Astrid's POV
I had lost my mind.
How did I know that I had lost my mind?
Because with Alpha Jaxon looking down at me, his eyes a stormy gray that hinted at annoyance and his dark hair falling slightly over his forehead, all I could think about at this point was how handsome he looked.
His scent was undoubtedly the best thing I had smelt. He smelt like cedar, sweet wine and so undeniably male. I could get lost in his eyes and his hair, I was just dying to touch to feel if it was as soft as it looked.
I felt a tingle work itself up my body.
A growl escaped Alpha Jaxon and his gaze darkened, his arms around me tightening making me gasp out in pain.
"When I am talking to you, I expect a response."
My lips parted. "I…"
But what did I have to say? What would I tell him and where would I start from and where would I end?
I couldn't tell him about the fact that I left the pack house without telling him why and the last thing I wanted was for him to also find out that I was royalty and try to use me like Xavier had planned to with his father.
No, I had to tell him something entirely different but what bothered me about that was the fact l felt like he would know if I was lying.
I found my voice looking into those gray depths. "I am Xavier's mate."
I saw something spark into life in Alpha Jaxon's gaze.
"Was his mate." I clarified. "He rejected me the moment he found out because he believes I am an omega and not good enough for him."
Talking about it refreshed the entire situation in my mind. How he had rejected me so easily.
He said that I was worthless when actually it was the reverse that was the case depending on how one looked at it.
Considering the fact that I was the daughter of the Alpha king and he wasn't even the Alpha of his pack yet, I outranked him.
I felt tears build in my eyes as I looked at Alpha Jaxon who just watched me intently.
"Even before we discovered we were mates, he abused me and humiliated me at every chance he got so I got angry and left the pack."
I still didn't regret my decision despite my current rather precarious situation and the fact that I had gotten kidnapped. If there was anything that I would do over again, it would be to choose a better hotel to pass the night or to have continued my journey into the night.
Alpha Jaxon raised a questioning eyebrow as though to ask me if a ransom had been put on my head for that reason alone.
I shrugged slightly, a smile coming to my lips at the thought of what I had done.
"I might have also pushed Xavier's favorite car into a lake and bashed his girlfriend's car."
Alpha Jaxon's eyes widened momentarily as though I had shocked him and I was glad to note that I rather liked the thought of surprising him.
Alpha Jaxon's shocked look faded to that of disbelief and doubt.
"Is he the one who put the bounty out on you? What rank does he have in the pack to do something like that?"
Now it was my turn to be shocked that he didn't know who Xavier was although I made sure not to let it on.
How was this possible? I thought all Alphas knew themselves… I suddenly recalled how Alpha Finn always put in so much effort to remain unnoticed by Alpha Jaxon.
Was it possible that he had also hidden the identity of Xavier so that he could spring him up when it was time to take the throne of my father the Alpha King?
I thought quickly. If he found out that I was the mate of the heir to the Moonshadow pack then he could let me go because I was too much trouble.
"He has close ties with the Alpha and the heir of the Moonshadow pack."
Alpha Jaxon narrowed his eyes at me. His grip on me tightened almost threateningly.
I was surprised to feel the entwining of fear and arousal within me.
Alpha Jaxon snarled at me baring his teeth.
"You had better not be lying to me or there will be consequences."
I swallowed hard, making eye contact with him so as not to further rouse his suspicions.
"I'm not lying. Please believe me. Anyone at the Moonshadow pack can attest to my story."
And I was right. It wasn't really a lie. Xavier was close to the Alpha of the Moonshadiw pack being his son and he was close to the heir of the Moonshadow pack seeing as he was the heir himself.
I must have sounded like I was telling the truth because Alpha Jaxon frowned slightly, his brows furrowed.
"If all of that was true then your exmate is a fool."
I blinked at him, surprised by his words. He never struck me as the sentimental type that would curse out someone simply for how they related to me.
He inhaled sharply making goosebumps break out across my skin from how class se he was to me.
"You don't smell like an omega but an Alpha." He said the words with a faintly confused and intrigued air.
I was struggling to think at this point because was it just me or had the car gotten like ten degrees hotter?
"I don't?"
His hands slipped from my shoulders where he'd held me down, one hand drifting to my waist, the other hovering dangerously close to my breasts.
