Astrid's POV
It was surprisingly cool to be a surrogate.
Imagine that. It was cooler being a person who sold their body for money rather than being a powerless omega.
I was given a big room on the top floor with windows that had a magnificent view of everything.
No one disturbed me and Alpha Jaxon didn't come to force himself on me or anything else like I feared. In fact, I would have thought that they had forgotten I was in the house if not for the servants that attended to me.
Yes. I now had servants. Servants that brought me whatever I wanted, cleaned up my room, styled my hair even though I was going nowhere and dressed me up.
They attempted to bathe me as well but I drew the line there. I wasn't a child.
I wasn't allowed to work hard - so as not to strain myself and affect my conception - so I always had a maid on hand in case I wanted to change or do anything strenuous.
I slept well for the first time in a long time.
I ate and gorged.
And I grew bored.
I know what you are thinking. For someone who was used to suffering surely I should have enjoyed the welcome change and milked it for what it was worth.
But I was used to working. To doing things. Sitting idle made me feel like I had things to do that I was ignoring. My body was just used to suffering to relax.
So I explored and tried to learn everything about my new home. That was how I found myself in the library for the first time.
The librarian bowed when she saw me making me startled.
"Good day my lady, how may I be of service?"
My lady? I was now a lady?
I felt instantly self-conscious. Maybe she was mistaking me for someone else.
"Don't worry, I can find my way around."
The librarian followed me into the library and refused to let me be.
"As a surrogate, you must not do any hard work."
I paused, turning to look at the librarian. "How do you know I am a surrogate?"
The librarian looked at me looking faintly embarrassed. "Only the surrogates can wear blue silk here."
I looked down at the ocean blue dress that I was wearing. Somehow I hadn't noticed that all my dresses in the closet were varying shades of blue until she said it.
From the pale blues that looked white to the darkest blues that seemed black until hit by a ray of sun in the right direction.
Even my clothes advertised what I was. How crazy was that?
"Alright." I tucked my hair behind my ear. "But you don't need to bother. I don't intend to stress myself. I just want to look around and read a book or two."
The librarian didn't seem to hear my silent plea to be alone. "I will help you with the retrieval of the books."
I finally allowed her to tag along with me because what other choice did I have?
She helped me retrieve the books that I wanted then I dismissed her and read.
I found myself returning to the library often and becoming better acquainted with the different librarians.
Initially, I just read novels but on my second day at the library, I saw a military journal and thought to myself. What better way would I get to research on the mysterious Alpha King but in the library?
I would need all the knowledge I could to find him after I left this place.
It must have been close to a week that I had been coming to the library when it happened.
"We have to close the library."
I looked up from a particular interesting story about my father to Wendy, the librarian.
"May I borrow this book then?"
Wendy smiled at me apologetically.
"It is too heavy to have in your room. You may try to lift it without any of your maids present."
She was right. I would try to lift it. It was just one book, I knew that the Crimson Moon pack was anxious to have a child but this was ridiculous. At this rate, if I got pregnant, then they would never let me stand up from the bed.
I blinked at Wendy.
"But I am so bored. I never have anything to do and reading books is the only time I feel like myself." Tears filled my eyes. "I have not even been with Alpha Jaxon. You shouldn't bother about me carrying heavy loads."
That was another thing that bothered me as well. I felt guilty for all of this princess treatment when I hadn't done anything to deserve it.
"These are the rules." Wendy shrugged but I could see the sympathy in her eyes. "But… I can leave you the key to lock up later."
"You can? Thank you!" I nearly jumped as I hugged her.
After Wendy left, I realized something. This was the first time I was completely alone in the Crimson Moon pack. This might be the only time I would have an opportunity to escape.
I didn't want Alpha Jaxon to punish the librarian but my Dad was still out there.
I glanced at the closed library door that my guard stood behind, my heart in my throat. If I wanted to escape, I would have to use the window.
I looked for a window that would be best for climbing out and I lifted my leg to climb out only to hear footsteps behind me.
I froze. I was so done for.
I turned and my jaw nearly dropped in shock. "Xavier?"
My former mate smiled at me brightly.
"You don't need to pass a window, I'm here to take you home."
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Xavier's POV
"This is all your fault! You are a disgrace."
When Astrid left, I was the one who took all the blame.
"Father, how was I to know that she would escape?"
My father had been inconsolable.
