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16. Feeling loved
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2022-01-20 07:48:47James p.o.v
It was late. It was already after seven in the evening and we were just done with our dinner. I wanted Alice in bed by seven-thirty but we won't make it, I think. I had read somewhere it was better to do something between dinner and sleep, something that reminded her of bedtime.
As we were done with cleaning up it was seven thirty-five. I sighed, but then again it was a special day and we were all trying to settle in. So it wouldn't make me a bad parent if she went to bed a bit later, right?
When I looked over at our little girl I saw that Hadeon was trying to get her fingers out of her mouth and put a pacifier in. He was very keen on getting everything away from her mouth, except her pacifier.
"Shall we put her to bed honey?" Hadeon asked me. "Yes, but we can't put her straight away in her crib," I responded.
Hadeon looked at me with a puzzled face, "Why?"
"Because I read it was better to do something with her t
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