"HOW'S THE INTERVIEW WITH RAIZEN POLICARPIO AT SA KANYANG ANGKAN—”
"Shut the hell up, Kyree. I'm not in the mood.”
Pabalibag kong nilapag ang bag ko sa table at pabagsak akong umupo sa bagung-bago na signature chair ko. I close my eyes tight as I start to massage my temple.
"Get me my usual double shot espresso. Make it two,” utos ko habang minamasahe pa rin ang sentido ko.
"Parang stress na stress ka naman, madam. Kalmahan mo lang—”
"Am I asking for your comfort? Can't you just give what I am asking you to? Daldal!” I interrupted him.
"Y-Yes, Madam.” Narinig ko pa ang nagmamadali n'yang pagtakbo palabas ng office.
Kahit na late ako sa interview na hiningi ko sa panig ni Raizen, they still had no choice but to let me in. The interview went well; intense, just like my previous interviews. Always.
But even so, that won't erase the fact that I, Winter G., finally broke my record against tardiness. I feel so unprofessional after everything that happened. And all of that was caused by Damon. S'ya rin ang may kasalanan kung bakit sirang-sira na ang araw ko ngayon. Usually, a successful and intense interview is enough to make my day. But not now.
I still can't believe that jerk of a man! First, he left without even saying goodbye. Second, he left me with nothing but some… cheap fast-food items. I might appreciate a goodbye note more than those cheapskates. Third, he made me pay the hotel bill! Tinagurian pang apo at tagapagmana ng trilyones, kuripot naman pala ang gago!
'Wag n'ya lang talaga masubuk-subukan na tawagan ako dahil maiihi talaga s'ya sa takot. I swear it on his future grave!
"Madam, 'eto na—”
"Just put it right here. I'll be going home once I finish that.”
It was obvious that Kyree's so surprised. Pero mas pinili na lang n'yang manahimik dahil siguro sa takot n'ya sa pwede ko na namang sabihin o gawin.
Despite my espresso's high temperature, I managed to finish it in a few sip. Hindi na rin ako halos nakaramdam ng init. Gano'n naman talaga 'ko. Kapag inis ako at imbyerna sa isang bagay, I am failing to see or even feel some details.
After taking the last sip of my espresso, I immediately stood up.
"I'm going. May mga aasikasuhin lang ako; babalik din ako agad. So, don't fantasize about taking my position again. Maliwanag?” sabi ko. It was serious rather than sarcastic.
"Madam naman—” I signaled my hand to tell him to stop. Which, he did.
Lumabas na 'ko ng office pagkatapos no'n. I didn't bring any aside from my bag. Maliligo lang naman ako at magbibihis sa bahay ko and after that, babalik na ulit ako rito. I just realized that I haven't been able to take a bath. Huling ligo ko ay kagabi pa; bago ako nakipagkita sa demonyong Damon na 'yon. Nakakainis dahil late na nga ako sa meeting at interview ko, wala pa 'kong ligo at matinong ayos. Bukod tuloy sa pagiging unprofessional, pakiramdam ko ay napaka-unpresentable ko rin ngayong araw. And I have to wash away that feeling.
Habang palabas ako ng building, napansin ko na nakaabang sa malayo si Tyler. I haven't seen him since the night at the party. 'Yung muntik n'ya na 'kong ma-abduct if not only for Damon. So, thanks to him, I guess?
Saglit akong tumigil sa paglalakad para makipagtitigan kay Tyler. Kung 'yon ang gusto n'ya. Seconds later, he made a move. I can tell that he was about to come near me. But even before he could do so, a shady man in black appeared to approach him.
I stayed on my position as I stare at Tyler and the man. They are talking. A few moments after, they both look at me. I immediately felt uneasy as my eyes met theirs.
Hindi na lang ako nagtagal sa pwesto ko. I immediately went to the parking lot and eventually, inside my car. But of course, I did it when they're not already looking at me. Mahirap na, baka masundan pa nila 'ko kung sakali.
I drove my way out of the parking lot. Nagawa ko pang dumaan sa harapan ni Tyler at ng lalaking nakaitim na kausap n'ya nang hindi nila ako napapansin. Thanks to my tinted windows.
When I managed to get in the private subdivision where my house is locared, it was already four p.m. Usually, out ko na sa mga oras na 'to but because I came to the office late, I've decided na mag-take na lang overtime. Regardless kung ako na lang ang maiwan mag isa sa office; o sa buong building.
