Mildred POVI had to make a choice.The words echoed in my head over and over again, stealing away my sleep and any peace I had. The morning that followed after that one I decided to go down to the garden and get some fresh air. Arnold was so elated, I didn't know that he was that worried about me becoming a recluse.He told me that I could summon any of the servants whenever I needed anything and if it was something that none of them could provide, they could call out to him, and he would immediately come to my side.I slowly brought my fingers up to cup his cheeks, well they were too small compared to his chiseled face to achieve that effect he gently leaned onto my fingers and then he let out a soft sigh.For a moment his mask fell, and I saw how tired and drained he looked, a prick of guilt pierced through my heart. I had only been thinking about myself in this whole situation but how many times have I actually sat down to comfort him as well?If I couldn't do that at least well e
Mildred POV"Can't you answer or are you deaf now?" She said marching over to me the ex-Beta came forward and grab her by her shoulders pulling her back "Alright Tanya you have had your fun, don't you think that's enough?" She was still glaring at me with a look that was sharp enough to cut through ice but as he was pulling her away and I was able to sit up and regain my voice I called her name and she immediately turned around her eyes burning up with fury but I couldn't care less."Apologize," I said to her in a cold voice that I didn't even recognize as my own. She was just staring at me as I stood up dusting off all this dirt on my body then she spoke facing me."Now did you hit your head too hard when you fell? What the hell I'm apologizing for when you are the one that stole my man?""Apologize for calling my baby a bastard," I said and her eyes went wide then she threw her head back and began to laugh."What if I don't? besides I was only saying the truth there is no way that
Mildred POV"You are going to be sedated for the entire process," the doctor informed me then he was putting on his gloves and my shaking eyes went over to Arnold for assurance.From what he had told me abortions were not exactly common among werewolves, most people would have to have children with their mates and it was always a blessing to them so there was hardly ever any reason for them to worry.Not to mention that there was also a stigma here for anyone who had an abortion especially since it was so uncommon, the doctor had been extremely reluctant before and I could still see some traces of the same reluctance in his eyes but it seems to be overshadowed by the fear he had for the Alpha so he was just doing his job.The sight of a syringe and my heart was thumping hard against my chest but I relaxed a little bit when I felt a little warm fingers enveloping my own he kissed me as the syringe pierced into my skin and after a while, my eyelids became incredibly heavy until I could
Mildred POVI tried to get up but the chains pulled me back reminding me of my current situation and my restricted movement and yet I knew nothing of how I came here, I scratched my hair and traveled through my memory but I couldn't find anything to help me.The only source of answers that I had was this creepy smiling at me with the corners of his lips meeting his ear.He began to sway from side to side with that annoying cheeky smile on his face."Correct me if I'm wrong but it looks like you don't seem very fond of me,"I scoffed at the underestimation of my feelings but that was not the most important thing to me right now I needed to see Arnold desperately too and I needed answers but apparently, his ex-Beta didn't seem to care he was far too busy being amused by my pain so even lift a finger to help."What do you mean when you say I won't be seeing Arnold for a long time?" I asked"Well, you are basically a danger to him not to mention literally everyone else that is why you mus
Mildred POVI curled up in the fetal position, couldn't care less if I was freezing at this point anymore or if my stomach was growling loud enough for the floor above me to hear.Maybe I should disappear?There was no need for the remaining and constantly causing him pain. I was the reason that he had ended up in a coma, as his ex-Beta had said that the fight between the two of us had been quite heated and the chances of who was going to win was on a hairline.While I had been fighting with the clear intention of staining everywhere with his blood, he was trying his best not to hurt me and just to have me subdued. I sunk my fingers into my hair, pulling it hard, I just didn't deserve this man.I don't think I ever did. Maybe I was not supposed to be happy in my life. Things had turned out this way because I had tried to change the natural order and find happiness for myself when maybe I was just cursed to be unhappy forever.Loneliness was the only companion that I had in the night w
Mildred POVI could feel several pairs of eyes burning into my skin as they stared at me intensely. I was extremely uncomfortable but unable to make any complaints apparently, my comfort was not the most important thing right now compared to everything else."So what is my punishment going to be?" I said, looking down at the floor.Slowly I have been recovering memories of that day and all of them were horrific. They all appeared in my nightmares so vividly that it had to be my memory."I didn't do any of those things in my right senses, it's like there's something inside of me…I…""You will speak when you are spoken to!" One of them said and sweat was dripping from his body as he healed, apparently with all the power inside of him. Then he sat back down because he had practically sprinted up to his feet in order to yell that loudly. He wasn't the only one that was angry.Or was it really as bad as I saw flashing in their eyes? I raised my head and mistakenly made eye contact with one
