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The Alpha's Caregiver 47.A Thousand-fold of pain.
ALPHA REXThere are times I remember vividly more than the time I was locked up. Times I relived every single day. Times that hurt a thousand folds more than being kept in a cage like a beast…♠️♠️♠️PAST“Please…let me stay.” I was on my knees, my barely matured caps kissing the ground in front of her. I was young…innocent…scared but I’d heard it and I didn’t want it for myself.I’d heard her and my father arguing about it the night before. I had trouble sleeping and so I left my bed to go get her to sing me a song like she used to. A native song that she says is the song of future warriors. I barely understood. You couldn’t blame a small-minded pup who just loved to hear his mother sing him a song to sleep and didn’t care about the significance of the song. I had found her with him where I stood, looking through the small creak in their door that they probably didn’t take note of or even their voices that were raised so high in argument, no one living under this roof could miss i
The Alpha's Caregiver 48.The Angels.
EUDORA. Other than my shame, there was nothing to take with me as I left the Angels and Banes pack. I would have said I was leaving just the way I came if my already broken heart wasn’t shattered completely and the pieces scattered carelessly in places where they couldn’t be easily found. When I came here, I was in a little bubble of my own uncertainty. I was empty inside, broken and unsure of what life would throw at me next. So no, I wasn’t leaving the same way I came here. My heart, as broken as it was, was full now. Here, I found friendship in the most unlikely way. Found kindness in an elderly woman who was the second person to think me “special” after Conan. In the midst of it all, I found brutality like no other but when I went down on my knees and looked into those silver eyes…and saw the little flicker of emotion that could have been easily missed, I had the conviction that I could pull through whatever brutal treatment I would get. I was convinced that all I needed wa
The Alpha's Caregiver 49. A Hard Blow.
ALPHA REXThe first breath of fresh air was a satisfying one. It was pure and uncontaminated and the perfect reminder of how life used to be before the disaster that was the Omega. I passed by her room this morning before I left the house. Lillian was there, cleaning up the last traces of the girl like I instructed her to. Zena on the other hand didn’t show up at the table for breakfast as she already knew about the departure of the Omega in the early hours of the morning. “She didn’t say goodbye.” Logan told me when we met up, ready to go for another round of torturing our prisoner to give me what I wanted. “At least she did one thing right.” I said, shrugging. If my sister was so attached to her, it was only right that she left without causing more pain. I despised her but I would give credit for that one thing. “Do you not feel anything for her at all? You said you’d found her with Zena, does that not tell you something? Zena hasn’t opened up to anyone in years.” Logan walked
The Alpha's Caregiver 50.To Find Her.
ALPHA REX. The number of times I asked my prisoner about what I already knew proved the singular point that I wasn’t willing to accept that someone I had just tossed out of my pack somehow, has something to do with a revolution I was still confused about.“I told you everything I know! Please…please…let me go now.”The screams and yells of the man followed my move out of the room with Logan following dutifully behind me. I didn’t care what the men did with him, I already got what I wanted from him even though it was not in the least satisfying. If anything, it made me want to trash the whole club. I just couldn’t wrap my head around anything especially where the Omega was concerned. What was it about her? Why was she…why was she everywhere in my face?“You look angry.” Logan said quietly, stating the very obvious.“No shit, Sherlock.” I grumbled at him. “This is about her right?”“Isn’t everything about her now?” I snapped. Everything revolved around her yet I couldn’t figure out
The Alpha's Caregiver 51. I Need You.
EUDORA. I was no stranger to the dark. It was what my life was…an endless tunnel of darkness with not even a glimmer of light at the end of it. Whenever it felt like I was slowly stumbling my way out of the tunnel, my eyes catching on to the traces of light it can find, the road out of the tunnel then gets darker with every turn.I was in darkness. Literally. The world around me was dark and once again, the moon goddess was too cruel to bestow the lights of the moon over the large expanse of forest I was in. The sky was void of even stars and I had to strain my eyes to be sure if what was in front of me was a huge tree with lots of branches or a monster with thousands of eyes and the same number of arms out to get me. After Logan dropped me off, I had been lost at first. I stood and looked around, thinking of where to go next from there. My mind was as blank as a sheet of paper. It didn’t help that even on a really bright day, the forest around the Angels and Banes pack was scar
The Alpha's Caregiver 52.The Omega Takeover.
EUDORA.“I need you.”Three words and it’s just Alpha Rex saying them with the usual pointed look in his eyes, making it difficult to properly make sense of the words and why he said them like they were just another set of words he always flings around at me. I barely got the chance to say anything after what he said and even if I did, my brain failed to make any sense that could send signals to my lips to make them work. It happened fast and now we were in his car, on the way back to the pack. It was surreal and no, it’s not just returning to the pack that made me feel that way but because Alpha Rex came back to get me and now I was seated right beside him while he drove. We rode wordlessly. The few weeks I spent being close enough to him made it clear that he was not a man of many words and especially not to me who he didn’t even like the sight of. The awkward situation dampened my excitement. I was going back to the pack, I was going to meet Zena and Lillian again, I wasn’t just
The Alpha's Caregiver 53–Key to Pandora’s Box.