I parked my car just outside my house. Saglit lang naman kasi ako. I'm not planning to stay here for long, anyway. Maliligo lang ako at magbibihis. Then I'm good to go.
After stopping my engine, I was about to step out of my car when I suddenly notice something's off. Aksidenteng nahagip ng paningin ko sa rear view mirror ng kotse ko ang dalawang lalaki na nakatayo at nag uusap sa 'di kalayuan. They are wearing an all black outfit. Kagaya ng sa lalaking kausap ni Tyler kanina. But I'm certain na 'yung lalaking 'yon ay iba pa sa mga lalaking natatanaw ko ngayon.
"What the hell is happening?” usal ko sa sarili. Those men could be working for some network in the media industry. Pwede ring parte na naman ng pakulo ni Tyler para i-pursue ako na makipagbalikan sa kanya. Hindi naman kasi imposible sa kanya na gawin 'yon. He may be a nonsense man but still, he's one of the leading businessman in today's circle. Well technically, he isn't. He's not a businessman himself. Anak lang s'ya ng isang kilalang business tycoon sa Pilipinas. But still and at least, it will do. May connect pa rin naman.
Hindi ko muna tinuloy 'yung tangka kong paglabas ng sasakyan kanina. Instead, I waited and watch those eerie men. Pasulyap-sulyap sila sa pwesto ng sasakyan ko kaya nasiguro ko lang lalo na ako nga 'yung pakay nila at wala nang iba pa.
Nag uusap pa rin 'yung dalawang lalaki pero mayamaya rin 'yung pagsulyap nila sa pwesto ng sasakyan ko.
I paid attention to my house. Kinalkula ko kung ilang hakbang ang magagawa ko bago ako tuluyang makapasok sa loob. I have been thinking to run my way inside the house. Pero naisip ko rin na magmumukha lang akong tanga. I don't want myself to look like some scared little girl. Or a pathetic coward rat either.
Sa huli, napagdesisyunan ko na umakto na lang ng normal. I went out of my car. Siniguro ko rin na naka-lock ang mga pinto at bintana n'on. Then I normally walk towards my gate habang pasimple kong tinitingnan 'yung dalawang lalaki na ngayon at mukhang focus na focus na sa panonood sa'kin. Parang binabantayan nila bawat kilos na gawin ko. What for?
Habang sinasara ko 'yung gate, palihim ko pa rin silang tinitingnan. I saw one of them talked to what looks like… a mic. Covert mic or spy mic, to be exact. It seems like he just said an update to someone on the other line. But the question is: what update? Was it about… me?
I brushed off those thoughts as I continued my way to finally enter my house. Whoever those men in black are, and whoever their mastermind is, I know that I should find out. Hindi ako mapapakali sa seguridad ko hangga't hindi ko nalalaman ang puno't-dulo ng biglaang pagsulpot ng mga goons na 'yon.
As soon as I am inside the house, I throw my bag in the couch as I gently removed all my clothes. I did it on my way to the bathroom. Nakasanayan ko na 'yon. It is how comfortable I am in my home. Besides, panatag ako na wala namang ibang makakakita sa'kin o sa mga ginagawa ko sa loob ng bahay ko dahil first and foremost, mag isa lang akong naninirahan dito. Wala akong kasama. I didn't even get myself a maid. Well, I can. I can get as many maids as I want to. But I don't want to. May resources ako, oo. Busy ako, oo. Pero hindi ako tamad at mangmang sa basic living knowledge.
I said to myself that I won't take long in here. Pero nagbago lahat ng 'yon sa naisip ko. And that exact thought made me want to drench myself more in the waters. More like, drown myself. I remembered all the encounter I had with Damon last night. And all the negative energy he managed to build in me. Mahaba-habang babaran at marami-raming tubig ang kailangan ko bago mawala sa'kin 'yung kilabot na dulot ng damuhong Damon na 'yon. Mukhang hindi pa nga tuluyang mabubura 'yon. It seems like his negative aura that lingers within me has been etched using
Deinococcus Radiodurans. It was one of the strongest bacteria when base on its nature, anyway. Kahit yata 'yung SG na sabon na nagcla-claim na kayang pumatay ng 99.9% ng germs ay hindi kakayaning burahin ang mikrobyong dala ng hudas na lalaking 'yon.Nangilabot ako sa naisip—making my body shrill.
"Bwisit talagang lalaki. Perwisyo na nga, 'di pa mabura-bura sa utak ko.”
