3. Another Round (3)

What am I doing at this moment in my second life?

I cursed at her after getting off the carriage like a madwoman possessed. I grabbed Luelle's hair and ordered the guards to lock her in prison. I screamed at everyone, telling them that I knew Luelle was carrying Jermaine's child.

I'm so hysterical.

That is my first loop.

Thinking it was my second chance to get rid of Luelle, who had snatched my husband away, I was branded as crazy by everyone instead. My end is the same as my first life: death.

In this life, how should I react?

"I'm tired." A complaint escaped from my parted lips.

"Oh yes, you must be tired, Sashal."

"Let's get you inside first, Your Majesty." Ruri, my other lady-in-waiting, responded.

“Our queen, you have experienced a terrible incident. Please rest assured now. We will protect you.”

I'm happy to see Bella again but too numb to express it.

"My queen, let's check your health first."

That was the first sentence Jermaine said to me. It never changes.

"Ng,"

I couldn't look at him, or I would fall in love with him again and again. Like all the lives I've lived miserably, I still love him blindly.

“Hey, Her Majesty's stomach is kinda…”

Whispers began to be heard from the maids and other nobles who were present at the place.

In my room.

“Your Majesty, you have held up well in guarding your pregnancy. It's really something to be thankful for.” The royal doctor reports.

“Thank goodness!”

"Successor of the royal family!" Bella and my other maid squealed with joy.

So far, people are happy with the news delivered by the doctor. But I know the doom that comes after.

"You are entering eleven weeks of pregnancy, so you still have to be careful in your activities, Your Majesty."

“….”

"What?" A low mumbled escape from one of the astonished maid's mouths.

The doctor, oblivious to the awkward reaction from the others, only blinked his eyes confusedly.

Jermaine opened his mouth. "Tell me again, how old is the queen's pregnancy?"

"Uhm, eleven weeks or roughly two and a half months, Your Majesty."

“Huk, how come- oops,”

Without watching the expressions of everyone there, I could imagine the wild thoughts going through their heads.

"That's impossible," Ansel mumbled lowly. There's a hint of anxiousness coming from his voice.

Yeah, I know this moment will be the starting point of my misery.

Apart from Luelle stealing my husband by conceiving his child, people started accusing me of carrying a bastard from the rogues who kidnapped me. Even Jermaine thought so as well.

-“Hey girl, what did this quack say? How can you be only two months pregnant when you are already four months pregnant? Hey, get this quack to recheck your fetus!”-

It won't do any good, Shan. Because even in my previous life, I ordered many doctors to examine my pregnancy. But all the doctors said the same thing, that I was only two and a half months pregnant.

No one dared to respond to the doctor's statement to protect my feelings, but in this kind of situation, Luelle, whose head was full of air, whined to the doctor.

“Doctor, you should double-check and convey the results properly! Sashal disappeared four months ago. She should have been four months pregnant or more. Did you say Sashal only got pregnant after being kidnapped?”

That's typical of Luelle.

"That's impossible, right? Because that means the child in her womb… is not His Majesty's child. But that's impossible, right?”

Luelle looked left and right, seeking support from the people who seemed to be pinned down. Several people agreed with Luelle's words.

"Ri-right, that's impossible."

"Y-yes, that's impossible."

I opened my mouth. “This is His Majesty's child.”

Hearing my statement, the atmosphere grew colder. I never lied. The child in my womb is indeed Jermaine's child. No matter how many times I'll come back alive, I can't hide that fact.

This is my pride.

“Exactly! Sashal wouldn't do that. She must have been pregnant with His Majesty's child, right, Jermaine?”

When Sashal called Jermaine's name intimately, many eyes turned to her. But Luelle, who was ignorant, didn't realize the meaning of their gazes.

According to the rules, it was strictly forbidden to call the Alpha King's name intimately, even though they had a close relationship. I even call him formally when in public. It was the highest form of etiquette and respect for the Alpha King.

But Luelle is just so… Luelle.

The maids and nobles in the room looked apologetic toward me.

“Hoeegh- Ugh, sorry. I'm not feeling well now. Sashal, I will see you again later.” Luelle turned away while holding back her nausea, then walked out of the crowd.

“Bring the doctor to Luelle's side. And for today, let the queen rest.” After delivering his order, Jermaine stared down at me with a face that looked like it was holding back pain.

"I will come back to you, queen."

Jermaine turned around. He ordered his aide. "Not a word came out of this room. You make sure of that."

"Yes, Your Majesty."

I saw worry etched on his cold face. His mouth muttered Luelle's name as he exited my room.

'You never came back to me, Jermaine. Not even once.'

Watching Jermaine, my husband, who rushed out to follow Luelle, everyone lowered their eyes. They can't look me in the eye. They must have taken my silence as confusion from witnessing Jermaine and Luelle's behavior of calling each other by their first names and having Jermaine trailing behind Luelle.

Even though I've been through it many times, my heart still breaks apart.

“Your Majesty, that… uhm,”

My lady-in-waiting was on edge. They were torn between wanting to tell me something or withholding it before they left my side on Jermaine's orders. Only Bella was allowed to be by my side. She looked like she was holding back tears and also her feelings of guilt.

Her lips formed a straight line, several times parted as if she was about to say something. But Shan precedes.

-“What's this madness, girl? What's wrong with everyone, especially your husband?!”-

‘Shan, I will tell you all. So listen to me and hold back your anger. I will restrain you from going amok if it is necessary.’

Like many times, I explained to Shan what had happened and what was going to happen. As expected, and just like in my previous lives, Shan rebelled. She almost went out of control and was about to overwhelm my consciousness, but I managed to suppress her instincts.

This attempt is hurting me.

"Bels, do you know any silver wolf with gold eyes?”

“Pardon?”

***

A young silver wolf was running in a dense forest with large trees. Behind him, several wolves followed.

After the young wolf jumped over a large wall, he stopped abruptly.

Under the bright full moon, the young wolf's shadow could be seen turning into a large man. Followed by other wolves who also transformed.

One of the men asked him. "What's wrong, Your Highness? Why did you suddenly stop?”

The shadows of the two men facing each other were so clear in the moonlight.

"I didn't expect to find her there," He mumbled, covering his smile.

The other man tilted his head. "Who do you mean, Your Highness?"

The man who was called 'Your Highness' didn't give an answer but an order.

“Moon Shone armies, let's give those bastards our real blows at the border.”

Everyone stole a glance at each other, then shouted in unison. “YES, Your Highness!”

The big man smirks as he shifts back again to his young wolf's shape. "Finally, I found you, my mate."