My dad had broken the lock on my door long ago. All that was left was a hole where it used to be.The thin door was covered with small cracks and stains that could not be cleaned. Each one was a sign of the violence he had caused.He kicked the door open easily.Without saying a word, he grabbed my arm, yanked me out of bed, and dragged me to the floor in one motion.I was not prepared and felt dizzy from being pulled so suddenly.My arm was twisted painfully, like it was about to pop out of its socket, and I could not stop myself from wincing.Before I could even think, he slapped me hard across the face.He was so much stronger than me that I could not fight back even if I wanted to.I did not even have the chance to think about resisting before that thought was completely crushed.He had a cigarette in his mouth, and smoke swirled around him. The glowing tip flickered, and he angrily shouted, “Just a few days without a beating, and you’re already acting out! Your stepmom bo
At first, the thought was just a faint idea, but with each slap, it became stronger and clearer.I blamed everything on Scarlett.I blamed her, even though she screamed and tried to stop my dad when he burst into my room, dragged me out of bed, and threw me on the floor.In a panic, she grabbed his arm and tried to stop him. She even stepped in front of me a few times, only for him to shove her aside.Her white nightgown smelled nice, and it made her face look even paler.She shook as she raised her arm to stop my dad and repeatedly tried to defend me and plead for me. She was so nervous that she almost bit her tongue.“No, no… don’t hit her, maybe I made a mistake…”She tried to say nice things about me, even though we had barely spent any time together.“Pearl is a good girl. She’s very polite. She even helped me with the dishes. She’s been doing her homework. She probably just wanted a break. Maybe she wasn’t playing on her phone.”I watched her, and her fake concern made m
I never hid my dislike for this awful woman.I often thought that she was the one who caused my godfather’s death.There was no real reason for thinking that. Malicious thoughts did not need a reason.After my godfather died, she immediately turned to my dad.I knew she wanted to kill him this time.A week passed since she complained to my dad about me, and my cheek was still swollen. The bruise on my forehead from when my dad hit me with the dictionary had not healed, and my hatred had not faded either.My dad was unusually busy that week. He was working hard to make money to keep her happy.Sometimes, he even stayed out all night. After that day, she was more careful toward me, even when asking me to eat. If she heard even the smallest sound, like a pen dropping in my room, she would ask if everything was okay.While my dad was trying to please her, she was trying to win me over. She asked my dad about what I liked and bought a lot of small cakes. She would quietly brin
I looked at the orange she handed me and, surprisingly, smiled at her.I said, “It’s okay, Stepmom.”She froze for a moment, but when she saw me take the orange and start eating it, she quickly snapped out of it, smiled, and began peeling another one for me.She peeled it so fast and nervously that her nails dug into the orange peel and squeezed out the juice.“Do you like it? I can buy more tomorrow. It’s sweet, right?”I felt like laughing as I watched her. A strange, secret satisfaction bubbled up inside me and almost made me grin from ear to ear.Before she could finish speaking, my dad came out of the bedroom with a dark expression.He was holding my health insurance card in one hand, and his other hand was clenched into a fist.His eyes darted between me and Scarlett. Then, through gritted teeth, he asked, “Who touched the drawer in the wardrobe?”The veins on his arms were bulging, and his expression was terrifying.As I had lived with him for over ten years, I knew th
“I didn’t even know there was a drawer in the wardrobe. How could I take the money?”My dad stiffened and seemed to be thinking about something. He nodded but did not say anything else.That night, for the first time, I heard them arguing in their room.At first, it was just quiet talking. Then, someone slammed the table, and a cup got knocked over.Scarlett was screaming but trying hard to keep her voice down. Every word she said sounded twisted and broken.“How could I have taken it?! I’ve only been here a short time! Yes, I cleaned the room after I moved in. I admit I knew there was a drawer, but I don’t have the key! Do you think I want your money? “Do you think I don’t know how much money you have? I bought you cigarettes and alcohol and even gave you money to gamble with other people. Why do you think it couldn’t have been your daughter? She hates me and is trying to set me up to make me leave. Can’t you see that?”…I crouched by the door and listened in. I could not he
At that moment, her face was priceless.Her face, which was sagging with age, shifted from flushed to pale and back to flushed again.Her tears stopped suddenly, and her face twisted in shock.She asked, “What did you say?”I repeated, “This is my house. Get out.”I did not feel like a bad person for breaking up a couple.Instead, I felt like I had done something really good.I was trying to kick a wicked woman, full of bad intentions and cruel behavior, out of my house.It felt completely justified, even righteous.She froze. Her mouth opened and closed, but no words came out.Then, she clenched her teeth, her brows furrowed, and the veins in her forehead started to bulge.She got angry.She screamed at me, “You bastard! You’re the one who hid the money!”I stayed quiet and did not deny it.She got even angrier. “You’re disgusting! How could your dad have a child like you?!”Then, she started laughing.“Oh, I almost forgot, your mom’s the one who gave birth to you. You
