EUDORA “I missed you, Eudora.” I heard it the first time but it had me stunned. Too stunned to say a word and so I stared blankly at him, just long enough for him to repeat it again. I wanted to believe Conan so badly. His eyes held so much sincerity that I was really willing to forget how he’d betrayed me and totally changed towards me after he rejected me but I couldn’t easily forget a part of my past that hurts so much, could I? I couldn't easily forget the starting point of my misery. “Why?” I asked quietly, maybe a little too foolish too because I didn’t know what sort of answer I was expecting when I asked him that. He seemed to be thrown off guard too as he searched for words to say. He sighed.“Don’t be like that, Eudora. I know you’re mad at me and I totally understand that. I was…” he paused and sighed again, “I was a jerk.” He confessed sincerely. “But you have to understand that I couldn’t do anything to stop my parents. All they wanted was the best for me and the pa
EUDORAMy best bet at handling a situation like this trying to act like whatever was happening wasn’t what it seemed like but I already missed the opportunity the moment I nervously tried to hide my bag, the one that he had already seen. I wet my dry lips and tried to speak but words failed me for a second. “Conan.” His name was the only thing that could leave my mouth and even at that, it came out a little shaky, giving away just how nervous I was. It didn’t help that his eyes were fixed on me, unmoving and unwavering like he was waiting for an excuse as to why I was up 4am in the morning with a bag slung over my shoulder and opening my door like I was ready to bolt out of the house any moment from then. It was strange that he was at my door that early too and I took the chance to make this about him and not me. “Conan, everything okay?” I asked nervously with an awkward laugh or something like it. “Everything was going good until now.” He said in a low voice. I couldn’t stop an
EUDORA.“Wha—what?” I stuttered. “Let me make you mine, Eudora. That way you won’t have to worry about anything anymore. You’ll be mine and mine alone.”I instantly understood what he meant and I felt a heavy lump in my throat from hearing those words. I backed away, holding myself in my arms as I suddenly felt jittery all over. My bruises started to itch too and one look at the closed door, I regretted not running out of it when I got the chance.I couldn’t believe Conan was trying to take advantage of me. “What’s so hard to believe about it? He almost did it once, remember?” My wolf gave me a reminder of what had happened and that she was still here, witnessing all that was going on between me and the man I used to like so much.Conan was right even though I wanted him to be so wrong. I would be safe once I was claimed. I wouldn’t be in danger of being forced into the arms of any other Alpha. It was the best way to finally find peace but how could I possibly find peace with Conan?
EUDORA. I always knew this would happen. It’s like that nagging feeling at the back of your mind that reminds you of something you haven’t experienced yet. Something that was bound to happen no matter what you do to stop or stall it. I knew I couldn’t stop mine and I didn’t stall it on my own. If I’d been taken by Alpha Tauren, I would have gone into heat and he would have claimed me as his right there and then but things got messy unexpectedly and I totally forgot that this was a part of my life that was supposed to happen. Although now, it was forced to happen by the man I once again trusted blindly and foolishly. I knew nothing about heats. I read nothing about them because of the ground knowledge I had of the situation of the female, being like a piece of meat. Some hounds can smell from afar and come running—fighting to death even—to tear you apart piece by piece. That alone was enough to deter me since I have always hated being objectified all my life. Now, I wish I had r
EUDORAI did as told, I spread my legs. At least I spread them as far as they let me or to put it more accurately, as far as I was able to spread them because of how weak and mushy my entire body was.My guess was I didn’t spread them wide enough or the way Alpha Rex wanted them to be because he came even closer to me, sank into the empty space of the bed beside me and spread me apart with his hands as my dress had already ridden up to my thighs. His touch—for the first time—on the bare skin of my thighs served as a wake-up call and also fired my skin up once again in a way that burned harder than before. My breasts seemed like they grew even heavier at his touch and the nipples fought hard to be broken away from the restraint of my dress. The wake-up call weighed heavier than my breasts. It made something else other than the lustful thoughts that’s been whirling around in my head, take up my entire mind as I realized what was about to happen. My heart raced faster, harder than it
EUDORA. I moaned when his fingers slightly grazed the mound in between my thighs. I slapped a palm on my mouth at the kind of sound that left my lips but Alpha Rex slowly moved the hand from my mouth. “It’s okay.” He assured me and I nodded, licking my dry lips again and for a second, I saw how his gaze dropped to my lips, remained there for another second before he met my eyes again and swallowed before looking down at me.I could swear I heard him take a harsh breath as he stared down at me where I was now dripping wet, making a mess all over the bed before he even got started with me. My chest was heaving with the hot gaze of Alpha Rex on my mound that was now exposed to him.For a moment, that was all he did. He stared. I was forced to think something was wrong with me. That he didn’t like what he was seeing and I tried to close my thighs but he snapped up at me.“Don’t.” He warned. I was dying here! He looked down at me again and then slowly, he brushed the other hand that w