Mildred POVMaybe I should have just allowed them to execute me anyways. I thought to myself three days into living in the condition that had been given to spare my life in order to make sure that I didn't go berserk in the pack.I made it to wear this tight metal bracelet obviously made of the purest silver.And because I was beginning to exhibit some werewolf characteristics, even going as far as transforming into one in an extreme situation, it had some effect on me.It was constantly itchy, but I was not allowed to take it off and so I just took it as a regular discomfort that I would just have to feel.But yet that was not the worst thing that happened to me. My movement was also regularly monitored by the ex beta, I needed to know what I was doing, and when I was doing it I was practically feeling like a child at one point, not like I was even allowed to go to many places, many that I had to stay in the Pack House and it was mostly empty since everybody knew that I was inside. W
Mildred POVHe didn't even give me a chance to complain about the absurd request that he was making before he bullied his way into my room with his pillow strapped under his armpit and then he placed it on the love couch in the bedroom and relaxed as if it was his own.Now I was just staring at him with bewildered eyes because I couldn't believe that he was actually doing that, it was far too insane for me to really grasp."You have to leave…" I said to him in a tight voice and he was busy getting himself comfortable on the couch."Sweetheart, I think you need to be more appreciative of me. If it wasn't for me right now you would probably be dead and, if you don't know I really love having my head attached to the rest of my body, I've gotten used to that…"Guilt was running through my entire body. Arnold was not around. He was the only reason why I was alive and had the chance even to get my baby because of him."Okay, I understand all of that, but why are you on my couch? Why do you
Mildred POV"Mil!"I held out my hand with joy as my best friend ran into them.My husband and I had been waiting several minutes for her plane to finally land and I was so excited. Behind her was the guard that my husband had left to take care of her coming out, calling out that she should not run so fast. She rolled her eyes back, looking at him."You are always treating me like a child!" She said defensively, crossing her hands and with a sigh."... That's because you act like one sometimes, "He responded.After saying that, he looked over to me and my husband and greeted us with a slight bow and also recognized the baby that was cradled in my husband's hand."Oh my gosh, he's so cute!..., oh now I want one so badly." She said, gushing over the baby, and then her bodyguard hovered over her with a worried expression."Children aren't supposed to take care of children," he said without missing a beat, and she turned around."Besides…where are you going to find a guy that can handle a
Mildred POVI could not describe the relief that washed over my entire body like a cool relaxing shower when I finally had a bed to lie on. I didn't realize that Arnold was staring at me strangely until I rolled on the bed and my eyes came over to him, looking over with a mixture of confusion and perplexity.Even if I had been walking a long way so that way he had carried me halfway back, it was not enough reason for me to act like that after seeing a bed.Before I could even get the chance to think of a good excuse, he came over scooting on the bed, and then, with a hard gaze fixed on me, he asked me."Millie, can you tell me what was happening to you when I was asleep?"I sat up feeling hesitant to talk about my experiences with him. I just wanted to push it into the past because it was so terrible, and I didn't want him to feel guilty that he had not been there for me, since it was basically my fault that I had injured him.He kept on pressing for the truth and so, eventually, I ha
Arnold POVMy heart was beating hard against my chest as we were making our way through the woods I had left some markings on the trees quickly as I was rushing here, from time to time my mate would casually point out a deformed tree that had one of the two branches torn off.I would just soothingly her head, telling her not to bother about it when deep down inside I knew that it was because of how madly I had been running when I knew what was about to happen to her.".... Arnold…" she called my name in a weak voice as she clung to me I looked at her asking her she needed to rest a bit giving her the offer of carrying her again but she looked at my hand that was still tearing and shook her head to that invitation saying that she could be here for a little longer until my hands were better.My heart clenched when she said this even when she was in this situation she was still thinking of me and my own well-being and she was pregnant just going through such a traumatic experience that w