Tutol man sa gusto ko, kinailangan ko ring tumigil sa pagligo at lumabas ng shower room. I have so many things to do rather than waste my precious time erasing those traces that that jerk left on me. Nagbihis lang ako ng simpleng suot—hindi ko na pinabongga masyado dahil malamang na ako lang naman ang mag-o-OT mamaya. Wala kasing night shift sa kumpanya. Hanggang 5 P.M. lang ang working hours at kung may mga nag-oovertime ay hindi rin naman lumalagpas sa alas siyete ng gabi. Bihira pang mangyari.
Instead of my usual office attire, I just wore a simple tube dress and coat. Aalisin ko rin 'yung coat mamaya once na nasa office na 'ko at mag isa. I still put on some makeup, of course. Hindi ako pwedeng lumabas nang hindi ko nasisiguro na presentable ang itsura ko. Earlier was an exception, alright. Pero una't huli na 'yon. I have to make sure of it.
I grab my glasses and bag as I went to go out. Nakita ko rin ang oras—mag-aalas sais na pala.
I was about to hop in my car when suddenly, I took notice of the men in black again. Nawala na sila sa isip ko kanina kaya hindi ko na naalala na baka nasa labas pa rin sila at naghihintay—bagay na mukhang ginagawa nga nila dahil hanggang ngayon ay nando'n pa rin sila sa pwesto nila kanina. Mukhang naalerto pa nga sila pagkakita nila na lumabas na 'ko. But just like before, I still tried my best to never pay any attention to them.
"Bahala kayo sa buhay n'yo d'yan. Mapapagod kayo sa kasusunod sa'kin pero walang mahihita na kahit ano 'yung amo n'yo tungkol sa'kin.”
I smirked at the thought and set to fly my wheels. Sumulyap pa ulit ako sa salamin para silipin 'yung dalawang gunggong. Mukhang nagre-relay na naman ng impormasyon sa kung sino 'yung isa. Hindi ko na lang 'yon pinansin. Huminga na lang ako ng malalim at binuhay na ang makina ng sasakyan ko. Then I eventually send my wheels "flying".
SOIRYE'S P. O. VTHE NIGHT WAS WILD—THE ENTIRE RESORT WAS SURROUNDED BY BLINDING LIGHTS. THE MUSIC WAS A BLAST—ACCOMPANIED BY THE CHATTERING NOISE OF BOTH LAUGHTER AND SHOUTS OF GLEE.Sa kabila ng ingay ng paligid ay rinig na rinig ko pa rin ang malakas na pagkabog ng dibdib ko. I was being followed by my crazy—no, by my obsessed ex-boyfriend. The same ex-boyfriend na pinagbabantaan akong pakakalatin daw sa social media ang "sex tape" ko kung hindi ako makikipagbalikan dito."Baby… the car's waiting. I know you're here. Naaamoy kita. Lumabas ka na,” a voice of a drunk man called. That was him, my ex-boyfriend. Sa boses pa lang nito ay kinikilabutan na ako. Hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin lubos maisip kung anong nakain ko at pinatulan ko ito. Although our relationship lasted for just two weeks, it still counts. Inilibot ko ang mata ko sa paligid. I was currently hiding behind the bush. Naghahanap ako ng tiyempo na makaalis doon nang hindi nakikita ng baliw kong ex. Madilim ang palig
SOIRYE'S P. O. VSENSITIVE WARNING: EXPLICIT CONTENT AHEAD. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. SUITABLE ONLY FOR READERS 18 YEARS OLD AND ABOVE."WHEN WE LANDED, YOU'LL GONNA BE MRS. IGNACI.”I immediately smiled at the thought. I don't know if this is normal—ang pagpayag na magpakasal sa isang lalaking wala pa nga isang araw kong kilala—at ang kiligin sa isipin na 'yon. There's really something wrong in me, is it?We just finished drinking and right now, we are laying in this cozy bed beside each other. Nasa loob lang kami ng kwarto sa private jet niya pero sa ganda no'n, aakalain ko na nasa loob kami ng isang high-end at luxurious na 5 star hotel. Every detail of the room was intricately flawless. It was as if this entire jet was once owned by a royalty.Mamaya pa, naramdaman ko ang paglapit ni Damon sa akin. Nakatagilid kasi ako at nakatalikod sa kanya. May pagitan din sa amin na kasya pa ang isang tao. Pero sa ginawa niyang paglapit, naramdaman ko na unti-unting sumikip ang paligid. I tried m
