Rayne I stare at my reflection in the mirror and don't know what to think. The dress that Denise found for me is perfect. It's black and doesn't cling to my body at all. It's billows around me but is still elegant and sophisticated. It gives me the air of someone important yet mysterious. There is no denying that I'm a Luna when I'm dressed like this. And my hair perfectly compliments the dress. This is what Denise tells me. What I see is someone who should just stay in their room. I'll attract unwanted attention in something like this and it's all I can think about. Yes, I do look pretty, but this isn't a good thing. The whole point of our plan is that I should let only the Second Beta see me. How will I stay invisible when I'm dressed so elegantly?"Don't you think this will complicate things?" I ask her for the fifth time. "Stop it," she hisses. "It'll be much worse if you show up in a servant's clothes, don't you think? There are normally quite a few people present. Those who
RayneI immediately lower my eyes and think of something to say to him. Anything that might explain why I'm here. I don't come up with anything.The next few seconds are perhaps the most painful of my entire existence. I'm torn between staying and running, and the problem is that I know I can't run. I'll have to stand here and take whatever it is he's going to give me. And sure enough, he doesn't disappoint. "Are you testing me?" he asks in a low voice. "Is that what this is?""Forgive me, Alpha," I say, not meeting his eyes. Instinctively, I take a step back from him. I feel his eyes following every move I make. "I didn't meant to...I wasn't—""Then why are you here?" he says through his teeth. How do I explain to him that I need the Second Beta to see me so he doesn't punish Denise for lying to him? How do I guarantee that I didn't come here to spite him? That I would never willingly cross his path if I had the power to do so?"I'm sorry," I say in a voice barely above a whisper
Rayne I don’t leave the room for anything. I don’t want to risk running into the Alpha or his sister. She didn’t come looking for me to warn me to stay away, which I was kind of expecting. Maybe she’ll do it later. I don’t know. I’m hoping she won’t because I wouldn’t know what to say to her without revealing the truth. I feel bad that she was yelled at because of me. She didn’t do anything. She didn’t give me the dress. She just tried to help me. Guilt gnaws at me. I don’t want to seem like an ungrateful person. She’s the only person apart from Denise that tried to help me. She couldn’t judged me harder because she’s the Alpha’s sister but she understood my side. She knows I’m innocent, but she also knows that my side of the story doesn’t matter in the great scheme of things. I never meant to let her down. As for Denise, she said she knew the dress was worn by Alaska but she only wore it once. It was in the laundry room for a couple of years without being worn. She never asked
RayneI shake my head when Denise walks into my bedroom with my dinner. “You can take it back. I’m not hungry. I don’t want to waste food.”She tilts her head, pity etching her features. “You have to eat something. Not eating will only make your body sick and weak.”In a low voice, I ask, “Is the Beta there?”She shakes her head. “No. He’s downstairs with the rest of them. Having dinner. But one of his goons is near the top of the stairs. Probably on the lookout for you.”I sigh heavily and cover my face with my hands. “I can’t believe this is happening. I did what you told me to do. I told her the truth. But I guess it was too late.”Denise puts the tray down beside me and takes a seat on the edge of my bed. “She summoned me and gave me a scolding as well. You shouldn’t feel bad.”“What did she say to you?”“She said she knew I helped you with the dress, because of my position of course.” Despite her words, she’s smiling. “She also warned me to stay away from you. She doesn’t want me
MaxI wake up to the sound of screaming. I look around quickly. It doesn’t take me long to realize that there isn’t anyone screaming. I was probably dreaming. But as I try to lay back down, I can’t seem to shake off this feeling that I’m in danger. I don’t know why I feel this way. I rise from my bed and walk toward the balcony. The doors are open. They’re always open, so I don’t know why I feel this paranoid today. I look around and see nothing but darkness. All I hear is the sound of crickets, and the occasional howl from far away wolves. Nothing to be worried about. Still, this feeling persists, and the more I try to ignore it, the more it weighs on my conscience. What is this? I’ve never felt anything similar to this before. I close the balcony doors and walk toward the bureau. There, I pour myself a drink. My nervousness doesn’t pass. I grip the glass in frustration, suppressing the urge to hurl it across the room. My uneasiness doesn’t allow me to go back to bed, so I pace
Rayne I’m in my new room—the one the Alpha said I should occupy. It’s much grander than the one I occupied before but it’s not something that pleases me. I don’t care about such luxuries. I’m more concerned about how Lady Veronica will treat me after what happened. Especially since he contradicted her. I shouldn’t have told him that she knew about the Second Beta. I didn’t mean to. It just slipped out. I was under so much stress that I didn’t think twice before answering, and now I’ve framed her. I hope she won’t hate me forever for this. I lied in the first place. She had no reason to believe me the second time around. I could easily be lying about the Beta just because I wanted to justify my presence at the dinner last night. She was just trying to do the right thing. She doesn’t deserve the Alpha’s harsh treatment. As for the Second Beta, I’m glad that he’s dead. I never thought I’d think this way about anyone. I’m not the kind of person who hates intensely. I just wanted t
