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The Alpha's Caregiver 81–As long as he has his way.
EUDORAI didn’t know which was faster—the way I raced to my room or the way my heart was beating. Either way, I didn’t stop till I was back in the confines of the room I’ve been in for the last three days. I paced up and down the room, now fully awake and reminiscent of how last night I’d gone. I couldn’t believe I shared the same bed with Alpha Rex and I was still alive to even think about it. I do not even remember when I closed my eyes or when I got comfortable enough to sleep.But I remembered how his whimpering was constant for more than a minute after he pulled me in with him. I remember how he gripped even tighter with each sound that left his lips, drawing me even further into his chest. I still had a distinct memory of what it had felt like with my back flushed against a chest that was all muscles. There was no inch of softness in the Alpha’s body. That alone should repel me and remind me that his body was just like his heart. Hard and dark. Yet sleep took over before I co
The Alpha's Caregiver 82-Defects of Nature.
EUDORA.Zena hesitated after saying the first few words that will take me into her world and maybe even understand her and her relationship with her brother better.I realized I never even stopped to think about how she became blind. I just found it fascinating, how she was able to find her way around her weakness while mine has wrecked me over and over. I settled beside her on the bed, touching her arm reassuringly. To let her know that I was willing to hear her story despite myself. She continued. “I was born in my brother’s absence and then, I didn’t even know I had a brother. No one spoke of him.” It must be true then. That Alpha Rex was locked up at a really tender age for her to not have known him while growing up.“I was young but I could tell our family wasn’t perfect. I would always wake up to my father and mother arguing and as I slowly began to make sense of the world around me, I realized most of their arguments were about this brother no one has told me about.” She
The Alpha's Caregiver 83–Someone you shouldn’t be dreaming about.
ALPHA REX. “Do you often dream about someone you shouldn’t be dreaming about?” I’ll probably regret asking this question from my Beta who never takes anything serious unless it has to do with the pack. His expression was that of amusement when he turned to face me. I knew he was about to open his darn mouth to say something to piss me off. “Don’t even think about it, Logan. Just answer the damn question.” I said quickly before he could open that large mouth of his. Sometimes, he makes me wonder if I was crazy when I chose him to be my Beta of all the males available but another side of me knew it was because he was the only one who was willing to be by my side as my Beta.As soon as I returned from and took over, most of the males in the pack moved out with their families including the Beta families that it was customary for me to choose from. No one was willing to be under the control of the beast that was me. I didn’t care at first. No, I didn’t even care until the end. I didn’
The Alpha's Caregiver 84–Let her go.
ALPHA REX I stood still in Eudora’s room, looking around like the answer to the questions in my mind would be found somewhere in the corners of her room. I really needed to know why she has reacted to me that way when she has never done that before. Wasn’t she in my bed just a few nights ago? Yes, that was probably a mistake on my part but she had woken up on that same bed with me and asides coming to the realization that we’d shared the same bed, there was nothing unusual about her. Was it the nightmare? Leticia stepped into the room with me. The painting was almost done and she had only two days left before she returned to her pack. Since the last time I told her about what had happened at the MoonBorn pack, things have been a little awkward and I didn’t know for which one of us or why exactly things turned out that way. “What happened?” She asked after allowing me a brief moment of reflection on what had just happened. “You saw it.” I said, matter-of-factly, facing her. She s
The Alpha's Caregiver 85–Home.
LEUDORA. Alpha Rex stared at me like I had grown two heads. Something flickered in his eyes but it was gone faster than I could tell what exactly it was. Maybe it was shock, shock that comes from the fact that just like I had asked to stay a few days ago, I was asking to leave now, only this time, I wasn’t on my knees, I didn’t have to be. I didn’t have to beg to leave just like I had begged to stay because it was easier now. After all, he never really wanted me around and taking care of him was a part of earning my pay which was having a roof over my head and having food to eat. “Do you know what you’re talking about?” Alpha Rex asked after a stretched moment of silence. I looked over my shoulder to be sure Zena was still there. I felt her presence now more than ever and it made me turn back to look at Alpha Rex.“Yes. Yes, I do.” My voice was just as I and Zena had rehearsed a few minutes before we came back in here. Keep it strong. She’d said. Don’t stutter. Once you do, he wo
The Alpha's Caregiver 86–Deserving of Love.
ALPHA REX. PAST♣️♣️♣️My first day at the pack’s kindergarten was such a memorable one that as soon as I got back, I went to my room and laid all my bed, sulking all day. My mother got back from Luna business that day and I heard as she asked everyone around the house about me until she came looking for me herself in my room. The moment I heard her come in, I pulled my duvet over my entire small frame as if to hide for her but my reaction was so funny to her that she chuckled.I didn’t plan on being funny. I wanted to come off as pissed. She came to sit on my bed and slowly pulled the duvet off me. Her silver eyes peered down at me, they were calm and “Rex, did you not like your first day at school?” She asked, playing with my hair. Some of my anger dissipated at her calm voice and soothing fingers. My mother was perfect.I shook my head to answer her. “You’ll have to use your words, young man. I can’t tell if that’s a no or a yes.” She said playfully. “No, I didn’t like it.” I
The Alpha's Caregiver 87–Pretty Boy.