I stared at her face.She froze for a moment, then started screaming, “What are you doing?!”She jumped up, stopped me, and yelled, “Are you crazy?! Do you have a problem?! Even if you tell your dad I did this, he won’t believe you! Your acting is terrible! I would never do something like that!”She was panicking and talking fast. Then, she grabbed my wrists tightly with both hands while shaking with anger.I could not move.She was breathing heavily, and her chest was moving up and down. Her eyes showed panic and anger, but there was also something else in them I could not understand.Her eyes were big.I had often hidden in corners and watched her face. I used to think that if you just looked at her eyes alone, she could actually be considered pretty.She was shaking with anger but still said, “Fine! You win! I’m leaving! I’ll leave right away!”As she said, she really started packing to leave.She opened her suitcase and shoved all the clothes from the wardrobe inside. The
They would argue sometimes but make up soon after.My dad would serve Scarlett food, give her shoulder massages, and take her shopping.She enjoyed it. Sometimes, she would purposely talk to me at times that made me feel awkward, just to show off how loving she and my dad were.I was so tired of her smug face, but I had no choice but to live with her.I started to think about leaving.When my dad said, “She’s my wife, after all,” I realized this was no longer my home.I had really become a stray dog that no one wanted.For the ninth-grade physical exam, I had to go to a school far from home.The school arranged transportation to the test site in the morning, and after the test, we had the afternoon off.My dad promised to pick me up after the test because the school was far away.I did better than usual on the day of the test.During the 800-meter run, I did not know why I was pushing myself so hard to catch up to the others.I was out of breath, and all I could hear was my
I said, “I’m doing fine.” “Is your stepmom okay?” “She’s fine.” “That’s good.”During our twenty-minute visit, he spent most of the time crying and sitting in silence.He told me a lot of things. He told me to take care of myself and look after Scarlett.In the end, I could not help but ask, “Do you blame me?”He looked at me and said, “How could I blame you? I owe you an apology.”His voice was calm, like he was stating a simple fact.I watched as he walked away. Once I stepped outside the prison gates, I could not hold it in anymore and burst into tears.His apology brought back memories of the moments of kindness buried under all the anger and violence.All those messy, bittersweet memories hit me like a wave but disappeared with my tears.He gave my mom the house and car but fought to keep custody of me and raised me.On my birthdays, he would act annoyed but still buy me a cake.Late at night, when we were both too hungry to sleep, we would share a single piece of
She sat on the couch like a child who had made a mistake and quietly fiddled with the house deed.She loved looking pretty and often spent her free time dressing up.But at some point, gray hairs had appeared at her temples. Every time I noticed them, it made my eyes sting, and I felt like crying.She touched her face and said, “The first time your dad brought me here and introduced me to you, he said I was your mom. From that day, I told myself that no matter what happened before, from now on, I’m your mom.”Then, she thought of something and suddenly laughed. “That time you told me to get out, your dad came to confront me. I told him it was all my fault. I said I found out you used the 20,000 dollars to frame me, and in my anger, I hit you. “I even told him I was your mom and promised to take care of you and help you grow up. I guess I am pathetic.”She handed me the property deed, raised her chin, and said, “Listen to your mom, you brat.”I felt a lump in my throat, and tear
It was just the three of them eating together. My dad knew my godfather had already drunk a lot and could not drink anymore, but he kept pushing him to do it. He even called him a coward. When they were going downstairs, my dad kicked my godfather from behind on purpose.My godfather and my dad ended up fighting, but since Scarlett was there, neither of them went too hard.My godfather’s death was an accident, but after his death, my dad said the money he owed was forgiven. He claimed that since my godfather was dead, the debt was paid off.Before my dad regained consciousness, he was summoned to the police station.When he woke up, he thought it was a small matter and told me to remind Scarlett to cook dinner, but he never came back.Scarlett made a fuss because of this. She cried loudly, called me a fool, and blamed me for being so cruel to my dad.She grabbed my collar, and her bloodshot eyes were full of tears. “You’re crazy! You really are! Do you know you’ve ruined your lif