RayneThe feeling of relief and bliss hasn’t left me yet. It’s been three days since the whole incident with the Second Beta. He wasn’t given an honorable werewolf burial—which consists of a cremation. Instead, he was buried so his body can rot under the ground. By then, everyone knew what he had done, so there was no point in trying to pretend that he was an honorable wolf. According to Denise, the Alpha had to answer to the council why he had killed his Beta. She knew this because she was the one serving waters and coffees during the whole meeting. It was a task that was supposed to be for one of the lower servants, but she decided to go herself so she could learn what would be said there. “The Alpha wasn’t pleased to see me there but it wasn’t like he could kick me out,” she had told me. I frowned and asked, “Why?”She shrugged and continued telling me what she heard. The council consisted of the Alpha, the First Beta, and some of the higher ranking generals of the pack. Alask
RayneI’m ready in the early hours of the morning because I’m too anxious for my little shopping trip with Lady Veronica. It didn’t help that Denise kept telling me to watch out for her. She doesn’t trust her for some reason, and frankly, I think she’s just exaggerating. Denise can be quite dramatic, and I’ve already established that I can’t take most of her advice. If I’m on guard and on edge, she’ll notice, and then I’ll be even more awkward. Isn’t it enough that I’m nervous?When the time comes for me to go downstairs, I’m dressed in the best of my old dresses but Lady Veronica doesn’t look impressed. She offers me a tight smile and says, “Shall we?”We’re accompanied by four guards. They walk on either side of us until we reach outside where there is a carriage waiting for us. We climb inside and one of them closes the door. I sit facing her and expect her to say something to me but she doesn’t. Maybe I should have said something but I couldn’t think of anything to say that wasn
Rayne Reaching MoonWater fills me with excitement and dread. The last time I was here, we were still in the middle of the war. It was Max’s idea for me to leave and go to Iron until things cooled down. I agreed because frankly, I was tired of the bloodshed. I felt I had nothing left to do but go away, and so that’s what I did. I haven’t been back since. Max and I have been communicating with each other but not as often. Our communication is mostly nonverbal. I can’t hear his words in my head or even send a message across; it’s more of a swapping of emotions. This has gotten stronger over the weeks, and now that I’m here, closer to him, I feel the bond’s strength. I exit the carriage and near the gate. I inform the guards of who I am but they don’t ask me to wait for them to call someone. They open the gates for me instantly. I walk through them, leaving the carriage behind. Everything looks as I remember, pre-war. This has to be a good sign. I continue walking until I reach the f
RayneThe war with GrayLeaf only ended with their Alpha’s death. It was Max himself who killed him. There was no way around it. He never believed it was Veronica’s doing, and when he found Albert dead, he assumed Max was the culprit. There were many casualties. My father lost men he trusted. AmberMane lost some of their own, the biggest loss being Victor. I have to admit that I thought they would hate and blame me for his death because I most certainly blamed myself, but nothing between us changed apart from the loss we now shared. I didn’t know Victor as well as I could’ve, but he’d been a friend to me, and he had helped me make myself stronger. I wish things had gone differently. I wish he didn’t have to die. Things took a long time to settle down after the war. GrayLeaf collapsed completely. The remaining members of their pack became rogues. I offered to help them but Max said it wasn’t the right choice to make. A lot of the people who remained were widows and children of the f
RayneI watch her slowly shift back to human form, hissing in pain. The arrow went straight through her shoulder. She tries to touch it but groans in pain when she touches it. I’m afraid that she’ll break it in half and slide it out but that doesn’t happen. I near her and nock another arrow. I point it straight at her face this time. “If you dare to move, I’ll shoot you.”Her eyes meet mine. Her lips are starting to get pale. “You’re going to hit me anyway, so why should I bother? You didn’t follow me all the way here to talk to me.”“You’re right, I didn’t,” I reply coldly. She shifts and cries out. I’m tempted to hit her again. Her pain is comforting to me. I want to tell her that now she knows how it feels, yet the pain she’s experiencing now can’t be compared to mine. That pain left scars that will never go away. Because of her selfishness, I’ve lost parts of myself that are irretrievable. “What are you waiting for, then?” she asks breathlessly as she tries to sit against the
