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Chapter 33- I don't want to hurt you
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The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 34- I want him dead!
Xzen's POVI was too harsh with her and now I can't concentrate on anything aside Aura's tear-stricken face. With a sigh I leave my bedroom which is on the other wing of the pack house, deciding to amend things. I've avoided my study room for long enough. I need Aura. She's like the calm to my storm. I'll apologize, set things straight. I pace slowly towards my study, lost in thought. Aura's face lingers in my mind, her piercing gaze boldly tormenting me. I've tried to deny this, but the truth gnaws at me - I love her. So much so that the thought of her with another man sears my mind like acid, refusing to be purged.I can't let her go…I won't. But as I get closer to Aura's room, a sense of unease settles in my chest. Something feels off. Jack, the guard who's usually stationed outside her door is nowhere to be seen. I frown as a prickle of unease creeps up my spine.Slowing down my pace I keep my senses on high alert. The air around me thickens, heavy with an unmistakable scent
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 35 - Once again rejected
Lost in an ocean of despair, tears stream down my face like rain. My sore body trembles with every sob, the pathetic sound echoing in my aching head. “Take me…Alpha…give me your pups…please.” I wail as memories of my night with Ace replays in my head. It can't be. I could have sworn it was Alpha Xzen with me that night. I could have sworn I'd never let anyone touch me except him. I'm so foolish, so blind, shameless desperate omega.Regret and shame tightly suffocates me, crushing my soul. My mind is trapped in a darkness so profound so that I'm numb to everything else. The world around me fades away, inconsequential.I curl in on myself as my surrounding blurs into nothing. All I can is this pain so great that my heart bleeds, my self-loathing burns under the weight of my mistake.If only I wasn't born like this– a shameless omega. I'm slave to my heat. A whore for any Alpha. A shame to any pack I find myself in. A failure…a reject.My heavy thoughts swirl like a jumbled mess pull
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 36- I'm not that sick
Dust rises as the surface of the dry earth is pounded with my small paws. In my wolf form I devour the distance. Two moons have passed since I fled Blackvine. I've been careful, using my sharp nose to detect areas possibly taken by rogues and being careful not to trespass into another pack. Thanks to my previous hikes with my dad, I know how to survive in the wild. But the further away I am from the pack the tougher it gets to survive. I've got to avoid multiple traps and keep my ears up. One mistake can cost me my life. But I won't stop running until I'm sure I'm safe. The forest envelops me in its serene embrace - towering ancient trees stretch towards the sky, their green leaves rustling softly in the gentle afternoon breeze. Last night, I hid in a thicket. My senses had been on high alert for any sign of pursuit. At night the darkness serves as my shield, and I don't move until dawn's warmth creeps over the horizon. I press deeper into the soil, my paws silenced by grass and
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 37- I should never have left Blackvine
I shake my head, my body too stiff to move along with her. "No, I can't be pregnant. It's not possible." I whisper, my tone stricken with fear. How can I care for my child when I can barely find any food out here. I'm good at running, not hunting. Maybe I should return. Maybe I should beg and take whatever I can get from Blackvine. But my child will grow up to be rejected, an unwanted member in the pack just like their mother. I can't allow them face such shame. I can't be pregnant.Sarah's expression remains calm and relaxed. "Have you ever had sex with a man, child?"I hesitate but she nods all the same, her eyes filled with understanding. "Then you can be pregnant. Once is all it takes, child. And your symptoms, the vomiting, weakness - they all point to pregnancy."I find it hard to swallow, feeling like I've been punched in the gut. I'm not ready to be a mother. I can't do it. The old woman watches my stomach for a while before she glances back up at me. “You are lucky you a
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 38- Just like that, I like to hear you beg
Xzen's POVI slump forward, head in hands, trying to process the chaos within still brewing within me. "Summon Hanna," I order, my voice barely above a whisper.I'm still angry but I'm more hurt than mad now. No matter how hard I try to ignore this feeling within me, I sadly can't ignore the desire to ensure she's fine. I've not had the chance to talk things out with her. After mom slumped two nights ago I've been so occupied. I've had no room to accommodate the hurt I know might come from Aura's explanation. Why hadn't she come to me? Why did she choose to hurt me so deeply. Hanna enters, guilt and fear etched on her face. "Alpha Xzen?"I lift my head, eyes searching hers. "How's she?" I ask, trying to keep my emotions in check. Hanna hesitates, "I...don't know, Alpha."My brows furrow as my frown deepens, incredulous. "You were ordered to stay with her. What do you mean you don't know?!"Hanna takes a frightened step back, "Aura's been missing, Alpha. Two moons ago, she…she van
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 39- Did I really push her this far?