Mildred POV"Move faster…"I felt a painful jab on my side caused by someone poking me with a stick. Following that was a burst of laughter and a bunch of laughter followed by the group that had been walking behind me for several minutes now.Now that I had finally gotten to see Arnold, I would have to live up to my own part of the deal or rather die for it, so leading the group was traitorous and then behind me were warriors that were mostly loyal to him and in their midst was Tanya, who was desperate to witness my debt even if it meant her not being there to support Arnold in his last moments.Watching her join the group earlier made me scoff below my breath. Despite doing all of this, she would still viciously claim that she was in love with him. It was ridiculous.No, it wasn't satisfying enough to the group that I was about to execute myself while dragging heavy chains across the forest. They decided that they were going to mock me and do petty, ridiculous things like poking me w
Mildred POV"Millie, if it's a boy, are you fine with him having my grandfather's name?""Hmm, I was hoping that we could name him after my father…""Should we flip a coin over it?"This was the conversation that we had before the world fell apart. crackling I'm just crumbling like a world that I thought will stand forever. Suddenly, the world that I thought we had that was so firm was actually as fragile as a stack of cards messily placed on each other. It was just my imagination that it would last forever, but in a brief moment, a small wind came along and set everything to disaster.Back then I thought that we were going to have a happy family, the two of us and our baby and the ones that were to come.And now I had my fingers entangled in his own, from my side, I was strapped down with chains and on his own he was being held down by drips."Arnold, I am so sorry…"I had thought that I would not get the opportunity to see him. That was until I made a proposition, a proposal that no
Mildred POVSometimes I truly wonder if I am not the one that is cursed if my child is actually innocent and I am the problem here. Perhaps that is so and I am just making myself believe otherwise.I woke up feeling the cold concrete floor brushing against my skin as I stood up and then be clicking sound of chains filled my ears as I tried to sit up. The cold wrapped around me like a thick blanket, but despite this, there was an overwhelming heat that embraced my waist and my ankles when I took a closer look.I realized that with the help of the dull naked bulb that was swinging above my head, I was chained there.I bit my bottom lip as I stared at the chains contemplatively as though my eyes had never seen anything like it before. Maybe I was hoping that if I blinked enough times it would fade away, but, I missed and it would all be nothing but a blurry dream that had infiltrated my thoughts. Even after doing so, my eyes went wide like saucepans and I saw that it was nothing more tha
Mildred POVI took a few cautious steps back when I saw the aggressive look on her face and she noticed it."Why are you stepping back…I guess you already know what you did and that is why you are trying to run away now…"A heavy sigh carried my whole chest as I noticed that more and more people were beginning to look at her so I tried to subtly bring it to her attention, but she had a razor-sharp look at me, not minding that so many people were looking at us.Or maybe that was exactly what she wanted."So are you going to confess to what you did or are you going to play dumb and innocent…""I didn't do anything…at least not to you…" I clarified, but she suddenly stepped closer."Last chance…" she hissed."I didn't do anything gosh you people need to stop suffocating me," Then in a burst of emotions, I pushed her…I was so fed up…they watched me like I was a delinquent child and not even an adult with this uncomfortable bracelet on I was basically not even a threat at all and yet…they
Mildred POV"All better, do you think that anyone will notice?"This question was directed at the lady that was helping me to stitch up the dress. Fortunately, I was able to find a maid that was handy with the sewing machine and she had one within her reach to help me. She even added some decorations on top of the dress that made it more palatable to look at and the stitches more intentional, even though it was because of how randomly I had cut the dress.When she was finally done, she handed me the dress and I was standing in front of the mirror, even without all the extra stitches. I had a feeling that it was still meant to be short and revealing and it clung to me like a second skin. I turned around to look at how it was wrapped around my butt.Gosh if I even dropped anything at that worthless party and might as well just leave it on the floor for the rest of the night because there was no way I would be able to pick it up without unveiling myself in front of everyone.From the cor
Mildred's POVI had already tolerated so much from him and this was just too much."Take it back to him," I seethed at the maid with burning eyes and she looked at me like a deer in front of headlights."He…he told me that I shouldn't return it, he told me that I would be punished if I did…" She said, her voice shaking with unison to her body, I gritted my teeth as I paced around my room, this was the final straw…I couldn't allow him to turn me into his freaking puppet.He was just far too insufferable he knew that I wouldn't accept the dress and was now using the maid as a pawn I told her that she could drop the dress, all so that she wouldn't end up in trouble and dismissed her for my room.When I was done with my morning routine and my eyes went straight over to the box that was lying on my bed out of sheer curiosity I decided to look at the dress when I wasn't going to wear it no matter how pretty it was.That bastard's intentions towards me were crystal clear to the last thing I