ALPHA REX. The old Gamma blinked back at me, her mouth opening and closing as evidence of her shock at my words. I expected that much from anyone who knew me and what I was capable of, especially with the events that have happened in the last few days.“Alpha, you want me to train Eudora to take care of you?“I didn’t want to repeat it because it was more bearable to think about it in my head than for me to say it out loud but I was going to be doing that a lot and I needed to get used to it. “Yes, that is exactly what I meant.” I said and added, “She will take over from you as my caregiver.” “But…I thought—”“This changes nothing, Lillian. I still feel the same way about her but I need her around.” I left it at that. Not that the Gamma would question my authority or decision but I was done with the look of pity everyone gives the Omega like I was the bad person here. Granted, I never believed I was good, heck, I’m not even close to it but that doesn’t make it less frustrating tha
The Alpha's Caregiver 54–Sorry, not sorry.
EUDORA. The reason I was brought back to the Angels and Banes pack wasn’t officially announced until after a few days when Lillian came into my room, bearing shopping bags in her hands. I ran over to help her with the heavy bags, now just realizing that the Alpha had no maid around the house to handle things like this. I only just realized how much work Lillian did here. “Do you get paid for this?” I asked, more worried about her than I was curious about the loads of bags dumped on my bed.Lillian smiled tenderly, tired lines causing her forehead to crease. I had heard the Alpha talk about her leaving this week and I already knew why. Lillian was retiring. She has until her birthday to be this strong and able to move heavy things around the house.At eighty, she will have no wolf to give her the strength anymore. I was just like that. Give me a few wrinkles and tired eyes and there you have it, a wolf fit for the retirement pack. “The Alpha does send me money but I have had no use
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EUDORAI couldn’t sleep that night. And because I couldn’t sleep, nightmares didn’t come and because they didn’t come, I didn’t feel Alpha Rex’s warmth. I must be stupid, to still want his touch and attention after what he had done and my wolf seemed to be rejoicing triumphantly while I was in deep pain and hurt. Was I wrong about the whole situation between me and Alpha Rex? Was I being delusional all these while? How could he just switch from cold to hot and then from hot, back to cold again. His words cut so deep inside of me that I buried my face into my pillow and cried until I couldn’t anymore. He called me pathetic. He said I was worth nothing but a tool for men’s pleasure. He has never called me names. Never said such hurtful words to me and I just couldn’t tell what changed. It got worse when I saw Leticia in his room, on his bed. She had showed up out of nowhere after so long and he still let her on his bed. He made me leave the room for her and I couldn’t tell what hu
The Alpha's Caregiver 183-The first Pure Blood
ZENA “You’re going to get me in big trouble one day.” Logan said as we both snuck out of the house through the secret back door that I’ve always used. Just this time, I wasn’t sneaking out of the house entirely. I wish I could roll my eyes at him and how dramatic he was being. “Keep your voice down.” I warned as we both walked towards the greenhouse. It was late at night, really late. I made sure everyone was sound asleep before I found Logan, woke him and dragged him down here with me. I almost didn’t make it out here because for some reason, Rex chose to sleep in the living room today but I had to find a way somehow. It’s been days since me and Logan went in search of my mother and I’ve been trying hard to keep things low so I don’t draw Rex’s attention. Not like he cared much anyway. He seems to be even more preoccupied with Eudora these days. Something was going on but I’ve been too caught up in my own world to care. Logan continued to grumble as I led the way to the gree
The Alpha's Caregiver 182-At all Costs.
