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Chapter 280: How to Express your Feelings
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2020-12-31 01:00:05“So, you said that you didn’t want to talk about it?” Lila attempted to broach the topic of Jasper's drunken speech, not looking up from her bowl as he sat to the side of her and continued to laxly mix his bowl.
Emmet looked over to the other man, waiting to eat after Jasper first started.
“I said that I don’t want to talk about it. I’m used to not talking about it, and it feels strange to. I’ve never felt the need to think about all the bad things that have happened in the past. They’re all things that have happened to me, just things,” Jasper elaborated,” Once I’ve got my strength back, I’ll be fine again.”
Lila looked down into her bowl again, and ate another spoonful of her soupy rice.
“It’s not… we don’t want you to feel uncomfortable. We don’t want you in any discomfort and we don’t want to pry-“ Emmet began.
“Well I do,” Lila interjected.
“Well, I don’t to pry, but bottling things up won’t help anyone, and we don’t want you to g
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