Rayne
I open my eyes.There's too much light this time and I put a hand up to shield my eyes. I can't open them all the way, not yet anyway. There's a ringing in my ears that doesn't go away even after I scratch my throat. My head hurts and inside of me, there's a rumbling.Like a storm.It isn't hunger. It's something else, something that makes me feel on edge and terrified. When my eyes have finally adjusted to the light, I look around me and see a strange room.The kind of room I shouldn't be in.I'm lying on an enormous poster bed with red covers and sheets. Directly across from me, there's a large dresser with candles and a vase with fresh flowers. The floor is carpeted, and the windows are open, hence why there's so much light in the room.I sit up hurriedly, ignoring the spinning in my head. I rub my face with my hands and keep my eyes closed until the spinning stops. When I open my eyes, I see that I'm still wearing the white dress. The right sleeve is bloodied, and when I lift it, I notice a bite mark. There's crusted blood around the indentations, and it hurts when I flex my hand.When did this happen?The door opens. My flesh nearly jumps from my skin. There is a woman standing at the door and she’s looking at me with a troubled expression.A gasp leaves my lips. “Denise?”She enters the room and closes the door behind her. I notice that she’s carrying a small tray with her. There’s a bowl on top of it. She rushes to my side and says, “Here. Drink this. Quickly.”Denise is the head of staff and after my mother died, she helped look after me. I can comfortably say that she’s like a mother to me. Although our relationship is friendly and comfortable, she’s still my superior, and so because of that, there are limits to our friendship.I don’t recognize this behavior. She’s always composed. Today, her hair is disheveled and she looks like she didn’t sleep a wink last night.“Why?” I ask when she sit beside me on the bed. There’s soup on the bowl and it spills everywhere when she sits. I pick up the bowl, confused.“You might not get a chance to later,” she says with an expression that is horrifying. “Quickly. Drink as much as you can.”I drink half the bowl of soup before I have to stop. I feel nauseous. I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand and continue staring at her. She’s looking at me like she doesn’t know me, and I can’t say it doesn’t bother me.To my surprise, she asks, “Oh, what have you done, Rayne? What have you gotten yourself into?”I blink as I stare back at her. For a second, I don’t know what she’s talking about, but that’s ridiculous considering where I am and what I’m dressed in. Something happened, something that left her in this state. I try to recall what happened yesterday. I'm assuming it was yesterday. Nothing comes to mind. I close my eyes and try to think hard when the door flies open and a man strides in.Denise stands up quickly and moves toward the window with the tray in her hand. Her eyes immediately lower and she bows her head.I shift my attention back to the man in half a second. He looks furious, and for an instant, I think he'll hit me but he stops right beside the bed. I cower nonetheless. He's breathing harshly, so much that his shoulders move with every breath he takes, and glaring at me. His fists are curled at his sides.I look at him and my mouth dries up."Who sent you?" he asks me. "Who was with you on this?"I blink, dazed. I don't answer him because I don't know what he's talking about. I'd rather not say a word than give him a wrong answer.This infuriates him. "Answer the question! Who sent you!?"A man is standing behind him—he must have come in right after him—and he puts his hand on his shoulder. "Max," he says, "take it easy. You're scaring her.""Oh, am I?" he demands. His cold, bloodshot eyes are on me again and I gulp. I don't know what I've done to anger this man. I don't even know why I'm in this room.And then it comes back to me. The woman with glasses. Being sent up to the third floor. The dress. Walking toward the platform. Feeling the pain on my wrist. His face glaring at me after lifting the veil. My cheeks warm up. My whole face feels hot. I glance at Denise. She’s still looking away.What happened?I'm still not entirely sure and I don't know if I want to be. Things are slowly starting to make sense and the truth is too terrifying. I think of everything that happened in that room and everything that was said.Could it all have been a huge misunderstanding.Did they think I was...I look at the man again, realization dawning on me. His eyes are pinned on me again. Max. The man called him Max.No. This can't be.Max nears the bed slowly. I inch away, feeling the need to defend myself. I feel his rage coursing through me. I'm almost sick with it. He lowers himself so that his face is almost hovering above mine. His breath is warm and I can smell the liquor he drank before he came here. But despite the warmth emanating from him, all I feel is cold."You're going to regret the day you were born," he tells me. "I don't know who you are or why you thought you could meddle into my life, but I promise you that I will make your life on earth hell. You have no idea who you messed with."After he says this, he straightens himself and looks at me with an expression of utter disgust. I can't maintain eye contact any longer. I stare down at the bed instead."Max," the man says again, "there is a better way of dealing with this. Making a scene isn't going to undo this."Max stumbles backward. His cold eyes never leave my face and I’m struck with fear. I never thought I’d be more afraid of someone more than I was of the Second Beta. I’m terrified of him. Of Max.Alpha Max, I should say.He heads toward the door and his friend follows him. When he walks out of the room, I breathe deeply. Panic seizes me. This can’t be happening to me.Denise approaches the bedside again. Alpha Max didn’t even look at her from the moment he walked inside the room. She shakes her head and says, “Oh, Rayne. What happened? How did you end up here? What did you do?”