Alpha Jaxon dipped his head in the juncture between my neck and my shoulder.
"You smell like dominance,"
His voice was deeper and it went straight to my core, I barely stopped myself from moaning. What the hell was wrong with me?
He dipped his head again, his hot breath moving over my skin making a small gasp escape me.
A growl left Alpha Jaxon's lips and he moved us faster than I could exclaim in shock pulling me partly under him on the seat.
In that movement, I felt him settle between my legs. Felt his hardness against me.
Another moan escaped me and I couldn't find the strength within myself to hold it in.
He slid his hand into my hair, fisting it in a way that was just shy of painful but extremely hot.
Then Alpha Jaxon dropped a kiss on my neck making me shiver before whispering against my skin.
"You smell like berries and wildflowers."
No one has ever spoken to me like that. With that dangerously sensual voice and something even rarer, honesty. It melted my heart and very nearly disintegrated my panties.
I opened my eyes that I had not realized had fallen shut to see his hooded eyes staring at me with undiminished desire.
"Alpha Jaxon." I meant to call his name to bring him back to himself but it came out as a low drawn-out moan.
I saw a look of dark amusement and intense pride come over his face.
"You are so aroused by my touch, Astrid. If I touch you, will I find you wet?"
I think I had a mini orgasm at the sound of my name on his lips. It was official. I was going to lose my virginity in the backseat of a car with a heartless Alpha who wanted me to have his child in exchange for 50,000 USD.
And the scariest part was that I was going to enjoy it. Hell, I might even be an active participant.
There was. just something about Alpha Jaxon that made me unsure of who I was outside his touch.
My silence seemed to be insufficient to satisfy his curiosity and his hand began to drift lower.
Over my belly, lower abdomen… he began to lift the shirt up to slip his hands beneath the leggings I wore underneath.
This was where my hand of its own accord caught his stopping his descent.
"We…" I panted through my words, my inner thighs trembling at the thought of his fingers inside me. I needed him now. "I… We are just getting to know each other—"
He didn't let me finish before pulling my hands off his, a dangerous glint in his eyes.
"No one says no to me, pet."
Then he slid his hand directly over me on top of the leggings making me gasp sharply, the wet sound from the movement slightly louder than my gasp.
I was so wet that I had soaked through the leggings. Alpha Jaxon smirked at me and the car came to a stop.
He started hovering above me for a few seconds, his eyes in contact with mine, the scent of my arousal thick in the air.
He removed his hands from me straightening and as if on cue, the car door opened and he shoved me out such that Beta Caleb broke my fall.
He didn't even look at me.
"Take her to the pack doctor to check her ovulation and put her on the list."
What list was he talking about?
Astrid's POVWhen I got to the Crimson Moon pack hospital with Beta Nathan, I was more than confused.What exactly had Alpha Jaxon meant by the list and why did he want a doctor to see me?The injury on my cheek was already healed. I might not have a wolf but I could heal even though it was way slower than a regular wolf's.The doctor seemed pleasant at least."I am Rachel and in your time here as your time here as a surrogate, I will be your guide and confidante."I looked at the smiling doctor with cropped blond hair and almost angelic blue eyes. My supposed confidante. She was from the Crimson Moon Pack and ultimately one of Alpha Jaxon's people. I couldn't trust anyone but myself here.She turned to face Beta Nathan who seemed to stand straighter under her gaze."Wait outside the clinic and give this to the Alpha."Rachel handed him an envelope. Beta Nathan accepted it and gave me what I assumed was a don't misbehave look before walking away.I turned back to you the doctor. Had s
Astrid's POVIt was surprisingly cool to be a surrogate.Imagine that. It was cooler being a person who sold their body for money rather than being a powerless omega.I was given a big room on the top floor with windows that had a magnificent view of everything.No one disturbed me and Alpha Jaxon didn't come to force himself on me or anything else like I feared. In fact, I would have thought that they had forgotten I was in the house if not for the servants that attended to me.Yes. I now had servants. Servants that brought me whatever I wanted, cleaned up my room, styled my hair even though I was going nowhere and dressed me up.They attempted to bathe me as well but I drew the line there. I wasn't a child.I wasn't allowed to work hard - so as not to strain myself and affect my conception - so I always had a maid on hand in case I wanted to change or do anything strenuous.I slept well for the first time in a long time.I ate and gorged.And I grew bored.I know what you are thinki
