ALPHA REX. The old Gamma blinked back at me, her mouth opening and closing as evidence of her shock at my words. I expected that much from anyone who knew me and what I was capable of, especially with the events that have happened in the last few days.“Alpha, you want me to train Eudora to take care of you?“I didn’t want to repeat it because it was more bearable to think about it in my head than for me to say it out loud but I was going to be doing that a lot and I needed to get used to it. “Yes, that is exactly what I meant.” I said and added, “She will take over from you as my caregiver.” “But…I thought—”“This changes nothing, Lillian. I still feel the same way about her but I need her around.” I left it at that. Not that the Gamma would question my authority or decision but I was done with the look of pity everyone gives the Omega like I was the bad person here. Granted, I never believed I was good, heck, I’m not even close to it but that doesn’t make it less frustrating tha
EUDORA. The reason I was brought back to the Angels and Banes pack wasn’t officially announced until after a few days when Lillian came into my room, bearing shopping bags in her hands. I ran over to help her with the heavy bags, now just realizing that the Alpha had no maid around the house to handle things like this. I only just realized how much work Lillian did here. “Do you get paid for this?” I asked, more worried about her than I was curious about the loads of bags dumped on my bed.Lillian smiled tenderly, tired lines causing her forehead to crease. I had heard the Alpha talk about her leaving this week and I already knew why. Lillian was retiring. She has until her birthday to be this strong and able to move heavy things around the house.At eighty, she will have no wolf to give her the strength anymore. I was just like that. Give me a few wrinkles and tired eyes and there you have it, a wolf fit for the retirement pack. “The Alpha does send me money but I have had no use
EUDORA.Lillian waited for me outside my room while I changed into one of my newest dresses. I already picked out a favorite, a red one with white floral patterns and soft cotton, tied in the front to keep my boobs from spilling out. I tried to keep the revealing of my cleavage minimal because I just couldn’t hide it no matter how hard I tried. I could only just hope that the Alpha wouldn’t get mad at me. I was also relieved knowing that he wasn’t attracted to me in a way that will make me feel uncomfortable. The dress stopped right above my knee and I looked at myself in the mirror one last time, without my wig. I had the full black wig set on the dressing table, the only thing I had left with that was from the Bluecoven pack. I stared at my mass of black and white hair, as if looking at it for so long will make it look normal. It wasn’t going to change and it will remain a secret till I am old and graying like Lillian. By then, everything would have turned gray anyway. I put my
EUDORA.Lillian left early the next morning. She was transported to the retirement pack by Logan and we were allowed to see her off just outside the house and nothing farther than that. As I watched the car leave, I thought back to break of dawn when she had stealthily walked into my room. My bed dipping with added weight was what woke me and I had been startled at first. “Did I ruin a pleasant dream?” She whispered as I slowly sat up. I shook my head, eyes heavy with sleep but even though my vision was still slightly blurry, I saw the way the smile on her face slowly froze. It was then I realised something a little late. Lillian’s eyes were already on it and I couldn’t hide it anymore.“Eudora, your hair.” She whispered. On instinct, my hands went to my hair. I knew I looked like I was a deer caught in the headlights with how startled I was. Her eyes then lurked around till they found what they were looking for sitted on my bedside table. My wig. I exhaled, my heart beating fast,
ALPHA REX.♣️♣️♣️PAST “Rex, say hi to the mister.” This mister in question was peering down at me with a tight smile on his lip. Oh, I remembered this moment clearly. It was the first time I met the damned scientist and even as young as I was, I knew I wasn’t going to like him. Call it the petulance that came with being a child but I didn’t want to be around him even though was dressed just like every other doctor I have met since I spent half of my little life going in and out of the pack doctors’ office. I’d learned to be calm around them and their prickly needles but I could already sense this man meant trouble more than his prickly needles. He tried at being friendly, bending over to be on the same eye level with me, he supported himself with his palms flat on his knees while my eyes caught the inscription of his name on his breast pocket. Doctor Ambrose. I knew the names of every doctor that I have visited. I memorized them as part of childhood innocence and curiosity.
