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Gone (Lucas' POV)
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Lucas
Silence greeted me as I walked past the foyer, a gripping cold silence that wrenched my heart. I knew she was not here yet I spent the next few minutes leaving no stone unturned to confirm the fact.
I had seen it in her eyes when she said she wanted to come home by herself and in that 10 minutes, I had been apart from her, she had slipped through my fingers.
I had never seen my home so cold and empty and quiet. Even when the kids were not there was still some warmth. But tonight it was as lifeless as I felt inside.
My eyes locked on the spot where she was standing the night she had told me she loved me too. The air still lingered of her scent.
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