She forced a smile and nervously asked, “Did you pass the background check?”I looked into her unfocused, worn-out eyes and casually replied, “I’m not taking the exam anymore. I called the police and had my dad arrested.”She kept staring at me. Her mouth moved, but no words came out.The first time I saw Scarlett was almost ten years ago.She had aged a lot. She was already short, dark, and overweight to begin with. Over time, she was even darker, shorter, and heavier.She had developed many health problems—a fatty liver, high blood pressure, and arrhythmia. The ironic thing was that my dad was healthy and only got sick once a year.She worried every day that the debt collectors would come after us while my dad slept peacefully and without care.I felt like this was so unfair. It really was.Even when my dad hurt Scarlett so badly, she still would not call the police or press charges. She always tried to make peace.It was not fair.So, I took action and sent my dad to priso
Scarlett tried to explain to him, but he still would not listen.I could faintly hear Scarlett crying and saying, “Stop, Warren. Please stop. I beg you. Even if you kill me later, it doesn’t matter. This is Pearl’s future. You can’t ruin it…”I walked the supervisors out, and they did not look happy.I watched them leave without saying anything to explain myself. Scarlett’s last words kept playing in my head.After so many years, I realized I should hate my dad.But how could I hate him?I could barely remember my mom’s face anymore, no matter how hard I tried.She had already given up on me. The only person in the world who was still close to me by blood was my dad.I walked upstairs and passed by my dad’s friends as they hurriedly left.Seeing their panicked faces, I suddenly had a bad feeling. My heart started beating faster, like it knew something was coming.I quickly took the stairs and grabbed the railing as I rushed up.The door was slightly open. I pushed it, and it
The department I applied to was far and not well-known, but there were still a lot of people trying to get in.Before the results of the final background check were even out, Scarlett was already celebrating.She kept telling the neighbors that I had passed the civil service exam and got a stable government job. She was so proud and said I had become successful.She would say how the little girl everyone doubted had become the most successful one.She was praising me so much that the neighbors got jealous.But neither of us expected that the department I applied to would come to our house for an interview.I had researched and told Scarlett that usually, they just visited people in their hometown communities or schools. A home visit was usually just a formality.But every department did things differently, and each supervisor had their own way of handling things.Still, Scarlett was really scared. She kept thinking of all the things that might happen. She was afraid that even t
She had a blank look on her face. On the New Year's Day, she gave me 500 dollars as usual and proudly asked me to say something nice to make her happy.I did not know when it happened, but my dad’s debts kept getting bigger.They got so big that he did not even spare the 50 dollars my grandma needed to buy meat. He shamelessly took the money from her.The bank kept calling me and asking if I knew someone named Warren Zimmerman.Scarlett had already paid off over 300,000 dollars of his debts. She even thought about selling the old house she bought when she got married back then.But my dad was beyond help. He kept gambling, and sometimes, he even had people come over to gamble at home.The house was a mess with empty bottles everywhere. In the thick smoke, my dad would not stop gambling.Scarlett could not stop him anymore. Before, when she was around, he would drink less, but she could no longer control him.I tried a few times to tell her to leave my dad, but I was afraid she
At first, she just wanted to live a quiet life with my godfather, but he died unexpectedly. Just ten minutes before he passed, he was still eating and drinking with her.On May 13th, she went to a church to light a candle and say a prayer. She hoped that my dad would stay safe and that I would do well on my college exams.The church was crowded, and she believed that if she prayed with sincerity, her prayers would be answered.I did not know why she told me all of this, but suddenly, I felt like it might be a good thing for her to stay by my dad’s side.She seemed like a kind person.During my four years of college, I barely went home.I did not want to go back. I did not want to disturb her and my dad’s life together.My grandfather left me 20,000 dollars for college, but my dad did not give it to me. He lied that he used it to buy a gift for Scarlett.I knew he used the money to pay off debts.Even so, Scarlett took the blame. She paid my tuition in my dad’s name and sent me
Even though my physics grades improved a lot, it did not help with my biology and chemistry.Based on the year’s ranking for arts classes, I barely made it to the advanced class.Scarlett was even happier than my dad. She insisted on treating me to a nice dinner as a reward.She remembered all my favorites: mashed potatoes, steak, grilled vegetables, and a Caesar salad.While my dad went to the restroom, she tried to hide her excitement and teased me, “You did so well and got into the advanced class. You just want me to spend money, huh? So, what do you want as a gift?”I wanted a phone, a tablet, some nice clothes, or maybe just cash to spend on whatever I wanted.But looking at the spark in her eyes, my mouth ran ahead of my thoughts, and I said, “Cheapskate, you could sign me up for more tutoring classes.”She smiled even brighter but pretended to act casual. “Oh, so you want to study more. Let’s see what you can actually do.”I did not end up achieving much.For the whole