"If you had not been so mean to her, she would not have escaped!"
I knew he cared for the omega as much as I did. He only cared that our only shot at the throne was at stake.
"Father—"
"She is our ticket out of being oppressed by Alpha Jaxon and your ticket to the throne!"
Alpha Jaxon's swift and total rise over the years had humiliated my father and when he finally began to show off his strength my father never forgot or forgave.
He would not be satisfied until he had shown that upstart his place.
"I will find her and bring her home." I promised my father.
But the truth was even if he hadn't demanded it, I would have gone after her anyway.
My wolf wasn't letting me be. He wanted his mate and he wanted her now.
I couldn't touch Lyra much less kiss her even when I wanted to and the past nights before I left the pack, I couldn't sleep without Astrid's scent next to me.
Her omega scent was slowly driving me mad. I had never felt this way before and even when I saw what she had done to Lyra's car and my car, all I could do was fight a laugh which was ridiculous since I didn't even like her.
I tracked her scent to a shady-looking hotel then it was gone as though she had simply evaporated from there but I knew what territory I was in and the only people who could mask a scent like that.
It didn't take long to find the bounty hunters.
I showed her picture to the head of the hunters.
"Where is she?"
The burly man didn't even look at the picture as he drank his beer, his men around him primed for violence.
"Don't know her."
I dropped a wad of cash that had him glancing at the table.
"Does she look familiar now?"
The man grinned showing his yellow, slightly blackened teeth.
"Add another and I'll see."
I added another stack of cash.
He nodded and his men greedily pocketed it before he turned to me with that same annoying grin.
"Don't think you can get her back. Sold this one right off to Alpha Jaxon. Messing with the Crimson Moon pack will get ya killed."
The Crimson Moon Pack had her?
I growled at the head of the slavers and he looked frightened for a second. "She is mine and I will get her back."
Then it was a matter of preparation and greasing the right palm and I was in.
It was harder than I thought sneaking into the Crimson Moon territory but the person I bribed informed me that Astrid frequented the library so that I didn't waste time.
I just watched and waited for the right opportunity. Now was that opportunity.
I looked at my mate standing in front of me. She was perfect. Everything I wanted.
Her hair was no longer greasy but glossy and fell in full dark curls around her. Even her face seemed to glow in this dim lighting, her green eyes as pale as jade.
She seemed different.
Instead of her coming running into my arms, Astrid maintained the distance between us.
"I am not going back with you."
I was shocked.
"You would rather stay here locked up with a murderer and a terrible man than return home?"
Her eyes burned with more anger than I had ever seen in them.
"The Moonshadow pack was never my home. You and all the other pack members made it clear. Besides, are you not a terrible person as well?" Her anger was not that of an omega but a princess. "You broke our bond immediately after you found out I was your mate."
I was running out of time. I folded my hands together acting remorseful.
"I made a mistake. I'm sorry. Please give me another chance."
Astrid looked away from me.
"I can't. I can no longer trust you."
My anger grew and I could no longer pretend.
"You give me no choice. I will take you back home forcibly."
Astrid's eyes widened with fear.
"What?"
I pulled her arm and yanked her forward ignoring her struggles.
"You have been brainwashed by Alpha Jaxon."
She pushed against me.
"No, I have not. Let me go!"
I yanked her harder and she gasped in pain.
"Am I interrupting something?"
I looked to see who was interrupting. It was Alpha Jaxon.
