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The Alpha's Caregiver 97-Avoiding Her.
ALPHA REX. “I’m going to stop going after the Alpha-Delta project.” I announced. My Beta raised a brow at the suddenness of my words and what they meant. I’ve been thinking about it since the moment we met, itching to let it out and I finally did when I was done fighting my thoughts in my head. The battle was between a part of me that wanted to keep digging, to see what I could find because it was sure there was something lurking in the darkness and I could find it if I kept pushing, and another part of me that was tired of the back and forth that was getting me nowhere. “You don’t mean you’re giving up, are you?” Logan finally responded. “I’m not giving up, I’m simply trying to make better use of my time.” Logan stared back at me in surprise and I knew one, I’d been the one who was adamant and bent of making sure I got to the root of the project but here I was backing out.“Sounds like you’re giving up to me.” He said, shaking his head. “What changed?”A lot, including the fact
Last Updated : 2023-07-09The Alpha's Caregiver 98–Little Miss Delusional 001
EUDORA. 9:02He was two minutes late tonight and he’d barely arrived when I heard a knock on his door which made me strain my ears to listen and at the same time left a dark, brooding feeling inside of me, knowing who it was that was at his door at that time of the night. I’d jerked out of bed when I first heard his footsteps as he walked into the house. I then shamelessly placed my ear on the wall that separated us, hoping to make out any sound. The sound of his legs alone, as they caused the floorboards to creak or his annoyed grunt as he tried to pull off a sock or the sound of his shower running—those sounds calmed me and I soon realized I was never able to sleep until I heard them. Today was the first time I would hear a knock and his door opening to see whoever it was at his door. I already knew it was Lecticia even though I couldn’t hear anything they were saying.I waited a little bit longer to hear his door shut which could only mean she left but the sound didn’t come. Le
Last Updated : 2023-07-10The Alpha's Caregiver 99-Little Miss Delusional 002
EUDORA. I looked at the painting again, trying to find out what it was I needed to see. I knew nothing about art. I’ve always been inclined towards the sciences and once, before my life took a different turn, I dreamed of being a nurse, studying at a human school like Conan did. So, none of this made sense. What exactly was I supposed to know about a painting when everything about it could be some twisted form of art? I dunno, artists display weird things all the time and call it art. I would not be surprised if the huge smudge I was looking at on the painting was a part of Leticia’s art. I shook my head again, “I don’t understand what’s going on, it’s just a painting.” Leticia stepped forward slowly, her eyes were exceptionally soft as if she was trying to show they she didn’t mean any harm. Why would he need to do that? “Eudora, it’s okay. You don’t have to tell the truth now.” Her voice was just as soft.I frowned. What was she saying? What truth? “Truth? What truth? I don’t
Last Updated : 2023-07-11The Alpha's Caregiver 100-The Secret Space.
EUDORA.“That witch!” Zena raved the moment we were alone in my room. She paced up and down my room while I hugged my knees to myself where I sat on my bed. I was frozen in place, numb all over and no matter how hard I tried to stop myself, I couldn’t stop thinking about Alpha Rex’s words over and over again. The distrust, anger and hatred in his eyes that I never thought I’d see again were what broke me repeatedly. I shouldn’t be surprised, Alpha Rex has said and gotten away with worse but I was truly shocked and that was how I knew he was right to think I expected something to shift between us after that day.It was the only moment between us when we didn’t need to share words. When I didn’t need to draw him out of a nightmare. It was a moment that felt like I saw all of him—the parts that proved he was just like every other male and had deeply rooted desires that were unlocked by my heat—and he saw all of me, literally. “Are you really just going to sit there and say nothing?” Ze
Last Updated : 2023-07-12The Alpha's Caregiver 101-Like The Lantana.
EUDORA. Alpha Rex was at the breakfast table the next day, which was weird and unexpected since I haven’t seen much of him until yesterday when he lashed out at me. I was the last one to join them at the table and before I walked over to them, I tried to study Alpha Rex’s figure to be sure he wasn’t as mad as he was yesterday. Since he was seated at the far end of the table, I could only see the side of his face and that wasn’t enough for me to gauge what emotions he was feeling at that moment. Leticia sat by him on the left side of the dining table,of course, dressed like she was at a fancy restaurant and eating a full course meal. Zena sat by the right and I joined her, slowly settling myself down beside her. I quietly muttered a good morning that earned me a gentle smile from Leticia. The smile seemed to rub off on me the wrong way because no matter how gentle it seems, I felt mocked and betrayed. Zena seemed to be thinking the exact thing because she did a silent dramatic gag
Last Updated : 2023-07-13The Alpha's Caregiver 102–The Journal.