Rayne Lambert changed plans halfway to GrayLeaf. He said he had a better idea. Rather than attack GrayLeaf and cause an unnecessarily high death toll, we could simply try to frame Veronica instead. He said he would speak to Albert and convince him to be in a certain place, at a certain time, where he would then confront Veronica. Naturally, this would still make him lose his place amongst his pack, but he said he never cared much for the pack anyway. He always wanted to be a rogue, where he could live life in his own terms and not have to follow strict rules all the time. I have to say that at some point, I wanted to be a rogue, too. I wanted nothing but freedom whenever I thought about my life. There are times when I forget I was even a slave, but there are others when it's all I can think about. I see myself on my knees in the middle of the grand hall, scrubbing until my fingers bleed. I'd wonder what it felt like to be free. Now that I know what it is, I realize that it comes
Max It doesn’t take long after Veronica leaves for someone to come for me. I don’t ask questions as they untie my hands and then tell me to walk. Humiliation burns inside of me but I keep it down and walk. I walk through the relatively empty dungeon all the way up the short stairs I used on my way down here. There are currently three guards behind me. Any thoughts of trying to run flee from my mind. It would be a reckless decision to make and would undoubtedly bring me more humiliation. The only thing assuring me that I won’t be killed today is Veronica’s alleged plan. She wants me to mate with her, after all, so how could she let them kill me? It all depends, of course. I try not to think too much about it as I walk outside. I take a deep breath of fresh air and instantly feel better. The air down there is stale. It felt like I was slowly being smothered to death. We’re walking toward the mansion. My guess is that there is going to be a discussion of some kind where I will once
MaxThe pain on my side has diminished considerably but the humiliation I feel is burning right through me and I can't overlook it. I'm locked in a dark cell. Thankfully, I'm alone, so nobody else has to see me being brought down to this level. So many things are going on all at once. I've been extracted from my pack, which is now vulnerable. GrayLeaf can attack at any time and we'll fall, just as they wanted it to. I don't understand for the life of me how Veronica can do this to our pack. Does she really want to see GrayLeaf winning? If so, why? And if not, then what's going through her head? I can't understand her. I realize that I never knew her at all. Helplessness plagues me. I'm here tied to a chair and unable to do a damned thing to stop her and her schemes. What's worse is that she could possibly get us all killed. Playing this game with GrayLeaf is dangerous. Does she even know what she's doing?I don’t know what to call this behavior of hers. Childishness isn’t a good
RayneThe plan we come up with is simple yet effective. I go with Iron and AmberMane to MoonWater and take over. As the Luna, it’s my right to do so. Word will spread to GrayLeaf, undoubtedly, but by then, we’ll be ready. Lambert thinks that we have to attack them first and we have to do it hard. We tell them that we only have two requests to end this war.The first request is that we want them to release Max. The second is we want Veronica. At that point, we’ll tell them everything they’ve done. Lambert will confess everything he did and they’ll probably exile him from the pack, but he says he doesn’t care about that. “Why?” my father asked him. “Why do you want to be exiled from your pack?”“I don’t have anything to do there,” was his answer. “I hate those bastards more than you do. If they hadn’t insisted on marrying her off to an Alpha, she would be alive by now.”I wanted to ask him where he would go but I figured it was too intrusive. It didn’t matter, anyway. What mattered wa
Rayne I look back at him. He’s running his fingers through his hair in despair. I’ve already pieced this together. I know why he’s here demanding this truth from me. Why he’s given me this letter to read. It makes perfect sense. The only reason why I’m not saying anything is because my own heart is shattering. I’ve doubted Max. I thought he was a scoundrel and now I have proof that he isn’t. Veronica did it all. The man gets on his knees, his back facing me. A few beats pass and then he says, “I loved her. You don’t understand how much I loved her. You can’t begin to imagine.”I lick my lips and say, “Sure I can. You literally sabotaged her mating day. You put me there just to prevent her from mating with Max.”He glares at me over his shoulder. I glare right back. I’m trying to keep an eye on him while sorting through the mess in my head simultaneously. It isn’t easy. I’m just thinking about Max and how Veronica ruined us. Tore us apart. I can’t take my attention from him entire
RayneI still haven’t decided if we’re going to go to war against GrayLeaf. I want to. I can’t say that I don’t. They’ve done enough to hurt me and I would be thinking solely of revenge if I chose to fight. The time I spent in that prison was something I’d only wish upon my worst enemy. I have lost too much because of them. I want to fight. I want to bring them to my knees. At the same time, I have no idea if it’s the right move. A leader has to think of everyone else, not just themselves. I would hate it if my father, Darla, or even Victor got hurt because of this thirst for revenge of mine. It’s not fair to them. Besides, fighting means we have to join arms with MoonWater, because otherwise we don’t stand a chance. Do I really want to get that close to Max?I’m going to have to be the one to talk to him, which is why my father said the choice is up to me. He’d probably do it if I asked, or insisted, but that’s a coward’s move. I have to be the one to do it, not him or anyone else