Chapter 6 - Back Home
"Corelle," Ander pulled me closer to him. It's already 8 am. We're set to have breakfast in the mansion then we'll immediately fly back to Manila.
He did what he had to do here, and now — like he said, we need to keep making appearances as a couple and as an individuals seeking improvement in our worlds.
I groaned and pushed him away, trying to see him.
His hair is unkempt. His eyes — sleepy and tired, yet the way his eyelashes flutter on top of it made him look more angelic even though his every features scream roughness. His calloused palm tried to catch my wrist, and even though I tried to get away, he tightened his grip on my waist.
"I don't think we're supposed to be this close at mornings
Chapter 7 - Fueled by VengeanceSa sobrang saya ko, halos hindi ako nakatulog sa gabing 'yon. Kausap ko si Selena magdamag para sa pag-oorganisa ng lahat ng bagay na kailangan namin.Every step of the way, we have to plan our revenge. We need to make sure that everything will be followed."I also need to study the La Stessa Cosa's structure and operations." That's what I kept telling myself.If I wanted to get to the bottom of this and inflict pain to the three musketeers, I must in all ways should go inside and in depth of the group that they are working for and protecting.Excited ako. Iyon ang totoo. Ang tagal kong nagtiis sa isang toxic relationship kay Guzman dahil kay Daddy. Sobrang dami kong iningatan at tiniis dahil lang ayaw kong magalit at madisappoint ang ibang tao sa akin. Pero sila ba, ni minsa — inisip nila ako? Sinaalang-alang ba ako?"My mom's better off without my father. However, he is nothing without my mom." I
Chapter 8 - Training "What were you thinking?" Ander growled.Yumuko ako, hindi kayang tignan si Ander. He's just so mad — livid to an extent. He took off his coat and unbuttoned his dress shirt. I remained stiff. Tila ako maamong tupa ngayon eh! Natatakot na baka kapag nagsalita ako, mas magalit siya.Guzman used to be like this. Kaya hindi ko na sinusubukan na magsalita pa."You could have been hurt." I can sense that he's trying to calm his nerves. Hindi ko alam kung sino ang nagsumbong sa kanya. It's either Guzman and Kuya Stan or the Range Master.I understood why he's like this. I could have compromised his other men's safety. I could get hurt. I could...He towered over me while I sit on the edge of our king sized bed. I look like a child — being scolded for whatever reason, but according to his eyes and his anger, he just wouldn't let this thing go.Umigting ang panga niya habang pinagmamasda
Chapter 9 - Jealousy, Jealousy"We'll go ahead," Hinapit ni Ander ang baywang ko. Nakita ko ang panonood sa amin ni Guzman at Kuya Stan. Tipid akong tumango at ngumiti kina Guzman at saka iginaya na si Ander paalis kaya lang, pinigilan niya pa ako.His grip on my waist is gentle, yet he somehow used his force to stop me from completely turning my back against Guzman and Kuya.Then the words that cane out of his mouth shook me to the core."We should have dinner sometimes."I have never expected this. Alam ko naman na tauhan niya ang dalawa at maaaring madalas nga nila itong gawin kaya lang narito na ako ngayon. Hindi ko alam kung magandang ideya ba 'yon."Ander, I don't think it's a-""Sure," Guzman nodded. "But you're busy." Bumaling ako kay Ander. He shrugged and his resting hand on my waist went lower — almost touching my ass.I blushed profusely. Hindi ko alam kung bakit tila ako nilalagnat ngayon. Hindi ko rin nagugustuhan ang mga nararamdaman ko
Chapter 10 - In the Dungeon[Warning: SPG]Together we walked down to his basement. Noong unang linggo rito sa mansyon, at bilang mag-asawa — sinabi niya nga na mayroon siyang malawak na basement. Tila isang mall iyon sa laki.Pero hindi ko alam kung paano niya ako parurusahan. Ikukulong niya ako rito at hindi hahayaang makipag-usap kay Guzman at sa ibang tao? No. That's not it."Nervous?" he asked.Hawak-hawak niya ang baywang ko, ginagabayan ako at tila takot pa na baka tumakbo ako at kumawala."Why would I be?"Yung tapang ko, dahil lang sa kape. Pero ang totoo, iniisip ko pa lang ang mga gagawin niya — nanghihina na ako."Hmm, tryna be strong, huh? I can sense.""Nase-sense mo pala bakit nagtatanong ka pa?""Just wanted to play with you.""Well, I'm not playing.""Nah, you don't make the rules here." Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at hinarap akong maigi sa kanya.