“I didn’t do anything!” I reply with a shake of my head.“You wouldn’t be here if you hadn’t done anything,” she whispers. “You’re mated to the Alpha of the MoonWater pack! That wouldn’t have happened by accident!”I turn away from her. Too much is going through my mind and I haven’t fully grasped the seriousness of the situation yet, but I know I didn’t do this on purpose.I didn’t choose to be mated to him.I look at the bite mark on my wrist—the one that binds me to him. I feel sickened. I close my fist and feel the stabbing pain deep in my flesh. It’s still not more intense than the rumbling I feel inside. It’s an all-consuming rage, and it’s his. Not mine.I can’t believe this is happening.Denise squeezes my arm and I turn sharply to her. Her eyes are studying my face. I wonder what she sees. “You’re going to have to answer for what you’ve done sooner or later. The Alpha is furious, and so is the GrayLeaf pack. He was supposed to mate with their daughter, not you. Their whole pack watched him mark you, thinking that you were Alaska.”I close my eyes at that. Alaska. They called me her name in the room. Guilt gnaws at me. Why didn’t I say something? Why didn’t I stop them?I wouldn’t have ended up here if I did.“I know you,” she says, touching my arm tenderly. “I know you wouldn’t have done this on your own. You wouldn’t have gotten your hands on the mating dress without help.”I shake my head. “I didn’t ask for this. They didn’t tell me I was going to the Alpha. They didn’t tell me anything.” I close my eyes, remembering what the dark man said. “He told me not to say a word. I didn’t know I was going to mate with the Alpha. I was—”Dizzy. Confused.I think about the tea he gave me, the one that was supposed to help me talk easier. It did the complete opposite. After I drank the tea, I felt different. I couldn’t say a word. I had a feeling of floating all the time.What was in it?“He?” Denise asks with an arched brow. “Who?”I don’t want to say the dark man. I know she isn’t asking me that. Instead, I say, “I don’t know his name.”She nods sympathetically and takes my hand in hers. “There are people who are judging you harshly. Others are admiring you. You’re the first worker who has ever mated with an Alpha. You and I both know your circumstances here. You’re less than a worker. You’re practically a slave. You don’t get compensated for your work like most of us here. Because of your mother.”Tears fill my eyes and I nod. This is all too surreal.“You have to prepare yourself, Rayne,” she tells me gently. “Be strong. There’s a storm coming your way, and there are high powers involved. A lot of people are angry. They’re demanding justice for what happened. Justice for Alaska.”“There has to be something I can do,” I tell her. “I didn’t mean for this to happen. Can’t the bond be…?”Denise shakes her head gravely. I suspected that this would be her answer. “You know that bonds can’t be destroyed. They can be starved, yes, but they will never be broken. It is a lifelong connection. From this moment onward, you’re the Luna of MoonWater.”I feel so dizzy that I have to lay back of the pillows behind me. Luna. I’m a Luna. This can’t be. Surely not me. I’m just a worker. A slave, as Denise mentioned. I’m a nobody.I can’t be Luna.My fear has only grown. The Alpha promised me that I would regret ever being born. Judging by his rage flowing through me, I believe it. All my life, I ran from trouble. I ended up right at its door, and this time, there is no turning back.Denise squeezes my hand. Our eyes meet and tears accumulate in my eyes. I let the tears fall without trying to stop them, and she says nothing else for a good five minutes.What do I do now?RayneDenise brought me a fresh set of clothes that was in my old drawer along with everything else that belonged to me. Granted, my clothes are all plain and not at all suitable for my 'new position' as she told me, but at least they're better than the bloodied mating dress. Besides, I don't think anyone will care about what I'm wearing. I don't even want to think about being the Luna of MoonWater. Once I'm dressed in my old and comfortable clothes, I sit on the bed and hug my knees. I'm deathly afraid of leaving this bedroom. I'm afraid of coming across people who will openly judge me for what I did. I'm afraid of the Betas. The First Beta is scary because of his strictness and lack of mercy but it's the Second Beta who truly terrifies me. I wonder what he thinks of me now. He was waiting for me and even looking for me the day of the mating, so he undoubtedly knows what happened. What's going through his mind? I bet he's even angrier than before. Now, I'm not so easily accessibl
