Before I know it, it’s lunchtime, and I find myself wishing I was going home to give Wren her lunch. We have fallen into a routine, and it’s slowly becoming comfortable. However, I can’t blow Graven off. We have our tradition, and I don’t want to blow him off. He also would be suspicious about why I wanted to go to my omega over spending time with him. As much as Graven adores his omegas, he would never blow me off for them. So, I head to meet Graven by his car as a sinking feeling of dread creeps over me. Was it because of Wren or something else? The only other time I skipped bringing Wren a meal was when the rogues attacked, and I felt shitty for not leaving her at least snacks. By the time I got home to her, she thought I had left her to die in the den. This time I left her plenty of food and water. Goddess, I’m making her sound like a fucking pet. How do other alphas and betas do this with their omegas? I know I’m not the only one to lock my omega up when I’m not home. Still, it
I slept most of the day, which isn’t surprising as I try to gain strength for Crimson to shift. I want to shift sooner rather than later, as Alpha Valen promised he would take me out into the woods for a run. We have to stick closer to the house as he doesn’t want any border patrol to see me. He’s still adamant about being a gloried breeder. I know that’s what I originally wanted, but the mate bond demands more. I can’t help it. I want to be his mate, or at least be treated like I’m his mate. I want out of this damn den and to be treated like I matter to him. Sometimes he’s soft and gentle with me, like when he gave me some of his shits so I could have his scent to soothe me. Other times, he’s distant and acts like I mean nothing to him. It seems he is torn between accepting me as his fated mate and treating me like I am, and sticking with keeping me as a glorified breeder. It’s not like I expect him to make me his Luna if he marks and claims me as his mate. I don’t know the fi
I leave Wren in the den and head to bed. I showered before I went down to see her and bring her dinner. I didn’t want her to have to smell Lorna on me, not that I think it made a difference as she was still in a foul mode. I can’t believe she punched a hole in the world. I know omegas can be possessive, but I guess it’s amplified with us being fated mates. It never even crossed my mind she would be able to smell Lorna on me. I still think of her as a regular omega with dulled senses. Her wolf being awakened makes her have the senses of a regular werewolf. It didn’t help that Lorna was hanging on me all day, no matter how many times I tried to get her off me. Either way, Wren is pissed and upset with me. It wasn’t even my fault. I’m even more pissed at Graven for this fucking ambush of a bullshit date. He has to pull this shit right before Wren’s heat. It might not have been so bad if it was someone who didn’t know me. Then there would have been a shot of the female behaving and n
The last few days have been rough. Alpha Valen has been trying to talk to me about the date he went on. All he’s giving me is excuses. He couldn’t say no because it was Beta Graven, and they are friends. What I think it really comes down to is Alpha Valen not wanting to admit he has an omega as his fated mate. Either way, it was wrong for him to go through with the date because he has a fated mate. He is the Alpha Supreme. He doesn’t have to do anything he doesn’t want to, even if it’s his Beta and best friend. I’m in my heat, and it’s a different heat. It’s more intense and harder to simply sedate it with masturbation. It must be because I’ve found my fated mate. I know that when an omega is marked and claimed, her heat intensives as the primal need to give her mate an heir becomes a priority. I guess that’s what happening with me. I assume Alpha Valen claimed me in some when we were first intimate, which explains why my wolf was able to awaken. I guess with fated mates, one only ne
I wake to Wren in my arms. She’s still sleeping. We stayed in the same position all night. Her warm body against mine feels good as her sweet honey and almond scent surrounds me. I can see why Obsidian has been begging me to let her sleep with us because it was the best night's sleep I’ve had in forever. I do wish we were in bed. This bed is comfortable, but I’m used to my bed. However, I’m not sure I’m ready to let Wren have that type of freedom. If I fall asleep, it gives her free reign of the house and, even worse, the chance to run. I can’t risk her running. I’m not sure she would be foolish enough to run, but she might after the double date fiasco. I know she doesn’t trust me and is skeptical of everything. She was already skeptical, and now she is even more skeptical than before. There has never been much trust between us. Between her breaking one of my pack rules for omegas, her hating how our society is run combined with her lack of trust in the higher ranks, and now this dis
I hop in the shower needing to clean myself up. Between sweating and sex, I stink. Plus, a shower was a way for me to get away from Alpha Valen for a minute before my next wave of heat hits me like a damn freight train. Goddess, is every heat going to be like this from now on? I don’t know how I will run away if my heat is this crazy. Usually, with my heat, I crave any high-ranking male, but now that I’ve been claimed by my fated mate, I only want him. I might have to look into buying pills that will suppress my heat. They are hard to come by, but they do exist. It’s one of those things that once you know where to buy it, you are going to go. I’m surprised Alpha Valen spent the night with me. It’s probably why I slept so well. I can’t deny that his presence and scent are soothing. I’m sure he only stayed in case I was hit with another wave of heat. No doubt he doesn’t want to miss his chance to get me pregnant. I’m sure once I’m done with my heat will be back to sleeping in his own b