Chapter 11 - Dress"You can walk, right?"Sinamaan ko ng tingin si Ander. Inalalayan niya ako paalis sa mesa kanina at ngayo'y pinauupo sa kama. Nilagyan niya ng roba ang katawan ko at marahang inayos ang aking buhok.His fingers gently combed my hair. He parted it between my shoulders and slowly — he tucked my hair behind my ears.His eyes won't leave me. I can sense that there's a tinge of guilt in his eyes but I couldn't face it. I can't... Because while I was on that table... I felt something. I felt that I am completely surrendering myself to him. To trust him.At alam kong delikado 'yon. At delikado para sa akin, sa kalagayan ko, at sa lahat ng mga plano ko."Are you okay now?""Hmm," I grunted as I forced myself to sit on the edge of the bed.Sobrang lambot nito, ang sarap sa katawan. Naaalala ko ang pakiramdam habang naroon ako sa mesa kanina.Exciting naman... At inaamin kong ginanahan at
Chapter 12 - Unexpected VisitFirst thing in the morning, ang wardrobe ko nga ang pinagdiskitahan ni Ander. We are having breakfast by the balcony when a parade of cars and SUV parked in our garden. Hindi kami nagkikibuang dalawa. Not that I want to talk to him. He's also busy with his paper works as well, and I heard he's planning to have another visit in Naples, Palermo, and Rumini. Something about transfers of firearms and another gang wars. Pinagmasdan ko ang pagbaba ng mga tao mula sa sasakyan at hinawi ang buhok. I'm still dressed with my silver night gown, and a velvet white robe. I looked at Ander and saw him watching his people as well, like a god from Mount Olympus. Only that he's hotter, harsher, and more manipulative."They're here to fix your wardrobe."He glanced at me. Nang makitang matalim ang tingin ko sa kanya ay agad niya ring binawi ang tingin niya."You're really pushing this, huh?""Yeah... Your clothe
Chapter 13 - The Ex-Girlfriend"Mommy,"I am still shocked that my mother's here. Her unexpected visit added tension in my weary emotions. First, because of Ander and all my thoughts about him and this arrangement... My feelings. Then now, she's here.Why is she here?Bakit may nararamdaman akong iba? Don't get me wrong. I love seeing her. I always love being with her, but her visit is slightly off. Considering her state, her supposed vacation...the time.At nasaktuhan pa na nag-aaway kami ni Ander... at nakainom pa ako!Ander gently held my elbow, urging me to greet my mother. I sighed and went to her.Niyakap ko ang ina. Sa likuran niya ay napako ang mga tingin ko. Naroon ang kanyang mga bagahe. Ibig sabihin ba ay hindi siya tumuloy ng Paris?"What are you doing here, Mommy?""Did you drink?""We did, Tita." ani Ander.I glanced at him. Hindi ko kailangan na iligtas niya ako rito. Alam naman n
Chapter 14 - FoundApparently, Serena — Ander's ex-girlfriend and Ander's parents are staying for a longer period in Manila. Ander insisted that they must stay in their own mansion, and never, on his own words: interfere with out married life.Somehow, it appalled me."You could have let them stay here you know..." Ginala ko ang tingin sa aming sala.We were just about to go to Casino Real. Make appearances, and he'll drop me off to Rockwell for my meeting with Selena.We're both dressed of navy blue tops. Naka puting mini skirt at thigh high boots ako at nagdala ng Dior saddle bag."Huwag na." he answered."Why?"Nilingon niya ako. Seryoso at mapagmatiyag ang mga tingin — halos tila nang-uusisa ito at binabalak na basahin ang isipan ko. Sandali pa niya akong tinignan at humalukipkip. Nagtaas ako ng kilay at ngumiti pero agad ring napawi nang magtanong siya."Do you seriously want to live with my ex-gir
