MaxArriving at MoonWater without Rayne feels like a defeat. I contemplated turning back multiple times. I thought that maybe there was more that I could say to her that would convince her to come back with me. I felt like I didn’t apologize or be sincere enough, which was why she didn’t believe me. But I can’t go back. I already promised her that I’d leave and not come back. The gates are opened for us. Now that I’m back, things are going to be much worse for me. I’ve made some decisions that I can take back and to make matters worse, Rayne isn’t even here with me. It doesn’t matter though. I don’t regret anything so with Alaska. I don’t regret the partnership I lost with her pack. It would have been beneficial to us yes, but we can manage on our own. Besides, it was never going to be a true alliance. Our packs would never be joined. We would have a good relationship, but that’s about it.I don’t really need them. As soon as the carriage stops in front of the doors, I spot Veron
RayneI haven't stopped thinking about Max, not for a second. It has been a week since I last saw him. I thought it would get easier as the days went by but the opposite has happened. I feel more desperate. I think about him more. He's in my dreams and nightmares, and in the latter, he's dying or hurt and I have no way to help him. I wake up sweating and with his name dangling from the tip of my tongue.It’s been torture. I don’t have it in me to cry, not when I’m the one who sent him away. I sent him away because it felt like the right thing to do. He still betrayed my trust. Whenever I think about him and Alaska kissing in his room, I feel sickened. How am I supposed to forget that? How am I supposed to ignore how he made me feel?Does that make me weak? I know what Denise says. She says to hell with everything and especially with the past. It doesn’t matter because neither of us had feelings for each other before. But now, things are different. Now, we’ve acknowledged our feelin
MaximusI'm informed that a few carriages from GrayLeaf have arrived. Veronica is nervous about this. She's pacing my bedroom floor and muttering under her breath, which is sincerely starting to get on my nerves. I don't need this unnecessary stress, especially when I'll have to deal with Albert in a few hours. Their father was supposed to come to see me but it seems he was called elsewhere. Albert is coming in his place along with a few people. He and I haven't spoken since I confessed my feelings for Rayne, and so I'm sure this visit is going to be anything but friendly. "I can't believe you're just sitting there," Veronica says angrily. "They're right downstairs and you're not going to do anything about it!?""I'd like to remind you that I'm the Alpha of this pack and not you," I say, turning to her. "I don't have to run to GrayLeaf when they call. I will finish what I have to do and then I'll attend to them. And. Only. Then. If you don't like the way I deal with things, you can
Rayne"Just how long are they going to keep us here," Denise complains. "It's starting to get cold and I feel like some beggar, begging to get into the House!""They'll open the gates for us soon," I tell her patiently. This is her twentieth complaint. "Max is probably just busy. Or...doesn't want to see me.""Don't be ridiculous. I've taught you better than that."Despite what she says, I'm still nervous. I did ask him to leave, after all. I showed him no sympathy or love. Who's to say he didn't grow tired of me on his way here? It's been almost two weeks since he paid me the visit, after all. Denise sighs. "If he's moved on, I'll be the one to drag you back to your father's pack myself. It means it wasn't meant to be and he's the worst kind of person to exist."The interior of the carriage is starting to get stuffy and I'm suffocated. I can't breathe in here. I open the door and climb down from it. Denise doesn't protest. Outside, it's much colder, but I feel better. I take in a fe
RayneThings have never been more perfect.This is the happiest moment of my life. I don’t recall ever being this content with the course of my life. For many years, I would spend nights away daydreaming about a better life. I would ask myself when things would turn out well for me or even if they ever would. My disappointment would be bigger in the morning when I realized that nothing changed and I spent the night awake and would have to clean despite my exhaustion. But now, things have changed enormously for me. I never thought I’d be this happy, and every day that passes, I’m thankful for the decision I made. I’ll never stop saying it. My pride and fear nearly stopped me from having the best time of my life. I almost crumbled her own happiness in my hands. I’m glad that’s way behind me. I’ve been back for around five days but it feels like I’ve been here longer than that. We haven’t been bothered our disturbed. Our happiness has been uninterrupted up until this point. It feels l
RayneI’m still thinking about my encounter with Veronica hours later. She and Max are in his room right now, and I don’t want to interrupt them so I’m with Denise in hers. It’s been some days since we properly spoke and so since I’m not with Max, it’s easy for me to talk to her. However, it doesn’t take long before she notices that something is off about me. I really didn’t mean to zone off and not hear what she was saying but I can’t get my mind off that encounter. “Tell me,” she says. And so, I tell her what happened out in the garden. I also specify that I don’t know why it bothered me so much that she looked at me that way. I still don’t. It’s just a bad feeling that I can’t explain. Denise nods, barely surprised. “It’s your sixth sense tingling. You’re finally starting to realize that she’s a snake after all.”I shake my head. “You forget that I’m wearing her mother’s coat. I don’t know what emotional history she has with it. Maybe she just didn’t like the fact that I was we
MaxAccording to Veronica, Alaska doesn't want to terminate the pregnancy. She assured me earlier when we spoke that she tried to do everything in her power to convince her but she's stubborn about it, which, if I have to be honest with myself, doesn't make much sense. I don't see why Alaska would stoop this low. She's always been prideful. I never thought she would employ such tactics in hopes to get me to make her Luna. Just how badly is her family pressurizing her?Veronica didn't have any advice for me. She knows I won't ever agree to something as preposterous as what they’re offering me. Now that Rayne is here with me, I don’t intend to lose her. I’m not going to give Alaska a fake title simply because of this. I do feel bad; deep down, there is a part of me that wants to take responsibility and do what’s right. But my love for Rayne overshadows everything. That’s why instead of ‘honoring’ Alaska the way they all expect me to, I’m going to throw the party to reintroduce Rayne
RayneTomorrow is the night of the party that will be thrown in my honor. Frankly, I still think it’s completely unnecessary even though basically everyone is convincing me that it’s a wonderful idea and a great way to incorporate me into the pack. Maybe the reason why I’m so hesitant is because I don’t know how I’m going to act. The last time I went to a large gathering, I was burned with soup. Thankfully, all those wounds eventually faded but the emotional one hasn’t scarred yet. It’s still fresh in my mind. I won’t even mention the first ever one I attended, which was my own mating. Walking through the large crowd of people, unsure why, afraid to disobey orders. I do realize that if I’d done things differently, I wouldn’t have been in this position. If I’d told Max at the altar that something was wrong and that I wasn’t Alaska, things wouldn’t have gotten to this point But thinking about this feels wrong because of how happy we are now. If I had to talk about it, I’d say that t