Chapter 224

Jake instantly knew that he messed up again.

He let the razor slip from his fingers as it dropped onto the floor, the tears rolling down his cheeks with ease. He wasn't supposed to be like this, he was supposed to be stronger. He had promised himself that things wouldn’t be the way it had been in the past but he had broken his promise yet again.

He had spent the past month in prison before he managed to secure bail after a long process that had been strenuous but he did it with the help of a few friends high up in the system and he knew that from then on, he had to be bigger than his fears. He just had to be.

Jake turned on the water on the sink, putting his wrists underneath the water splashed on the cuts on both wrists as it turned red going down the drain in one swift motion. He felt the panic building up inside him but he was just managing to be in control this time. He had lost his composure the first time, he was supposed to let it happen again.

He was the first one awake. He