I stand ahead of her, feeling woozy, taking in her words and listening to her. I watch as she cries. Maybe I didn't think shit through. She didn't tell me anything, not because she didn't want to. She told me nothing because, for the last year of her life, there was nothing to tell. She hadn't seen her parents, she lived in a fucking hotel, and her job wasn't real. She was registered as working at one of Jacob's buildings but didn't even have that.Had I thought maybe I would have realised last night? She had no control over her life for a year. Of course, she was going to run when she got that control back. Fear alone would do that.I cup her cheeks so she has to look at me. "For some crazy fucking reason, I love you woman. Not like, not infatuated with, I fucking love you. I would never have told you the story of my mother otherwise. Nothing could turn that into resentment or hate, not fucking easily." I rest my forehead against hers. "You need to speak to me, Alice, not beat me wit
I watch Dr Hargreaves, or Jasmine, as she told me to call her leaves; her words are still in my head. I was out of it last night when they rescued me. I was too damn cold to recognise much.I remember seeing Lorenzo, then briefly the doctor, but nothing significant until the car when I began to warm up. So, a week without sex, but she will check on me in five days. Walking towards the door, it opens, and he steps in."Please tell me it was a joke?" He laughs and stops in front of me, his hand gripping my hair and pulling my head back."Unfortunately, no, it wasn't. No sex." I smile, and he pouts."Well, I guess making it up to you will have to wait. I can, however." His mouth is hot on mine, his body moving and pinning me against the wall.Moaning, I grasp his hair, his hands stroking down my body."Oh no, you don't." I hear Carlos and Lorenzo groans into my mouth. "Training, now.""Can I skip today?" Lorenzo looks at me."No, no skipping, go." I push him back."She said no skipping,
I wake alone, and an empty feeling spreads through me. I peer around the room and notice Alice is already up and gone. Sighing, I get ready. Jogging down the stairs, I almost slam into our father."Training." I stare at him. "Lorenzo, you have been slacking recently. You're training all day." I glance through and see Alice with Luciano."Can I have an hour?""Let's make a deal. You can have two, but she stays here." Shit, I glance through to her. "She is safe, Lorenzo, your brothers are here, the soldiers are here, Capo, everything, so stop worrying." He looks at me, waiting."Okay, two hours, then I come without her." I turn to walk away, and his hand stops me."Eat, Lorenzo; if you keep fucking about, I will cancel this fight. You seem to be uninterested in it these days. If so, just say."Staring, shocked, I shake my head. "No, I am. Don't start trying to replace me, or I will beat whoever it is." He laughs at my words. "I'll get breakfast." Rushing through to the kitchen, I grab s
Walking through, I search for Luciano, finding him in Felicity's arms."You're not taking him back!" She holds him closer, and I laugh."It's fine, Felicity. You can keep him a bit longer." She grins and plays with him on the floor. Lucia stops next to me and looks at her."She's avoiding something." Turning, I look at Lucia, confused and see Iz joining us. "Has she spoken to you Iz?" Lucia looks at her."No, but she was weird using my kids as a distraction. I left them at home, though, with my sister."I look back at Felicity, and I can see what they mean. She is laughing and playing with him, but her face screams something is wrong."Right, let's look at clothes." Lucia steps forward and gets Felicity's attention. We walk through and I stand shocked and confused."Don't feel like you should refuse Alice. I know how awkward I felt the first time, but look through and see what you like." Lucia hugs me, and I watch the next hour pass as we look through clothes. I end up with some items
Jacob ran, that's two now that we're trying to find. It was clear when we went to his place, he rushed. He left a lot of shit behind. Now, though, we're blind as the messages Felicity saw were not on a phone registered.It means he had a burner phone, and we can't track that shit if we don't have a number or something for it.I'm currently lying on the floor, on my stomach, facing Luciano. He babbles and drools all over."Looks like you when you're drunk." Dario laughs and sits down."Thanks for saying I'm cute, bro," I smirk at him."I didn't mean that part. I meant the drooling on yourself." He laughs, and I glance at the phone in his hand."Heard anything?" I know he and Evaline have a weird-as-hell relationship."She's busy." He sighs and turns his attention away from the phone. "I'm in a place I am just going to kidnap her and keep her with me until she agrees." He grins, and I laugh."She agrees? So now you want to more, she is running?""Fuck knows, Lorenzo, it's like fucking t
I'm sitting with Felicity, Iz and Lucia. Felicity is holding Luciano. I watch them face each other, and I can't help the panic that rises up in me.The fight begins, and I watch them move. It's clear whatever Danni’s tricks are, they are failing. Lorenzo is getting hits in, using Danni’s own moves against him.I see him still and panic, his brothers shouting at him louder. Why isn't he moving? Standing, I shout his name, but he doesn't respond. My eyes close as I see the hit, I want to run to him.The blood now drips from his eye, but the hit has woken him up. I see a new look cross Lorenzo's face. Almost like determination, he begins to throw jabs and kicks quickly, not stopping, and when he gets the opening, he swings. His fist connects with the side of the guy's head, and I watch him fall.I pray he stays down, then watch as Lorenzo stays standing in the middle with Dario hugging him. I watch as he signals for me to join. I stare in confusion, and he nods. Walking over, I climb int