Alpha Jaxon's POVI saw the shock spread across their faces as they processed my presence.The man who held Astrid in his arms let go of her slightly, probably from the shock but that was all she needed to pull away and race away from him to hide behind me.This close, I could perceive his scent on her and it enraged me. How dare this man touch what wasn't his?If not for my need to check up on Astrid after the librarian had informed me via the pack link of her leaving Astrid alone in the library, I would have never known.This rage I was feeling was unfamiliar.I didn't even know Astrid all that well but I was bothered. Bothered was an understatement. I felt undeniably possessive about her.She was mine. I had bought her straight and clear and she had also agreed to our bargain.The man in front of me looked and smelled strangely familiar and there was the look he had been giving Astrid.I was willing to bet that this was her former mate who had been stupid enough to let go of someon
Astrid's POVIt was my birthday.Well, it was going to be my birthday in exactly ten minutes.How did I know this? I put a timer on it.One wonders why I was going through the effort of timing the exact moment I turned eighteen.It was because I was turning eighteen. That magical birthday when wolves found their mates and everything finally slid into place in their world.I lit the last candle and looked down on the beautiful game Darryl from the kitchens where I often cleaned had gifted me with.It was small but it was probably the nicest thing anyone had done for an orphan like me in this big pack."I can't take this.""You will," She'd harrumphed. "I know you don't like showy stuff but it's your birthday. You should have a cake at least."I smiled at the memory of her unwillingness to let me feel alone even for a second.The timer was already counting down and I felt butterflies in my belly at the thought of finally meeting my mate.I was about to sit down when the door of my room
Astrid's POVThe pain of my mate rejecting me slammed into me making me gasp as I rocked back, my body shaking and vibrating.l had heard of people rejecting their true mate yet I had never thought that it would happen to me.Somehow I had thought surely the moon goddess wouldn't be so cruel as to give me a mate that wouldn't care for me in addition to all my troubles.I had been wrong. I didn't even know how it was possible for a wolfless omega like me to have a mate like Xavier. I wasn't as strong as Lyra so why me?What I knew was that I was in a world of pain. To think that if I had a wolf the pain would have been twofold of what I was feeling now. Guess there was a good side to being a wolfless omega after all.Xavier wrapped his arm around Lyra and the stab of pain in my chest made my knees weak beneath me.I wanted to crawl under my covers and hide.But I had been doing that my whole life.Hiding because I was a powerless omega, hiding to avoid the people who would hurt me.Hid
Astrid's POVMaybe I should have followed them.But I didn't. It was one thing to eavesdrop on them from my room and another entirely to go to the Alpha quarters out of bounds for omegas just to listen in on their conversations.So I went to the gardens instead. All the way there, I thought of how unreal all of this was. Me, an omega mated to an Alpha. How exactly did that work?I also thought of all the things that Xavier had done to me over the years. Could I really forgive him for all of that just because of the mate bond?But I was already worried about what his father would do to him.No, Astrid. You will not let your conflicted feelings because of the mate bond affect you.I reached the gardens that were decorated with strings of light, music -that I couldn't tell where it was coming from- and an adorned table that held a much larger cake, gifts and a box that revealed a gold and diamond necklace.There was no one here just yet but I could see the platters of food for people.It
Astrid's POVI wish I could say that I left immediately, found my Dad and began to live the life that I was destined for.My life simply couldn't be that easy.Fighting the urge from the mate bond to return to Xavier, I made my way back to my room to pack my essentials.I didn't know where exactly my father the Alpha King was but I knew that my search would have to start at the capital city. The Werewolf Capital City was the pack managed by the Alpha King that lay at the heart of our continent.It was also where he resided. At least until he disappeared. My current pack was such a long distance away from the capital that I wondered what exactly my mother had been running from to run this far.I would find out when I reached my father. I would find him. I wasn't sure how but I worried that if I thought too long about this plan then I would back out completely.I needed to leave now. And I couldn't get caught.I finished tossing whatever little property I had left into the bag and proce