EUDORABesides worrying that I was too big for the ladder and I could possibly break it, I was fine joining Zena climbing up into the secret opening. She tugged the latch by the ladder and it rolled back up, shutting the opening with us inside the rooftop of the greenhouse. No wonder the greenhouse looked weird on the outside. It was because the roof was made out of something that wasn’t glass, a weird way to build a greenhouse but I soon realized why it was like that when I looked around the tiny yet cozy space on the rooftop. The greenhouse was truly a font as Zena had said. There were no lights or bulbs. The only source of light was the moon, casting its beam through the only window of the rooftop and causing everything in the space to be nothing but shadows. Zena flipped a switch and the room brightened up. The LED lights were hung up from one corner of the roof to another and they switched colors momentarily. Red, Blue, Green and bright whites that gave me a clear view of the
Last Updated : 2023-07-14The Alpha's Caregiver 103–A world carved in ink.
ALPHA REXPAST♣️♣️♣️“Rex, do you want to help mummy grow some flowers?” I was in my room, playing with my toys when I heard my mother say that. She was standing by the opened door of my room, peering down at me with a bright smile on her face. I stood on my small feet instantly, tossing my toys away and racing over to her. She hugged me from where I reached by her legs. Since I noticed the shift in the atmosphere of our home, especially between my parents as my illness became the basis of all of their arguments, I took every opportunity to be with my mother. “C’mon, let’s go.”She held my little hands in hers and led me out of the house. We reached a big glass house that I saw some pack workers building a few weeks ago. Then, I didn’t understand what they were making and even now, I still didn’t know but it was complete and probably meant something to my mother because of the way her eyes brightened at the sight of it.“Are we going to plant the flowers here?” I asked innocently.
Last Updated : 2023-07-15The Alpha's Caregiver 104-Entry 001<The Journal>
L’s POV*THURSDAY, 4th of April**Mason’s birthday.” “The candles are melting, Luna.” Mason’s first word was Luna. While other pups in their first few years started out saying “Dada” or “mama”, my brother’s first word as a baby was my name and even though he didn’t get it correctly, it stuck and he never outgrew it. I remember the first time he said it, I was in the kitchen, cooking us a meal from what was left of the foodstuff in our house and he had fallen on his face while trying to come to me.He’d cried the name repeatedly as I came to his aid. I didn’t understand until later that the word that left his mouth was the version of my name that he could say. I tried to correct him repeatedly but he never budged. It became his personal nickname for me. Now he was celebrating his twelfth birthday and my baby brother was just the same, only a little apprehensive because of the waiting he had to do.His small birthday cake that I’d whipped up quickly that morning before going to work
Last Updated : 2023-07-16
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The Alpha's Caregiver END-HER DESTINY
EUDORAI couldn’t sleep that night. And because I couldn’t sleep, nightmares didn’t come and because they didn’t come, I didn’t feel Alpha Rex’s warmth. I must be stupid, to still want his touch and attention after what he had done and my wolf seemed to be rejoicing triumphantly while I was in deep pain and hurt. Was I wrong about the whole situation between me and Alpha Rex? Was I being delusional all these while? How could he just switch from cold to hot and then from hot, back to cold again. His words cut so deep inside of me that I buried my face into my pillow and cried until I couldn’t anymore. He called me pathetic. He said I was worth nothing but a tool for men’s pleasure. He has never called me names. Never said such hurtful words to me and I just couldn’t tell what changed. It got worse when I saw Leticia in his room, on his bed. She had showed up out of nowhere after so long and he still let her on his bed. He made me leave the room for her and I couldn’t tell what hu
The Alpha's Caregiver 183-The first Pure Blood
ZENA “You’re going to get me in big trouble one day.” Logan said as we both snuck out of the house through the secret back door that I’ve always used. Just this time, I wasn’t sneaking out of the house entirely. I wish I could roll my eyes at him and how dramatic he was being. “Keep your voice down.” I warned as we both walked towards the greenhouse. It was late at night, really late. I made sure everyone was sound asleep before I found Logan, woke him and dragged him down here with me. I almost didn’t make it out here because for some reason, Rex chose to sleep in the living room today but I had to find a way somehow. It’s been days since me and Logan went in search of my mother and I’ve been trying hard to keep things low so I don’t draw Rex’s attention. Not like he cared much anyway. He seems to be even more preoccupied with Eudora these days. Something was going on but I’ve been too caught up in my own world to care. Logan continued to grumble as I led the way to the gree
The Alpha's Caregiver 182-At all Costs.
