167: Goodbye

I wake up in a hospital room.

Is it odd that I'm not at all confused? I remember everything, and I'm astounded by how empty I feel. There's no other word to describe this numbness. I know I should be feeling something else, like anger or even disappointment, but these emotions are just not there yet.

Maybe I'll feel something later.

There's a lot of pain in my abdomen, very similar to the cramps I get when I'm on my period. I'm not a hundred percent sure what this means, but it can't be a good thing. I know what I felt and I know why Elizabeth did what she did. I'm not going to lie here and try to convince myself that this isn't true, that by some miracle, my pregnancy survived that fall. I can't forget to mention that kick. Again, she knew what she was doing. This is exactly what she wanted and now, she got it.

I don't know that yet, but I have a feeling.

I won't feel anything until I get definite answers. I'm just making assumptions at this point. I'm alone, but I kind of wish I wer