hands. Telling me I’m perfect and beautiful. It’s too painful.” “She did fucking what?” Kate shook her head, “I told her how I felt about my scar and she was just trying to be nice. But she said everything I would want her to say, if things were different. I didn’t want to ruin things again by reading too much into it.” It made me think. Why the fuck was Sierra being so touchy feely with Kat? “Show me.” Kate raised an eyebrow. “Fucking show me what she did. I need to know if it was you, misinterpreting things or if she is sending you mixed fucking signals. “So we were bo
Kate’s pov “Time is moving too fucking fast,” Leia sighed. I disagreed, time couldn’t go fast enough. I was waiting for my surgery that would happen in a few hours and hopefully it would mean my recovery would go faster. Maybe I could get out of the wheelchair and use a cane. Or a walker. At this point I just wanted out of the chair. But Leia wanted time to go slow, so she’d have more time with Asher before he had to leave. Two more weeks and he’d be gone. “I know it’s hard, but you’ll make it work.” I said, hoping to calm Leia down. “You’ll miss him too and Sierra?” she asked the last part unsure. “Yeah, I’ll miss them both.” I replied. I had kept my distance as much as I could from Sierra, which was hard, considering she was Asher’s best friend. And Asher was currently attached at the hip to my best friend. “You nervous about the surgery? I fucking am,” Leia admitted. “A bit, but it can only get better right? I have to trust the Moon Goddess is looking out for me.” “I just
Sierra’s pov “Thanks?” I heard Asher say. I was walking to Kate’s room to see if she had woken up, when I heard her say she was going to try and stop being in love with me. I couldn’t go in now, that would be really awkward. And why did it hurt? I wanted her to be my friend. “Maybe you don’t,” Grace said. “Can’t you tell me what I’m supposed to do? Can’t you tell me how I know if I have feelings for Kate?” “You have to figure that out for yourself,” Grace said, “but you’d better do it soon, because Kate might fall out of love with you if you take too long.” I stood in the corridor of the hospital, not sure what to do, when Asher came out holding Leia over his shoulder. “You heard Kate?” Asher asked, seeing me pace the hallway. Asher put Leia down and they walked towards me. I nodded, “yeah, I did.” “It didn’t fucking help that you said she was beautiful and almost kissed Kat.” Leia said. “I didn’t, -“ “Yeah you fucking did. But she is not going to wait for fucking ever for
Leia’s pov “I need to talk to Asher,” dad said. “ Don’t worry, I won’t fucking embarrass you.” I had no fucking clue what dad needed to say, but Asher was leaving tomorrow and I would rather have Asher spend his time with me, than with my dad. But I couldn’t tell him no. So reluctantly, I said. “Fine. He’s coming over in half a fucking hour.” Dad went out to feed the animals, while I waited for my boyfriend to come. It was so fucking hard not to panic, knowing he’d be leaving soon. Would I lose Asher to his mate or would he dump me after realizing, I’m really not that great compared to other women? I hated that he fucking had to leave. Absolutely fucking hated it. But there was fucking shit I could do about it. “Princess, are you freaking out again?” Asher said, walking into the farm. I pouted. “Do you want me to remind you how much I love you and that I will visit every weekend?” My dad came in, “you can tell me. I’ve actually wanted to have a fucking talk with you. The both
Kate’s pov I had the best dream ever while I was in the hospital. I guess it was the drugs, but it felt so vivid. Sierra kissed me and asked me to wait for her. She would never do that. And I would never tell her how I felt. I would never be this open. I hadn’t told Leia about my dream. I would probably, at some point. But she was dealing with enough. Asher just left last week and I knew she was trying to be strong for him. She was driving me insane though, because she had made it her mission to help me walk again. I was doing physical therapy and I was getting more feeling in my legs every day. But I lacked strength and my back hurt, trying to walk hurt. Honestly it really hurt, so I had to take things slow. School had started and I hated, absolutely hated using my wheelchair. But I wasn’t there yet. I could use a walker for two steps, but that was it. And I wanted to do well, my last year. I wanted to have good grades so I could go to college. No idea what I wanted to study yet.
