..Lyn POVI stared in the direction of the man who said that loved me so much and seriously wondered what the hell had happened to him . Why was he acting so normally ? everything was okay for me and yet on my side, I was trying so hard to also show him that I was not pained by anything that had resulted between the two of us. I was really in a relationship with someone or I was in it all along. Maybe I was in this relationship alone all this time thinking that the two of us were in it. He came nearer and nearer until he was right next to us but guess what , he did not utter even a single word to me . He talked softly to his friend and then there and then left us . Damn it ! that is actually all that I needed at this time . What the hell! What did I need from this guy anymore? Why did I think he was going to come back to me yet it was more than clear that he finished me and he was not coming back to me no matter what. I fought so much . I really fought so much not to cry before Je
Lyn POV.It has been six days since that little encounter with who used to be my boyfriend. Actually , it is not like he officially told me that he did not like me anymore but that was what it was. Any way , it was not like we had actually even been in love since he never trusted the love that I had for him. Damn it! That guy is such an idiot. Anyway, I just don’t want anything to do with him. I lived before he came into my life and I think I will even when he leaves my life. That is exactly how I have been all these days. I have tried and I am now back to my life. I know it hurts me so much inside my heart but it will finally come to an end. I look myself in the mirror doubting if I should go to this school party or not. For the time I was with Nolan, my life had changed so much. He could take me to different parties and that is how I ended up getting used to them. But after that , I think I am right back in my usual life . That is how I am going to be all this time. Now that the
..Lyn POV.I wondered what the hell he wanted from me. Maybe he wanted to apologize and tell me that what he had done was actually wrong. That he wanted to get back to me. But then as I thought about this…was I ready to get back to him. But then thinking about it all over , he had never directly told me that he was done with me. I was actually me who kept thinking about it all over . Maybe he was actually testing how much I loved him…I just did not know what to think any more. I simply was having so much –but right now was the moment of action. I turned around in slow motion like I was an actress in an Indian movie . I least expected what awaited me – there he was standing, not alone but with a girl whose name I could not tell. His hand was around the neck of that so called date of his – okay , that is what I would tell. And I don’t want to hear any of you saying that I was actually jealous . I refuse to be so for this jerk who does not deserve my love. “What are you doing here ?”
.Lyn POVI was so afraid to look behind . I was actually thinking about what he had in mind. What was he doing here in the first place . I thought he was so busy with that girl whose name I did not even know . I thought he never cared about me at all. what was he doing here then . I did not want to look at him but how was I going to do this . There was actually no where I was going to hide. The only entrance out of these washrooms was where he was standing . I slowly turned to face him . I had actually thought that they were actually the two of them-together with that girl from earlier but she was not their . I some how felt relaxed since he was alone. So much was still going on wondering why he had come here . Maybe he had realized that what he had done was so wrong and so he had come here to apologize so that we can move on again. But what was I going to do? Was I going to forgive him and then we move like nothing happened. Okay , let me not think about all that at this time ,
.Lyn POVI moved towards the party but my eyes were moving around to see where my best friend was . I wanted to tell her not to look for me at the end of the party. This time I was determined to go whether she wanted or not. She was either going to support my move or quarrel at me. At this moment , I was so tired to even care what the rests would be . I was simply going to get a cab and move home. What would counsel me at this moment was for me to get home and get into my shower so quickly and then cry peacefully in my bed but making sure that I did not disturb my mother at all. Did not want her to face any kind of trouble with me since she will be so worried once she gets to know that I have some issues going on in my life about Nolan. I looked around the party and there was no sign of Jean. I did not think twice, I just moved out of the party house. So many guys kept making flirts towards me but I ignored them all. I swear I did not know if I was ever going to trust men at all. B
.Lyn POVI did not wait for my best friend to come and drop me to school , I went myself. This time I did not use a cab but the home car instead . Though I hated Nolan at the moment , I was at least grateful for what he had done for me . He had actually taught me how to drive a car and now I did not have to wait for my best friend to take me to school . I drove through to school . I was not going to be insulted by any of those jerks . Any of them who was going to get towards me was going to get to taste the best of me . I was done joking with any fool that came my way . I was simply done with all of them . Finally , I was at school. I packed up in an empty space . The moment I got out of the car , I saw some one approach me . I did not give her any attention until when she had fully reached where I was. I did not look at her , I did not want to actually know anything about her . I just got my bag from the car and was about to move when some one suddenly blocked my entrance . “Yo