EUDORA. As Zena would say, “I fucked up.” I messed up so bad on my first time even when I thought I had it all under control. I was wrong, I had nothing under control and as the Alpha chased me out of this room in the wee hours of that morning, I contemplated running out the front door of the house and not return to the room I was still having sleepless nights in.I couldn’t tell why I couldn’t sleep but my mind zeroed continuously around being able to hear Alpha Rex breathe through the thin layer of the wall and also being so close to him than ever before and no, the walls did nothing to make it feel better. I was nervous…could he hear me breathe too? Did I breathe too heavily? Was my scent too much for him to handle? The thoughts kept me up all night and I tried to keep my nerves in check by reading a book from Zena’s shelf. Somehow, his steady breathing assured me that he was asleep and I would admit that regularity of it was in a way…calming. I was wide awake when I noticed th
EUDORA.I blinked rapidly, slowly setting my cutlery down at the same time every other person did. Alpha Rex was still as cool and composed as ever, like he didn’t just ruffle more than a few feathers with his words. “I…I do not understand you.” I said in a voice that was slightly above a whisper. Somehow, hearing Leticia talk made me so conscious about how my voice sounded to the Alpha's ears. No doubt like rough gravel. Just like that, I unlocked another insecurity. But that was the least of my worries, how the Alpha concluded we had to spend more time than we already were forced to was a bigger concern.What is this about going somewhere with him from tomorrow? And not just tomorrow alone, everyday? Just us? Alone? Before Alpha Rex could answer, Leticia already jumped in. “You’re taking trips? But…you don’t take trips whenever I’m here.” She sounded utterly displeased, it would be too hard to hide the displeasure from such a smooth sultry voice. “Our trips won’t affect your w
ALPHA REX. The last time I had the need to claim something as mine was years ago and it was that tiny little weird Omega who was another fragment of my past and memories that didn’t hurt so much until it actually did and I would rather not think about it anymore. Not anymore. I didn’t have the need to claim something as mine, especially not Eudora, which means I meant every word I said when I told her she didn’t belong to anyone anymore. I had sensed her confusion as a girl who was probably used to being a “property” that everyone tried to own. Taking care of me didn’t make her belong to me. It didn’t make her belong to anyone.She was just there because I needed her and I haven’t even decided what I would do with her after I have gotten what I wanted. “Rex…you need to loosen up your facial muscles, you don’t want it to come out like you’re having trouble breathing.” I didn’t realize how my face had been scrunched up thinking about my last discussion with the Omega. I was seated
EUDORAI couldn’t sleep that night. And because I couldn’t sleep, nightmares didn’t come and because they didn’t come, I didn’t feel Alpha Rex’s warmth. I must be stupid, to still want his touch and attention after what he had done and my wolf seemed to be rejoicing triumphantly while I was in deep pain and hurt. Was I wrong about the whole situation between me and Alpha Rex? Was I being delusional all these while? How could he just switch from cold to hot and then from hot, back to cold again. His words cut so deep inside of me that I buried my face into my pillow and cried until I couldn’t anymore. He called me pathetic. He said I was worth nothing but a tool for men’s pleasure. He has never called me names. Never said such hurtful words to me and I just couldn’t tell what changed. It got worse when I saw Leticia in his room, on his bed. She had showed up out of nowhere after so long and he still let her on his bed. He made me leave the room for her and I couldn’t tell what hu
ZENA “You’re going to get me in big trouble one day.” Logan said as we both snuck out of the house through the secret back door that I’ve always used. Just this time, I wasn’t sneaking out of the house entirely. I wish I could roll my eyes at him and how dramatic he was being. “Keep your voice down.” I warned as we both walked towards the greenhouse. It was late at night, really late. I made sure everyone was sound asleep before I found Logan, woke him and dragged him down here with me. I almost didn’t make it out here because for some reason, Rex chose to sleep in the living room today but I had to find a way somehow. It’s been days since me and Logan went in search of my mother and I’ve been trying hard to keep things low so I don’t draw Rex’s attention. Not like he cared much anyway. He seems to be even more preoccupied with Eudora these days. Something was going on but I’ve been too caught up in my own world to care. Logan continued to grumble as I led the way to the gree
ALPHA REXThe situation I met when I followed Logan back to the house wasn’t exactly the way he described it. Saying Leticia was dead drunk and didn’t want to leave was putting it mildly. She was making a huge scene in front of the house and my men were trying hard to keep her from coming in. I didn’t know how she managed to escape the morons at the borders when she didn’t even seem like she could stand on her own. I watched from a distance first as she fought off the men who were trying their best and failing miserably not to handle her with force. Her hair was disheveled, her make up ruined and her feet were naked. In all, she looked a total mess. She was nothing like the calm and composed woman who left a few weeks ago, accepting the fact that there was no place for her in my life no matter how hard we try to make it work. Leticia had handled our parting pretty well. I had driven her out of the pack myself, asked where she would want to go since she detested her twisted father
