The door clicks shut and I sigh in relief as the embarrassment died down, i turn to Ajax with a stern look, he was already hoping to the bathroom for a shower.‘Come here' he shakes his head no and was about to rush into the bathroom still fully clothed when I grab him.‘Ahhhhh’ his shrieks as his little feet get suspended in the air and I bring him to the sofa.‘No, Ajax, let’s have a serious conversation’ he looks at me with that smug smile on his face.‘I wanted to get you a husband' he pouts and I refuse to be fazed by his somber look.‘I didn't tell you I wanted a husband, did I' I stare into his black orbs that had a striking familiarity to Simon's.I had expected to be taken aback or be angry anytime I stared into something so similar to eyes I hated, but instead I was happyWhen I saw the eyes in the sockets of a face that was chubby, frown lines not yet etched into his forehead or cheeks I felt relief.At least Ajax had not inherited the fathomless depths that seemed to suck
Relief wakes with me the next morning as I remember dealing with Adam’s suspected feelings.Although I was a little harsh with my words, it was better than ignoring unrequited feelings and letting them blossom into something more fearsome.He looked somber after our conversation so I made sure to ask him if he still wanted to accompany me to pick Ajax up.He looked at me with incredulity ‘don’t be ridiculous, why won’t I be comfortable, we are still friends right’.His words were contradictory to how he looked considering the fact that he looked continuously somber throughout us picking Ajax up and going home.He was even oblivious to Ajax’s attempts at matchmaking. My little darling, he was unrelentless in his mission at freeing me from loneliness as he had so adamantly stated the night before as I was tucking him into bed.Back to the subject of Adam, despite that he seemed none to happy with my declaration; at least I had made it clear that nothing was happening between us.Rememb
What’s with this guy and his ability to turn my insides with anger, set my nerve endings on fire, with so little words?I bristle at his words and punch the air in anger, grabbing and wringing someone’s invisible neck.‘So he was capable of acknowledging that fact’ I huff and stand up.‘I thought he treated our past with no more than a cold- shoulder’‘He could acknowledge that I was once a part of SM and keep a straight face while doing it’ I pace about his office in a march and I notice the scent of his cologne lingering in the air.The musky scent, tinged with notes of pinewood and just a dash of mint was part alluring and part overpowering.The scent takes me back to that fateful night, the night when Simon broke character for the first time in our marriage.The alluring scent was tainted with the strong smell of alcohol but I didn’t refuse him when he stumbled into my room or when his hands went to the strings of my nightgown crashing his beer stained lips on mine in the process.
My mind reeled back and forth as I take the elevator down, ‘How could Adam do this,’ I didn’t understand where his rage came from,‘This rage that consumes everything in it’s path and blinds his eyes to friendship, to those that are for him and actually care about him'My thought goes back to his words about the necklace,‘I mean, what was the point in defending me in front of others when he didn’t actually believe me.I think back to how quickly he jumped in to defend me when the accusation came forth and I had still being speechless in shock.My reeling thoughts were actually a way to distract me from his last words that hit too close to home.I had been acutely aware of the absence of positive feelings of Simon for me, yet I held on to my feelings for him all throughout our marriage, I help on hoping that there would suddenly be a change, a turning point where he would suddenly begin to like me.The fact that Adam mentioned that was uncomfortable to say the least.‘But that was in
April 2017 It was my wedding day! it was! But where was my husband? I had been at the altar for hours and my husband was nowhere to be found. Mrs. Alicia my mother-in-law had excused herself outside to call him times and times again but he did not show up. Despite all this, the smile on my face could have been compared to the light coming in through the glass windows, I had dolled myself up for this wedding and despite the fact that my legs were killing me due to the 6-inch heels I was wearing, I refused to let anything spoil my wedding. I looked to where my parents were seated, they smiled without a care in the world, it was expected since they were getting rid of a nuisance. They had made this fact clear to me since I was young and when the first opportunity presented itself, they thrust me into the arms of Alicia Valero. It wasn’t a bad deal to me, Alicia was lovely. She loved me even more than my parents but it was her son that was her problem. I had wanted to back out after our
October 2017Tina’s povI heard the angry footsteps of my mother-in law as she marched up to my husband’s study, the door slammed shut a moment later.Although I couldn’t hear them, she was probably yelling at him for the way he treated me, I had tried to keep it from her but that’s kind of hard to do when your business is all over the news.I looked at my phone at the article that was released about me and Simon Valero.‘Trouble in Paradise’ the article had my crying picture as the cover. The picture did nothing to accentuate my looks, the head warmer I had shoved my hair into hid the long wavy beauty of it, my tear stained face hid the clear grey that was my eyes, plus I’m sure the picture was taken to show the troubles I was facing, in other words I was ugly. I remembered the day the picture would have been taken, I had gone to Simon’s office to confront him when I couldn’t get a hold of him at home, that day I left his office crying as the only words he said to me were harsh and
Simon’s povThe sound of a door slam startled me from what I was working on; I looked up and saw my fuming mother. ‘Oh, I guess it’s my door that slammed then’ I thought,She stormed over to me, ‘what is this I hear on the news about you, what is this I hear you did to Tina’ she says,‘Mum, you know better than to believe everything you see on the TV’ I told her and went back to what I was doing on my laptop.She slammed my laptop shut and yelled at me ‘Tina told me what happened, she told me you dragged her to a gynae to find out if she was pregnant for your baby, I scoffed at her words ‘so Tina has made a habit of talking to you about me’‘Do you expect her to suffer in silence, do you know how hard I tried before I got her to open up to me’ she adds.‘When I saw the article about you two in front of a gynae, I thought I would be expecting good news only for me to find out about how you threatened that you would have made her get an abortion had she been pregnant.’I stood up and
Tina’s povThe bang of the door slamming jolted me and I wiped the tears from my eyes furiously, ‘I was the stupid one for wishing him well in his love life, for expecting that he would be anything other than the asshole he is.’ ‘Why am I even crying, I should have expected this’ I thought but my tear glands refused to cooperate and the tears kept falling.I was suddenly filled with anger and hatred for Simon, he turned me, someone that almost never cried into a crying mess, I wiped the tears that were flowing down my face again and again but they didn’t stop coming.I hated both Simon and his mother for turning me into this, although I wasn’t happy with my parents, it wasn’t that bad because I expected nothing from them, but with Simon, I kept expecting and my expectations kept getting dashed.I was suddenly filled with hatred for both Simon and his family, I picked up my phone and reapplied for a divorce, I was tired and done with this unrequited love I had for Simon.My phone rang