ALPHA REX.Fresh air. Silence.Realization…It all hit me all at once, not taking a second longer after I left Eudora alone in the room. I stayed calm for her own sanity, but mine descended into chaos the moment I was away from her. I stood in the middle of their living room and just…I just stared at blank space as my thoughts tore at each other in my head. The whole house was silent now, Eudora’s moans and cries were only echoes at the back of my mind now but inside of my head were even louder noises that I fought to keep down. I looked down at my fingers—the ones that had been knuckles deep into the wetness of an Omega—and I sighed, my hand going to my hair. What was I thinking? I could have walked out of there, no, I ‘should’ have. The moment I knew what was going on with her and the only way to stop it, I should have left yet I couldn’t and I couldn’t even give an excuse as to why I let an Omega come on my fingers. And not just any Omega too, a strange one whose existence was
EUDORA. When I washed myself in the shower days after my First heat, it was with a delicateness that I thought I’d lost since my return from the MoonBorn pack. When I washed myself, I wasn’t obsessed with getting invisible imprints of the filthy hands that touched me, off my skin. Instead, washing myself brings back images of dark silver eyes looking down at the movement of his fingers in and out of my opening. Each time my hands get close to my inner thighs to wash, I feel a sharp tingle and memories of my first sexual experience with the most unexpected person floods my mind. Frankly, it wasn’t what I expected. Since I was not in the right state of mind, controlled by my body’s desires that I knew could have led me to sleeping with any available male, I excused myself for not being revolted as he touched me.But I expected to be repulsed as soon as it was all over. I expected to hate the reminder of Alpha Rex’s touch on my skin, the way he gripped the flesh of my butt and made
EUDORAI couldn’t sleep that night. And because I couldn’t sleep, nightmares didn’t come and because they didn’t come, I didn’t feel Alpha Rex’s warmth. I must be stupid, to still want his touch and attention after what he had done and my wolf seemed to be rejoicing triumphantly while I was in deep pain and hurt. Was I wrong about the whole situation between me and Alpha Rex? Was I being delusional all these while? How could he just switch from cold to hot and then from hot, back to cold again. His words cut so deep inside of me that I buried my face into my pillow and cried until I couldn’t anymore. He called me pathetic. He said I was worth nothing but a tool for men’s pleasure. He has never called me names. Never said such hurtful words to me and I just couldn’t tell what changed. It got worse when I saw Leticia in his room, on his bed. She had showed up out of nowhere after so long and he still let her on his bed. He made me leave the room for her and I couldn’t tell what hu
ZENA “You’re going to get me in big trouble one day.” Logan said as we both snuck out of the house through the secret back door that I’ve always used. Just this time, I wasn’t sneaking out of the house entirely. I wish I could roll my eyes at him and how dramatic he was being. “Keep your voice down.” I warned as we both walked towards the greenhouse. It was late at night, really late. I made sure everyone was sound asleep before I found Logan, woke him and dragged him down here with me. I almost didn’t make it out here because for some reason, Rex chose to sleep in the living room today but I had to find a way somehow. It’s been days since me and Logan went in search of my mother and I’ve been trying hard to keep things low so I don’t draw Rex’s attention. Not like he cared much anyway. He seems to be even more preoccupied with Eudora these days. Something was going on but I’ve been too caught up in my own world to care. Logan continued to grumble as I led the way to the gree
ALPHA REXThe situation I met when I followed Logan back to the house wasn’t exactly the way he described it. Saying Leticia was dead drunk and didn’t want to leave was putting it mildly. She was making a huge scene in front of the house and my men were trying hard to keep her from coming in. I didn’t know how she managed to escape the morons at the borders when she didn’t even seem like she could stand on her own. I watched from a distance first as she fought off the men who were trying their best and failing miserably not to handle her with force. Her hair was disheveled, her make up ruined and her feet were naked. In all, she looked a total mess. She was nothing like the calm and composed woman who left a few weeks ago, accepting the fact that there was no place for her in my life no matter how hard we try to make it work. Leticia had handled our parting pretty well. I had driven her out of the pack myself, asked where she would want to go since she detested her twisted father