ALPHA REXThe situation I met when I followed Logan back to the house wasn’t exactly the way he described it. Saying Leticia was dead drunk and didn’t want to leave was putting it mildly. She was making a huge scene in front of the house and my men were trying hard to keep her from coming in. I didn’t know how she managed to escape the morons at the borders when she didn’t even seem like she could stand on her own. I watched from a distance first as she fought off the men who were trying their best and failing miserably not to handle her with force. Her hair was disheveled, her make up ruined and her feet were naked. In all, she looked a total mess. She was nothing like the calm and composed woman who left a few weeks ago, accepting the fact that there was no place for her in my life no matter how hard we try to make it work. Leticia had handled our parting pretty well. I had driven her out of the pack myself, asked where she would want to go since she detested her twisted father
The Alpha's Caregiver 181-The Whining of a Weakling
EUDORAAlpha Rex wasn’t joking when he said he was going to train me to figure out what else I was capable of. I had no idea why he believed there was something about me that needed to be harnessed and he didn’t seem like he planned on letting me know too. I didn’t know how else I could let him know that there was nothing special about me. I was ordinary. I’ve been that way all of life and people have reminded me repeatedly and I believe nothing has changed. The cut he made on my palm took days to heal. It didn’t make sense how my blood was instantly able to heal a cut on Alpha Rex’s wrist while I was doomed to go about with a bandaid on my palm. I ignored the fact that it healed his own injury and focused on the fact that all in all, I was still an Omega and whatever that blood stunt was doesn’t count. I kept denying that I was something more than an Omega but I could only tell myself that because Alpha Rex was past caring or listening. I’ve been training rigorously in the past
The Alpha's Caregiver 180-A Bigger Destiny
EUDORAI opened my eyes and they met with an unfamiliar ceiling. I could tell that was neither my room nor Alpha Rex’s room from the dark and sombre shade of the ceiling. There was something depressing about its colour that made my chest tight and my heart ache. Waking up to this kind of ceiling everyday would have to be the most terrible fate ever and I desperately wanted it to disappear. Since I was laying on my back, I decided to roll on my sides so I can have a less depressing view. I rolled on my left side but it did not give me the result I expected.Instead, it shocked me so much that I sat up quickly on the bed I’d been laying on as I realised that the ceiling wasn’t the only strange thing about where I had suddenly woken up. The bed I was on was only one out of the many beds arranged in rows in a narrow room. The beds were so tiny and the room too small for them so that it felt like the walls were closing in on me. Where in the world was I? Why did it feel so strange and
The Alpha's Caregiver 179-A Crazy Turn
EUDORA“Woah.” Logan. He’s been having a field day with my hair ever since Alpha Rex left and put him in charge of looking after me. Now, it appears he is doing more of looking at me than actually looking after me. He doesn’t hide how stunned he is by my hair and he does it in a way that doesn't make me uncomfortable, no. I couldn’t tell if this new found confidence in my hair was because of the way Alpha Rex kisses it and tells me it is beautiful every chance he gets but it felt good and the attention it draws from Logan was just too amusing for me to feel less of myself. Well, that and the fact that he doesn’t seem to believe that I was born this way. It was almost hilarious. When he first saw me this morning, he hadn't really taken notice. He just passed by me saying, “Nice hair.” and then stopped halfway to the kitchen only to turn back and look at me with eyes as wide as saucers. I’d laughed but Alpha Rex didn’t seem to like the way Logan was looking at me and told him to
The Alpha's Caregiver 178-The Greater Hell
ALPHA REXI shattered completely. My vision slightly blurred while my grip on the frame got hard enough to actually break it into two. Number 7. It’s embroidered on her chest, big, red and brighter than her entire appearance in the photo. She was young. Pale. And her eyes, pained.“Your father and I had an agreement. That no one should ever know that she became his Luna. That no one knows your mother’s past, including you.” He continued to speak but I could barely hear him above the roaring of blood in my ears. She was all I saw. All of my memories of her–good and bad–tainted one after the other by what I am learning about her now. How had she felt? What were her days and waking moments like? How had she survived? How much pain was she in? Did she wish to die? Did she try to?“I do not know why the rogue sent such a warning to me. Why he asked me to tell you the truth about Lunita but I am afraid that your dead mother might be in some way related to the disappearance of the Omegas,
The Alpha's Caregiver 177-One of the Omegas
ALPHA REX'S POVWeak. She makes me weak. Even when she’s been unashamedly gone for so darn long and I have learnt to move on from the pain of her keeping me in the dark even after I gave her another chance, my mother still makes me weak. The weakness she stirs inside of me can be the only reason I regarded Alpha Raule with my attention despite how much I despise him. The weakness she instilled in me can be the only reason I agreed to go back with him to his pack with him so I could learn this truth he speaks of. This tale about my mother that I have craved for so long to know about and the one he claims that I can only understand if I come with him to his pack. Of course, I asked questions. Questions of how someone like him knew anything about my mother. For a promise to help him, he traded my silence till we got to his pack and I didn’t ask anymore questions after that. There was no need to as long as the truth he was trading for my help was worth it. I left with him reluctantly
The Alpha's Caregiver 176-The Confession.
ZENA*A FEW HOURS EARLIER*( In the same Timeline as Alpha Rex’s encounter with the rogue) “You’ve got to stop doing that.” Logan said, no doubt referring to me shifting and ruining my clothes in the process. I had just walked out of the corner where I’d been changing into the new set of clothing Logan managed to get after I ruined the last ones by shifting and jumping to attack our stalker who is now waiting at my behest, after saying the words that had me stunned for more than a few minutes until Logan lifted me off the man. Logan didn’t seem pleased about a lot of things but him having to run around to get me new clothes seemed to top his annoyance chart. I sidestepped him, more concerned about the man who claimed to know my mother than I was about my situationship with Logan at the present moment. He didn’t argue, he just fell into step beside me.“Where is he?” I asked, now fully dressed and heading back to the alley where I had attacked the man. We were already at the entran