Sierra’s pov “Hey Sierra, Thanks for your letter. I’m sorry for waiting so long to reply. Honestly, Leia kept me really busy. But that’s not the only reason. I thought writing would be easier than talking, but I have made maybe ten drafts before finally giving up and writing this one. Leia and Asher convinced me to just write. Let if flow or whatever. Well, Leia used a lot more curse words when she said it. That I shouldn’t think, but just write. So here goes nothing. First of all, I am happy that you were able to finalize an alliance. I guess it’s good practice, considering not all packs will be happy with a female Beta. I hope you don’t mind the extra pressure of proving yourself. But I know just like your dad, you’ll be able to convince anyone to like you. I did some research about the Black Lupus pack and it doesn’t surprise me that they aren’t used to female Beta’s. A lot of their rules and rituals seem a bit outdated, but to each their own I guess. As long as they don’t mist
Asher’s pov The weekend with Leia was great, but saying goodbye was just as hard as the first time. Luckily I had Sierra to distract me, because she was just telling me about accompanying my niece to the movies. “Promise you won’t tell your aunt? Because if Sue finds out I told you, she will never trust me again.” I rolled my eyes, “should I pinky swear?” Sierra slapped my arm, “you’re her nephew, you sure you want to hear it all?” I sighed, “I don't really care. Just tell me.” Logan laughed inside my head, “don’t lie, you love gossip just as much as your parents.” Sierra smiled, “so, your so called ‘innocent’ niece, is the female you. Her dad is worried about her, saying she shouldn’t date? Scared of her friend, ‘the player,” she said, using air quotes. Goddess, she was really dragging this story out. She had mindklinked me in the weekend and told me she had some exciting to tell me on Monday when I was back. I thought it would be about work. Sierra was dedicated, a bit too m
Aaro’s povI shouldn’t have said that, but it was the fucking truth. No matter how much this wasn’t Storm’s choice any more than it was mine, he was still going to mark me against my will. Maybe if things were different, then I would have chosen Storm as my mate.I always hoped I would find my true mate, but that ship had fucking sailed the moment I was bought. Maybe even before then—maybe the moment I was brought to the damn school. It didn’t fucking matter anyway.I saw how my remark hurt Storm, and all I could think of to make this better was to ask him to kiss me. I knew it fucking made me feel better. More than better. The orgasm he gave me was out of this fucking world, and I just wanted to make him feel good too.I didn’t know what the fuck I was doing, but he seemed to enjoy it, and to be honest, I was enjoying it too. I didn’t think having someone’s dick inside my mouth would be fun, but hearing Storm grunt and hold on to my hair and knowing I was the one doing it to him was a
Storm’s povI knew if I got pissed off, Aaro would stop telling me the truth, so I let her talk while inside of me a storm was raging. I wanted to go to the school and kill everyone who ever hurt Aaro. I wanted to destroy the entire school and get everyone out, but I knew I couldn’t. I was a fucking hypocrite. My father had bought Aaro for me and had funded the school for years. I didn’t realize where part of our money was going until I checked the books today. Our pack had been giving money to the Goldacres for decades. How could I say I would destroy the school if I still profited from it? If it wasn’t for the school, I wouldn’t have met Aaro.I wanted to be Aaro’s home, her safe place. She deserved that. Despite the fucked up situation she was thrown into, she was trying to do things her own way. She could have ignored my mother like the rest, but instead she decided to learn Dutch. The thing that bonded me and mam together. If Aaro was smart, she would have sucked up to Dad and R
Aaro’s povEve explained the phone to me, but I still felt like a fucking idiot using it. She was so patient with me, but I knew if others saw me fumbling with the phone, they’d think I was raised under a damn rock. Everyone used technology for everything, and I felt like I didn’t belong in this world.To be honest, I don’t belong here. I belong with my sister; I belong back home.But a part of me wished I did belong here. That I could give Storm what he deserved. He wanted a real person who didn’t have that many secrets, someone who could be themselves around him, and I wasn’t that at fucking all. I had to think before I spoke, because otherwise I could reveal the truth."I really am sorry, Aaro." Eve said again.I shook my head, "don’t be. I’ll be fine."Eve sighed, "it can be really hard sometimes, Aaro. I try to put on a brave face for Storm. I don’t want him to feel bad for me, but it’s really lonely for me. I miss my family and just having a life. Don’t get me wrong; if I had to
