The next few days pass quickly. Jacob keeps changing the times I am allowed to see Kane. It makes everything more complicated and more challenging with Lorenzo.He's trying so fucking hard, and I'm screwing everything up. I can't tell him, though, even I know he can't get me out of this situation and if he does?Sighing, I look down at my fingers. Lorenzo won't want me. He won't want someone with a child who has such a commitment. He will hate me for lying, hate me for everything. Last night was the first night I slept without him since I began staying at his.Only because it was Marco's stag. So myself, Lucia, Jane, Iz and Felicity went to Iz's and had a girl's night. It was good, but I missed Lorenzo, and that just confirmed to me more that I need to figure my shit out.How can I, though? God, he will hate me. This week, he has opened up so much about his family, about him, and I just shut down. I shut down all his attempts to get to know me, fearing it would lead to things he shoul
I stay with her asleep in my arms. She's so fucking fierce and punches like a man. I still haven't found out how she knows how to fight. She told me she learnt to in school.It's bullshit, I remember her in school, she wasn't one for fighting. I hear my phone and grab it. Reading Marco's message I get dressed and walk down. This is the moment I find out the truth.I'm worried about her always leaving, concerned about the secrets she holds and why she is hiding everything about her life. People don't hide things. If less, it's bad. I needed to know more, so Marco, as always, has got people digging for information. Then, I can at least find out if she lives at home with her parents. If she is ashamed of her life, maybe?Walking into the office, I grab a glass and fill it. “Okay, let’s talk.” I smile at him. Whatever it is, we can sort and fix it. I have a feeling she's ashamed; maybe her family don't have money, and she doesn't want me to see that.“Where is Alice?” He looks at me.“Her
I wake with Lorenzo's body around mine. Today is the wedding. I know it will look weird when I leave, but I have no choice. Opening my eyes, he stares down at me."I won't see you once you leave until after they marry." His words are quiet, and I nod."It's only a few hours."Sighing, he looks at me."Has something happened?" He looks defeated. It's a look I have never seen him have. He's always so fucking cheerful and acting like a fool."Tired, that's all." He looks at me like he's considering asking something, so I don't reply, I wait, but he doesn't talk."Lorenzo? You're worrying me." I push my body closer to him. He looks down and smiles at me, and it's that fucking goofy one that has me laughing."See, I'm fine." Kissing me, he laughs. "You know you can trust me, right? Whatever you're so worried about telling me, I won't look at you any differently or think of you badly." He stares at me, waiting."There isn't something I am worried about telling you, Lorenzo." It's everything
When I got back to the house last night, Lorenzo was waiting. He could tell something was wrong but didn't ask. I was a mess, though. Then he told me he was leaving at some point. Flying to Sicily for a meeting, then coming straight back. I knew what that meant. It meant they were meeting Caiu, the main guy of the Cosa Nostra. Someone who everyone just recently found out is Lucia's grandad. I was asleep when Lucia's message woke me the night of her wedding, and I found her locked in her walk-in wardrobe.I was ready to find Lorenzo in the gym, but I was told he had also left. When he said they were leaving at some point, I thought he didn't have a date set. He did, though. Apparently, everyone is convinced Marco is not going to survive this meeting.So, of course, to cheer Lucia up, we had a fucking party. It helped me as well because between freaking out that Lorenzo might not return and worried about how I was going to sneak Kane out this week, I was a wreck, so drinking masked it a
After flying to Sicily and being so sure Marco was a dead man, which meant me and my brothers were as well. I was shocked to learn that Caiu is stepping down and Marco is taking his place.So not only is Marco the Don of our city and a few around it, he's the Don of every fucking Don out there. He's the Don of all the cities, all the countries.Talk about a twisted puzzle, we were so sure he was dead, but apparently, the lucky fucker is smarter than Caiu's own kids. I look down at my phone. It's been over twenty-four hours since Alice left. We were told she left and never returned, which isn't good.Everyone tried to call, but her phone was off. I know it's bad. I just don't know how bad. I'm hoping the jerk has just kept her locked up because she was late."Nearly there." I look at Dario. He gives me a smile and nods. Only he knows, I haven't told anyone else yet. I need to speak to Alice first. I need to be sure there is a chance the kid is mine."We move quickly and quietly. There'
Sitting on the bed, Iz smiles at me. "Lorenzo will be fine. He’s just shocked. Congratulations, as I'm guessing no fucker has said that to you about getting pregnant or having a baby." She laughs and hugs me."He's right." God, he is right."Maybe part of what he said, but not everything." She looks at Kane and smiles. Her eyes come back to me with a knowing look."I know, alright. To start with, no, but the more he grows, the more I fucking see it." I hoped he wasn't Lorenzo's purely because I knew he would hate me for not speaking. I also have no choice. Kane is part of this world. Do I really want that? Moving, she hugs me, and I cry.His words only hurt so much because they were fucking true. I did pretend like Kane didn't exist. Every time I left that house, I pretended like he wasn't there to everyone.I hear the door and look up."I swear no shouting, I won't be a dick." Lorenzo looks at me, and Iz walks out. I watch as he moves and walks to sit on the bottom of the bed. "I'm s
