I laid awake on my cell, almost an hour after Raphael left me here. My mind refused to let me sleep.I wanted to know the meanings of the images but I didn't mean to upset him.Him pulling away hurt more than the mind blowing headache that was pounding in my skull.I should have apologized. Better yet, I shouldn't have asked him that question.What was wrong with me?'It's because you're stupid and selfish that you'd rather hurt Raphael to figure out meaning less images.' The harsh voice hisses and I once again agreed with it.'Mika knew what you were like so he broke the bond, not caring if it would kill you. And now, Raphael's going to know what you're like and he's going to abandon you as well.' The voice added.I looked up at the ceiling with a frown on my face. My left hand slowly made its way to my neck and I pressed the tip of my fingers to the mark on the left side of my neck, one that was left by Raphael.Closing my eyes, I tried to block the tears from falling. 'Stop being
I stood by the window, looking up at the full moon, the very second full moon marking the second month I've been in this pack.My insides recoiled when I heard wolves howl in the distance. All I wanted to do was tear my clothes off, shift and go running in the woods. But I can't.I winced in pain all thanks to the massive head ache that was pounding in my skull. It was so bad that it made me feel nauseous.Letting out a sigh, I turned my back to the window and sat down at the recliner chair Raphael had bought me a few weeks ago. It was after I mentioned that it would be a nice place to read a good book.Ignoring the amount of pain that was shooting up and down my entire body, I tried my best to focus on Raphael alone.The last two weeks and a half had been very interesting.After Raphael and I had shared our kiss, he'd stayed with me for a few hours, just holding me and giving me comfort through his presence.I'd hold on to him like he was my life line.Raphael left bedroom I was stay
Raphael Stars...I looked down at Zinnia, who was soundly sleeping with her head leaned on my chest. The peace radiating off of her did great to calm my conflicted mind.I gently played with a few strands of her hair, twirling the red curls around. She's been wearing it in different styles thanks to Beatrice. Our head of Omega has made it her mission to take care of Zinnia.I let out a sigh and kissed the top of her head. She doesn't even move a muscle, too deep in a comfortable sleep.Holding her right now, I felt like I was the most selfish person on the face of the earth.This morning, I'd woken up with a new sense of power. The times I've been spending with my little green flower were slowly healing me.I was making great progress.Knowing that it was the full moon gave me even more strength. Instead of going to the gym for my morning workout, I went out to the field to see my people train.I didn't join the training. I kept my distance but I was still there.
Mina Wolf...I sat on one of the chairs in the front room of the pack hospital.Raphael stood the chair I was sitting in and I could feel nerves radiating off of him.I glanced at him over my shoulder and the second our eyes clashed, he shot me a small smile but I could still see hesitation in his eyes.I'd asked what was bothering him the previous night but he was willing to answer and I'd decided not to pressure him on it anymore. I wish he would tell me what was bothering him.Falling asleep in his arms was great but waking up alone was a bit disappointing. I should probably stop myself from getting too attacked to Raphael.Of course, that thought immediately left my mind when Raphael came to the bedroom I'm staying in and told me that he went to see Bear. The doctor has offered a type of medication that might strengthen my immunity.I couldn't believe they would care enough. It warmed my heart.So, right after helping the omegas serve a large crowd of hungry wolves, Raphael
Raphael Stars..."What?" Is the first thing I said as soon as I picked up the phone."I think we have a problem, Raphael." My informant commented."What problem?" I asked."Steel found out about what our father did to your pack ten years ago. He found out everything, who knows how. He found out about how father forced Atlas and Fang to participate in... in... You know, what they did to your mate..."My informant stayed silent for a few seconds before he sighed and continued."Steele has a very bad temper which he is unable to control when he found out about everything. He... The idiot attacked our father. It was a very ugly fight." He said."What happened?" I asked."You mean what happened to Haden and steele?" He asked before he answered right away. "Oh, I'll tell you what happened. Haden is fine, currently having a pre lunch with the pack leaders he's forced to come to our territory. And steele... Well, my brother is currently in the pack hospital fighting for his life.
Mina Wolf...Sitting around the counter on a high chair, I listened to the omegas talk as we shared a dinner.The girls were surprisingly including me in there conversation, asking how my night was and why I went to the pack hospital. They asked if I was hurt or ill to which I shook my head.There was an overall positive energy around the girls and my soul was feeding off of it. It felt energizing.I was able to eat more than my body have been allowing me to eat, which wasn't a healthy amount for a grown wolf. Okla sat the closest to me. I think the last time the two of us spoke was when we were going to collect some logs from the woods by the two silver poles and I had asked Okla about the blue nursery.I still remembered how she looked at me, how terrified she was of the question I'd asked. I didn't understand them, but I understand now.We haven't really spoken much after that but I found her always sitting the closest to me for some reason. Megan sat across from me and
Raphael Stars...I looked down at Zinnia, peacefully sleeping. She snuggled her pillow and let out a soft sigh, causing my lips to pull on to a slow smile.I glanced at the window of her bedroom over my right shoulder. The sky was dark, it was probably past midnight.With the short moment Zinnia and I had after dinner, she was tired and had fallen asleep with her head leaned against my shoulder.Tonight had been magical, other than the part that my people were acting like they were bunch of children. Their intentions were pure. Everyone just wanted to get a little bit of attention for their Luna. They just wanted her to see them. And seeing how they have stones her the first day she was in the pack, they are all afraid of approaching her by themselves.So, yelling out for more water when there is a tower of water bottles in the center of all tables was all they could do.I second Zinnia had caught sight of that water bottles, I knew she would think of it the wrong way and
I let out a pain filled growl before I fell to the ground. I braced myself with my hands so I wouldn't fall face first.Sweat poured down from my forehead to the ground, leaving small stains.I heard one of the beta twins sigh. It's been an entire two weeks since I started and not once have I succeeded.Each time, I would start with my hands and then my ears and then my legs but as soon as the shift reaches my back, that is the limit.Every night for the last two weeks, Silver, Maxwell and I have been coming to the woods by the two silver poles near the grounds of the elders.The two have been supporting me all they could without letting anyone else know that I was trying to shift.What I thought would take tops two or three days ended up taking fifteen days.Letting out a sigh, I sat down on the ground as my legs were too exhausted to carry me anymore.Silver walked closer to me and crouched down in front of me."You were doing great, Raphael. You were almost there." He commented."