Alpha Jaxon's POVI saw the shock spread across their faces as they processed my presence.The man who held Astrid in his arms let go of her slightly, probably from the shock but that was all she needed to pull away and race away from him to hide behind me.This close, I could perceive his scent on her and it enraged me. How dare this man touch what wasn't his?If not for my need to check up on Astrid after the librarian had informed me via the pack link of her leaving Astrid alone in the library, I would have never known.This rage I was feeling was unfamiliar.I didn't even know Astrid all that well but I was bothered. Bothered was an understatement. I felt undeniably possessive about her.She was mine. I had bought her straight and clear and she had also agreed to our bargain.The man in front of me looked and smelled strangely familiar and there was the look he had been giving Astrid.I was willing to bet that this was her former mate who had been stupid enough to let go of someon
Astrid's POVIt was my birthday.Well, it was going to be my birthday in exactly ten minutes.How did I know this? I put a timer on it.One wonders why I was going through the effort of timing the exact moment I turned eighteen.It was because I was turning eighteen. That magical birthday when wolves found their mates and everything finally slid into place in their world.I lit the last candle and looked down on the beautiful game Darryl from the kitchens where I often cleaned had gifted me with.It was small but it was probably the nicest thing anyone had done for an orphan like me in this big pack."I can't take this.""You will," She'd harrumphed. "I know you don't like showy stuff but it's your birthday. You should have a cake at least."I smiled at the memory of her unwillingness to let me feel alone even for a second.The timer was already counting down and I felt butterflies in my belly at the thought of finally meeting my mate.I was about to sit down when the door of my room
Astrid's POVThe pain of my mate rejecting me slammed into me making me gasp as I rocked back, my body shaking and vibrating.l had heard of people rejecting their true mate yet I had never thought that it would happen to me.Somehow I had thought surely the moon goddess wouldn't be so cruel as to give me a mate that wouldn't care for me in addition to all my troubles.I had been wrong. I didn't even know how it was possible for a wolfless omega like me to have a mate like Xavier. I wasn't as strong as Lyra so why me?What I knew was that I was in a world of pain. To think that if I had a wolf the pain would have been twofold of what I was feeling now. Guess there was a good side to being a wolfless omega after all.Xavier wrapped his arm around Lyra and the stab of pain in my chest made my knees weak beneath me.I wanted to crawl under my covers and hide.But I had been doing that my whole life.Hiding because I was a powerless omega, hiding to avoid the people who would hurt me.Hid
Astrid's POVMaybe I should have followed them.But I didn't. It was one thing to eavesdrop on them from my room and another entirely to go to the Alpha quarters out of bounds for omegas just to listen in on their conversations.So I went to the gardens instead. All the way there, I thought of how unreal all of this was. Me, an omega mated to an Alpha. How exactly did that work?I also thought of all the things that Xavier had done to me over the years. Could I really forgive him for all of that just because of the mate bond?But I was already worried about what his father would do to him.No, Astrid. You will not let your conflicted feelings because of the mate bond affect you.I reached the gardens that were decorated with strings of light, music -that I couldn't tell where it was coming from- and an adorned table that held a much larger cake, gifts and a box that revealed a gold and diamond necklace.There was no one here just yet but I could see the platters of food for people.It
Astrid's POVI wish I could say that I left immediately, found my Dad and began to live the life that I was destined for.My life simply couldn't be that easy.Fighting the urge from the mate bond to return to Xavier, I made my way back to my room to pack my essentials.I didn't know where exactly my father the Alpha King was but I knew that my search would have to start at the capital city. The Werewolf Capital City was the pack managed by the Alpha King that lay at the heart of our continent.It was also where he resided. At least until he disappeared. My current pack was such a long distance away from the capital that I wondered what exactly my mother had been running from to run this far.I would find out when I reached my father. I would find him. I wasn't sure how but I worried that if I thought too long about this plan then I would back out completely.I needed to leave now. And I couldn't get caught.I finished tossing whatever little property I had left into the bag and proce
Astrid's POVAt that point, the haze in my head cleared.Alpha Jaxon was the Alpha of the Crimson Moon Pack. The name was nearly as deadly as the deadly infamous pack.The Crimson Moon pack was one of the biggest packs on this continent. That was because the Alpha of the pack, Alpha Jaxon, kept conquering other packs and adding them to his.He was rumored to be deadly, bloodthirsty and extremely merciless. Even my former pack shied away from any interaction that involved the Crimson Moon pack instead choosing to send gifts to Alpha Jaxon in hopes of appeasing him to prevent an attack.This was the man that I had been 'sold' to become his breeder? Just how much drugs had they put in that food?I just wanted to find my dad, why did it seem like I was going from one trouble to another?I blinked up at this stranger who told me that he had bought me."A surrogate?"What little I knew of that word was that they carried babies. Would that involve sex? Sex with a bloodthirsty monster?Fighti