Chapter 36 - ChildishNow that the folder is missing, I can't get hold of my parents. Ayaw rin akong payagan ni Ander na pumunta sa kanila. Doon mas lalong umangat at tumaas ang suspisyon ko na alam niya ang tungkol sa folder.Na siya ang kumuha nito. Pero bakit niya kukunin? Because my mother is probably right. She's right about Serena and Ander. Tapos ngayon, pinagbibihis ako ni Ander dahil pupunta kami sa wedding anniversary ng parents niya!His parents who wants me dead!"You don't want me to see my parents, but you want me to attend your parents' wedding anniversary? That is plain bullshit, Ander.""You're mad..."Of course I am mad! I am livid to an extent!He sighed.Pero hindi ko siya binigyan ng pagkakataon na magsalita. Imbes ay mas lumapit ako sa kanya. Kahit na alam kong ako ang mas lamang ngayon — hindi ko maiwasang makaramdam ng kaba.After all, this is a very dangerous game. I a
Chapter 35 - MissingNakatulala ako sa kisame samantalang tulog pa rin si Ander. Hindi ko naman siya masisisi dahil galing pa siya sa biyahe tapos nag pagod pa kami kagabi. Gusto ko siyang lingunin. Gusto kong kausapin at pagmasdan siya habang natutulog siya.Pero hindi ko ginawa. Hindi ko siya nilingon. Nanatili ang mga mata ko sa kisame — pilit na inaaayos ang mga iniisip ko ngayon.It really sucks to be an overthinker.Minsan, ayaw mo naman talagang mag-isip nang mag-isip pero hindi talaga maiwasan."Hmm," Dinantay ni Ander ang kamay niya sa aking tiyan. Napasinghap ako at napakagat sa labi habang unti-unting naramdaman ang pagtaas ng balahibo at ang pagkalabog ng dibdib ko.If this is a normal day, I would push him. If I am still the same bratty and immature girl I was when I married him, I probably howl at him right now. But instead, I stared at his arm on my stomach. Willing it to remove itself, but it d
Chapter 34 - How Long[Warning: SPG]"Ander... hmmm..." I bit my lower lip.Kanina ko pa pinipigilan ang sarili. Ayaw kong mag-ingay. Ayaw kong ipahalata na sabik na sabik ako sa kanya. Ayaw kong ipakita na sa ilang linggo na wala siya rito ay nanabik ako at nangulila.Hindi.Pero heto ako ngayon, spread widely like a spider web. I know hindi magandang reference iyon pero wala na akong maisip na iba. He continued eating me.Tama.Kinakain niya ako ngayon...Pikit mata kong tinakpan ang bibig ko. Ilang sandali pa ay nararamdaman ko ang nalalapit na pagsabog. Kumapit ako sa buhok niya at bahagyang inangat ang katawan, mas lalong dinidiin ito sa kanya."Ander!" I called. Trying to hold the tiniest thread I'm weaving.Pero mukhang pabigay na ito.Nanghihina na ang bawat kalamnan ko. Wala akong nagawa kundi ang umungol at magpaubaya sa sarap.I can literally see star
Chapter 33 - ColdThe truth is, I am so scared to open the folder."Tignan mong maigi 'yan." ani Mommy.Paano kung ayaw ko?Gusto kong isatinig 'yon kaya lang tila nawalan na ako ng gana. Lugmok at bagsak ang balikat ko habang naglalakad palayo kay Mommy.Deep down, I know I am scared. I am sad and disappointed. A part of me learned to trust Ander... Kahit kaunti at kahit kakarampot — kahit pa sabihin ko sa sarili na hindi ko siya lubusang mapagkatiwalaan... ngayon, mas lumalaba ang totoo.That a part of me... has learned to trust him."Ma'am? Ipahahanda ko na po ba ang sasakyan?" tanong ng kasambahay nang matagpuan ako sa lanai.I told them that I will visit the ranch. Para na rin sana makapaglibang ako mamaya, at ngayon — tingin ko ay malabo na na makapag-enjoy pa ako dahil sa folder na hawak-hawak ko."Yes, please.""Sige po. May dadalhin po ba kayo gamit?"Umiling ako at
Chapter 32 - The SuspicionI am annoyed with my mother the whole day. Iniisip ko pa lang na magtatagal ako rito at hihintayin lang ang pagbabalik ni Ander, gusto ko na lang tumakbo palabas ng estates at kumawala.When you outgrow certain people in your life, you'll realize how much a part of you — hates them. Nakatitig ako sa mga magulang ko na umiinom ng kape. Parehas na tahimik at tila ba naninimbang sa tensyon na mayroon kami. Kanina ko pa sila pinagmamasdan. Ni isa sa kanila ay hindi man lang nag try na mag-initiate ng usapan. Ni hindi man lang nila ako matignan nang matagal.Have we really been so damaged and scarred?It went like that for days. Bagot na bagot ako. Halos malibot ko na ang buong estates. Madalas, naroon ako sa hardin — sa labas. Nag-aaral din akong magluto. Minsan naman ay bumababa ako sa dagat at naliligo roon. I mostly eat alone. Ayaw kong sabayan ang mga magulang. Ni hindi rin ako makahanap ng tamang tiyempo para
