Chapter 3: Cruel Fate

My hands were trembling when I maneuvered the car out of the pack house parking lot. My wolf keeps growling at me as to why I run away instead of claiming what belongs to us. 

"That is our mate! Go back to him! He is ours!" 

I kept hearing those shouts from her, but I was shocked to even talk to her. Killian? Is Alpha Killian our mate? Why have I never thought about this? 

I remember Killian went abroad to study when he was sixteen and when I turned seventeen, a ripe age for female werewolves to find their mate. I didn't find mine, and I assumed that my mate was still out there and that fate would make way for us to meet. 

Killian studied abroad for six years and recently graduated, so he went home to take charge of the pack last year. I never attended pack meetings nor visited the pack house that whole year. I was busy trying to work and study simultaneously to see what was happening in the pack. My best friend is the only one who tells me the news about the new alpha and his beloved girlfriend, whom he met while studying. So when I heard about this, I immediately knew that maybe they were mates and according to my best friend, Isabelle is a woman that everybody in the pack loves. She is a Luna- figure to everyone. And she is pregnant with Killian's child, so Killian announces the wedding. And since the meeting is mandatory, I have no choice but to attend. 

"Damn it!" I screamed mentally because of frustration. 

Why should it have to be Alpha Killian? Why?!!

I saw the way Killian started at Isabelle. I only saw love, adoration, and pride in his eyes. It feels like there were no pack members around them. It's like he only sees Isabelle. If that's not love, then what is it? 

I scream in frustration. I am no match for her. Most likely, Kilian will choose her over me. 

"Don't think something like that, Rain. Our mate will love us. He is made only for us," my wolf told me, trying to calm me down when she saw my worried state of mind. 

"But Killian loves her. I can see it in his eyes. And I heard they are going to get married and she is pregnant. Will we have a chance? I can also see a rejection from him," I replied to her, which made him whine. 

I bit my inner cheek and tried to think of this idea. 

Killian will likely reject me, knowing I am his mate. 

I heard about rejection a long time ago. My mom told me that when one of the pair got rejected, the rejected one would suffer a lot. Either they die due to unbearable pain or become insane, which leads to becoming a rogue, and a life of a rogue is harder than dying. A rogue's life will be at risk every time they step on a pack's territory. When they do, death will follow. 

Now that I thought about it, my heart started to become uneasy. I cannot feel the pain yet, but I will sooner. 

Suddenly, my phone rang, and I saw Matthew's name on the screen. I almost forgot that I still had a shift tonight, so I wiped my tears and cleared my throat before answering the phone. 

"Yes?" I asked Matthew over the other line. 

"Yes, Rain, I'd like to remind you. Your shift is about to begin," he replied. 

"Yup, I'm on my way, Matthew."

"Great. I'll see you later. Bye," he said before ending the call. 

I sighed before turning the wheel in the direction of the restaurant. I had to clear my mind for this night and pushed every worry in the back of my head. 

I'm sure after making myself try this shift and sleep well, tomorrow when I woke up, everything will be out of my head, and I could get on with living my life again. I will even let my wolf out, who's having the side effect from being cooped up so long. She needs to breathe fresh air, which will do her good. 

I trudged through the bustling customers to the counter to pick up two dinner plate orders from table fifteen. The occupants of the said table started to get annoyed and impatient. They already asked me about their order for the fifth time. These humans obviously didn't notice that we were short of staff and could not cater to each of them simultaneously. 

I had been going full swing when I showed up a minute before my shift. This will drain my energy for ordinary cases, but tonight, I need my mind to cool off. I kept myself busy all for temporarily erasing Killian and this whole mate thing in my head. 

I delivered the order to table fifteen and asked apology for the late arrival of their order and left. I still have three orders to deliver, and I don't feel tired like usual. I looked at the clock and saw I still had three minutes before going off. But I'm not tired yet. I want to go home so I can sleep when I go to bed. 

"Rain, your shift is done. You can go home now," Matthew told me as I helped the dishwasher to clean all the plates. 

"I'll go home later. Let me help Carlito tonight," I replied. 

"Huh?" Matthew said, confused. "Are you sure? I will not be going to pay you for these extra minutes."

"I know. I want to tire myself, so I can go to sleep directly," I answered him before placing the plates inside the dryer. 

Matthew looked at me and observed. 

"Are you okay, Rain? You seemed off. You normally leave after your shift." 

"Yeah, I'm okay, Matthew. Don't worry," I replied, assuring him I was fine, but I knew deep down that my life would never be the same again.