RayneI’m dressed in Denise’s best clothes. She might not think they’re better than what I was wearing before but they are. I twirl around in front of the mirror in my bedroom and take in my appearance. Her ‘best clothes’ consist of a black dress with a tight bodice and flared skirt. It’s presentable—that can’t be disputed—but it puts a little too much emphasis on my cleavage. She has also helped me put my hair up in a loose chignon and my neck is fully exposed. She has also spritzed some perfume on me. She claps her hands and says, “Wonderful. You look like a different woman! All you need is to put on a little weight to fill out your hips and you’ll be perfect!”I don’t agree with her. I don’t think this dress is appropriate at all. “Can I get a shawl or a coat? Something to cover up a little bit more?”“Nonsense!” she says, waving her hand at me. “This is perfect. This is an outfit worthy of the Luna of MoonWater.”“Denise, my circumstances are different. You know that.”“Nonsense
Rayne Denise looks at the damage that was done on her dress first. Then, she looks at my face.There is no point trying to hide the black eye that the Second Beta gave me as punishment for...I don't know. I guess it's everything. He hated me when I was a slave but he hates me even more now. I thought that being 'Luna' would protect me from him. I was wrong. I take the dress off and dress into my old clothes. Thankfully, he didn't hit any other part of my body. He did, however, tear at the dress with his claws. He ruined the straps. I'm not even sure if she can fix them. "Did the Alpha do this to you?" she finally asks. "No," I say, staring at my lap. "The Second Beta did it."Denise frowns and lets the dress drop to the ground. "Rayne, you can't be serious! The Second Beta?"I look away from her. "Don't tell me that you don't know he targets all of the worker girls. Because if you do, I won't believe you.""I didn't plan on denying it," she says stiffly. "You know as well as I
MaxI gulp down the entire glass of whiskey and refill it as soon as I slam it down. There's a pain behind my eyes that I can't seem to rub out of them. In fact, rubbing my eyes worsens the pain. A curse leaves my lips and I finish my drink. Behind me, the door opens. I don't bother turning back to see who it is. It seems there's always someone in my room who has an opinion to give me, as if their 'opinions' can make any of this better. "Drinking again?"I roll my eyes to the sound of her voice and pour myself another glass. When she sees this, she rushes to my side and puts a hand on my arm to try to stop me. I give her a black look but she doesn't release me or back away. "You need to stop this, brother," Veronica says. "Killing yourself isn't going to make any of this better.""Who says having a few drinks is going to kill me?""You know what I mean," she spits. "Everything you do, you exaggerate. There is no limit with you. If you keep this up, you'll drink yourself right int
Rayne I wake up to the sun in my eyes. I try to shield my face with my hand but it doesn’t stop the stinging in my eyes. I blink repeatedly as my vision starts to clear, and only then do I see Denise standing beside the bed with an inquisitive expression on her face. “I’m curious,” she says, tapping her foot against the carpeted floor repeatedly. “How long did you intend to keep sleeping? Until noon? Until tomorrow?”“What does it matter?” I ask sincerely. My heart sinks at the thought. “It’s not like I have anything to do anyway.”“Of course you have something to do,” she says, as if whatever she’ll say next is obvious. “You have an audience with the Alpha’s sister.”I sit up fast, so fast that my head spins. “Why? What does she want from me?”“You know I can’t answer that question,” she says. “You’re going to have to find out yourself.”I sigh and hug my knees. “Can’t I say no? I don’t want to have to be yelled at by another superior. I don’t know if I can take it.”Denise scoffs
Rayne "Oh, Rayne," Denise says as she paces the bedroom floor. "This is bad. This is terrible! Why didn't you tell her about him? Why?"I shake my head. "I don't know. I got scared!""Scared of what?" she asks loudly. "What could possibly have scared you? Look at what you've gotten yourself into!"I lower my eyes and rub my scalp with my fingertips. I can't describe how desperate I feel. The Second Beta, the person who scares me more than anyone else, is going to be my bodyguard. He'll be close to me at all times and 'protect' me from harm. How is he going to protect me when he's the only one harming me?I'm screwed. I'm done for. I now wish more than ever that I could go back in time and tell her that I take back what I said. That the Second Beta gave me the black eye. That he's a monster who loves the pain and suffering of others. The only people he takes care of are the elites of the pack. He treats the servants like garbage, and he's twice as cruel to the servants girls like me
