All I crave for his peace

This life is filled with ups and downs, I know I'm not perfect, and I'm not a girl born with beauty and brain. I like to think of myself as a plain idiot, unlike Jade my younger sister. Jade always got everything she wanted and I'm quite the opposite. My dads hate me and always looked down on me and mum has zero hopes as far as I'm concerned.

The question of what life is and why does it treat people differently is what I still ask myself. It's not like what everyone wants in life is the same. Most people want wealth, some want fame, while others just want love and happiness. Then there's me! All I wanted was peace of mind and the possibility of everyone accepting me for who I am. But I guess I could only wish it were possible and stop dreaming.

I always looked forward to the events of everyday since I've become accustomed to it. I just witnessed episode one where my Dad scolded and tongue lashed me with words strong enough to make you climb the rooftop and just jump down without a single though since your existence is of no value.

On a second thought, I just might end up doing so one of these days. Hearing such dreadful words from him drives me crazy. I hope everyone would be happy when I finally take matters into my own hands.

I couldn't fight the thoughts as they raced through my mind while I walked to school. I was certain the mean girls at school couldnt wait for Lilly Winter to get to school so they could make her life a  living hell. 'What a day is going to be'

I was just an absent-minded high school girl with pale skin and sickly looking,  walking with her head hung down sadly. This young lady had a lot on her mind but whatever its worth, she hoped she finds happiness to light her world.

***********At exactly 7:36 am ******

The school hallway was crowded, as usual, she walked quietly as she came close to her locker, praying internally for the students not to detect her presence especially the popular mean girls, Jessia and her friends.

"It was too early for another drama, as she already had one before heading to school and she just wished that it would do for the day" she prayed silently and sighed. This has become a daily prayer for Lily Winter.

Immediately she got her books from the locker she quickly hide under her large hoodie and walked briskly through the quiet corner, praying inwardly not to bump into Jessica and her working bees since she is the queen and they are her followers. Or the famous Ian Grayson and his gang. Those guys were the worst people you could ever wish to meet on a good day.

"Ian seemed like a good person from afar judging from his good looks and warm smile.  He is the School Sports president and the leader of the blue Ice basketball team. With all these qualifications one would think he is a responsible and warm-hearted guy" , though that what Winter thought

   Not until he tried to drug her and rape her during the last school prom. she had trusted him blindly thinking he was a saint with the heart of an angel, not knowing that he was just a snake in the green grass.

" I am such a fool. I can't believe I had a crush on that monster! He and his girlfriend Jessica Bane deserve one another, a bunch of heartless people!" She had cursed loudly. Just as she was about to turn the last corner, she began to tremble in fear.

"Hey look what we got here " a red-head girl called out and the other girls turned towards Lily Winter's direction.

"Wow, Miss ugly you look so stuck at 90's with this outfit you're wearing" another girl mocked.

"If you ask me that fit an ugly duck like her, she won't look any better even if she is wearing the nicest dress in Vogue, a duck can't turn into Swan overnight" the meanest looking girl with heavy makeup and thick mascara on commented dryly and turned back her attention to her phone.

" You're right Branda, she is just a disease to my good sight. Hey fool, where is the English assignment I demanded you do for me?" a blonde girl in ripped jeans fired.

"It he. r..e" she stuttered and stretched the book to her.

" Get lost before your cursed face makes me puke." she yelled.

 Lily immediately disappeared through the corridor and ran towards the toilet with tears streaming down her face.

" Hey Jessica that girl in your class is so ugly and she wears  old outfits. She is weird and ugly looks like a frog recantation. How Hilarious!" she could hear the redhead girl jeered and her friend's as she walked away.

Inside the toilet, she turned the tap on and washed her face before wiping it furiously with tissue paper as she stared at the mirror and cried.

"I hate being a pushover. Everyone treats me like rags, all I want is peace, that is all I crave for and it's so frustrating" she wiped harder.

"I hate myself for being this way", she rammed her fist in anger into the mirror, which made it crack leaving her hand bleeding. 

A few minutes after the first lesson bell had been rung she stepped out of the washroom and headed to Biology class.

"Miss Winter, you are five minutes late to my class. You got yourself a detention class" the female teacher in miniskirt yelled harshly.

" Yes ma'am", she said quietly and left for her seat.

"What's up with Yuck's face, she is a pathetic loser" the ponytail girl that sat behind her whispered to her friend.