I walk down, grab the glass and fill it. I don't know what to think. I thought she was pushing me out, but now though, I don't know what the fuck to think.She looked at me like she didn't care. I feel used. Surely, this was just her way to get her son back."Don't do it." I look up and see Marco. "You two had a fight. There is no doubt tomorrow things will blow over.""She won't be here tomorrow!" Even I know the first thing she is doing in the morning is walking."She will, Lorenzo, you're overreacting."I step towards him. "Overreacting? She just told me she has realised she doesn't want me. That maybe she was here to figure out a way to get us to help her. She told me I'm free to fuck who I want and that she is leaving as soon as she sorts shit out!""Come on." I look at Marco, confused. "Let's put the gloves to use." He turns to the gym. I follow him through and step into the ring. Clearly, his night isn’t going well either. Standing, we fight. It helps. I use him to beat the fee
When I wake, I get dressed in the few clothes that I had here from staying. I'm guessing Iz or someone moved them from Lorenzo's room into this one for me.Getting Kane sorted, I carry him downstairs."I thought he went to fucking bed." I hear Marco."Come on, Kiddo, wake the fuck up." I stop when I see Carlos slapping Lorenzo's face."Dr Hargreaves is on her way. Keep trying to get a response." Marco walks towards them, and I stare at Lorenzo passed out on the floor. Carlos glances at me."Get her out of here!" He points towards me, and I feel someone dragging me back."Is he okay?" I feel myself getting pushed through a door."He will be fine." I look at Dario. "Once he wakes, he will be fine." God, what did I do? This is my fault. I fight back the tears and stare at the door."I didn't mean to..." God, what have I done?"Look, just give him space when he wakes. I thought he would be fine. I didn't think you two were that serious yet. He's struggling to accept this, so give him spac
I'm so fucking happy. This is the best Christmas ever. She's pregnant, Alex is officially ours, and she's marrying me! Tonight! I left her for a bit. Her dad is here, so they are talking everything out. I wanted to be there but knew she needed space to do it herself. I look across the chairs and other things. She wanted to come outside, but we banned her. She can't see this, not until later. "It's looking good." Lorenzo smiles at me. "Have you considered this, Dario?" Marco looks at me. "She said yes! She said she would marry me." She said yes. "I know, but I mean the whole surprise wedding; she said yes, but that doesn't mean now." "Yes, it does!" She wouldn't say yes if she weren't ready now. She's ready. She will say yes. She will love this. "Okay, calm down, you're too high." Marco chuckles, but I can't. I feel amazing right now. "How is it going with her dad?" Matteo looks at me. "No idea. I gave her space." I'm giving her space. "Matteo, he's staying at your house toni
I walked out of the room feeling sickened. Not so much that he had slept with my mother, more he slept with me purely because I looked like her. Like in his mind, I was her. I need to check on Alex. Walking into his room he's sat up on the bed looking at the book. "Read it?" He holds out the book, and I laugh. "Move over." I climb onto the bed, and he cuddles into me as I read it to him. Today is Christmas. I didn't realise, but Lucia had the baby on Christmas day! It's nearly three. I read to him, watching as he fell asleep. Slowly, my eyes slip closed. I wake feeling someone wrap their arms around me. Glancing behind me, I see Dario. I open my mouth to talk, and he shakes his head. "No. Leave it, little rabbit. Let's just sleep for a couple of hours." He holds onto me, and I fall asleep, with him and Alex cuddling me. I need to get answers later. I wake up in bed alone. Neither Alex nor Dario are here. Climbing from the bed, I go to our room and begin to get ready. "Little ra
So far, this guy hasn't been forthcoming. It's Christmas, and we're wasting time on him. Sure, we could just forget him and go to bed for as few hours as possible before getting up, but he's a risk. Alice came to get the baby, and Lucia is currently resting. So this needs sorting now. He's not someone who can be trusted alone, even with soldiers. "I never would have hurt her." I look up, confused. "Evaline, my plan was never to touch her or harm her. Weirdly, she is just like her mother. She's amazing." "How did you meet her mum?" I want to get her answers. "I had just taken down a target and was ready to leave when I saw her. I was twenty-eight, and she was thirty-nine. She was so different. She was so amazing I just went over and said hi, which is how it began. At that point, Evaline was born." "Did you see Evaline?" "No!" His head shakes. "I never did; we had been sleeping together for years. She wouldn't let me see Evaline. She spoke of her. He found out about the affair and
