Chapter Forty Nine

Adrien

I can't fathom why I behaved the way I did with Rosalie, but I believe it was influenced by various factors, particularly when I recognized the depth of my longing for her during my absence. In Dubai, I frequently contemplated calling her, yet something consistently held me back.

It wasn't exactly fear, more like a form of cowardice. I hesitated to confront the possibility of rejection from her, given the circumstances of what transpired between us.

Our first night sleeping on the same bed didn't go smoothly, leading to such disappointment that I reconsidered having her accompany me on the trip. Surprisingly, she took it better than I anticipated, yet it only deepened my disappointment.

I had hoped for her to feel disappointed or upset since she was excited about the trip, and altering my decision at the last minute felt unjust. However, it appeared she anticipated such a response from me, leaving me unsure of how to feel about it.

Avoiding the unresolved matter would have hi