.Lyn POVSeriously, I ended up dominating the lesson most of the time . I am sure most of the fellow learners realized this. But I didn’t care . after all the reason why I came to class was to study and that was what I was doing . Okay , still my sub conscious rolled her eyes at me but I just ignored her . It was high time for me to live and have a life . No one and not even my subconscious was going to control me. I was going to live my life fully . I was actually the first person to get out of class. I had moved only a few steps when someone called me once again . This time it was not Jed but rather Nolan . This took me by surprise , what did he want . He had scolded me and called me all kinds of names all at that party last week . That surely could have been enough . If he ever thought that he was going to do anything to me then he was wrong this time around. This time around, I promise you that I was going to place him to his position.I was done with his insults and if he tri
.Lyn POVAfter that friendly talk with my best friend, we parted ways and had to get back to our respective classes. I was late by a few minutes but I did not care since I knew that the teacher who was supposed to teach us could still not back in class as he always took his time before getting to class.Indeed when I got to class, the teacher was not there which meant that I easily got my seat and sat down . I Knew Nolan was not in this class since he did not take this class. Shortly , the teacher came in and so the lesson started . A few minutes later , something un usual happened.I saw Nolan get into class. Seriously I did not expect this . He did not take this paper and therefore I did not expect him to come in . There was no way that he had changed to offer this subject since we had only a few days to the end of the school year. I looked at him briefly looking for where to sit. The next thing that I knew was him approaching me to take the seat beside me . I had actually not rea
.Lyn POVAs I tried to wake up , I was feeling weak . However at the same time I was more than aware about everything that had actually happened. Everything was actually still fresh in mind. At my ocaasions I wanted what had happened to be just a dream which I was actually not to be going to encounter the moment that I wake up but that was actually not the truth . How was I going to live in life in this world knowing very well that something like this was actually happening in my life . I mean this can only mean that the life that I have been living all this time was actually a life that was full of pretence . A life that never meant anything . At this moment , I was completely at sea not even knowing what I was supposed to do at the moment . I mean the person that I have trusted so much and actually thought that he cared for me turns out that it is actually the same person who was actually doing what it takes to see that I fall down . Actually if it was just falling down then it
.Lyn POVI moved as quick as possible so that I could maybe at least stop little of what may actually cause catastrophic and then at the effects that could at last cause so much effect at school. However the more I approached the place where I knew that the two could be was actually the more that I felt like something was really not okay . I mean on a good side but again I knew very well that it may actually be inside where I was going . The learners on this side of the school campus were actually busy with their school work only for a few who looked at me and then whispered at each other . That was obvious because I was pregnant and that hey had not been able to realize about the fact that I was actually pregnant . But that was actually some kind of business that I actually was not afraid of any more. I knew that this baby was the best thing that had actually happened to me .So this meant that whatever was said was something that actually I did not care about at all. The more I g
Lyn POV“If that is not the problem, then what?” she asked me a question that I had the answer very well but I just did not know how to begin something that seemed to be easy but at the actual sense something that was actually very hard . What could be the reaction of my best friend once she comes to know what this is exactly about . Let me hope she will not fume out since that could actually bring a lot of coarse which could as a result attract much more attention from so many but I don’t want to become the center of attraction at this time . However getting her to know some of these things could reduce the weight that I actually have on my heart at the moment . You know things get a little relaxed every time you out something to a friend that you may actually be going through . “I am no longer in a relationship with Nolan.” I said casually like it was the best thing to say in such a situation . “What !”she exclaimed there and then she looked at me wide-eyed . That was the exac