EUDORAAlpha Rex wasn’t joking when he said he was going to train me to figure out what else I was capable of. I had no idea why he believed there was something about me that needed to be harnessed and he didn’t seem like he planned on letting me know too. I didn’t know how else I could let him know that there was nothing special about me. I was ordinary. I’ve been that way all of life and people have reminded me repeatedly and I believe nothing has changed. The cut he made on my palm took days to heal. It didn’t make sense how my blood was instantly able to heal a cut on Alpha Rex’s wrist while I was doomed to go about with a bandaid on my palm. I ignored the fact that it healed his own injury and focused on the fact that all in all, I was still an Omega and whatever that blood stunt was doesn’t count. I kept denying that I was something more than an Omega but I could only tell myself that because Alpha Rex was past caring or listening. I’ve been training rigorously in the past
EUDORAI opened my eyes and they met with an unfamiliar ceiling. I could tell that was neither my room nor Alpha Rex’s room from the dark and sombre shade of the ceiling. There was something depressing about its colour that made my chest tight and my heart ache. Waking up to this kind of ceiling everyday would have to be the most terrible fate ever and I desperately wanted it to disappear. Since I was laying on my back, I decided to roll on my sides so I can have a less depressing view. I rolled on my left side but it did not give me the result I expected.Instead, it shocked me so much that I sat up quickly on the bed I’d been laying on as I realised that the ceiling wasn’t the only strange thing about where I had suddenly woken up. The bed I was on was only one out of the many beds arranged in rows in a narrow room. The beds were so tiny and the room too small for them so that it felt like the walls were closing in on me. Where in the world was I? Why did it feel so strange and
EUDORA“Woah.” Logan. He’s been having a field day with my hair ever since Alpha Rex left and put him in charge of looking after me. Now, it appears he is doing more of looking at me than actually looking after me. He doesn’t hide how stunned he is by my hair and he does it in a way that doesn't make me uncomfortable, no. I couldn’t tell if this new found confidence in my hair was because of the way Alpha Rex kisses it and tells me it is beautiful every chance he gets but it felt good and the attention it draws from Logan was just too amusing for me to feel less of myself. Well, that and the fact that he doesn’t seem to believe that I was born this way. It was almost hilarious. When he first saw me this morning, he hadn't really taken notice. He just passed by me saying, “Nice hair.” and then stopped halfway to the kitchen only to turn back and look at me with eyes as wide as saucers. I’d laughed but Alpha Rex didn’t seem to like the way Logan was looking at me and told him to
ALPHA REXI shattered completely. My vision slightly blurred while my grip on the frame got hard enough to actually break it into two. Number 7. It’s embroidered on her chest, big, red and brighter than her entire appearance in the photo. She was young. Pale. And her eyes, pained.“Your father and I had an agreement. That no one should ever know that she became his Luna. That no one knows your mother’s past, including you.” He continued to speak but I could barely hear him above the roaring of blood in my ears. She was all I saw. All of my memories of her–good and bad–tainted one after the other by what I am learning about her now. How had she felt? What were her days and waking moments like? How had she survived? How much pain was she in? Did she wish to die? Did she try to?“I do not know why the rogue sent such a warning to me. Why he asked me to tell you the truth about Lunita but I am afraid that your dead mother might be in some way related to the disappearance of the Omegas,
ALPHA REX'S POVWeak. She makes me weak. Even when she’s been unashamedly gone for so darn long and I have learnt to move on from the pain of her keeping me in the dark even after I gave her another chance, my mother still makes me weak. The weakness she stirs inside of me can be the only reason I regarded Alpha Raule with my attention despite how much I despise him. The weakness she instilled in me can be the only reason I agreed to go back with him to his pack with him so I could learn this truth he speaks of. This tale about my mother that I have craved for so long to know about and the one he claims that I can only understand if I come with him to his pack. Of course, I asked questions. Questions of how someone like him knew anything about my mother. For a promise to help him, he traded my silence till we got to his pack and I didn’t ask anymore questions after that. There was no need to as long as the truth he was trading for my help was worth it. I left with him reluctantly
ZENA*A FEW HOURS EARLIER*( In the same Timeline as Alpha Rex’s encounter with the rogue) “You’ve got to stop doing that.” Logan said, no doubt referring to me shifting and ruining my clothes in the process. I had just walked out of the corner where I’d been changing into the new set of clothing Logan managed to get after I ruined the last ones by shifting and jumping to attack our stalker who is now waiting at my behest, after saying the words that had me stunned for more than a few minutes until Logan lifted me off the man. Logan didn’t seem pleased about a lot of things but him having to run around to get me new clothes seemed to top his annoyance chart. I sidestepped him, more concerned about the man who claimed to know my mother than I was about my situationship with Logan at the present moment. He didn’t argue, he just fell into step beside me.“Where is he?” I asked, now fully dressed and heading back to the alley where I had attacked the man. We were already at the entran