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Chapter 31 - The man behind the beast
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2021-04-15 05:51:37Cara's POV
I want to throw up. Again.
The touch of his lips on mine still drove in me the same amount of disgust it always did.
My stomach tightened more. Can I just throw up in his mouth?
It's okay Cara, hold on more, it is all going as planned, come on.
I shakily brought my hand up before I let my fingers lightly rest over his cheek feeling the rasp of his light stubble against my fingertips. Shame gripped me by the throat. I knew I shouldn't be doing this, no matter what my motivations behind it are, I shouldn't be doing it.
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