I look at Marco. He's heard nothing. "It's Christmas. Maybe just leave it until after today?" Lorenzo looks at me. "I can't do much, Lorenzo." I can't do anything without information that we don't have. "This is your first official Christmas with Evaline, don't fuck it up." Our dad looks at me, and I know he's right. The gunshot has us all jump up and rush out. I watch as a window smashes and smoke begins to flood the hall. "Get the women and kids!" Marco screams, rushing upstairs; I grab Luciano, Lorenzo grabs Alice, and I see soldiers follow Marco up to Lucia and Evaline. Carrying Luciano down, I sit him in the safe room. Rushing up, I see someone carrying Alex. "Put it on." I see something throw a mask at me. Placing it on, I rush up and see Evaline fighting to get to Alex's room. "Alex is downstairs, little rabbit, go." I watch as she disappears. Rushing through, I get to our room and see him. Throwing myself at him, someone grabs me and stops, and I watch them grab him. "D
I wake hearing a bang, my eyes adjusting to the darkness. I reach out to Dario, but he isn't there. The sound of gunshots has my body jump up and out of bed. Rushing, I get the gown and wrap it around my body as the windows in the room smash, and smoke begins to fill the room. I rush for the door and hear something. Turning, I look behind me and see someone jump through the window. Running out the door, I get grabbed. Screaming, I go to hit him. "Evaline, go with him!" Marco? I feel them pull me, but I try to get to Alex. I need to get Alex. Screaming, I fight against him. "Alex is downstairs, little rabbit, go." I don't get a chance to respond. I'm just pulled further away. As we reach downstairs, I'm thrown into a room and the door locks. "Evaline, thank god you're okay!" Lucia rushes and hugs me. I look around, Alice, Lucia, Alex, and Luciano are in here, and I believe it's James. I'm not sure which soldier it is. "What is happening?" I look around us. This room has no windo
Dario's arms stay around me as we dance. He started out fine, but in the past week, he's been slowly drowning and getting lost in his mind. I know he's constantly overthinking what is happening. Everything I try fails. Sex works while we're having sex, and then he's back in his head. It's taking so much effort to keep him here and with us. The last thing we need is for something to happen and for him to slip away in his mind and not wait for answers. So, I need to keep his mind off Mad Hatter or Tim, as they haven't been able to find anything. Marco even tried to send a message out for my dad in the hope he would reply and give us something, but it's been silent. I lean up and kiss his lips. "We haven't spoken about how many kids you want." I smile, and he looks at me so damn confused. "Babies, Dario, how many do you want?" "I just want you." My eyes roll. "You have me. We have Alex. I want to know about us making babies. How many?" He seems to be considering it. "I would be hap
It's too quiet, and I don't like quiet, not in this way. Quiet in my head, fine, but this feels wrong. He's gone quiet. He's stopped sending messages out. He's ignoring us. He's planning, he's planning something, what is he planning? I pace the room. Today is Matteo's engagement party. Tomorrow is Christmas. It's too fucking quiet. Quietly, quietly, not a sound. I'm listening and listening. "Dario!" I turn, and Marco is staring at me. "You're singing." He holds out his hands. "We were waiting for you!" "I..." Something is wrong. Quietly, quietly, not a sound. I'm listening and listening. "Dario!" I glance at him. "Get out of your head, focus." I can't focus. It's too quiet. "Okay, tell me what is in your head. You keep singing quietly, quietly, so speak." "It's too quiet." It's too quiet. "Right, and I agree it is. It's unusual. He's gone quiet; he's not responding, but stay out of your head. It's been half an hour. How long have you been standing here pacing and singing in yo
I sit with Dario. His brothers and his dad are facing me. "You slept with him, just say." Marco laughs. "I did, but that isn't it. That time, I never returned; about a year into it, Dale had bought a holiday home. He sent me to it alone and told me not to leave as it wasn't safe. I stayed there for maybe six months. A few weeks after I got there, the guy showed up. He basically moved in with me." I see Carlos' mouth drop open. "He never stayed in one place!" "He stayed with me. Dale would send maybe one message a week saying I wasn't safe and to stay hidden. If I tried messaging him, it wouldn't go through. I told him I couldn't keep calling him Mad Hatter, so he said to call him Tim for now. That wasn't his name, I don't think. He confided in me, told me about his childhood and things, and I know I should have said, but I saw him as a friend." Which was stupid. "And now you don't? Why?" Marco looks at me, waiting. "Because now I realise he was trying to get information from me.
Dario pushes me to sit in a seat and faces me. He's looking at me like I'm about to blow everything up. I feel like I am. I didn't tell him everything, not because I didn't want him to know, but because I had no idea how or if he would handle this. Then, I just figured out things while he was getting Alex in bed. "Little rabbit, please." He looks at me, almost begging. "I didn't tell you everything. I stayed at a small holiday home without Dale for about six months. I have no idea where he went. Tim, or Mad Hatter as we know him, stayed with me." "You knew his fucking name!" "No! I told him I felt awkward calling him Mad Hatter, so he said to call him Tim, which could be his name for now. His name isn't Tim. It's just a name he said to call him, so I didn't have to call him Mad Hatter." "You don't know for sure, little rabbit, why the fuck did you live with him for six months!" "Dale was gone. I don't know where or why. He was just gone. Tim isn't a bad guy, or I thought. Dale h