I look at Luciano and back to Lorenzo. "What are the chances that can happen to you, Lorenzo?" I'm scared as hell."It won't.""Lorenzo, you can't say it won't if there is a chance."His hands grasp my cheeks. "It's unlikely, okay? I mean this, if I get a warning and it looks likely to happen, I will hang up my gloves, I swear it to you."Nodding, I cuddle against him."I won't leave you, Alice, I promise. I go for CT scans and everything."Sitting, I look at him. Does he think I'm a fool? I'm not a fool. "Lorenzo, I know what CTE is and that it can't be found like that." I know I read up on it when I took up boxing. I know that CTE is something that can't be diagnosed with tests; it's a combination of things, but then it isn't a definite result."You're right. The only test for it can only be done during a biopsy, so how about this?" He looks at me. "If I have signs of it, I will stop.""You blacking out is a sign."He chuckles. "I've not done that since I stopped drinking so much. T
I am respectful and talk to them. Sitting, I watch Alice walk out with her mother into the kitchen to make drinks. Sitting up, I look at him, ready for the whole 'Stay the fuck away from my little girl' speech."What is your deal with my daughter?" And there it is. I try not to laugh, I have a habit of joking about, and well, I would look like a proper cunt."She is an amazing woman." I smile at him. "One who I love and has made me change in so many ways.""I don't understand. If you two were dating, why was she also dating this other guy?"Ah, awkward. "We weren't dating, and she didn't mention dating anyone when we slept together." His eyes widen."So she was just sex to you."Laughing, I shake my head. "Your daughter was never just sex to me. I have always liked her, but my lifestyle at the time was complicated and made me seem unavailable.""You had a partner." He looks at me in disgust."No, actually, your daughter is my first relationship." I sigh and look at him. "Look, I didn'
I'm so fucking happy. This is the best Christmas ever. She's pregnant, Alex is officially ours, and she's marrying me! Tonight! I left her for a bit. Her dad is here, so they are talking everything out. I wanted to be there but knew she needed space to do it herself. I look across the chairs and other things. She wanted to come outside, but we banned her. She can't see this, not until later. "It's looking good." Lorenzo smiles at me. "Have you considered this, Dario?" Marco looks at me. "She said yes! She said she would marry me." She said yes. "I know, but I mean the whole surprise wedding; she said yes, but that doesn't mean now." "Yes, it does!" She wouldn't say yes if she weren't ready now. She's ready. She will say yes. She will love this. "Okay, calm down, you're too high." Marco chuckles, but I can't. I feel amazing right now. "How is it going with her dad?" Matteo looks at me. "No idea. I gave her space." I'm giving her space. "Matteo, he's staying at your house toni
I walked out of the room feeling sickened. Not so much that he had slept with my mother, more he slept with me purely because I looked like her. Like in his mind, I was her. I need to check on Alex. Walking into his room he's sat up on the bed looking at the book. "Read it?" He holds out the book, and I laugh. "Move over." I climb onto the bed, and he cuddles into me as I read it to him. Today is Christmas. I didn't realise, but Lucia had the baby on Christmas day! It's nearly three. I read to him, watching as he fell asleep. Slowly, my eyes slip closed. I wake feeling someone wrap their arms around me. Glancing behind me, I see Dario. I open my mouth to talk, and he shakes his head. "No. Leave it, little rabbit. Let's just sleep for a couple of hours." He holds onto me, and I fall asleep, with him and Alex cuddling me. I need to get answers later. I wake up in bed alone. Neither Alex nor Dario are here. Climbing from the bed, I go to our room and begin to get ready. "Little ra
So far, this guy hasn't been forthcoming. It's Christmas, and we're wasting time on him. Sure, we could just forget him and go to bed for as few hours as possible before getting up, but he's a risk. Alice came to get the baby, and Lucia is currently resting. So this needs sorting now. He's not someone who can be trusted alone, even with soldiers. "I never would have hurt her." I look up, confused. "Evaline, my plan was never to touch her or harm her. Weirdly, she is just like her mother. She's amazing." "How did you meet her mum?" I want to get her answers. "I had just taken down a target and was ready to leave when I saw her. I was twenty-eight, and she was thirty-nine. She was so different. She was so amazing I just went over and said hi, which is how it began. At that point, Evaline was born." "Did you see Evaline?" "No!" His head shakes. "I never did; we had been sleeping together for years. She wouldn't let me see Evaline. She spoke of her. He found out about the affair and
