With sour limbs and sweat soaked sheets, Fay, who barely slept a wink the whole night after tossing and turning throughout, wearily rubbed her hands all over her face as she stretched her arms out tiredly.
Glancing around her bedside, she spotted her phone on the floor by her bed, she must have dropped it there after talking a little to Silas last night, she remembered as she stretched below to pick up the phone and checked what the time said.
It was a little after seven a.m, she winced slightly as she put her legs gently on the floor then she made to stand up.
A sharp pain shot through her stomach, making her bend over the sink she was washing her face in after struggling to wobble to the bathroom through the dull pain she started feeling the moment she woke up, in immerse pain.
Sharp breaths left her parted lips as she winced painfully again, struggling to breath through her mouth whe
Showering and getting dressed in plain black shorts and a crop top coupled with a black jacket, I stood before my floor length mirror in my room as I observed my appearance in the outfit.I woke up this morning, more like just standing up from the position I was in after not managing to get a wink of sleep the whole night. All I did was think and think about everything and nothing in particular before finally lifting up the bed by around 7:45am.It's a Thursday today and it doesn't even seem promising. Most days now doesn't seem promising if I'm being honest with myself.I took a slow and long shower after doing nothing for an hour, the cold and chilled water, giving me goosebumps and shivers the moment I stepped under the hard spray, I didn't even bother to cover my cornrows with a shower cap this morning, all I wanted to feel was the water all over my body.Surprisingly I felt a little bit b
"Your place?" I spluttered out again.Oh Kay! He wants me to visit him at home, right? I'm nervous!Oh Lord, help still my fast beating heart. I thought. I twisted my fingers into the fluffy pillow beside me on the couch as I made to reply him."Where do you live anyways? I Inquired, cause Lord knows that if it's too far then I'm not going again. I'm too lazy for one and I barely have enough strength left in me to go anywhere really far.'Why did you now get all dressed up this morning?' My subconscious tutted in my head.I shrugged my shoulder.'To maybe go out...'Bleh."Fay! Did you zone out again?" Silas voice broke through my newl
I ended up not changing out of the clothes I was dressed in before he the call, I only ditched my extremely short crop top for a slightly and non fitted black crop top and switching my black jacket to a black jeans jacket.I wasn't joking when I said I was going all black today.Strutting out of my room with my black bag containing my phone, power back and a charging cord, a bottle of perfume, and money, I strapped the bag over my shoulder as I made my way down the stairs.It wasn't a surprise that the cook wasn't around, I couldn't find her anywhere in the kitchen when I filled my mouth with cool water from the kitchen tap before spitting it back into the empty sink. I did it two more times before wiping my whole face with a handkerchief.I headed outside, closing the main door to the house quietly and locking it before dropping the key into my bag.M
You kept me waiting!" I informed him after I moved out of the one armed hug we shared just now."I didn't." He replied as he lifted his phone to his face before tapping on it, immediately, my phone vibrated in my fingers, the now familiar tune signaling the end of a call.I glanced at it before tapping on the screen twice to turn it off, taking note of the amount of airtime I just burned on Silas's head."You did. I waited long." I argued.He let out a sigh before replying."Fine. I did.""So, apologize." I purposed."No way!" He snapped, shooting me one of his glares."Why?" I asked."Cause I didn't kept you waiting." He stated."But you just agreed to keeping me waiting." I informed him, moving my weight from foot to foot.I can feel myself start to weaken slowly.
Why haven't I been eating?Do I know?No_ NO."I don't know, I don't feel like." I pushed the words out."You don't feel like? You mean you weren't hungry this morning?" He asked, trying to get to the root of the problem."Kinda." I reply, nodding my head along with my answer.He let out a sigh before turning to face me more properly on the sofa."Hey, look at me." He instructed, his gaze burning holes into my slightly bent head.I let out a sigh as I forced myself to look away from my seemingly cute fingernails."Just talk to me." He let out softly, his fingers drumming quietly on the chair rest behind my head, the sound drifting into my ears."I'm talking to you." I replied with raised eyebrows."No, I didn't mean that kind of ta
"Fine! I'll go with you." I rushed out when he stood up and was actually about to lift me up."You had better. Let me help you up." He drawled out as he pulled on my left hand till I was almost hitting his chest with the amount of force applied on the pull, but I didn't.He led the way into the kitchen with me trailing slowly behind him, I got tempted to stomp my feet on the floor like a child but I decided against it.What could going into the kitchen hurt anyways?I ran my fingers across the beautiful designs on the walls as we headed to the kitchen, tiny roses were sketched into the wall, the patterns grazing my fingers soothingly, leaving cold and tiny tingles behind.We finally reached the kitchen, he went straight to the fridge and pulled it open while I took the opportunity to look around and take in my fill of the kitchen.