Astrid's POVAt that point, the haze in my head cleared.Alpha Jaxon was the Alpha of the Crimson Moon Pack. The name was nearly as deadly as the deadly infamous pack.The Crimson Moon pack was one of the biggest packs on this continent. That was because the Alpha of the pack, Alpha Jaxon, kept conquering other packs and adding them to his.He was rumored to be deadly, bloodthirsty and extremely merciless. Even my former pack shied away from any interaction that involved the Crimson Moon pack instead choosing to send gifts to Alpha Jaxon in hopes of appeasing him to prevent an attack.This was the man that I had been 'sold' to become his breeder? Just how much drugs had they put in that food?I just wanted to find my dad, why did it seem like I was going from one trouble to another?I blinked up at this stranger who told me that he had bought me."A surrogate?"What little I knew of that word was that they carried babies. Would that involve sex? Sex with a bloodthirsty monster?Fighti
Alpha Jaxon's POVI saw the shock spread across their faces as they processed my presence.The man who held Astrid in his arms let go of her slightly, probably from the shock but that was all she needed to pull away and race away from him to hide behind me.This close, I could perceive his scent on her and it enraged me. How dare this man touch what wasn't his?If not for my need to check up on Astrid after the librarian had informed me via the pack link of her leaving Astrid alone in the library, I would have never known.This rage I was feeling was unfamiliar.I didn't even know Astrid all that well but I was bothered. Bothered was an understatement. I felt undeniably possessive about her.She was mine. I had bought her straight and clear and she had also agreed to our bargain.The man in front of me looked and smelled strangely familiar and there was the look he had been giving Astrid.I was willing to bet that this was her former mate who had been stupid enough to let go of someon
Astrid's POVIt was surprisingly cool to be a surrogate.Imagine that. It was cooler being a person who sold their body for money rather than being a powerless omega.I was given a big room on the top floor with windows that had a magnificent view of everything.No one disturbed me and Alpha Jaxon didn't come to force himself on me or anything else like I feared. In fact, I would have thought that they had forgotten I was in the house if not for the servants that attended to me.Yes. I now had servants. Servants that brought me whatever I wanted, cleaned up my room, styled my hair even though I was going nowhere and dressed me up.They attempted to bathe me as well but I drew the line there. I wasn't a child.I wasn't allowed to work hard - so as not to strain myself and affect my conception - so I always had a maid on hand in case I wanted to change or do anything strenuous.I slept well for the first time in a long time.I ate and gorged.And I grew bored.I know what you are thinki
Astrid's POVWhen I got to the Crimson Moon pack hospital with Beta Nathan, I was more than confused.What exactly had Alpha Jaxon meant by the list and why did he want a doctor to see me?The injury on my cheek was already healed. I might not have a wolf but I could heal even though it was way slower than a regular wolf's.The doctor seemed pleasant at least."I am Rachel and in your time here as your time here as a surrogate, I will be your guide and confidante."I looked at the smiling doctor with cropped blond hair and almost angelic blue eyes. My supposed confidante. She was from the Crimson Moon Pack and ultimately one of Alpha Jaxon's people. I couldn't trust anyone but myself here.She turned to face Beta Nathan who seemed to stand straighter under her gaze."Wait outside the clinic and give this to the Alpha."Rachel handed him an envelope. Beta Nathan accepted it and gave me what I assumed was a don't misbehave look before walking away.I turned back to you the doctor. Had s
Astrid's POVI had lost my mind.How did I know that I had lost my mind?Because with Alpha Jaxon looking down at me, his eyes a stormy gray that hinted at annoyance and his dark hair falling slightly over his forehead, all I could think about at this point was how handsome he looked.His scent was undoubtedly the best thing I had smelt. He smelt like cedar, sweet wine and so undeniably male. I could get lost in his eyes and his hair, I was just dying to touch to feel if it was as soft as it looked.I felt a tingle work itself up my body.A growl escaped Alpha Jaxon and his gaze darkened, his arms around me tightening making me gasp out in pain."When I am talking to you, I expect a response."My lips parted. "I…"But what did I have to say? What would I tell him and where would I start from and where would I end?I couldn't tell him about the fact that I left the pack house without telling him why and the last thing I wanted was for him to also find out that I was royalty and try to