Alpha Jaxon's POVI looked back at the woman who would be my surrogate very soon.How dare she question me? She needed to know her place.Leaning in, I grabbed her chin roughly making her gasp out in surprise. So far I had been nice and considerate but I was an Alpha and I didn't accept challenges from anybody."No one questions me, pet." I whispered in her ear, feeling her stiffness against me.My hand shifted to her neck placing just enough pressure to not hurt her but enough to show her that if I wanted to I could."Most especially not you."Astrid's pale green eyes widened with fear and I was surprised that a part of me wanted to take that fear away but I ignored it.It was better for both of us if she was afraid of me. We didn't need this arrangement to be anything other than what it was. A much-needed arrangement.I pulled away from her feeling angry at her, myself and this whole blasted situation."Alpha, the car is ready." My Beta, Caleb said bowing as I exited the apartment b
Astrid's POVI had lost my mind.How did I know that I had lost my mind?Because with Alpha Jaxon looking down at me, his eyes a stormy gray that hinted at annoyance and his dark hair falling slightly over his forehead, all I could think about at this point was how handsome he looked.His scent was undoubtedly the best thing I had smelt. He smelt like cedar, sweet wine and so undeniably male. I could get lost in his eyes and his hair, I was just dying to touch to feel if it was as soft as it looked.I felt a tingle work itself up my body.A growl escaped Alpha Jaxon and his gaze darkened, his arms around me tightening making me gasp out in pain."When I am talking to you, I expect a response."My lips parted. "I…"But what did I have to say? What would I tell him and where would I start from and where would I end?I couldn't tell him about the fact that I left the pack house without telling him why and the last thing I wanted was for him to also find out that I was royalty and try to
Alpha Jaxon's POVI saw the shock spread across their faces as they processed my presence.The man who held Astrid in his arms let go of her slightly, probably from the shock but that was all she needed to pull away and race away from him to hide behind me.This close, I could perceive his scent on her and it enraged me. How dare this man touch what wasn't his?If not for my need to check up on Astrid after the librarian had informed me via the pack link of her leaving Astrid alone in the library, I would have never known.This rage I was feeling was unfamiliar.I didn't even know Astrid all that well but I was bothered. Bothered was an understatement. I felt undeniably possessive about her.She was mine. I had bought her straight and clear and she had also agreed to our bargain.The man in front of me looked and smelled strangely familiar and there was the look he had been giving Astrid.I was willing to bet that this was her former mate who had been stupid enough to let go of someon
Astrid's POVIt was surprisingly cool to be a surrogate.Imagine that. It was cooler being a person who sold their body for money rather than being a powerless omega.I was given a big room on the top floor with windows that had a magnificent view of everything.No one disturbed me and Alpha Jaxon didn't come to force himself on me or anything else like I feared. In fact, I would have thought that they had forgotten I was in the house if not for the servants that attended to me.Yes. I now had servants. Servants that brought me whatever I wanted, cleaned up my room, styled my hair even though I was going nowhere and dressed me up.They attempted to bathe me as well but I drew the line there. I wasn't a child.I wasn't allowed to work hard - so as not to strain myself and affect my conception - so I always had a maid on hand in case I wanted to change or do anything strenuous.I slept well for the first time in a long time.I ate and gorged.And I grew bored.I know what you are thinki
Astrid's POVWhen I got to the Crimson Moon pack hospital with Beta Nathan, I was more than confused.What exactly had Alpha Jaxon meant by the list and why did he want a doctor to see me?The injury on my cheek was already healed. I might not have a wolf but I could heal even though it was way slower than a regular wolf's.The doctor seemed pleasant at least."I am Rachel and in your time here as your time here as a surrogate, I will be your guide and confidante."I looked at the smiling doctor with cropped blond hair and almost angelic blue eyes. My supposed confidante. She was from the Crimson Moon Pack and ultimately one of Alpha Jaxon's people. I couldn't trust anyone but myself here.She turned to face Beta Nathan who seemed to stand straighter under her gaze."Wait outside the clinic and give this to the Alpha."Rachel handed him an envelope. Beta Nathan accepted it and gave me what I assumed was a don't misbehave look before walking away.I turned back to you the doctor. Had s