ALPHA REXI didn’t exactly plan on being caught eavesdropping and not in another Alphams home either since I am used to having my way, so I didn’t know how to react to their incredibly annoying faced son, looking ag me in a questionable manner. Conan was no doubt the same age as I was, two more inches and he’d be on an equal eye level with me. He didn’t have what it took to be intimidating even though that was the look he was aiming for. Probably because he didn’t spend half his life locked up in a dungeon with crazy doctors sticking needles into him every day.Instead, he probably spent most of his life being coddled by his parents. Probably sent to the best college out there and told he had an important role waiting for him as soon as his father becomes too old for him to keep ruling the pack.I knew people like him and I also knew how to deal with them. The look in his eyes told me he’d known I was eavesdropping on them before he had even seen me. Hard to hide an Alpha’s scent an
The Alpha's Caregiver 88-Unpleasant Reunions.
EUDORA.I do not regret returning to the Bluecoven pack. I do not have the sudden urge to return to the pack where I’ve spent most of the days being miserable. I do not regret coming back to the man who has rejected me. No, it wasn’t regret I felt. But I did feel something, and it started from the moment Alpha Rex turned his back on me and walked away. It got worse as I sat to eat dinner with Alpha Osolo and his family. It was just like old times, except this time it felt like a shadow was looming over us at the dinner table. I couldn’t even work out my appetite because even though it’s just as before, it doesn’t feel like it. I expected the awkwardness. I prepared myself for it because it was inevitable. I didn’t expect less from the reunion of a girl who was sent off to become a plaything for an Alpha and the people who perpetrated it. I felt like a stranger. I was watched like one. I could feel the gaze of Alpha Oslo and Luna Eleanor, hot on me. I could tell they were disappoint
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EUDORAI couldn’t sleep that night. And because I couldn’t sleep, nightmares didn’t come and because they didn’t come, I didn’t feel Alpha Rex’s warmth. I must be stupid, to still want his touch and attention after what he had done and my wolf seemed to be rejoicing triumphantly while I was in deep pain and hurt. Was I wrong about the whole situation between me and Alpha Rex? Was I being delusional all these while? How could he just switch from cold to hot and then from hot, back to cold again. His words cut so deep inside of me that I buried my face into my pillow and cried until I couldn’t anymore. He called me pathetic. He said I was worth nothing but a tool for men’s pleasure. He has never called me names. Never said such hurtful words to me and I just couldn’t tell what changed. It got worse when I saw Leticia in his room, on his bed. She had showed up out of nowhere after so long and he still let her on his bed. He made me leave the room for her and I couldn’t tell what hu
The Alpha's Caregiver 183-The first Pure Blood
ZENA “You’re going to get me in big trouble one day.” Logan said as we both snuck out of the house through the secret back door that I’ve always used. Just this time, I wasn’t sneaking out of the house entirely. I wish I could roll my eyes at him and how dramatic he was being. “Keep your voice down.” I warned as we both walked towards the greenhouse. It was late at night, really late. I made sure everyone was sound asleep before I found Logan, woke him and dragged him down here with me. I almost didn’t make it out here because for some reason, Rex chose to sleep in the living room today but I had to find a way somehow. It’s been days since me and Logan went in search of my mother and I’ve been trying hard to keep things low so I don’t draw Rex’s attention. Not like he cared much anyway. He seems to be even more preoccupied with Eudora these days. Something was going on but I’ve been too caught up in my own world to care. Logan continued to grumble as I led the way to the gree
The Alpha's Caregiver 182-At all Costs.