Rayne I stare at my reflection in the mirror and don't know what to think. The dress that Denise found for me is perfect. It's black and doesn't cling to my body at all. It's billows around me but is still elegant and sophisticated. It gives me the air of someone important yet mysterious. There is no denying that I'm a Luna when I'm dressed like this. And my hair perfectly compliments the dress. This is what Denise tells me. What I see is someone who should just stay in their room. I'll attract unwanted attention in something like this and it's all I can think about. Yes, I do look pretty, but this isn't a good thing. The whole point of our plan is that I should let only the Second Beta see me. How will I stay invisible when I'm dressed so elegantly?"Don't you think this will complicate things?" I ask her for the fifth time. "Stop it," she hisses. "It'll be much worse if you show up in a servant's clothes, don't you think? There are normally quite a few people present. Those who
RayneI immediately lower my eyes and think of something to say to him. Anything that might explain why I'm here. I don't come up with anything.The next few seconds are perhaps the most painful of my entire existence. I'm torn between staying and running, and the problem is that I know I can't run. I'll have to stand here and take whatever it is he's going to give me. And sure enough, he doesn't disappoint. "Are you testing me?" he asks in a low voice. "Is that what this is?""Forgive me, Alpha," I say, not meeting his eyes. Instinctively, I take a step back from him. I feel his eyes following every move I make. "I didn't meant to...I wasn't—""Then why are you here?" he says through his teeth. How do I explain to him that I need the Second Beta to see me so he doesn't punish Denise for lying to him? How do I guarantee that I didn't come here to spite him? That I would never willingly cross his path if I had the power to do so?"I'm sorry," I say in a voice barely above a whisper
Rayne Reaching MoonWater fills me with excitement and dread. The last time I was here, we were still in the middle of the war. It was Max’s idea for me to leave and go to Iron until things cooled down. I agreed because frankly, I was tired of the bloodshed. I felt I had nothing left to do but go away, and so that’s what I did. I haven’t been back since. Max and I have been communicating with each other but not as often. Our communication is mostly nonverbal. I can’t hear his words in my head or even send a message across; it’s more of a swapping of emotions. This has gotten stronger over the weeks, and now that I’m here, closer to him, I feel the bond’s strength. I exit the carriage and near the gate. I inform the guards of who I am but they don’t ask me to wait for them to call someone. They open the gates for me instantly. I walk through them, leaving the carriage behind. Everything looks as I remember, pre-war. This has to be a good sign. I continue walking until I reach the f
RayneThe war with GrayLeaf only ended with their Alpha’s death. It was Max himself who killed him. There was no way around it. He never believed it was Veronica’s doing, and when he found Albert dead, he assumed Max was the culprit. There were many casualties. My father lost men he trusted. AmberMane lost some of their own, the biggest loss being Victor. I have to admit that I thought they would hate and blame me for his death because I most certainly blamed myself, but nothing between us changed apart from the loss we now shared. I didn’t know Victor as well as I could’ve, but he’d been a friend to me, and he had helped me make myself stronger. I wish things had gone differently. I wish he didn’t have to die. Things took a long time to settle down after the war. GrayLeaf collapsed completely. The remaining members of their pack became rogues. I offered to help them but Max said it wasn’t the right choice to make. A lot of the people who remained were widows and children of the f
RayneI watch her slowly shift back to human form, hissing in pain. The arrow went straight through her shoulder. She tries to touch it but groans in pain when she touches it. I’m afraid that she’ll break it in half and slide it out but that doesn’t happen. I near her and nock another arrow. I point it straight at her face this time. “If you dare to move, I’ll shoot you.”Her eyes meet mine. Her lips are starting to get pale. “You’re going to hit me anyway, so why should I bother? You didn’t follow me all the way here to talk to me.”“You’re right, I didn’t,” I reply coldly. She shifts and cries out. I’m tempted to hit her again. Her pain is comforting to me. I want to tell her that now she knows how it feels, yet the pain she’s experiencing now can’t be compared to mine. That pain left scars that will never go away. Because of her selfishness, I’ve lost parts of myself that are irretrievable. “What are you waiting for, then?” she asks breathlessly as she tries to sit against the
Rayne Lambert changed plans halfway to GrayLeaf. He said he had a better idea. Rather than attack GrayLeaf and cause an unnecessarily high death toll, we could simply try to frame Veronica instead. He said he would speak to Albert and convince him to be in a certain place, at a certain time, where he would then confront Veronica. Naturally, this would still make him lose his place amongst his pack, but he said he never cared much for the pack anyway. He always wanted to be a rogue, where he could live life in his own terms and not have to follow strict rules all the time. I have to say that at some point, I wanted to be a rogue, too. I wanted nothing but freedom whenever I thought about my life. There are times when I forget I was even a slave, but there are others when it's all I can think about. I see myself on my knees in the middle of the grand hall, scrubbing until my fingers bleed. I'd wonder what it felt like to be free. Now that I know what it is, I realize that it comes