I look at Marco. He's heard nothing. "It's Christmas. Maybe just leave it until after today?" Lorenzo looks at me. "I can't do much, Lorenzo." I can't do anything without information that we don't have. "This is your first official Christmas with Evaline, don't fuck it up." Our dad looks at me, and I know he's right. The gunshot has us all jump up and rush out. I watch as a window smashes and smoke begins to flood the hall. "Get the women and kids!" Marco screams, rushing upstairs; I grab Luciano, Lorenzo grabs Alice, and I see soldiers follow Marco up to Lucia and Evaline. Carrying Luciano down, I sit him in the safe room. Rushing up, I see someone carrying Alex. "Put it on." I see something throw a mask at me. Placing it on, I rush up and see Evaline fighting to get to Alex's room. "Alex is downstairs, little rabbit, go." I watch as she disappears. Rushing through, I get to our room and see him. Throwing myself at him, someone grabs me and stops, and I watch them grab him. "D
I wake hearing a bang, my eyes adjusting to the darkness. I reach out to Dario, but he isn't there. The sound of gunshots has my body jump up and out of bed. Rushing, I get the gown and wrap it around my body as the windows in the room smash, and smoke begins to fill the room. I rush for the door and hear something. Turning, I look behind me and see someone jump through the window. Running out the door, I get grabbed. Screaming, I go to hit him. "Evaline, go with him!" Marco? I feel them pull me, but I try to get to Alex. I need to get Alex. Screaming, I fight against him. "Alex is downstairs, little rabbit, go." I don't get a chance to respond. I'm just pulled further away. As we reach downstairs, I'm thrown into a room and the door locks. "Evaline, thank god you're okay!" Lucia rushes and hugs me. I look around, Alice, Lucia, Alex, and Luciano are in here, and I believe it's James. I'm not sure which soldier it is. "What is happening?" I look around us. This room has no windo
Dario's arms stay around me as we dance. He started out fine, but in the past week, he's been slowly drowning and getting lost in his mind. I know he's constantly overthinking what is happening. Everything I try fails. Sex works while we're having sex, and then he's back in his head. It's taking so much effort to keep him here and with us. The last thing we need is for something to happen and for him to slip away in his mind and not wait for answers. So, I need to keep his mind off Mad Hatter or Tim, as they haven't been able to find anything. Marco even tried to send a message out for my dad in the hope he would reply and give us something, but it's been silent. I lean up and kiss his lips. "We haven't spoken about how many kids you want." I smile, and he looks at me so damn confused. "Babies, Dario, how many do you want?" "I just want you." My eyes roll. "You have me. We have Alex. I want to know about us making babies. How many?" He seems to be considering it. "I would be hap
It's too quiet, and I don't like quiet, not in this way. Quiet in my head, fine, but this feels wrong. He's gone quiet. He's stopped sending messages out. He's ignoring us. He's planning, he's planning something, what is he planning? I pace the room. Today is Matteo's engagement party. Tomorrow is Christmas. It's too fucking quiet. Quietly, quietly, not a sound. I'm listening and listening. "Dario!" I turn, and Marco is staring at me. "You're singing." He holds out his hands. "We were waiting for you!" "I..." Something is wrong. Quietly, quietly, not a sound. I'm listening and listening. "Dario!" I glance at him. "Get out of your head, focus." I can't focus. It's too quiet. "Okay, tell me what is in your head. You keep singing quietly, quietly, so speak." "It's too quiet." It's too quiet. "Right, and I agree it is. It's unusual. He's gone quiet; he's not responding, but stay out of your head. It's been half an hour. How long have you been standing here pacing and singing in yo
I sit with Dario. His brothers and his dad are facing me. "You slept with him, just say." Marco laughs. "I did, but that isn't it. That time, I never returned; about a year into it, Dale had bought a holiday home. He sent me to it alone and told me not to leave as it wasn't safe. I stayed there for maybe six months. A few weeks after I got there, the guy showed up. He basically moved in with me." I see Carlos' mouth drop open. "He never stayed in one place!" "He stayed with me. Dale would send maybe one message a week saying I wasn't safe and to stay hidden. If I tried messaging him, it wouldn't go through. I told him I couldn't keep calling him Mad Hatter, so he said to call him Tim for now. That wasn't his name, I don't think. He confided in me, told me about his childhood and things, and I know I should have said, but I saw him as a friend." Which was stupid. "And now you don't? Why?" Marco looks at me, waiting. "Because now I realise he was trying to get information from me.
Dario pushes me to sit in a seat and faces me. He's looking at me like I'm about to blow everything up. I feel like I am. I didn't tell him everything, not because I didn't want him to know, but because I had no idea how or if he would handle this. Then, I just figured out things while he was getting Alex in bed. "Little rabbit, please." He looks at me, almost begging. "I didn't tell you everything. I stayed at a small holiday home without Dale for about six months. I have no idea where he went. Tim, or Mad Hatter as we know him, stayed with me." "You knew his fucking name!" "No! I told him I felt awkward calling him Mad Hatter, so he said to call him Tim, which could be his name for now. His name isn't Tim. It's just a name he said to call him, so I didn't have to call him Mad Hatter." "You don't know for sure, little rabbit, why the fuck did you live with him for six months!" "Dale was gone. I don't know where or why. He was just gone. Tim isn't a bad guy, or I thought. Dale h