ALPHA REXThe situation I met when I followed Logan back to the house wasn’t exactly the way he described it. Saying Leticia was dead drunk and didn’t want to leave was putting it mildly. She was making a huge scene in front of the house and my men were trying hard to keep her from coming in. I didn’t know how she managed to escape the morons at the borders when she didn’t even seem like she could stand on her own. I watched from a distance first as she fought off the men who were trying their best and failing miserably not to handle her with force. Her hair was disheveled, her make up ruined and her feet were naked. In all, she looked a total mess. She was nothing like the calm and composed woman who left a few weeks ago, accepting the fact that there was no place for her in my life no matter how hard we try to make it work. Leticia had handled our parting pretty well. I had driven her out of the pack myself, asked where she would want to go since she detested her twisted father
The Alpha's Caregiver 181-The Whining of a Weakling
EUDORAAlpha Rex wasn’t joking when he said he was going to train me to figure out what else I was capable of. I had no idea why he believed there was something about me that needed to be harnessed and he didn’t seem like he planned on letting me know too. I didn’t know how else I could let him know that there was nothing special about me. I was ordinary. I’ve been that way all of life and people have reminded me repeatedly and I believe nothing has changed. The cut he made on my palm took days to heal. It didn’t make sense how my blood was instantly able to heal a cut on Alpha Rex’s wrist while I was doomed to go about with a bandaid on my palm. I ignored the fact that it healed his own injury and focused on the fact that all in all, I was still an Omega and whatever that blood stunt was doesn’t count. I kept denying that I was something more than an Omega but I could only tell myself that because Alpha Rex was past caring or listening. I’ve been training rigorously in the past
The Alpha's Caregiver 180-A Bigger Destiny
EUDORAI opened my eyes and they met with an unfamiliar ceiling. I could tell that was neither my room nor Alpha Rex’s room from the dark and sombre shade of the ceiling. There was something depressing about its colour that made my chest tight and my heart ache. Waking up to this kind of ceiling everyday would have to be the most terrible fate ever and I desperately wanted it to disappear. Since I was laying on my back, I decided to roll on my sides so I can have a less depressing view. I rolled on my left side but it did not give me the result I expected.Instead, it shocked me so much that I sat up quickly on the bed I’d been laying on as I realised that the ceiling wasn’t the only strange thing about where I had suddenly woken up. The bed I was on was only one out of the many beds arranged in rows in a narrow room. The beds were so tiny and the room too small for them so that it felt like the walls were closing in on me. Where in the world was I? Why did it feel so strange and
The Alpha's Caregiver 179-A Crazy Turn
EUDORA“Woah.” Logan. He’s been having a field day with my hair ever since Alpha Rex left and put him in charge of looking after me. Now, it appears he is doing more of looking at me than actually looking after me. He doesn’t hide how stunned he is by my hair and he does it in a way that doesn't make me uncomfortable, no. I couldn’t tell if this new found confidence in my hair was because of the way Alpha Rex kisses it and tells me it is beautiful every chance he gets but it felt good and the attention it draws from Logan was just too amusing for me to feel less of myself. Well, that and the fact that he doesn’t seem to believe that I was born this way. It was almost hilarious. When he first saw me this morning, he hadn't really taken notice. He just passed by me saying, “Nice hair.” and then stopped halfway to the kitchen only to turn back and look at me with eyes as wide as saucers. I’d laughed but Alpha Rex didn’t seem to like the way Logan was looking at me and told him to
The Alpha's Caregiver 178-The Greater Hell
ALPHA REXI shattered completely. My vision slightly blurred while my grip on the frame got hard enough to actually break it into two. Number 7. It’s embroidered on her chest, big, red and brighter than her entire appearance in the photo. She was young. Pale. And her eyes, pained.“Your father and I had an agreement. That no one should ever know that she became his Luna. That no one knows your mother’s past, including you.” He continued to speak but I could barely hear him above the roaring of blood in my ears. She was all I saw. All of my memories of her–good and bad–tainted one after the other by what I am learning about her now. How had she felt? What were her days and waking moments like? How had she survived? How much pain was she in? Did she wish to die? Did she try to?“I do not know why the rogue sent such a warning to me. Why he asked me to tell you the truth about Lunita but I am afraid that your dead mother might be in some way related to the disappearance of the Omegas,
The Alpha's Caregiver 177-One of the Omegas
ALPHA REX'S POVWeak. She makes me weak. Even when she’s been unashamedly gone for so darn long and I have learnt to move on from the pain of her keeping me in the dark even after I gave her another chance, my mother still makes me weak. The weakness she stirs inside of me can be the only reason I regarded Alpha Raule with my attention despite how much I despise him. The weakness she instilled in me can be the only reason I agreed to go back with him to his pack with him so I could learn this truth he speaks of. This tale about my mother that I have craved for so long to know about and the one he claims that I can only understand if I come with him to his pack. Of course, I asked questions. Questions of how someone like him knew anything about my mother. For a promise to help him, he traded my silence till we got to his pack and I didn’t ask anymore questions after that. There was no need to as long as the truth he was trading for my help was worth it. I left with him reluctantly
The Alpha's Caregiver 176-The Confession.
ZENA*A FEW HOURS EARLIER*( In the same Timeline as Alpha Rex’s encounter with the rogue) “You’ve got to stop doing that.” Logan said, no doubt referring to me shifting and ruining my clothes in the process. I had just walked out of the corner where I’d been changing into the new set of clothing Logan managed to get after I ruined the last ones by shifting and jumping to attack our stalker who is now waiting at my behest, after saying the words that had me stunned for more than a few minutes until Logan lifted me off the man. Logan didn’t seem pleased about a lot of things but him having to run around to get me new clothes seemed to top his annoyance chart. I sidestepped him, more concerned about the man who claimed to know my mother than I was about my situationship with Logan at the present moment. He didn’t argue, he just fell into step beside me.“Where is he?” I asked, now fully dressed and heading back to the alley where I had attacked the man. We were already at the entran