Chapter 31 - Talk"Are you gonna be alright here?"Inaantok kong sinulyapan si Ander. After a tiring session at the gym, and after discerning all our plans in the next few weeks, we went home... Ate dinner... At siyempre, may pa dessert pa kami sa kama.Tumikhim siya dahil natagalan ako sa pagsagot. Lumapat siya sa paanan ko at marahang hinaplos 'yon na tila ba maamong pusa na naghahangad at nanghihingi ng atensyon."Concern ka masyado, hubby..." I chuckled. I know too well that it will surprise him.Ngumuso siya at humalukipkip. Mas lalong nadepina ang muscles ng kanyang dibdib at ang ng nga braso. Topless siya ngayon, rason kung bakit kitang-kita ang ilang geometric at Roman Numeral tattoos niya. Bumagsak ang tingin niya sa katawan kong balot na balot ng kumot."Hubby..." he echoed. "Baduy.""Wow! Kumusta naman sa'yo na gusto love ang tawagan!""For publicity.""Famewhore," pang-aasar ko.
Chapter 30 - The Answer"What? Pakiulit nga."I blink abruptly. I took a step backward, trying to get enough space so I can think clearly. Somehow, when he's near... my mind's always clouded. Ni hindi ako makapag-isip nang maayos. Palagi siyang nariyan at nakakabit na ata sa utak ko.He wants me to get rid of my pills.With that, I am sure.Nagbibiro lang ba siya? Sinusubukan ako? Titignan kung kakagat ako? Is this one of his tactics?"I thought we don't like kids?" dagdag ko nang nanatili siyang tahimik.Parang tila gusto na rin niyang bawiim ang sinabi. Siguro, nalilito at naguguluhan na rin siya sa sarili niya. Ako, naloloka na ako sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung biro nga lang ba talaga 'to! What if hindi? What if iyon na nga lang ang nakikita niyang tanging paraan?But then again, why would his parents hate me to the bones? Do they really loathe me that much to kill me?"Ander!"
Chapter 29 - PillsMaaga kaming nagising ni Ander kahit na medyo inumaga rin kami sa ginawa namin bilang mag-asawa sa papel.Maigi na 'yung malinaw.Inayos ko ang roba ko at tuluyang umupo sa upuan sa aming teresa. Si Ander ay medyo namumula-mula dahil sa iniy ng sikat ng araw. Inayos niya ang t-shirt niya at nilapag ang cellphone sa harapan ko. Napatikhim kami parehas."So, how's Serena?"He just got off the phone with Sage, and I am sure that it's not looking good.Nagtataka nga ako. If Serena is such a threat, and an enemy — why would Ander bother to save her?There is an answer at the back of my head. Bitterness crept like poison ivy — causing me to frown. I know this is not the right way to start my day. A bad mood would kill all the thunderstorms my way.I sighed as I look at our breakfast. Hindi ako naghanda niyan. Hindi rin si Ander. It is probably Lisa."She's fine.""Gising na?"
Chapter 28 - SlowI don't even know why I felt so odd, so stingy... So off when I heard Ander's voice. Etched with concern. With worries, with uncertainty... Doubt, frustrations...And it echoed to my own voice of reason — telling me to continue doubting him.And to tell myself the inexplicable truth."Serena got shot."It kept on playing in my head. How his voice has that sudden edge, bladed with confusion as if he's doubting his own... That he needed help somehow, because he didn't want to fuck it up. After all, this is Serena's life we're talking about."Corelle, let's just go." Kinuha ni Selena ang kamay ko pero umiling lang ako at binitawan ang radio.Everyone's sense of urgency did not even gave me the adrenaline. I just stood there, a bit frozen and my heart's frantic beats aren't for the commotion. It was for the cold hard truth.Napalunok ako at tinitigan ang Casino Real sa harapan. Naroon na ang ilan p