Max It doesn’t take long after Veronica leaves for someone to come for me. I don’t ask questions as they untie my hands and then tell me to walk. Humiliation burns inside of me but I keep it down and walk. I walk through the relatively empty dungeon all the way up the short stairs I used on my way down here. There are currently three guards behind me. Any thoughts of trying to run flee from my mind. It would be a reckless decision to make and would undoubtedly bring me more humiliation. The only thing assuring me that I won’t be killed today is Veronica’s alleged plan. She wants me to mate with her, after all, so how could she let them kill me? It all depends, of course. I try not to think too much about it as I walk outside. I take a deep breath of fresh air and instantly feel better. The air down there is stale. It felt like I was slowly being smothered to death. We’re walking toward the mansion. My guess is that there is going to be a discussion of some kind where I will once
MaxThe pain on my side has diminished considerably but the humiliation I feel is burning right through me and I can't overlook it. I'm locked in a dark cell. Thankfully, I'm alone, so nobody else has to see me being brought down to this level. So many things are going on all at once. I've been extracted from my pack, which is now vulnerable. GrayLeaf can attack at any time and we'll fall, just as they wanted it to. I don't understand for the life of me how Veronica can do this to our pack. Does she really want to see GrayLeaf winning? If so, why? And if not, then what's going through her head? I can't understand her. I realize that I never knew her at all. Helplessness plagues me. I'm here tied to a chair and unable to do a damned thing to stop her and her schemes. What's worse is that she could possibly get us all killed. Playing this game with GrayLeaf is dangerous. Does she even know what she's doing?I don’t know what to call this behavior of hers. Childishness isn’t a good
RayneThe plan we come up with is simple yet effective. I go with Iron and AmberMane to MoonWater and take over. As the Luna, it’s my right to do so. Word will spread to GrayLeaf, undoubtedly, but by then, we’ll be ready. Lambert thinks that we have to attack them first and we have to do it hard. We tell them that we only have two requests to end this war.The first request is that we want them to release Max. The second is we want Veronica. At that point, we’ll tell them everything they’ve done. Lambert will confess everything he did and they’ll probably exile him from the pack, but he says he doesn’t care about that. “Why?” my father asked him. “Why do you want to be exiled from your pack?”“I don’t have anything to do there,” was his answer. “I hate those bastards more than you do. If they hadn’t insisted on marrying her off to an Alpha, she would be alive by now.”I wanted to ask him where he would go but I figured it was too intrusive. It didn’t matter, anyway. What mattered wa
Rayne I look back at him. He’s running his fingers through his hair in despair. I’ve already pieced this together. I know why he’s here demanding this truth from me. Why he’s given me this letter to read. It makes perfect sense. The only reason why I’m not saying anything is because my own heart is shattering. I’ve doubted Max. I thought he was a scoundrel and now I have proof that he isn’t. Veronica did it all. The man gets on his knees, his back facing me. A few beats pass and then he says, “I loved her. You don’t understand how much I loved her. You can’t begin to imagine.”I lick my lips and say, “Sure I can. You literally sabotaged her mating day. You put me there just to prevent her from mating with Max.”He glares at me over his shoulder. I glare right back. I’m trying to keep an eye on him while sorting through the mess in my head simultaneously. It isn’t easy. I’m just thinking about Max and how Veronica ruined us. Tore us apart. I can’t take my attention from him entire
RayneI still haven’t decided if we’re going to go to war against GrayLeaf. I want to. I can’t say that I don’t. They’ve done enough to hurt me and I would be thinking solely of revenge if I chose to fight. The time I spent in that prison was something I’d only wish upon my worst enemy. I have lost too much because of them. I want to fight. I want to bring them to my knees. At the same time, I have no idea if it’s the right move. A leader has to think of everyone else, not just themselves. I would hate it if my father, Darla, or even Victor got hurt because of this thirst for revenge of mine. It’s not fair to them. Besides, fighting means we have to join arms with MoonWater, because otherwise we don’t stand a chance. Do I really want to get that close to Max?I’m going to have to be the one to talk to him, which is why my father said the choice is up to me. He’d probably do it if I asked, or insisted, but that’s a coward’s move. I have to be the one to do it, not him or anyone else