I wake up next to Wren. I promised her last night I would stay with her through the night. I know her heat makes her vulnerable. I didn’t want to leave her. Addimidtly I don’t think I couldn’t have left her last night. I slept two nights with Wren, and I don’t want to sleep without her. However, I miss my own bed. With going away to Alpha Ian’s pack, I want to spend the nights leading up to the trip in my bed. The problem is I can’t trust that Wren won’t run. It’s harder for her to sneak out in the den because while I can’t lock the door, I can activate the alarm on the door. The alarm would wake me up. Wren doesn’t know I have an alarm on the door. I know Wren doesn’t trust me. I can’t blame her. I’ve given her no reason to trust me, and with how omegas are treated, why should she believe that I would keep to my word? While I still don’t know if I can fully embrace Wren as my mate, I am going to try. I know I shouldn’t care that she is an omega. However, it’s hard not to move past i
Today we leave for Alpha Ian’s pack. I’m excited to leave the pack territory for the first time. Most omega’s never get a chance to leave their pack. I’m a little nervous that on how I’ll be presented and how the pack will look at me. Alpha Valen says they have a better view of omegas than most packs, but that doesn’t mean that they will accept me as an Alpha Supremes fated mate. I’m still not sure about this whole fated mate business. I don’t trust Alpha Valen that he will keep me. I still feel more like his breeder than his fated mate. After I was done with my heat, it went back to business as usual. I’m back to being locked in the den most of the day except for dinner time. Alpha Valen only spent two nights with me while I was in my heat. Now, he’s back to sleeping in his bed. While he hasn’t been around that Lorna bitch, he’s still made no commitment to me. I’m still unmarked, he hasn’t helped with practice shifting like he promised, and he’s fairly distant with me. I’m upset by
Ten years have passed since I’ve become Luna to the Blue Moon Pack. Dadian is a smart ass, trouble maker like his father, but damn, I love him. Valen and I wasted no time trying for a girl. We didn’t get our daughter until the fourth try. After that, I was done with pups until the moon goddess blessed us with surprise twins. I’m definitely done now. Candy, Anisa, and Graven have Cali and two boys of their own. Ian and Rani had one more pup after their son. Our pups are all close. I’m hoping Cali and Dadian end up fated mates. Fated mates are back in the picture. Ten years later, and we still aren’t fully sure why or how fated mates became a myth when they weren’t. Since we struggled to find the truth, we started recording our own records of fated mates. Every time a fated mate couple is discovered, it’s recorded. It happens more often than not and has become more of an occurrence of the years. Becca and many of the other rogue omegas from Emma’s army are thriving in pack life. Be
Entering the cabin, I don’t find anything normal. The small cabin is one room combine with a stove, fireplace, and a bed. My dad is on the floor, clutching his chest with a pained expression on his face. Emma is on the bed in the same position as my father. It doesn’t look like they killed one another, but some supernatural force or maybe poison. There are dairies scattered everywhere. It makes no sense. I instruct warriors to pack up the diaries and for their bodies to be burned along with the cabin. The entire place gives me the creeps. I’m curious about the diaries. I transform, and one of the warriors sticks the bag of diaries in my mouth. I take off, heading back home. It’s late, and I don’t want to leave Wren and Dadian on their own for too long. While I know they are safe, I like to have them close by. They are so important to me. When I get home I transform and tekn tWren is asleep in the recliner in the living room. Dadian is passed out in his swing. I smile at them before
It’s been several months since I released Emma and my father. No a word, not a sighting, absolutely nothing. I don’t know if that should concern us or not. I thought by now one of them would have made a move against the pack. We never stopped with our changes. If anything the changes we have made should have pissed them off enough to come out of whatever hole they have crawled into. My biggest concern is they have teamed up and are waiting to strike. If they are waiting in the shadows to strike, it makes me nervous. I truly thought they wouldn’t be a problem by now. Wren is being my rock with this. She is somehow cool as a cucumber. She is trusting the moon goddess, and while I do trust the moon goddess I still can’t help but feel concern until I know where they are. Moving on with our changes is a great distraction. We recently had a meeting with dozens of packs to implement our changes from our pack within other packs. Ian has been helping. He should be getting more credit than me