Storm’s pov"Aaro is bijna klaar; douchen liep een beetje uit. [Aaro is almost done; the shower took a bit longer than expected.]Mam laughed, "Ik zie dat jij ook ging douchen? [I see you took a shower as well?] She ruffled my wet hair."Dus? [so?]""Niks. Ik ben blij voor je. Ze is speciaal vind je niet? Ik durf het bijna niet te zeggen, maar misschien is zij je, - [Nothing. I am happy for you. She’s special, isn’t she? I am almost too scared to say, but maybe she’s your, -] " I stopped my mom from finishing her sentence."Mam zeg het niet dan! Fuck, je weet zelf wat pap zou doen. [Then don’t say it! Fuck, you know what Dad would do.]"My mother knew better than anyone what my dad thought of true mates, considering she was his. Dad and mom fell in love when they were seventeen. Love at first sight, she called it, and then my grandfather got killed and my dad turned into a paranoid asshole. Too scared of what a true mate meant. He wasn't just scared of losing half his soul if his true
Aaro’s povFucking phone. That stupid fucking phone. Phones didn’t used to be like this, were they? I remember mom and dad having a phone, and I sometimes watched videos on it or played a game. But this thing was totally different.I felt so fucking out of place. I knew nothing about this world. I guess that the school does this on purpose. Make sure to isolate the girls once they’re out of the school. Make sure we don’t know how to use technology to ask for help.We’re not supposed to tell anyone about the school, but even if we only wanted to help ourselves once we were out, we wouldn’t be able to. We had no one to turn to and no way to set up any support system. Maybe I should talk to Eve. She had been isolated, stuck inside this packhouse. She knows how it feels, and maybe she knows how to get out of here.I opened the stupid phone again, cursing at it."You better not fuck this up again. Send text to Eve.""Send text to Eve," the phone said."Do you want to join me and Storm for l
Storm’s povI put Aaro on my lap and let her eat."So what’s her deal?" Cara asked, mind-linking me."What do you mean?""She seems nice, but is she like the rest? Does she want you because of your title?"I laughed, "no, she isn’t like the rest. Not at fucking all. I don’t think she cares about becoming Luna at all.""Did she have any say in coming here? Did her parents force her?"I sighed, "she’s an orphan. It’s fucking complicated Cara, but she doesn’t really have a choice. So I’m trying my fucking best to make everything not suck as fucking much."Cara smiled at me, "you want her to like you."Aaro started giving me bites to eat, and although it surprised me, I let her. It was fucking adorable that she cared enough to feed me."She likes you already. She was straddling you, and now she’s feeding you!" Cara shouted inside my head.That kiss was amazing. And when Aaro started moving her fucking hips, I went insane. If Cara hadn’t stopped us, I don’t know what would have happened. Wh
Aaro’s povBrand was cool. He reminded me of my dad’s wolf, Logan. He was as fast as him, too. How would it feel to run as a wolf? Would I be that fast?It was easier around Brand because he didn’t talk to me and I didn’t have to pretend so hard.Even when I was myself, I still had to pretend. I couldn’t let anyone know my real name or identity. It wasn’t easy. I so badly wanted to tell Brand about Logan. I wanted to tell the girl in the orphanage more about Ero. And when we discussed our names, I really wanted to tell Peter what Aaro fucking stood for.It bothered me how scared everyone was. It was supposed to be like this. In my dad’s pack, people weren’t scared of us. And although my grandpa Os could be a bit scary, people respected him more than they feared him.Then he shifted back, and although Storm looked a lot better, like a whole fuckload better, I went back to pretending. Pretending that he didn’t look fucking good, and I wondered what it would feel like to touch him. Preten
Storm’s povI tried to get some work done, but my mind kept wondering about tonight. What would be a good date idea?"Let me meet her," Brand said."And then what, have a picknick? It’s fucking freezing outside.""Please?" Brand asked and I think it was the first time he said please to me."I’ll see what I can do, okay, buddy?"Dad had given me her tracker information, and I felt like a fucking stalker, tracking Aaro’s moves. She went from the hospital to the orphanages, to lunch somewhere, and then to one of the elders' houses.When it was around four, I just gave up on working and decided to pick up Aaro early. I'm sure she'd appreciate it; I couldn't imagine spending the entire day with Ruby.I went to the O'Hares' home and watched as Aaro spoke to a young boy. He must be one of the grandkids or great-grandkids of the O'Hares. Mister O'Hare was 104 years old and looked no older than 70.When the boy saw me, he bowed his head and seemed scared. It was such an obvious contrast between
Aaro’s povStupid fucking nightmare. I used to have them when we were younger. I would dream about Marco taking us away. We were asleep when he took us, but we woke up before he brought us to the man who transported us to the school.Doctor Marco had always been so kind to us, but suddenly he was cold. He ignored our cries, he ignored me begging him to let my sister go. In the end, he threatened to hurt Elora if I didn’t help him calm her down.He showed me bones and said they belonged to a girl, and if I didn't help my sister out of her pajamas and make her shut the fuck up, he could turn my sister into a bag of bones too.For years, I wondered what he needed the bones and the pajamas for. I thought he might have pretended it was one of us who died, so my parents wouldn’t come looking for us. Or my parents were dead themselves; there must have been a reason why they didn't find us. Auntie Kat was too smart to not see through Marco’s plan, I was sure. She was the smartest person alive;