ALPHA REXThe situation I met when I followed Logan back to the house wasn’t exactly the way he described it. Saying Leticia was dead drunk and didn’t want to leave was putting it mildly. She was making a huge scene in front of the house and my men were trying hard to keep her from coming in. I didn’t know how she managed to escape the morons at the borders when she didn’t even seem like she could stand on her own. I watched from a distance first as she fought off the men who were trying their best and failing miserably not to handle her with force. Her hair was disheveled, her make up ruined and her feet were naked. In all, she looked a total mess. She was nothing like the calm and composed woman who left a few weeks ago, accepting the fact that there was no place for her in my life no matter how hard we try to make it work. Leticia had handled our parting pretty well. I had driven her out of the pack myself, asked where she would want to go since she detested her twisted father
The Alpha's Caregiver 181-The Whining of a Weakling
EUDORAAlpha Rex wasn’t joking when he said he was going to train me to figure out what else I was capable of. I had no idea why he believed there was something about me that needed to be harnessed and he didn’t seem like he planned on letting me know too. I didn’t know how else I could let him know that there was nothing special about me. I was ordinary. I’ve been that way all of life and people have reminded me repeatedly and I believe nothing has changed. The cut he made on my palm took days to heal. It didn’t make sense how my blood was instantly able to heal a cut on Alpha Rex’s wrist while I was doomed to go about with a bandaid on my palm. I ignored the fact that it healed his own injury and focused on the fact that all in all, I was still an Omega and whatever that blood stunt was doesn’t count. I kept denying that I was something more than an Omega but I could only tell myself that because Alpha Rex was past caring or listening. I’ve been training rigorously in the past
The Alpha's Caregiver 180-A Bigger Destiny
EUDORAI opened my eyes and they met with an unfamiliar ceiling. I could tell that was neither my room nor Alpha Rex’s room from the dark and sombre shade of the ceiling. There was something depressing about its colour that made my chest tight and my heart ache. Waking up to this kind of ceiling everyday would have to be the most terrible fate ever and I desperately wanted it to disappear. Since I was laying on my back, I decided to roll on my sides so I can have a less depressing view. I rolled on my left side but it did not give me the result I expected.Instead, it shocked me so much that I sat up quickly on the bed I’d been laying on as I realised that the ceiling wasn’t the only strange thing about where I had suddenly woken up. The bed I was on was only one out of the many beds arranged in rows in a narrow room. The beds were so tiny and the room too small for them so that it felt like the walls were closing in on me. Where in the world was I? Why did it feel so strange and
The Alpha's Caregiver 179-A Crazy Turn
EUDORA“Woah.” Logan. He’s been having a field day with my hair ever since Alpha Rex left and put him in charge of looking after me. Now, it appears he is doing more of looking at me than actually looking after me. He doesn’t hide how stunned he is by my hair and he does it in a way that doesn't make me uncomfortable, no. I couldn’t tell if this new found confidence in my hair was because of the way Alpha Rex kisses it and tells me it is beautiful every chance he gets but it felt good and the attention it draws from Logan was just too amusing for me to feel less of myself. Well, that and the fact that he doesn’t seem to believe that I was born this way. It was almost hilarious. When he first saw me this morning, he hadn't really taken notice. He just passed by me saying, “Nice hair.” and then stopped halfway to the kitchen only to turn back and look at me with eyes as wide as saucers. I’d laughed but Alpha Rex didn’t seem to like the way Logan was looking at me and told him to
The Alpha's Caregiver 178-The Greater Hell
ALPHA REXI shattered completely. My vision slightly blurred while my grip on the frame got hard enough to actually break it into two. Number 7. It’s embroidered on her chest, big, red and brighter than her entire appearance in the photo. She was young. Pale. And her eyes, pained.“Your father and I had an agreement. That no one should ever know that she became his Luna. That no one knows your mother’s past, including you.” He continued to speak but I could barely hear him above the roaring of blood in my ears. She was all I saw. All of my memories of her–good and bad–tainted one after the other by what I am learning about her now. How had she felt? What were her days and waking moments like? How had she survived? How much pain was she in? Did she wish to die? Did she try to?“I do not know why the rogue sent such a warning to me. Why he asked me to tell you the truth about Lunita but I am afraid that your dead mother might be in some way related to the disappearance of the Omegas,
The Alpha's Caregiver 177-One of the Omegas
ALPHA REX'S POVWeak. She makes me weak. Even when she’s been unashamedly gone for so darn long and I have learnt to move on from the pain of her keeping me in the dark even after I gave her another chance, my mother still makes me weak. The weakness she stirs inside of me can be the only reason I regarded Alpha Raule with my attention despite how much I despise him. The weakness she instilled in me can be the only reason I agreed to go back with him to his pack with him so I could learn this truth he speaks of. This tale about my mother that I have craved for so long to know about and the one he claims that I can only understand if I come with him to his pack. Of course, I asked questions. Questions of how someone like him knew anything about my mother. For a promise to help him, he traded my silence till we got to his pack and I didn’t ask anymore questions after that. There was no need to as long as the truth he was trading for my help was worth it. I left with him reluctantly
The Alpha's Caregiver 176-The Confession.
ZENA*A FEW HOURS EARLIER*( In the same Timeline as Alpha Rex’s encounter with the rogue) “You’ve got to stop doing that.” Logan said, no doubt referring to me shifting and ruining my clothes in the process. I had just walked out of the corner where I’d been changing into the new set of clothing Logan managed to get after I ruined the last ones by shifting and jumping to attack our stalker who is now waiting at my behest, after saying the words that had me stunned for more than a few minutes until Logan lifted me off the man. Logan didn’t seem pleased about a lot of things but him having to run around to get me new clothes seemed to top his annoyance chart. I sidestepped him, more concerned about the man who claimed to know my mother than I was about my situationship with Logan at the present moment. He didn’t argue, he just fell into step beside me.“Where is he?” I asked, now fully dressed and heading back to the alley where I had attacked the man. We were already at the entran