Good point tho, I was so staring at him.Now, back to my now ugly face."Can you get me a, I don't know maybe a tissue paper or a hand kerchief, just get me anything." I demanded of Silas, my voice as light as a feather.He kept looking at me as if I've grown two heads which was starting to get irritating to be honest.Oh..."Please?" I decided to add when he kept staring at me."Urg fine!" He replied in a very light voice as he walked towards one of the many cupboards in the kitchen and pulled out an opened roll of tissue paper before handling it to me.Thankfully, he didn't return back to where he was before, instead he remained a few feet before me, hands cradling a bottle water from the fridge."Here." Silas muttered before thrusting the bottle water in my face, the cap unscrewed already.I grimaced
Bending over the sink in the kitchen with Silas holding me up with his arms around my waist, I finally retched badly, vomiting out water.I coughed and spluttered out small more drops before sucking in deep breaths like my life depended on it.My life actually depends on it now.So, Silas didn't actually poisoned me, i was just being paranoid out of stupid fear.Well, good for me, right? Cause now, Silas just wouldn't look at me.I think he's angry at me, oof.Oh, he was looking at me with concern in his eyes but he wasn't really looking at me, his once light eyes seemed like they were hooded with a sheen of darkness.You did well, Fay. Not."You know, you really need to go see a doctor, you obviously have eating disorder and it can be really harmful to your system." He commented as
And before I could even think about it, I started telling him about my baby brother, James.I didn't even know when the tears started to fall until Silas swiped his thumb against a tear slipping down my cheeks in folds.I pulled away from his reach till I sat at the very edge of his bed as I motionlessly continued to tell me about how growing up with him was.How exciting and eventful the few years I got to spend with him felt, how the years he lived were probably my most meaningful years in my whole life.I could feel the tears pouring down my cheeks as I sobbed quietly, not even a tearful sound escaped my lips as I went on and on about how James was everything.Till I killed him."When I noticed my change in behavior, there wasn't really anything I could do about it. Sometimes I'll just cry for no reason. Other times I'll just starve myself for reasons unknown to me, sometimes I get so confused and lost inside of my own body and it's hard to
I rubbed my sweaty hands up and down my gown as I tried to look away from the doorway as it creaked open again, the sound vibrating then stopping like it has been doing for the past hour.I felt a light tap on my shoulder and looked back at a smiling amara.
Ember's pov. 'I'll prepare your favourite dish tonight, make sure you don't miss it. I'm serious this time.'
"It's not your fault he died. It's not."I shook my head in denial as I tried to mentally block out all Silas was saying while I tried focusing on my breathing which suddenly ceased for a few seconds due to how hard I was crying.It was a Monday, three days after the session I had with my therapist. Three days after I spoke with Michael. Three days after I finally admitted to my self that I had somehow fallen in love without even realising it.It was supposed to be just a simple hangout where by I'll get to talk with Silas and maybe kiss and do we other stuff for a little bit before I'll finally head home.It wasn't supposed to have a very emotional talk, it wasn't.Somewhere along the line, I found myself in Silas room. This time, I had ventured into his room for the first time, not just his sitting room and kitchen.To say his room was fine was putting it to
"I've missed you so much, Sisi.""Oh, come on! I thought we agreed not to call each other silly nicknames anymore?" Silas argued with Jordan, an amused laugh playing across his face."You started it, remember? You called me Jordie!""Aw, I was just joking, man." Silas explained but Jordan brushed him off with a shake of his head after pointing out to him that he was the one who started everything.They laughed before Timi, the third boy in the group of friends embraced Silas heatedly. It was pretty obvious about who Silas was really close with between the two guys.The only girl in the group of friends came forward and literally flew into Silas outstretched hands who immediately wrapped themselves around her waist as he lifted her from the ground for a little bit before finally releasing her.I watched, an amused expression on my face as they exchanged p
"And, we should face time in the nude too!"Wait, whuut?!"I mean, it could be fun and you know..." He trailed off as he wiggled his eyebrows playfully, all traces of seriousness gone from his face, his goofy, playful side back in place."You're high." I informed him with an amused eye roll.A ping came from my phone which was dropped behind the Mac by a very hyper Ashley the moment the call connected with Silas's about an hour ago or so.I bended forward to retrieve the phone, the small exclamation of 'Fuck!' stopped me for a few seconds before I reached forward a little bit more till I reached the phone and returned back to my normal position.My mouth suddenly went dry when I caught Silas's heated gaze on my boobs, he lifted his gaze to my face, our eyes locking intently."Fuck, I didn't know you weren't wearing anything underneath
"Fay! You have a call from Silas, and we mistakenly accepted the call."Ashley sheepishly called out from the doorway of my room while Whitney held out the phone out in my direction.Ashley and Whitney could perfectly pass on for twins with how they do things together and let's not forget how identical they look coupled with the fact that they were nearly the same height with Whitney only a little bit taller than her immediate younger sister, Ashley."You mistakenly accepted it?" I asked with narrowed eyes as I collected the phone from Whitney's outstretched grip."I swear Aunty F... I mean Fay, it was a mistake. You know, we were just busy watching BTS on YouTube when the call came through and my finger mistakenly tapped it." Ashley explained as she moved her hands around then she mistakenly hit Whitney on the tight with her wandering hands.Whitney only scowled at her younger sister befo
"There's something about you, something different and fresh like a new gift yet unwrapped, waiting to be pealed off carefully." "At first, I thought it was just a normal attraction, but then somehow I started admitting to myself that it was more than that. Before I knew it, you were always in my head. Be it morning, afternoon, evening and night. Heck, I dream about you once in a while too." I sat up stiffly on the seat of the swing as I drank in all he was softly saying into my ear, his heated breath fanning softly against the sensitive spot behind my ear."Somewhere, somehow, you got into my head and stayed there. I still think it's weird though, this constant edging feeling biting my insides with warmth." He pulled me closer till my whole back was firmly pressed into his chest and his lips pressing into the curve of my ear.
I stepped into the house and pulled the door closed behind me, different excitement filled voices crackled around in the air to my amusement.Chelsea wagged her tail at me the moment I walked through the door.The voice was mainly coming from the kitchen which I made my way to almost immediately, I was dying to set my eyes on them.An amused smile graced my lips on seeing the three children huddled over one iPad as they disagreed over the game they were supposed to be playing at the moment."Fay! You're back." Mum gushed immediately she sighted me hanging by the door of the kitchen as she made a hand gesture for me to come in instead of standing stiffly by the door."Aunty Fay! Oh my gosh you're so beautiful!" One of the three girls who were arguing over the iPad gushed as she drank me in through her eyes.She looked like a ten years old, but she definitely ac