Xzen's POVI just might have made the biggest mistake of my life. I'm such an idiot. How did I not notice? How on earth did I not notice the one person who owns my heart was missing. I've been so blinded by rage. “I'm so sorry. Aura, I'm so sorry.” I think to myself as I trudge through the dense underbrush. My wolf eyes scan the east side of the north border for any sign of Aura. My Omega. Alone, defenseless. I'm such a fool!The sun beats down on my back, frying through my fur and beneath my skin. The discomfort it gives me is barely noticeable, dulled by the turmoil brewing inside of me.We've searched all day, and every step forward feels like two steps back. I pull away from the group of six, Ace included. The mere thought of him infuriates me but I keep my anger on a leash. Too occupied with the troubled thoughts swirling in my head, My senses are on high alert as I move. My nostrils flar with each breath I take in. I'm determined, desperately searching for that familiar s
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 40- Xzen...please...find me
The midnights cold sinks into my exposed body, limp from fatigue. My chest heaves with exhaustion. My icy hands throb in agony, the rough metal chains biting steadily into my skin like razor-sharp teeth. I tug uselessly at the painful restriction, desperation fueling my struggles.I can barely feel my hands. Thick trails of dried blood lines my arms from the cuts made into my wrist by the chains. Each heartbeat slowly yet surely becomes painful. "Please...let me go," I whisper, my voice cracking.Fear claws at my heart, boldly threatening to consume me. Goddess, don't let me die here. My unborn child relies on me for protection. "I must escape… my precious pup depends on me." After what Sarah did, I'd doubted anything truly was within me but whenever I place my hands on my flat tommy I don't know how but I can feel it. There's a little assurance that I've got a little me in there, somewhere. Right now I want to feel it. I want to assure them I'm still here. To assure myself they
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 41- You won't get halfway through
Xzen's POVMy senses are on high alert as I shift, taking a step forward. I move slowly, sniffing around me. The harsh wind carries a mix of scents, but I'm focused on one scent– Aura's. Ace from afar spots me and races down. If I wasn't so eager to find my omega, I would have ordered Ace to stay back. The mere sight of him annoys me to no end. As I approach, I notice a small entrance, partially hidden by the shadows and some burnt woods. Ace rushes in and glances back at me, his eyes gleam in the dim light before disappearing inside.I step in with practiced caution. My wolf's senses efficiently guide me through the partial darkness. The air inside the room is stale, but one scent stands out. Thankfully it's not too faint but it's definitely a day old. My heart races as I realize she was here, and recently at that.Desperately my gaze sweeps the small space. A black pot, a bowl… the shade looks newly made. Some parts of it is incomplete. But that's no what drags my attention. A w
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The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 55- A warm caress.
Aura's POVAt first we don't notice the sky darkening, too lost in the heated kiss to realize. But then raindrops begin to fall, gently at first, then it intensifies into a relentless downpour. “Hmm,” I moan against Alpha Xzen's lips a second before he pulls me up to wrap my legs around his waist. My fingers tangle in Alpha Xzen's hair while his hands roam my curves like a starved man. But our bliss is short-lived. A squeak leaves my lips when the rain suddenly becomes a torrent, forcing us to seek refuge. Alpha Xzen grasps my hand, “follow me!” He shouts under the rain, pulling me along with him. Laughter escapes my chest as we run like two pups in the rain. Xzen glances back at me, his eyes warm. I run after him, feeling my heart lighten as I'm led back to my shelter. Our footsteps splashing in puddles.Michel and Henry must be in their outside rooms on both sides of the small house, as they are nowhere to be found when we burst through the shelter's entrance.The door barely ge
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 54- I'll be gentle.
As I walk up to meet Alpha Xzen, my heart pounds heavily in my chest. He stands a few feet away, two guards standing beside him but not too close. His eyes are fixed on me as I step closer, expecting him to say something– anything that'll give me some indication of why he's waiting for me. But instead, Alpha Xzen's eyes shine as he simply gently tugs me away from the rising murmur of the small groups of individuals standing and sitting in the green field. A kind shiver graces my spine at the warm contact. I inhale, noting how good he smells. Alpha Xzen's thumb rubs softly the back of my tensed hand and I instantly relax, feeling a calm heat course through my hand to my heart. I stumble slightly, caught off guard by his sudden quick movement, like he's scared I'll refuse to follow him. "W...where are you taking me?" I ask, trying to hide the uncertainty in my voice. No, it's not that I'm scared of Alpha Xzen, but because I'm not sure what to expect from him. He doesn't respond resp
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love 53- That lustful gaze.
