Hot and Cold

My mind reeled back and forth as I take the elevator down,

‘How could Adam do this,’ I didn’t understand where his rage came from,

‘This rage that consumes everything in it’s path and blinds his eyes to friendship, to those that are for him and actually care about him'

My thought goes back to his words about the necklace,

‘I mean, what was the point in defending me in front of others when he didn’t actually believe me.

I think back to how quickly he jumped in to defend me when the accusation came forth and I had still being speechless in shock.

My reeling thoughts were actually a way to distract me from his last words that hit too close to home.

I had been acutely aware of the absence of positive feelings of Simon for me, yet I held on to my feelings for him all throughout our marriage, I help on hoping that there would suddenly be a change, a turning point where he would suddenly begin to like me.

The fact that Adam mentioned that was uncomfortable to say the least.

‘But tha