I’m completely insulted that I’m not a threat. Once again, I’m underminded by a fucking alpha wolf. No one takes omegas seriously. It’s insulting that the higher-ranking wolves believe we are insignfigent and can’t do anything. I’ll prove them wrong. I will kill Viktor and send his head to Valen. After that, I have to rebuild my army. At first, I didn’t believe Valen when he said my omega army was here in his pack. However, the guards took my be the refuge center and I saw my army being taken in and settled. Becca of course was helping them settle. I missjuded her and her ability to be so easily swayed. I thought her fear of higher-ranking wolves would keep her on myside, but fucking Wren must have gotten to her. Wren. I sorely underesitmiated her. I will enjoy killing her. She’s an embaressment to omegas. Everyone admires her because she is now Luna. The first omega Luna and every omega now worships her and looks up to her like some becon of hope. That should be me. I’m the true b
Going with Wren’s plan I head to the dungeons. We spent the last couple of days going over exactly how to do this. I think it will work and if it does, Wren’s a damn genius. I certinally wouldn’t have thought about pitting Emma and my father against each other to let them take one another out for us. Once they are out of the way we can refocus on making the changes that need to be made. Entering the dungeons, I go to see my father first. He’s been locked up longer and I know he is itching to get out. Normally, I hate going to visit my father, but this time I don’t mind it because the look on face when I tell him he’s not worth my time as my biggest problem is going to be priceless. I find my father in cell. He stands up the moment he sees me. “Hello, son.” He greets. “Hi, father. Today is your lucky day because I’m releasing you.” I announce opening the cell door with the key that I grabbed from one of the guards. “You’re releasing me? Praytell, why?” My father asks as curiosit
A couple of weeks have passed since my Luna ceremony. I’ve been training with Valen in our homemade gym. I’m so happy that we turned the den into something productive. Even better that it’s something that is allowing us to bond and further strengthen our relationship. It’s also something that has come in handy for our friends and will come in handy when Dadian is older. Valen hasn’t completed the outdoor training area yet. I was honestly surprised when Valen decided to do everything himself. I guess I assumed as Alpha Supreme he would hire people to do it for him. For some reason, I never pictured Valen as someone who would get his hands dirty to build something for himself. It would seem my Alpha enjoys hard labor as it's a great distraction for our current issues. We have no idea what to do with Emma and Viktor. However, we can’t let them rot in our dungeons forever. That’s why I came up with an idea I’m going to present to Valen and Graven at our weekly meeting today. Once a w
It’s been a couple of days since Wren’s Luna ceremony and Emma showed up. I don’t know how I feel about having two enemies locked up unable to get answers or anywhere with either. My father is even more furious that I actually went through with Wren being Luna. I went to see Emma the next day after Wren was all settled with our son and enjoying our visitors from her ceremony. I got absolutely no where with Emma. She is deranged and delusional. She thinks it’s time for omegas to rule the werewolf world and will ready to kill. I worry about the supposed army of omegas Emma claims she has in her back pocket waiting for her command. I talked to both Becca and Wren about it. Wren didn’t know about an army, but Becca did, so she is trying to get in contact with the other she-wolves she knows to see what information she can find out. On my way from visiting Emma, I stopped by to see my father who is on the opposit side of the dungeons. I don’t need those two teaming up. Although, I don’t s
The morning of my Luna ceremony is chaos between two fussy pups and trying to get ready. We all manage and just as the chaos is slowing down, it’s time for us to leave and head to where my ceremony is being held. My nerves flutter when we arrive at the hotel. There is a big auditorium for the ceremony and then afterward there is a huge event room for the party. Most of our out of pack guests stayed at the hotel to make it easy on themselves. I’m in a back room with Anisa, Rani, Candi, and our pups. Graven and Valen are making sure things are all good safety wise while also ensuring things are ready for the ceremony. I bounce Dadian in my arms as a distraction. All day everyone has been telling me the ceremony will be fine and that I will be great. I know they are right, but that doens’t stop the anxiety eating away at me. It feels like forever before Valen finally comes to get me. Anisa takes Dadian from me and she and the others leave to go take the seats. Valen takes my hand and
Tomorrow I finally become Luna of the Blue Moon Pack. It’s hard to believe it’s actually happening. I know it hasn’t officially happened yet as it’s tomorrow, but it's right upon us. No more thinking it’s in the future or it feeling so far away. It’s here, and I’m not sure how I feel about it. On one hand, I’m thrilled to be taking my place by Valen’s side as his Luna. I feel honored yet a huge responsibility that is being placed on my shoulders. A responsibility I’m definitely not prepared for, but I’m working on it. I’ll be learning as I go and I think everyone understands that. Well, the critics won’t understand, but those are the people who want me to fail and will find fault with anything I do. On the other hand, I feel unprepared and like I’m being set up to fail as if it’s some cruel joke to prove omegas can’t hack it with the higher-ranking wolves. There’s this huge responsibility on my shoulders to prove omegas can be more than breeders and sex slaves. Everyone is looking