Prologue

Prologue

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I always ask my self if one day i had the chance to reverse a situation in my life, would i do it without hesitation? 

Will i had the courage to live without his embrace?Without wanting to see those eyes that makes me lose my sense?

or if ever God will give me a chance to change one situation in my life, will i ever try to do it? 

the truth is i don't know, i didn't think either.

Maybe if one day someone try to reverse what happen to me that time, well i surely try to avoid meeting him from that day so that i won't end up crying and abuse every night because of him.

I Won't end up Trying to Caught his attention to have Him, I won't let my self to become a Fool chasing him.

But how will i ever know if it cannot happen coz there's no time machine that can make you go back to the moment that you wanted to go.

How can i do that if that's what Destiny wanted to happen, i don't have the right to fight against my destiny so that i end up wearing a collar with a heavy chain that i cannot move without his help.

I'm like a dog. A pet. And most of all I'm his slave and he is my Master.

if one day , someone create a time travel maybe i would go back to the time that i met him and agreed to be his wife. So that i can prevent from falling deeper and deeper to the point that i cannot stand again from my bare feet and End up wounded.

I become his martyr Wife. A stupid and weakling.

Who knows?

maybe one day, when i woke up i will realize that i could stand again using my bare feet without his help and maybe that time i will realize that i could leave him without thinking twice.

Without love that stopping me from leaving him. The love that torturing me Everyday and Night, Until I can't fight anymore.

i know to my self that one day.. when the sun rises again from the east.

the path that surrounded by the dark will be shine so bright again because of the sunlight.

maybe that time, i could smile again.

A real one.

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I look at the watch on my wrist watch and can help but to slight slap my Forehead for realizing how late it was, Its pass 7 pm and my original class end was 5 pm.

"Oh my God! I'm sure that I will be beaten up again by him!" I said with a Fear In my voice.

A Taxi stopped in front of me and without thinking twice, i got in for the fear that his anger might risen up because of How late i was.

"Where Do you want to Go ma'am?" The taxi driver asked as he look at me from the Review Mirror.

"Dale Villa Please and Make it faster"I said as i take out my Cellphone from my bag..

Haysst, I didn't Realize that its already late because of those Paper works that has to be checked by me. The Dean give me the task to check the Test Paper from Grade 7 up to Grade 12 Because i was the School President and The other officers was a little bit busy for this coming School festival.

Dumating ako sa bahay na nakapatay na ang ilaw.. cguro tulog na si Deib.. tyak sesermunan nanaman ako nun... 

haysst.. nga pala si Deib ay asawa ko.YES tama kayo asawa ko.

I'm 17 yrs old.. it was an arrange marriage but i still respect my husband kasi bali-baliktarin man ang mundo ay asawa ko parin sya at kasal kami.

When i was young, pangarap ko din noon na ikasal sa lalaking mamahalin ko habang buhay pero hindi sa ganitong paraan. Sapilitang pag papakasal.

dahan-dahan kong sinara ang pinto ng makapasok ako at dahan dahan naglakad para maka iwas na gumawa ng ingay na maging dahilan na ikagising ng asawa ko

Ngunit nabato ako sa kinatatayuan ko ng biglang bumakas ang lahat ng ilaw..

"Where have you been?!bitch! do you think that i don't know what your doing behind my back?! at satingin mo rin ba na gawain ng may asawang babae ang umuwi ng bahay ng ganitong oras?! answer me?!"Galit na sigaw nya..

Napayuko ako... he's mad.. and its not good for me..

"WHAT?! ARE YOU GOING TO KEEP THAT DIRTY MOUTH SHUT?! ANSWER MY FUCKING QUESTION DAMN IT!!" Galit na sigaw nya.

Nanginig ako dahil sa takot.Nagsimula ng mangilid ang luha saking mga mata.

"Sa-sa s-school.. nag-nag check ng mga t-test paper" Naiiyak na sagut ko.Pinilit kong tinatatagan ang loob para hindi umiyak sa harap nya

Ayukong makita nya na mahina ako.

"SCHOOL?! SCHOOL MY ASS! WHY DON'T YOU JUST ADMIT THAT YOU JUST WENT BACK LATE BECAUSE YOU HANG OUT WITH YOUR EX-BOYFRIEND!" Galit na sabi nya

umiling ako,His reffering to Jc.

Jc is my long time boyfriend.

Nakipag kita sakin si jc nuon para mag paalam na aalis na sya ng bansa at nahuli kami ni Deib noon.

"Stop bringing the past Deib! were already long done! and i'm not cheating! aren't you not happy that we broke up because of you?! "Buong lakas na sagot ko.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ko nahugot ang lakas ng loob ko na sumagot..

bigla syang napatawa na sarkastiko At may pang iinis.

"Bitch! and because of you hanna left me dumbfound! just fucking admit that you went out late because you met him! ano?! magaling ba sya sa kama?! mas magaling sakin?halika! ipapakita ko sayo na mas magaling ako sa gagong yun!! " Galit na sabi nya at sinabunutan ako saka kinaladkad pa puntang kwarto namin.

Napaiyak na lang ako,Pabalang nya akong tinulak sa kama. Sinubukan kong manlaban pero wala akong nagawa...

kundi ang hayaan syang babuyin ako. Tangin pag hikbi na lang ang nagawa ko habang pinag sasawaan nya ako

please tama na.

Tangging pag iyak na lamang ang tanging nagawa ko hanggang sa nakatulog na lamang na puno ng luha ang mga mata.

Hindi ko alam kung hanggang kelan ako Ganito, Hanggang kelan ng ba?

Hanggang kelan ba ako magiging martyr ba asawa? kelan?ha?!