SOIRYE'S P. O. VWHEN I GOT TO THE APARTMENT DAMON HAD MENTIONED, THE FIRST THING I DID WAS TO DIAL A CERTAIN NUMBER.Ang tanga ko lang dahil hindi ko naisip na nasa labas na ako ng bansa at iba na ang network reception doon. So instead, I logged in to one of my social media accounts at doon ko na lang tinawagan si Kyree. He's my gay assistant. At ngayon na biglaan akong nawalan at hindi ko alam kung kailan ako makakabalik, I have to call him to make him in-charge or everything while I'm gone."Hello—”"Hello, Madam Winter?! Madam Winter!” tila naiiyak niyang bulalas sa kabilang linya. "Madam! Madam, buti naman tumawag ka na! Kanina pa kami windang na windang at alalang-alala sa'yo rito kung bakit wala ka pa! Never ka naman kasing na-late at absent ng walang pasabi!”Napailing na lang ako at inilayo sa tainga ko ang cell phone dahil kung hindi, malamang na mabingi ako sa lakas ng boses niya."I'm just out doing some business, okay? Biglaan kaya hindi na ako nakapagsabi. Anyways, I don
SOIRYE'S P. O. V"I HATE HIM, I HATE HIM, I HATE HIM!”Paulit-ulit 'yong tumatakbo sa isip ko habang nanggigigil akong sinusuntok at hinahampas ang unan ko. Unan ko—so basically, I'm back to my very own room. Because just like what Damon said, pagkatapos na pagkatapos ng "kasal" namin ay diniretso niya na akong ihatid sa field kung saan naghihintay ang private jet na ipanghahatid sa akin ni Paulson. Iyon din ang parehong private jet kung saan niya ako isinakay palabas ng bansa.I can't believe I was able to ride on everything Damon wanted overnight! Kabaliwan mang isipin, pero wala na. Nandito na. I was already married with him. With the man I barely know.And after that roller-coaster ride overnight, I'm back again with my usual. Ang kaibahan lang ngayon ay kasal na ako. Pero wala pa rin naman sigurong magbabago dahil as per him, hindi ko pwedeng i-disclose sa ibang tao 'yung naging kasal namin. It was secretive. More like, ginawa lang talaga solely para sa deal na sinabi niya.Pabor
"CONFIRMED, MADAM! SABI KO NA NGA BA, MAY SOMETHING FISHY D'YAN SA RAIZEN NA 'YAN!”Kyree tsked as we watch a familiar figure from afar. Naka-park kami ilang hakbang ang layo sa harapan ng isang tagong restaurant. Iyong pinapanood namin? It was Raizen Policarpio—the same "talent" na pinag-uusapan namin kani-kanina lang.That Raizen Policarpio is definitely a newbie in the entertainment industry. He's probably in his early twenties. May dating ito at hindi maitatangging malakas ang karisma. Pero kung talent at talent lang din ang pag-uusapan ay obvious na waley ito. Kaya nakakapagtaka na sa kabila no'n at kabi-kabila pa rin ang projects na involved ang batang aktor. Maraming nagsasabi na may mas "malalim" na dahilan kung bakit gano'n."That man he is with, pamilyar siya sa akin. Isn't he one of the executive directors of the most famous T.V. network?” saad ko."Oo nga! Shet, I think I know him! Teka lang, Madam, ha? Aalalahanin ko kung sino… Ahah!” Malakas na napapalakpak si Kyree. Nap
"YOU'RE REALLY AMAZING, MY SOIRYE. YOU NEVER FAILED TO AMUSE AND SATISFY ME.”Damon planted a soft kiss on the side of my forehead as he drew me closer to him. Hindi ko naman magawang sumagot dahil abala ang utak ko sa pagsisisi. Nagsisisi ako sa desisyon ko na nagpadala na naman ako sa mga pang aakit n'ya. I was happy for what we did, yes. Pero naa-anticipate ko na kung ano ang mga susunod na mangyayari; and with that, I was never happy. I will never be."My Soirye…” Hindi pa rin ako sumagot. "I missed this. I missed… you.”I remained silent as I stare at the ceiling of the hotel room where we chose to stay. Hindi ko binigay sa kanya 'yung address ko dahil unang-una, ayokong mabahiran ng kahit anong bakas n'ya ang bahay ko. That was the only safe place I have. That was the only space that remains pure and peaceful. Kung may lugar man na ayokong mabahiran ng magulong sistema ng trabaho at affairs ko, 'yon ay walang iba kundi ang bahay ko. And nor will I let Damon invade that personal