Alpha Jaxon's POVI looked back at the woman who would be my surrogate very soon.How dare she question me? She needed to know her place.Leaning in, I grabbed her chin roughly making her gasp out in surprise. So far I had been nice and considerate but I was an Alpha and I didn't accept challenges from anybody."No one questions me, pet." I whispered in her ear, feeling her stiffness against me.My hand shifted to her neck placing just enough pressure to not hurt her but enough to show her that if I wanted to I could."Most especially not you."Astrid's pale green eyes widened with fear and I was surprised that a part of me wanted to take that fear away but I ignored it.It was better for both of us if she was afraid of me. We didn't need this arrangement to be anything other than what it was. A much-needed arrangement.I pulled away from her feeling angry at her, myself and this whole blasted situation."Alpha, the car is ready." My Beta, Caleb said bowing as I exited the apartment b
Astrid's POVAt that point, the haze in my head cleared.Alpha Jaxon was the Alpha of the Crimson Moon Pack. The name was nearly as deadly as the deadly infamous pack.The Crimson Moon pack was one of the biggest packs on this continent. That was because the Alpha of the pack, Alpha Jaxon, kept conquering other packs and adding them to his.He was rumored to be deadly, bloodthirsty and extremely merciless. Even my former pack shied away from any interaction that involved the Crimson Moon pack instead choosing to send gifts to Alpha Jaxon in hopes of appeasing him to prevent an attack.This was the man that I had been 'sold' to become his breeder? Just how much drugs had they put in that food?I just wanted to find my dad, why did it seem like I was going from one trouble to another?I blinked up at this stranger who told me that he had bought me."A surrogate?"What little I knew of that word was that they carried babies. Would that involve sex? Sex with a bloodthirsty monster?Fighti
Astrid's POVI wish I could say that I left immediately, found my Dad and began to live the life that I was destined for.My life simply couldn't be that easy.Fighting the urge from the mate bond to return to Xavier, I made my way back to my room to pack my essentials.I didn't know where exactly my father the Alpha King was but I knew that my search would have to start at the capital city. The Werewolf Capital City was the pack managed by the Alpha King that lay at the heart of our continent.It was also where he resided. At least until he disappeared. My current pack was such a long distance away from the capital that I wondered what exactly my mother had been running from to run this far.I would find out when I reached my father. I would find him. I wasn't sure how but I worried that if I thought too long about this plan then I would back out completely.I needed to leave now. And I couldn't get caught.I finished tossing whatever little property I had left into the bag and proce
Astrid's POVMaybe I should have followed them.But I didn't. It was one thing to eavesdrop on them from my room and another entirely to go to the Alpha quarters out of bounds for omegas just to listen in on their conversations.So I went to the gardens instead. All the way there, I thought of how unreal all of this was. Me, an omega mated to an Alpha. How exactly did that work?I also thought of all the things that Xavier had done to me over the years. Could I really forgive him for all of that just because of the mate bond?But I was already worried about what his father would do to him.No, Astrid. You will not let your conflicted feelings because of the mate bond affect you.I reached the gardens that were decorated with strings of light, music -that I couldn't tell where it was coming from- and an adorned table that held a much larger cake, gifts and a box that revealed a gold and diamond necklace.There was no one here just yet but I could see the platters of food for people.It
Astrid's POVThe pain of my mate rejecting me slammed into me making me gasp as I rocked back, my body shaking and vibrating.l had heard of people rejecting their true mate yet I had never thought that it would happen to me.Somehow I had thought surely the moon goddess wouldn't be so cruel as to give me a mate that wouldn't care for me in addition to all my troubles.I had been wrong. I didn't even know how it was possible for a wolfless omega like me to have a mate like Xavier. I wasn't as strong as Lyra so why me?What I knew was that I was in a world of pain. To think that if I had a wolf the pain would have been twofold of what I was feeling now. Guess there was a good side to being a wolfless omega after all.Xavier wrapped his arm around Lyra and the stab of pain in my chest made my knees weak beneath me.I wanted to crawl under my covers and hide.But I had been doing that my whole life.Hiding because I was a powerless omega, hiding to avoid the people who would hurt me.Hid