.Lyn POI could not believe that he had actually even got to that level. Okay , at least I could get used by what he said that he actually does not actually love me anymore but that was actually okay as I could grow. How had we really gotten to this level for sure . Though he called it quits and sincerely I had hope that he could finally come back to me and tell me that it was just a misunderstanding . Little did I know that we were going to get to the point where he could be actually be saying that the baby that am expecting was not his .At this point, I was completely heart broken. I Had no idea what I was supposed to reply . The fact is I at so many occasions tried to open my mouth but it betrayed me and I did not say anything at all. The only thing that I knew was bond to happen was the fact that I felt tears threaten to fall from my eyes. It was so strong but I promised myself one thing that I knew I was supposed to follow . It was so hard but it was actually what I was sup
.LYN POV“Girl , you have been quiet since the moment that we got into the car .” My best friend said out of the blue was we made entrance into the school campus. When I was at home, I had decided that I was going out of the house and act like all was okay but that was something that was actually not so easy to do . You may actually promise yourself but I can tell you that that is not something that is so easy to do . “What ? come on , I am completely okay . I don’t have anything disturbing me at all.” I replied pretending . That was the only way that I was to do . I did not want to complicate things at this moment . Of course I could tell her everything but that could not be now. It could actually be during a moment when we had all the free time in our life .“Sure , but why do you look pale and a combination of so much within you .” she said her eyes glued in front of the car. “Maybe it is actually the pregnancy .” I said casually hopping that she could actually change the topi
.LYN POVI hardly had any sleep . I was actually thinking about the whole process. About how the love of my life suddenly turned out and said that he actually did not love me anymore. Surely this is something that I cannot get to a conclusion no matter what.How did things turn out to be this way for sure . At one point I was the happiest person on the entire planet but in a nick of time things have turned out to the other way round . They have turned out to be the worst that I could ever wish to have in my whole life .At the moment , I am a teenage pregnant girl . It means this is actually the life that am actually going to lead for the rest of my life . How will I live with my baby knowing that I am actually not living beside the love of my life .The alarm that was meant to wake me up went but I did not have the courage to get out of my bed. At this moment it was life had totally lost meaning . Without Nolan in my life , there was actually no reason that could make me live in this
Lyn POVStrangely, I did not shed any tears . I know many of you thought that I could cry . I actually also thought that it was actually what I was actually going to do but I did not do it . I remained strong . When Nolan , no my ex-boyfriend left I had to get ready since I had a discussion that I had to attend . I was actually grateful that he was not part of the discussion or else I have no idea how this could have gone surely . I went for the discussion and came back; mom was actually back from her boyfriend . I had already vowed that I was actually not going to let her know any of these. I did not want anything that could ruin her happiness and that was why I chose to keep quiet as fast as I could do with that topic . When I opened for her , she was actually the happiest in the whole planet earth . her facial expression was so glittering that I really vowed that I was not going to say anything to her which could ruin her moment what so ever . “Wow! That facial expression
Lyn POVWhat did he say . I tried to look into his eyes just to make sure that this was just an hallucination but when I looked right into his eyes I could tell that this was actually true and not just an hallucination . But wait , how could he be saying such a thing to me yet we just got engaged yesterday ?I got it , this was actually one of his games. I just could tell that this was actually not true and it was not going to be no matter what . I had to make him confess that he just was joking with me . “Stop joking already , you know this is not time for jokes, I just need you that us all.”I decided to make it known to him that I was actually able to know what he was actually up to . However his reaction was completely different from what I thought and expected to be at the moment . He did not kiss me like he always did every time when I found out that he was actually upto something . Instead he just stood up and moved towards the window. I was beginning to get worried and at
.Lyn POVI tried to think over what he had said . I could not think about why he could tell me that he wanted to talk to me but without actually not even offering me any greetings at all. I listened without saying any word waiting for him say more but he rather surprised me when what he did was actually to end the call. “What !” I yelled at no one in particular since I was actually the only one in the house. “I am not going to pick up his calls.”“I will not talk to him .” I promised myself .I was so angry with the way he had treated me . That was not him . He had actually never talked or even behaved towards me in the way that he had actually done . I resorted to eating my chicken wings once again but I was actually not having any more appetite . He had to do so much for me to forgive me . “Baby , your daddy is surely going to do a lot see that he even lies a hand on us .’’ I spoke as I caressed my now slightly protruding belly . I suddenly felt something that I could actually