"I rather take poison than be with that ugly cursed face. She shouldn't have been born in the first place, her existence irks me"the ponytail girl's friend replied harshly.

"Ewww she disgusts me too, I can't wait for us to leave the sophomore year so I can stop sitting anywhere near her, she makes you think of vomit or poop" the ponytail girl muttered in detest.

"You're right, I can't wait too" the ponytail girl's friend agreed.

Lily who had been listening to their conversation tried hard to focus on what the teacher was saying and not their words but it kept echoing 

"Alright, Class be quiet. Our lesson is Vertebrate. What do we understand by that word vertebrates, and what does it mean" she inquired as she made a quick search through the class and the whole class became deafeningly quiet. No one was able to reply to her.

"Wow, are you telling me that, there's no Vertebrates in this class" she chuckled at her own joke

"Hi ma'am", a round face girl with double lens glasses stood up at the front.

"Yes, Nelia" the teacher replied.

"Vertebrate are a subphylum of Vertebrata under phylum Chordata. Kingdom Animalia is divided into Vertebrates and invertebrates.  Vertebrates are animals that have a backbone inside their body example are; fishes, amphibians, birds, mammals, and reptiles" she finished explaining and sat down.

" Wow, that is amazing cutie. I love how you showed your clear understanding of Vertebrates, Good Job Nelia", the teacher praised.

"Who can tell us what other characteristics do Vertebrates have? Apart from the ones Nelia mentioned, "the teacher asked and once again the class was dead quiet.

"No one?" she asked in shock before a hand was shyly raised from the back.

"Yes, Lily" the teacher urged her to speak.

"Umm....ummmm, Vertbr...ates have a notochord, dorsal hollow, nerve cord, pharyngeal slits, a post-anal tail," she said quietly trying hard not to stutter.

"That was great Lily", the teacher commented dryly.

"Of course, she needs to work hard and be great in studies since her appearance sucks she can't be unfortunate all round",Jessica rolled her eyes in disgust and the whole class roared in laughter. 

 This made the standing girl tremble in shame as her palms became sweaty.

"You are a mischievous brat, Jessica but that is a sad truth anyway", the teacher chuckled.

" Please have your seat." The teacher said.

"Yes ma'am", she sat down with glassy eyes, tears threatened to pour but she managed to hold them in, what she could wish for now is a place to hide but there was none.  She bowed and fidget with her fingers as she cried inwardly.

"Just because she's a bit good at studies can't make her any prettier, Hilarious" she could hear the students murmuring

"People like her should always be reminded to know their place, she is nothing but an eyesore", a girl scoffed and rolled her eyes at her.

"What is the noise about, what going on here", the principal asked sternly, while entering the class suddenly with a handsome blonde guy behind her.

"Oh it's nothing ma'am" the teacher replied quickly. The students could not help but stare and be curious about the boy.

"Who is that handsome boy behind the principal? he is so cute? Is he a new student" they asked one another.

"That boy behind the principal was so handsome. His face was so pretty that it was hard to believe he was a guy.," Branda told Jessica, who was busy staring at the new boy hungrily.

She tried to seduce the guy flashing him, her sexiest smile but he didn't even look her way.

"Miss Walter your job is to keep the class in order", the principal scolded the teacher.

"I am sorry ma'am" the teacher apologized.

"It's okay Miss Walter, a new student will be joining your class" she explained and turned towards the boy.

"Jace, why don't you introduce yourself to the class," the principal said and left the class.

"Hi mates, I'm Jace Gilbert, a new student that would be joining your class. That's all I like to share " he announced 

"Awnnnnnn, hey handsome tell us more about yourself like. What your hobbies are? What your favorite snacks are and do you have a girlfriend? " The girls shouted.

"That's all, for now. Jace please take a seat next to Branda," she said pointing at the empty seat. Branda couldn't hide her excitement as she grinned widely.

The boy didn't budge as his gaze was fixed at a girl who was putting on an - oversize hood, which made her look cute.

"She is so cute", he muttered staring at her.

"Excuse me, I didn't get that" the teacher questioned raising her eyebrows

"I said I am going to be seating next to that cute bear at the corner of the class," he said smiling. Both the teacher and students went pale with shock.

"What is wrong with him? Is he even in his right state of mind?  Who is he referring to as cute ?, Yuck face, huh!" they were all baffled.