Aura's POVThe grass is wet today. Wet drops quickly slip into my sandals as myself and Bay stroll down to class. Today's our exam. It's our final practical class, one that I and Bay have been studying hard for. Like every other day, Bay came to wait at my door so we can stroll to class together but I don't believe that's the only reason. Considering how interested in Henry she was when I got out, I'd say he's the main reason she keeps showing up. As we stroll, I silently listen to Bay rant on about how Michel is always ruining her fun with Henry and how unfair it is. “I mean, I'm no longer with that cheating count so why can't I mate with a mateless beauty?!” Bay unsurprisingly yells.Yes, she's is... a lot. She's loud, blunt, and very dramatic, but somehow it all just works. Most days she's like a breath of fresh air to my worrisome mind, stirring things up and keeping me in the present.I realize, as we walk, that I've never known anyone like Bay. Someone who's so unapologetical
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 52- And if Ace were my mate…
It's been days since I last saw Alpha Xzen, and weeks since I moved out of the pack house. Through out this time a lot of things have been inconsistent. Although I hate to say it, I'm better off within the pack house where every thing is set in motion for me. Here at the shelter I can hardly coordinate myself. It's only now that I've tried living on my own, without the help of the pack that I realize just how much was being done for me back there. I never had to make my own meals, never had to wash the dishes, never had to worry for anything materialistic, Alpha Elena ensured I had it all even before I asked. It saddens me to remember I never once really thanked her before moving out. I'd been too blinded by hurt. Also I have noticed how most pack members tend to stare when I pass by. At first I'd quicken my pace and hurry off but ever since Bay made it her duty to walk me home, I've realized they all are simply curious about me. Most times whenever Bay waves at them they run up
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 51- I'm worth more than that
Xzen's POVOne look at Aura and I'm suddenly transported back to that evening…when I saw her with Ace. My frustration rises as I remember how close they both were to each other. I felt a pang of jealousy then, and I feel it now.I've tried so hard to get her to open up to me but she chooses to share space with Ace. Someone who's barely in the pack these days. How could she spend time with him so easily, when every time I take a step towards her, she takes a hundred back? It doesn't make sense. Hell, I thought I knew her, thought I understood her fears and her boundaries. But now, I'm not so sure.Aura's expression is confused, her brow furrowed in concern. She takes a cautious step back, her eyes darting towards the door like she's reminding herself of the available escape. Her stance is frightened, her weight shifting on to a leg as if she's ready to flee at any moment.I also notice how her tiny hands are clenched into fists, her knuckles white with tension. She's trembling, ever
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 50- Xzen, calm down
Xzen's POV"And where is he?!’’ I glare deadly at the guard, my demand shaking the room. The man, a tall, confident figure with chiseled features and a strong jaw line, bows submissively, but answers calmly, ‘'I do not know, Alpha.’'I take a step closer, my anger escalating. ‘'When last did he report to duty?!'’ I question, my chest heaving. I'm hit with a pang of irritation when I notice Collins sitting at a corner of the room, frowning.'’Relax, Alpha,'’ Collins says as he tries to intervene. '’It's just a training session. I'm sure someone else can stand in for Ace.'’I whirl around, directing my fury at him. '’You've been gone for a while, you have no idea just how lackadaisical he's been,'’ I snarl, my eyes flashing with anger.The guard seems to sense ann opportunity and speaks up, '’Alpha Xzen, I could fetch Ace if you desire.' He lifts his head a bit, his confident demeanor permanent. Just as trained.I frown, my eyes darkening. ‘'From this day forward, he ceases to be the Pa
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 49- A scent I should have ignored
Ace's POVI'm aware that whatever I'm about to say will possibly make no sense to Aura at this moment. My words might hold no value to her but I must at least try. I've tried getting her alone, in a quiet setting where my thoughts would be more organized but if I keep waiting for that time, I may never find it. That bright and radiant eyes or the petite omega now look dull. The sight causes an unpleasant feeling in my chest, and although I'd like to wipe it off with a joke, I know now's not the time. We are sitting on a bench in the open filled outside her healing class. I notice some trainees checking us out but I pay them no mind.As I prepare myself to speak, I notice how Aura's shoulders are slumped, her arms wrapped tightly around herself, as if trying to hold together the shattered pieces of her heart. I should have been there for her. I would have been there for her. I still wish to be there for her, if she'd let me.. I take a deep breath, my own heart racing with a mix of
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 48- Panic claws at my heart
My heart drums in rhythm with my feet pounding against the damp earth, mud coats my bare feet, slipping through my toes just like my breath coming in ragged gasps as the wolves close in around me. Panic claws at my heart when I spare a glance behind me. Their eyes glow like lanterns in the dark, the zeal to kill burning like wild fire in their orbs. I move faster, my soul freezing, blood curdling as my mother's scream pierces the air. I don't see him at first but as I get closer, the trees around me blur and I see my father standing in the direction I'm heading. Blood pours down his eyes and the open slit in his throat. My steps falter as hot tears break free. “P…Pa!” I scream. He gazes at me with accusing eyes. His voice is barely above a whisper, "You caused this." Those words sear into my mind like a branding iron, the guilt and horror boldly threatening to consume me.“NO! NO!” I scream in fright when sharp claws dig into my skin, scraping against my bone. Alpha Mich pays me
The Alpha's Reject: Finding True Love Chapter 47- I need to see her
With a drop in my aching shoulders, I step out of the warm pack house, and the silence itself is deafening. No one speaks, not even a whisper. Everyone's eyes follow me, their faces etched with sadness and…guilt. Some gaze down, unable to meet my eyes, while others watch with muted emotions that mirror my own.I feel like I'm walking through a sea of regret, their unspoken words hanging in the air like a challenge. But what's there to be sad about? I'd been the one to make the wrong decision of running away. I'd caused the death of my unborn pup. I'd caused it all and now that I think of it I feel I've mistaken their pitiful stares for guilt. But they have every reason to pity the weak omega. The fool who lost her pup when she tried to find a better route in life. Two guards approach me, their expressions calm. They both offer to help me move my belongings. I nod at them, grateful for their assistance, as I'm still a bit tired. It's been over a week but my body is still recovering.
