Chapter 6: The Void

I can feel my heart racing as we run through the jungle to escape from the man trying to kill us! How could this have happened to me??????? I looked around for an escape......'

Esrath: "Wow her acting is so lame!"

Mother: "It is not lame, its good and I am on the edge of my seat to see what will happen next! Now zip it and let me watch my movie!"

I sigh and look at the movie she was watching then back at her to say something to her and see her wording each line, rolling my eyes I get off the bed as I head to the kitchen to get me a snack. José was at work and I go to text him but no answer, was he freaked out with what I told him that night? Man was I stupid 3 days ago; I sigh and look through the fridge to get a snack but nothing looked good so feeling defeated for the third time today I close the fridge door and turn to the living room when I see that José was already home but sleeping on the couch...my heart hurt to see that he was sleeping on the couch and not our bed. 

Esrath: "So the couch is comfier than our bed José?"

José: "Yes, that and I didn't want to disturb the girl's movie night that you and your mother had going on."

I roll my eyes and walk to the stairs as I go to the second level living area to watch my show in peace, I turn the tv on and open up Prime and begin to scroll through all the movies that were available to watch; I put Twilight on and José complains about how she couldn't act and how he wanted to see something else, I stare at him upset because I didn't plan for him to watch anything with me since we hadn't spoken since he got me out let alone had any physical contact.

Esrath: “Then go back to the couch down stairs because I am going to watch my show!” 

José: “Yes my queen.”, he says while he rolls his eyes and bows to me as he heads back down the stairs; I huff at the audacity he had to treat me like that. I think to myself for a bit and get up and yell from upstairs, “So much for we can do it when we are out of this shit hole; I apparently went from one shit hole to another!” I say as I go back to the living room on the upper level and slam the huge door and lock it on my end. He can be heard walking up the stairs as he approaches the large door on the opposite side, he knocks on the door and calls for me but I don’t answer him; he sighs heavily and tries to open the door but notices that it is locked which makes him anxious when I don’t respond, my phone vibrates in my pocket and I pull it out only to see a text from him asking why the door was locked and why I was not responding to him. I sneer and tell him through the door “Because you dick, you said you were going to love me forever and you haven't even looked at me let alone talked to me since you saved me!”, my mother who hears me yelling comes to join José on the other side of the door and mumbling can be heard on the other side of the door, I go to get near the door when suddenly the door opens and they both look at me disappointed in how I was acting; however, the words that left José’s mouth made my heart drop to my stomach when I realized I messed up. This is the time that I thought to myself that I could not loose José for some reason my heart ached at the thought of losing him forever.

José: “I think it be best if I distanced myself from you and your mother, I need to go do business in Hawaii please make sure you text me if you need anything.” 

Esrath: “Why can't we go with you? You don’t think people will be coming after me and my mother?” 

José: “I am going there for business not vacation, everything I do my love is for a reason and that reason is to keep you and your mother safe.”

Though he says that my face is my worst enemy because it tells on me even when I don’t want it to, my face gets nervous as my face gets pale at his words and I can feel anxiety setting in, I nod my head and walk to the room ready to sleep for the next week because I was afraid that there would be people after me and my mother from my father's debt that he owed to the Mafia, his debt was large and he was using my mother and me as his profit to pay the mafia back...I was too nervous to tell him that my father was in debt with the mafia because I felt he would not have saved us if he knew. José walks up behind me while I was lost in thought to comfort me but I was in no mood to be comforted, how would I explain this to him and how would he react to me telling him after he had just killed my father to get us out of his grip.

He stared me up and down and was worried about my reaction, he could read me like a book I couldn’t hide my actual feelings because my body was quick to give me away, the more he stared at me the more my body gave me away. I was nervous and my hands became clammy, my voice was high pitched and my legs couldn’t stop moving; he moves towards me to comfort me and I step back as I head to the bathroom to take a warm bath to relax my nerves, I hear him call out to me; “You and your mother can come with me if you are that worried about being alone in the house.” I can tell he is worried for my safety and mental state but before I could stop myself, I call out to him; “Just take my mother, I don’t mind being alone I just worry for my mother's safety.” I could hear him walking into the bathroom and he closes the door and locks it.

José: “Okay what is going on? Didn’t you promise me that day you would be honest to me? So why are you lying to me right now?” 

Esrath: “It's hard to say because I fear you won't want me if you know what you just got yourself into and I fear that you might kick us out of your life once you find out.” 

José: “And what is it that you think I am so afraid of little one? No one and nothing can scare me away from you.” 

Esrath: “I overheard my father the other day before you showed up to me, he owes someone a high debt and he was using me and my mother to rake in his money to pay the person off.” 

José: “You mean he owed the money to the mafia who helped him get his house and his job and his vehicles including yours? I know that already, its why I showed up to protect you my Esrath you will never have to worry about something like that ever again, its why I am going to Hawaii...I am settling your father's debt by doing my boss a big favor.”

To be continued