EUDORAAlpha Rex wasn’t joking when he said he was going to train me to figure out what else I was capable of. I had no idea why he believed there was something about me that needed to be harnessed and he didn’t seem like he planned on letting me know too. I didn’t know how else I could let him know that there was nothing special about me. I was ordinary. I’ve been that way all of life and people have reminded me repeatedly and I believe nothing has changed. The cut he made on my palm took days to heal. It didn’t make sense how my blood was instantly able to heal a cut on Alpha Rex’s wrist while I was doomed to go about with a bandaid on my palm. I ignored the fact that it healed his own injury and focused on the fact that all in all, I was still an Omega and whatever that blood stunt was doesn’t count. I kept denying that I was something more than an Omega but I could only tell myself that because Alpha Rex was past caring or listening. I’ve been training rigorously in the past
EUDORAI opened my eyes and they met with an unfamiliar ceiling. I could tell that was neither my room nor Alpha Rex’s room from the dark and sombre shade of the ceiling. There was something depressing about its colour that made my chest tight and my heart ache. Waking up to this kind of ceiling everyday would have to be the most terrible fate ever and I desperately wanted it to disappear. Since I was laying on my back, I decided to roll on my sides so I can have a less depressing view. I rolled on my left side but it did not give me the result I expected.Instead, it shocked me so much that I sat up quickly on the bed I’d been laying on as I realised that the ceiling wasn’t the only strange thing about where I had suddenly woken up. The bed I was on was only one out of the many beds arranged in rows in a narrow room. The beds were so tiny and the room too small for them so that it felt like the walls were closing in on me. Where in the world was I? Why did it feel so strange and
EUDORA“Woah.” Logan. He’s been having a field day with my hair ever since Alpha Rex left and put him in charge of looking after me. Now, it appears he is doing more of looking at me than actually looking after me. He doesn’t hide how stunned he is by my hair and he does it in a way that doesn't make me uncomfortable, no. I couldn’t tell if this new found confidence in my hair was because of the way Alpha Rex kisses it and tells me it is beautiful every chance he gets but it felt good and the attention it draws from Logan was just too amusing for me to feel less of myself. Well, that and the fact that he doesn’t seem to believe that I was born this way. It was almost hilarious. When he first saw me this morning, he hadn't really taken notice. He just passed by me saying, “Nice hair.” and then stopped halfway to the kitchen only to turn back and look at me with eyes as wide as saucers. I’d laughed but Alpha Rex didn’t seem to like the way Logan was looking at me and told him to
ALPHA REXI shattered completely. My vision slightly blurred while my grip on the frame got hard enough to actually break it into two. Number 7. It’s embroidered on her chest, big, red and brighter than her entire appearance in the photo. She was young. Pale. And her eyes, pained.“Your father and I had an agreement. That no one should ever know that she became his Luna. That no one knows your mother’s past, including you.” He continued to speak but I could barely hear him above the roaring of blood in my ears. She was all I saw. All of my memories of her–good and bad–tainted one after the other by what I am learning about her now. How had she felt? What were her days and waking moments like? How had she survived? How much pain was she in? Did she wish to die? Did she try to?“I do not know why the rogue sent such a warning to me. Why he asked me to tell you the truth about Lunita but I am afraid that your dead mother might be in some way related to the disappearance of the Omegas,
ALPHA REX'S POVWeak. She makes me weak. Even when she’s been unashamedly gone for so darn long and I have learnt to move on from the pain of her keeping me in the dark even after I gave her another chance, my mother still makes me weak. The weakness she stirs inside of me can be the only reason I regarded Alpha Raule with my attention despite how much I despise him. The weakness she instilled in me can be the only reason I agreed to go back with him to his pack with him so I could learn this truth he speaks of. This tale about my mother that I have craved for so long to know about and the one he claims that I can only understand if I come with him to his pack. Of course, I asked questions. Questions of how someone like him knew anything about my mother. For a promise to help him, he traded my silence till we got to his pack and I didn’t ask anymore questions after that. There was no need to as long as the truth he was trading for my help was worth it. I left with him reluctantly
ZENA*A FEW HOURS EARLIER*( In the same Timeline as Alpha Rex’s encounter with the rogue) “You’ve got to stop doing that.” Logan said, no doubt referring to me shifting and ruining my clothes in the process. I had just walked out of the corner where I’d been changing into the new set of clothing Logan managed to get after I ruined the last ones by shifting and jumping to attack our stalker who is now waiting at my behest, after saying the words that had me stunned for more than a few minutes until Logan lifted me off the man. Logan didn’t seem pleased about a lot of things but him having to run around to get me new clothes seemed to top his annoyance chart. I sidestepped him, more concerned about the man who claimed to know my mother than I was about my situationship with Logan at the present moment. He didn’t argue, he just fell into step beside me.“Where is he?” I asked, now fully dressed and heading back to the alley where I had attacked the man. We were already at the entran