Astrid's POVI had lost my mind.How did I know that I had lost my mind?Because with Alpha Jaxon looking down at me, his eyes a stormy gray that hinted at annoyance and his dark hair falling slightly over his forehead, all I could think about at this point was how handsome he looked.His scent was undoubtedly the best thing I had smelt. He smelt like cedar, sweet wine and so undeniably male. I could get lost in his eyes and his hair, I was just dying to touch to feel if it was as soft as it looked.I felt a tingle work itself up my body.A growl escaped Alpha Jaxon and his gaze darkened, his arms around me tightening making me gasp out in pain."When I am talking to you, I expect a response."My lips parted. "I…"But what did I have to say? What would I tell him and where would I start from and where would I end?I couldn't tell him about the fact that I left the pack house without telling him why and the last thing I wanted was for him to also find out that I was royalty and try to
Alpha Jaxon's POVI looked back at the woman who would be my surrogate very soon.How dare she question me? She needed to know her place.Leaning in, I grabbed her chin roughly making her gasp out in surprise. So far I had been nice and considerate but I was an Alpha and I didn't accept challenges from anybody."No one questions me, pet." I whispered in her ear, feeling her stiffness against me.My hand shifted to her neck placing just enough pressure to not hurt her but enough to show her that if I wanted to I could."Most especially not you."Astrid's pale green eyes widened with fear and I was surprised that a part of me wanted to take that fear away but I ignored it.It was better for both of us if she was afraid of me. We didn't need this arrangement to be anything other than what it was. A much-needed arrangement.I pulled away from her feeling angry at her, myself and this whole blasted situation."Alpha, the car is ready." My Beta, Caleb said bowing as I exited the apartment b
Astrid's POVAt that point, the haze in my head cleared.Alpha Jaxon was the Alpha of the Crimson Moon Pack. The name was nearly as deadly as the deadly infamous pack.The Crimson Moon pack was one of the biggest packs on this continent. That was because the Alpha of the pack, Alpha Jaxon, kept conquering other packs and adding them to his.He was rumored to be deadly, bloodthirsty and extremely merciless. Even my former pack shied away from any interaction that involved the Crimson Moon pack instead choosing to send gifts to Alpha Jaxon in hopes of appeasing him to prevent an attack.This was the man that I had been 'sold' to become his breeder? Just how much drugs had they put in that food?I just wanted to find my dad, why did it seem like I was going from one trouble to another?I blinked up at this stranger who told me that he had bought me."A surrogate?"What little I knew of that word was that they carried babies. Would that involve sex? Sex with a bloodthirsty monster?Fighti
Astrid's POVI wish I could say that I left immediately, found my Dad and began to live the life that I was destined for.My life simply couldn't be that easy.Fighting the urge from the mate bond to return to Xavier, I made my way back to my room to pack my essentials.I didn't know where exactly my father the Alpha King was but I knew that my search would have to start at the capital city. The Werewolf Capital City was the pack managed by the Alpha King that lay at the heart of our continent.It was also where he resided. At least until he disappeared. My current pack was such a long distance away from the capital that I wondered what exactly my mother had been running from to run this far.I would find out when I reached my father. I would find him. I wasn't sure how but I worried that if I thought too long about this plan then I would back out completely.I needed to leave now. And I couldn't get caught.I finished tossing whatever little property I had left into the bag and proce
Astrid's POVMaybe I should have followed them.But I didn't. It was one thing to eavesdrop on them from my room and another entirely to go to the Alpha quarters out of bounds for omegas just to listen in on their conversations.So I went to the gardens instead. All the way there, I thought of how unreal all of this was. Me, an omega mated to an Alpha. How exactly did that work?I also thought of all the things that Xavier had done to me over the years. Could I really forgive him for all of that just because of the mate bond?But I was already worried about what his father would do to him.No, Astrid. You will not let your conflicted feelings because of the mate bond affect you.I reached the gardens that were decorated with strings of light, music -that I couldn't tell where it was coming from- and an adorned table that held a much larger cake, gifts and a box that revealed a gold and diamond necklace.There was no one here just yet but I could see the platters of food for people.It
Astrid's POVThe pain of my mate rejecting me slammed into me making me gasp as I rocked back, my body shaking and vibrating.l had heard of people rejecting their true mate yet I had never thought that it would happen to me.Somehow I had thought surely the moon goddess wouldn't be so cruel as to give me a mate that wouldn't care for me in addition to all my troubles.I had been wrong. I didn't even know how it was possible for a wolfless omega like me to have a mate like Xavier. I wasn't as strong as Lyra so why me?What I knew was that I was in a world of pain. To think that if I had a wolf the pain would have been twofold of what I was feeling now. Guess there was a good side to being a wolfless omega after all.Xavier wrapped his arm around Lyra and the stab of pain in my chest made my knees weak beneath me.I wanted to crawl under my covers and hide.But I had been doing that my whole life.Hiding because I was a powerless omega, hiding to avoid the people who would hurt me.Hid